2010 is cominggg

morningggg!
i jus wake up.
& im late for meeting bb alr.
but still i got th mood to blog. dunno why!
laughs.

okaey luhs.
after meet bb den meetmy clique .
mayb going vivo or whatsoever.
i also dunno!
wondering what should i wear lahhhhhh.
no more killer heels! im lazzy to wear heels anymore!
not like th past.

later go dig my wardrobe alrrr .
im so looking forward for 2010.
perhaps is jus a new year. but to me its not okaey!
is somthing special!
LOL.

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
wants to club tonight.
but comfirm pack one.
so see how situation luhsss!

i got a dream agnnnn !
also similar to bb leavingg me .
wtf.
i dunno why i keep haviing all these kind of dream can?!
so scuks!
i jus hope all my dreams are not coming true.
this dream bb&curly go missing somemore sia!
fcuk.

okaey luh.
preparing le. late liiaooooo !
LOVES

L-ove You

Hello people!
im back home!
is really tiringgggggggg.

A fcuking slacking day today!
& my money left with 6bucks!
how pathetic :(
damn poor nowwww!
have to fan abt my fone bill later on!
i donwan to get him into trouble so i paid my bills every month.
wth! alot of probs lah. i needdd moneyyyy!
alr stop shopping for very long like a week alr.
damn saddddd :(
now not like lasttime everyday online shopping.
once or twice a month. :(
controlllllllll :x

IM SLEEPY NOW! VERY SLEEPY.
bbiloveyou.
<3

later after 12am is 2010 alrrrr!
A NEW BEGINNING WILL STARTS TMRRR!
right b?
LOL.
shhh. secret !

010110 COOL UH!
counting down tmr with clique.
but afternoon if possible den meet b.
see how lo. i sibei tired plus lazy can!

k lah. tired le.
night.
so long don have happy post like today. else is those attitude post.

sorry bb, jus now attitude u agn.
LAUGHS.
BUT NOW OK LE.
don make me attitude u back.


ilovethwaywearenow.
hopehoneymoonperiodwillbelongerrrrrrr .
laughs.
thankyoubbforalwaysgivinginwhenialwaysventangeronyou!
thankyouforgiviingmethstrengthtoholdon.
&hopeeverythingreallyend.
&iloveyoubb

tata
im trying to bbe th perfect one u wanted me to be.

Fcuk Bad Dream

Wtffffzx.
total 3 days 11hrs sleep onlyyy.
today 4 hrs.
i dunno whats wrong lah. but i cant get to sleep.

bcos i got a bad dream !
wtfffzx!
was sleeping at 5am like that.
den woke up at 7am to call b.
after that sleep back & fcuk dreamt till scary manzx!
i dream you like both of my bestfriend.
is like so wth right?
sooo . . . . one lor.
& its so real.
hope what u promise u will do it.
hope u wont lie to me.
when i woke up is 9am plus.
i cant get to sleep. everytime when i close my eyes i see th images or u & them.
b, prove it to everyone. u're not lying.
okieeeeee ?

when i dreamt of all this i woke up & think of u.
all i want is you to tok to me.
to calm me down.
& yes, you did it.
thanks b.

loveyouuu .
im going to sortthings out.
but im scared.
i really dunno what to say anymore.
but jus hope everything will have a ending!

:D
tata. going prepare.
loves

Sssss-orry

yes, im having moodswing.
or can say almost everynight.
when i heard lil things i don like.
& i'll start to imagine nonsense!
is really like so WHAT THE FUCK!

when can i stop my swinging.

im sorry that you always have to tolerate my nonsense.
& thanks for not adding probs on my probs
<3

i donno what happen.
but when i heard things,
i jus don feel good.
or can say, im upset.

very easily atttude becos of someone.
i wonder why.
mayb i care too much alr.

fuck everything.
i donwanna care.
i jus wanna hold on with what i have now & never let go.
as long as i still have th courage & strength to do so.
im holding on...
hope u do so.

im damn tired nowwwww.~
my eyes is closing soon!
& yeah, my parents is backk !
loveeeitla.
im not alone alrrr .

my bro keep toking abt th trip. & is pissing me off.
my dad bought all th expensive stuff for him.
even a phone!
wtf. i donwanna show that im jealous but he kip hao lian to me.
fcuk lah.
i dunnid anything.


tata.
lovebb.
night

Rrrrrrrr-andom

im home today.
nvr go out. but mayb later on.
im very lazy to prepare now.
nua onn th bed. lol..
sorry girls. meet u all at night..

gettiing more & more sick
i think bcs i nvr takecare of myself.
i fucking does'nt have th mood to do so.
i dunno why
still can eat chips!
cough tll can pull my lungs out manzx.!

i dunno why having moodswing agan.
not feeling goood.
sorry, i attitude.
but i jus don like everything thats happening.
im scared, worried.
you'll leave.
i want to stick like a glue together & not me leaving , u leaving or blahblah!
alot of things suddenly came to my mind.
& i hate it so much.

sorry tht i attitude u.
thanks for noe-ing that when i moodswing u siam!
...
jus let me think alone.
thankyou.



loveyoub.
donworry

you know im so pissedddd offfff withhh somebodyyyy
i nvr even fyucking treat u lik a fool.
i once love u so much bfore.
i once given iin so much.
this lil favour & u say i treat u like a fool!
I THINK TH REAL FOOL IS ME!!?!!!!!!
FOR GIVING IN SO MUCH.
spending so much.
u can nvr return th rest or ur life ok!
i nvr ask u to out tattoo of my nme.
tat u urself wanna put.
i paid for ur tattoo & th money u also nvr return.
i also LL. ur bike all this also.
i diamdiam alr. den now what u say to me is this fucktard rubbish.
THANKS FOR MOVING ON!
I LIKE IT.

Sleepless Night!

alr been 2 days & i only slept 7hrs.

ii cant get to sleep..

everytime when i close my eyes things you said keep goiing thru my mind.

who is going to understand me when i tried to understand someone else?!

do you i alr tried my best to follow what u told me.

but sumthings jus rrreally to hard to me to do it.

every step i take i haave to think of you.

think of how u feel.

den whose going to think of how i feel.?!

please dont pull me down

IM TIRED TIRED OF EVERYTHING.

whats th next step i can walk?

to stop or to contnue?

or to even bang wall?

should i leave this place?

i alr tried my very best to do th best i can.

but things dosen seems to work.

perhaps im too useless!

everything jus don go right.

or this is what a bitch shld deserve?

den serve me right den.

fuck it.

at times i feel like giving up.

carrying everything alone.

tired of all this misunderstanding.

but how can i give up when i dun even noe how?

jus trying to be stronger will helps.

ii got this feeeling.

IM FAINTING SOON.

i dunno why.

but, iloveyou.

sorry for my serious attitude prob now!

or today.

but im having mood swing!

LOVES

loveyouloveyou

hello..
i nvr sleep from yst.
only like a few hours.
very tireddd , but i cant get to sleep.
i dunno whats going on.
everytime when i close my eyes i think of those thing you said.
its hurt, but i have to accept it.
cus you're my friend.

i've got no other choice.
but trying my best to follow what you want me to do.
but this is really killing me.
i know is part of my fault.
i have got no rights to comment.

once feeling is fade,
no matter how hard you want it to be back.
it wont be anymore.
if you love, let go.
if you love, blessing is th only thing you can do.
but not holding back somthing that can nvr return.

yes my fault for falling for th wrong person.
but things is beyond our control.
you cant control who u wanna like.
things jus happen too fast.
i don even have th time to think back.
whats going on with me.

i hate to lie.
i don wish to lie.
i dunno what to do.
& tell me whats our next step?

its really tiring continue this kinda thing.
but its even tiring for me to let go.

EVEN IF I LET GO , WILL YOU LET GO OF ME?
IF I DISAPPEAR WILL YOU IGNORE?

things ain'nt that simple as you think.
u're too naive alr.
dont put so much confident in everything.
cus disappointment will really be alott.

im not working for now.
holzzz for myself.

back to blog tonight.


loveyoub)):
yawnssssss.
take a nap uhs.
& see a doctor later on..




MISSED

Move On

text-ed me just now.
told me to return those things back to you.

outside your house.
now, thngs bcome diff.
used to be outside MINE house.
& now.
is not .

deres good & bad.
its good that becus this really shows that YOU PUT EVERYTHING DOWN.
you alr MOVE ON. .
hope u're happy with what u have now.
but i dunno why do i feel so fuck up.
i knoe i takes thing for granted.
but i jus don like this.

as if, i dump you.
but u live even happier dhen me.
MUCH MORE HAPPIER THEN ME.
why cant i be like you?

why cant i live even much more happiier den you?
i want to!

but i cant.
probs one after another.

PERHAPS I REALLY DIG OUT ALL YOUR THINGS.
& give you back.
NOW ALR NO POINT.
thinking about it.
2yrs so what?
EVERYONE IS MOVING ON.
no forever.

MEMORIES I WILL TRY TO ERASE IT ALL!
you gain everything. you lost nothing.

BUT ME?
I GIVEN EVERYTHING.
& NOW I LOST EVERYTHING.
you won.


lets draw a clearer line now.
from now on, i wont be worried abt are u fine, are u moving on. are u happy with ur life.
from now on, i don care. is your life.
takecare

lovessssss .

<3

Hello everyone.
im back from my overseas trip!
got miss me?
sure got right? lol


erm. went to shandong & shanghai.
was damn fcuking cold till im sick now!
my face are damn dry till my skin painpain.
was around -2-9 degree.
damn cold lah.

pictures will upload tonioght or when im free.
ok,
im ggoint out. update agn
going out now.



i dunno how to face everything now.
i jus feel like hiding & nvr come out.
its hard for me to face th truth.
i cant control what i want it to be.
i can only go with th flows.
im sorry very sorry.

i jus wanna runaway.


to somewhere farfar .



Loves.
bye

isthisthend?

once again, ended.
once again, you hurt me.
once again i believe alll th lies u said.
once again, i fall in to th trap.
thanks all my friends for pulling me up.

but still th wound is dere..
this time its really really over.
yes, u're really drawing a very clear line now.
deleting me in fb &whatsoever.
i nvr blame u at all.
jus blame me on my stupidness. idiotic.*sillyness
to beleieve u really loves me.

but now. everything was a lie.
your kisses does'nt count.
i dunnid empty promises.
& yes, i waken up.
ALL THH HAPPY MOMENTS U GAVE WAS A LIE!
its all a trap.
all th words u said does'nt count.
th promises u made. over.

i will take it as im too stupid for th past few days.
i will be clever from now on.



everything happened too fast.
i think things are like speeding so quickly till i have no time to think
whats true.

& now,
i notice. is all a dream

GOODBYE.
takegoodcare.
& u'll live on happily ever after.



thankyou for hurting once agn.
bye



flying off in a hour time.
nvr sleep.
& smk 20+ sticks in less den 3 hrs.
my hand even turn yellow & i dunno why.
drink &almost drunk.
but sstill alright now.
all i can do is to stay awake & numb myself.
when i come back, i wann myself to change
to be a better me.

all th memories stays **

learnt my lesson

i jus wake up.
sleep at 7 & wake up so early.
total woke up 5 times.
8.15, 9.30, 1.10, 2.20 & now.
i dunno why so many time.

everytime i woke up reply msg den go sleep.
&& everytime when i woke up.
th only thing that flash thru my mind is ....
what u did to me & how you did to her.
oh fuck, thats killing.

i really cant imagne. u actually did dis.
even if u're drunk so what?
what if you put urself in my place.
how would u feel.
im not that stupid to let u hurt me anymor.
i alr lost everything.
u made me sttarting to believe everything u said.
& this happen.
& th person is noot others is .......
so given up alr.
will crying heal?
been ccryin everytime i wake up.
but dat dosen heal at all.
?
oh fck im going overseas. but do u thiink in this state i can enjoy dere?

OK JUS BLAME IT ON MYSELF FOR BEING RETARDED.
A IDIOT.
A STUPID FOOL..




i have learnt.
im learnin to fall & to stannd up on my own.
tings wont repeat aggn.

minyee let go alright.
u caan do it.
this thing jus started ,
so let it go.
youuu cannnnn!!!!!!
GIVE UP.
GIVE BACK TO TH PERSON THAT BELLONGS.
CUS IN TH FIRST PLACE IS NOT MINE!
BELONGS TO SOMEONE ELSE.

BYE

fcukingmessedup

IM GOING OFF TMR MORNING.
CN U LET ME ENJOY?
can u not make me fan? can you not say all this kind of thing to make me feel softhearted.
i dontwant.

even if i forgive u, things wont be th same anymore,
i've said, once hurt, once cried. over ....
th most i cn be, is only ur frend.
i want nothing to come back.

MINYEE PLEASE HANG ON!
U'RE WALKING TH WRONG PATH.
PLEASE GO BACK TO TH PLACE YOU BELONG.
PLEASE GO BACK TO TH RIGHT PATH!!
this is not th right place i shld come.
THIS TIME IM WRONG.
IM WRONG.
FCUK ME,. IM FCUKIN WRONG

i shall only hope everything will be over.
& everything shall be fine when im back.
m freakng tired of all this.
IM TIRED, but i cant get to sleep.
tell me why bcus of this i cant sleep?
whats wrong with me?
i don even dare to think.
m i insane? m i mad?
what does not belongs to me i cant have it,
cus in th first place im not th right choice..
im not th first choice.

IM NOTHING. JUS A TOY.

im going to tell myself,
to be stronger.
to learn to control feelings.
& not to have this anymore.

LEARNT MY LESSON.

takecare.
& forget me.

LEAVE ME IF YOU LOVE ME.

im damn fcuking bad mood now!
fcuking angry, pissed, sad, fan!
SO DONT DISTURB ME!
DON IRRITATE ME!

work today. was very happy all th way till
something very bad happens.
till something i heard .

drink,drank,drunk.
SLACK till 3+ cabbd home.

tmr packing my things. i jus wanna leave this place badly.
HATE STAYING HERE.
I WANNA RUN AWAY FROM EVERYTHING OUT DERE~


.
back in 8 days, so friends, mus miss me ok. ((:
present for u all horrrrr .


ok im getting tired now.
thing happen too fast.
& totally disappointed.
i trust my feelings.
what i believe is true.
yes, im stupid.
you win th game, fool ard with me.
im hurt , & everything is over .
u can nvr gain back my trust ever agn..
once broken consider sold.
what i have to say, alr told u.
im not th right one.
so leave me alone.
( if u love me)
LEAVE ME ALONE.

i need some peace. i need some time to think abt what m i actually doing.
u;re not th one.
he is!
things that i heard i believe.
so yes, is damn fucking hurt.
yup, so once i cried.
ITS OVER .!


&& so .
goodluck & goodbye.
takaire.



NIGHTS PPPL.
LOVEYOUALL.
*those hu're really dere for me* lovelove


NO LONGER TRUST.

thanks for being dere at th right time whenever i need you.
thanks for having th time to text me.
to console me, to cheer me up.
you takaire inside k.
(:
willmissyou.
tata.

freakoout

jus came back from powerhouse with py.
actually went with bbjie&py. but bbjie nvr bring ic. den cabbed back lor.
sorry wor. nextyme i bring u go agn ok? (:(: cheers.

quee for th drinks till 2hr plus.
fcuk it manzx.
den by then alr 2+ le.
so jus dance awhile till close
den cabbed home.

damn tired.
tmr work.
sun to fri straight.
SIANNNNNN .


ok luhs. wanna orhorh le.
all my darlings, don worry abt me le.
im fine, but random .

& filled with damn lots of secrets & blahblah with me.
dhat i cant even dare to think or to tok abt it.
i dont even dare to admit .

im wrong.
im very wrong.

goodnight

fcukitallup.

i really dont know whats going on with me.
i think im going back to th past.
doing silly things.

randomly.
alot of things just flash thru my mind.
alotalot of things that i, myself cant believe .
been thinkng alot lately.
think my white hair is really coming all out.
fuck everything.

nowadays,
i kept so much so much secret in myself.
noone knows, nobody will get th chance to know.
i dunno how to explaint. how to solve it .
i hope time will heal it all.
freak. im sick of it.

why is dere so much prob this yer? from e beginning till e end.
when can all this end?
i know my post is fcuking emotional.
but i don like it too.
where else can i vent my anger & sadness to?
i got nowhere to go, nothing to do.

treating myself badly.
like a punchng bag, like a idiot.
sorry for those who cares, but i dunno whats wrong with me.
i dunno whats all this called.

i wanna go overseas asap.
i cant stay here anymore.
IT REALLY TIRED.
let me runaway for a while please.!

kaes.
im tired. wanna slp.
night .



powerhouse tmr.
whowannago?

I REALLY DONT KNOW WHATS THIS FEELING CALLED.
i dont even wanna noe.
i donwanna face myself.
face th fucking truth.

SO FUCK IT

Totally Screwed !

im back to blog people :D
loveyayayayayay (:

nowadays been workingg.
sun to fri.
summore been going bck home 5am plus.
is killing me & dragging me to work.
agrh , IM REALLY TIRED;
but sat flying off le. so friday will be busy i guess .

hais .
everything still th same.
work , slack, pool & whatever .
everything jus sucks to th max.
& u noe im not happy.
im guilty .
& vexed.

i wanna go powerhouse .
bfore i fly flyfly .
:(
who wants to follow?
i wanna drink till drunkdrunkdrunk.
hu wanna make me drunk .
LOl.

k luhs
very sleepy le wanna orhorh.
nght



:((
i hate to lie.
i hate myself for lie-ing.
fuck me im guilty.
but no matter what ,
i really dont want tthis to happen?
& why isit me? & why mus this happen to me?
im having fcuking lots of prob.
from top to toe from $$ to r/s
fuck everything.
IM TOTALLY FCUKING TIRED OF ALL THIS.
hate me for all u want.

*****
imissyouimissyou;
no reply .
nothing .
guess u're busy or im fan.
whatever shit.
i jus cant stop thinkiing.

fuck it .




you know . . . .
SOMEHOW , imissthpast - being with you.
SOMEHOW. imissthhappiness - spending with you
SOMEHOW , imisseverything - we've enjoy together .

but everything is over .
& i choose to let go.
soo minyee, please dont regret!
u fcuking dont have th rights to do so.

BYE

Disappointment

i wont be uploading much here ;
i have my own privacy & private place to blog
& no one will knw .

cus i alr noe where do i stand.
how important im in everyone eyes .
& cant b trusted ;

i'll try to get a life .
to be a better person .
to fall & learn more ;

cus i have to learn to become more & more independent .
cus everyone thinks that i can do it.
but they dunno that IM REALLY TIRED being strong .

how i wish i can cry infront of my parents my friends.
but i cant ;


im strong .
im a big girl now.
i wont cry.
im learning how to become a better person.
how to have new friends.
& how to go in to new enviroment ;

as ppl says ;
what are th friends tat u think is worth to keep u keep'
if u think is not worth , slowly throw them away .
so i'll try to do it this way.

friends are not for enjoying , shopping, playing. joking, drinking.
they are not true friends! they are jus friends to enjoy life.

true friends are, when u cry they comfort u, be there for u no matter how busy they are;
they will nvr neglect u, forget u.
& when u have difficulty they'll hlp u;
celebrate & treat u go out on ur big day ;
understand u well when u don have to speak.
they noe u're angry or not .
even if quarrel also after a night will be settled.
no matter hw many probs u have, they will be dere for u.
these are friends.!
this friends i'll keep .
th rest i'll slowly let go.

no matter how close i can be.
but forever we wont be like lastyme.

byebye

whatever

whatever shit it is.
im tired .

if wanna end den jus end this.
if u're right den u're right.
if im wrong den im wrong.

so i don giv any damn to this anymore.
so whatever ;

wanna tok jus tok.
donwanna tok den don tok.
i don mind alr .






once broken, nvr will it have a chance to mend it back.
dere wiill always be something blocking.

tired of explaining.
think of what u wanna think
out urself in to ppl shoes.



ANYWAY I DONT CARE ANYMORE.
& WHAT FOR TO CARE SO MUCH?

do whatever u like noone will stop u.


SINCE ppl are saying is not right to rant on my blog.
SO FROM NOW ON
I'LL STOP BLOGGING !

till my feelings settled down .
I SHALL LEAVE THIS BLOG DEAD

NO MORE DALY LIFES.
NO MOREEEE !

i will not let anyone understand me anymore ;
close up everything .

goodbye.

&imissyousomuch.

& what a unhappy birthday
& i hate 18 bufday.
it smell shits to me!

K BYE .
NOT HAPPY AT ALL.

BITTER BITTER INSIDE

fcuk th world.

im tiredd
so sickening.
i guess i'll work everyday.
i donwan any off day anymore.
cus off days seems to be wassting & sucky!
i hate everything so much & to th max.

judge for all u want.
i don mind.
to everyone .
im unreasonable.
irresposible
bitch
slut
liar
betrayer
fcuker
sucker
anti social
fierce
attitude
.

ok whatever .
if u think im den im
unless u really noe me.

I ALR DON CARE WHAT OTHERS ARE GOING TO SAY.
side her for all u guys want.
hahaha.

IM NOTHING.

fcuk bloody bufday.
I DON LOOK FORWARD AT ALL!
cus no one is true


everythngs seems so unfair.
its non of everyone business.
is mine prob .
so let me be .

if u think im huftful in words so be it.
BUT YOU'RE HURTFUL IN YOUR ACTIONS .
in everyway.

YES I HURT YOU.
sowhatthbigfcuk?
thatdoes'ntmeanthatudonhurtme.





IM NOT GOING OUT ANYMORE;
given sumone face, den im going out on someday.

sickenning!

go ahead & rants ;
go ahead & say about it.
go ahead , since everyone think is my fault.


SO WHAT FOR TO EXPLAIN SO MUCH?
DEN JUS LEAVE.

goodnight.
byebye.
lost trust.
hope
& everything.
nooneinthisworldistrue.






*I think i need a bf now;
im not suitaable being with friends*
omg. that fucking hurt .
you can might as well kill me now.
WTF. cries

Fcuk you

im staying at home for th whole day till now.
woke up at 3, rot on th bed.
watch drama. do my nails.
maybe im going out to have my dinner alone later on.
ima so hungry now,
i donwant to see people that really spoil my mood.
so i donwanna go out.
& w/out me everyone still th same.
dere won be chnges.
w/out me everyone still very happy.
so deres no need for me to go.

better staying at home.
resting.
or MIA-ing?
ok whatever.
jus hope on th 6dec i'll get drunk.
&7dec people will fall down.
& not to see that fcuk face.

you win th game.
you've got everything.
i gain nothing.
RIGHT?

in the end,
still no chnce to catch new moon.
stll noone to watch wit me.
& still people are all enjoying outdere.

EMPTY PROMISES.

if u think im making it worst so be it.
this is my blog.
i jus wanna write how i feel.
if you dont like i can set it private .
satisfied ?

you always have nothing to say.
nothing to tok tu me.
we are strangers .

want plan donwan plan up to you.
you've gain alot.
everybody comfirm side you.
cus ppl wll think youre always th innocent & weak one.
& im always th wicked one.
get it?!



once over forever over
oh yah.
& i thiink its time i shld get a new one.
so i wont be that lonely.
cus ppl dosen appreacieate me

You'll enjoy life w/out me ;

fcuk ;
damn pissed .
i wonder whats going on.
many things jus pop out in my mind.
i don feel good at all at all!
why do ppl always gives me all th fcuks!

i hate it i hate it i hate it so much!
she's not weak at all.
don have to protect her .
;
freak

i wasted so many days for not working.
WASTED.
thought wed was a day for new moon.
budden a wasted day ;
thought friday a day for new moon & medicure.
but i think another wasted day.
i hate to go town;
hate to go shopping & not for my things.
i donwant to spend money.
though is window, but i cant ;
i hate window shopping.!
i hate ion! i hate everything.
i havent even paid my debts.
my bills .
my overseas trip.
my medicure
my bday thing.
fcuk everything. & i freaking waste th money on shopping?
i hate shopping .
esp my fone bill.
been many months since i owe alr.
&& im going to study. not working.
where m i getting th fcuking money if i don get to save now?!

i jus feel like ending everything & runaway!
i feel like no one is dere for me.
nobody noes when im crying.
fcuk things up!

freaking moodswing.
IM NOT HAPPY .
SERIOUS IM NOT!

you gave shit to me ,
& still you can smile happily.
fcuklanbcb.
den i giv u back all yoor freak shit !
you know this sucks! sucks to th max.
so many wasted years!
so now i'll find my news ones & throw th fcuk old ones away!
i've got nothing to tok to say to text with you.
SINCE you dunno what to say to me ;
so whatever ;
& you still seems to be very happy or even more happier when in this state.
oh yah, i forgotten.
super glue .
sorry lor, IM NOT YOUR HAPPY PILLS.! CHANGE PPL LIAO!
freak fcuk shit .
tired of giving in.
its lost .
& over .

once broken considered dead ;

3more days to my bufday'
& nw its dead .
not looking forward for anything.
i jus wanna get drunk .
everything is killing me .
bit by bit ;

went to airport today send manyu ;
den peopye den hg plaza for pool.
den cabbed home.
BORED IS TH ONLY WORD TO DESCRIBE.
TOTALLY NO MOOD ;

hais.

tmr another fcuk day.
another WASTED day.
i need $$$$$ & not spending $$$
not going for th fcuking cb movie.
EVEN IF IM GOING.
I WILL GO WATCH ALONE.
HAPPPY? NOW IM NOT MAFAN.
WHAT I WANNA DO. I WILL DO IT ALONE WITHOUT ASKING ANYONE.
also going bugis for nails tmr.

FROM NOW ON,
AFTERWORK IF PPL NOT FREE OR WHAT I WILL GO HOME.
I WANT GO OUT ALL, PPL NOT FREE DEN I GO ALONE.
SHOPPING ALSO CAN GO ALONE.
I CAN DO EVERYTHING ALONE ;
BYMYSELF.


things still go back to th same square ;
without boyfriend
IM RREAALLLYY ALONE!
i knew it. this days wud come.

BYE .
don tok about it.
damn no mood....
wants to cry out loud.
wants to scream!
wants to get high.
wants to drink.
wants to die
wants to forget everything

IM TIREDD

random - -

viewing my lastime post agn ;X
when im being with V*****t
erm. loveshimbutyetsofast ;
now turn back & read . im really like a fool!
hahah. damn it. CHILDISH!

being random today ;
cried for nothing .
agrh , whatever freaking shit ;

im damn pissed off.
my bufday is coming in 4 days .
im not happy AT ALL! AT ALL YOU KNOW ;
noone is putting effort in everything ;.
esp you .
damn disappointing .
all you gave is emtpy promises.
empty shitty .
&& can simply forget me .
can simply neglect me ;
so i'll try to forget you too , do you want this?
u noe my character .
what goes ard comes ard .
i'll giv u whatever shit when u given me shit
i alr lost hope in yuu.
cus lies & disappointment is all aard.
lastime we used to share thoughts.
wad about now , you don even need me anymore;
even if u have any probs i wont be th first to noe.
cus im not important ;
im always th extra ones that ppl always neglect;
im not th main lead.
so fcuk it .
everyone can forget bout me.
but not u.
when new one comes u throw old ones away;
so one day, i'll let u noe this feeling if you want to ;

what are true friends?
i doubt is not you!




went to ion today.
moodswing .
bought one top from newlook.
wallet fromf21
& dress from m&m

k bye
tmr work. need to wake up early.
tataaa

Success (:

very sleepy day for me agn ;

woke up at 8am?! lol.
i actually woke up myself ok! hahaa.
den meet wc&shasha at 9.30 at bustop.
took bus to tanjong pagar for our interview.:D

& yepp .
everything was nicely planned.
& yeah , going for classes . for a mth & off to outlet to start my work!
yeayea; got cert summore '
& daddy is giving me money cus im studying!
LOL.
relax& i likee ;
LOL.

my class starts 4 jan 2010
& going on th 29dec to sign my contract!
oh my .
im so scared to step in to that world '
lol.. im so scared of mistake .
hope everything goes smoothly.
so before i get more &more hardworking next year!
I WILL ENJOY MYSELF TO TH MAX FOR THIS MONTH ALRIGHT?!
lets club. lets play. lets stay out late!
lets enjoy tis holiday!
lets countdown for 2010! yeah!

from next year onwards must guaiguai go classes.
no such thing as pon , mc, kei siao sick or whatever .
cus i wanna finish my classes, my 3 mths probation!
&& i got more more money!
LOL

ok stop this topic.

after interview, went to have lunch & trained to work!
ard 3pm. wc acompany me & stufffff ;
after work bussed home!
(whole day only took one time cabbed) COOL.
LOL
after rch home. dad bring us go chompchomp eat stingray!
i likeilike!
lol..
& i want chilli crabs!
TEEHEE ;

ok tmr my off day.
out to town.
tata




imissyouimissyouimissyou.
whywhywhywhy?
whereareyou?!
howhaveyoubeen?
doyoufeelthsamewayido?

freak ;

tired tired tired.

of
work
earning
loving
missing
argue-ing
learning
living!

everything .
goodnight.
work agn tmr

You'll Regret!

somtimes being together does'nt mean that you & your boyf must stick together day & night!
in his world deres only you, & in your worlds deres only him!
you've to make things clear as in.
you mus have th time for yours families & friends & him.
you have to arraged your time for all these , else everything will be too late ;
& sure, you;re gonna regret i tell you!

for eg now , u've hav a boyf.
you can totally neglect your friends;
or even if u with ur friends u bring your bf along.
wtf!
why mus th both of u stick so close to each other?
witout meeting a day will kill?
will it?

let me tell you this.
once he cheated on you .
once he leave you .
from that time onwards ,
you will notice , you've lost alottt .
friends & familes are slowly drifting apart from you .
you can try if you don't belive!
yes boyf is important ;
den what abt friends? that u;ve noe for years?
jus bcos of a bastard , u put aeroplane .
don blame me for saying this ok!
what comes ard goes ard.
when u're alone den u find me.
when ur boyf busy den find me.
let me tell you ;
when he leaves you ( as i don believe in forever )
don come to me & ask me acompany you,
don come to me & ask me go out.
i fcuking hack care you're alone or what!
jus freaking get off ;

& let you know,
whats alone!
fcuk you ;
if u think is u, & yes is you ;

i seriously think nowadays young girls bcome more & more b!tchy yea?



off day.
went to do my hair alone at bugis dere;
den cabbed to tamp find wc.
den plaza for dinner.
& i kiip craving today.
was so wtf okaey!

till 3+ den cabbed home.
took alot of unglam pic.
upload all my overdue pic soon.
im so lazyy.
seriouslyy!~!!!



tmr im working.
so okok.
good night!
one more week!
party party!
bye

Candle-light ;

less den 10 days alr! omgomg.
wonder what are they planning? or everyone forgot?
aww shit .
i need a bufday dress badly ! but very budget!

havent even save for china trip.
online shopping these fews days!
please control minyee! no money okaey!

everything is like moneh moneh moneh!
fcuk up uh.
tmr im going to reborn my hair agn.
cui liao! summore i need medicure&pedi too!
aww ; so tight this mth also. dead shit i guess!
yea right! so fcuked!

yesterday went "play"
till ard 4+ den finish go home.
slp at ard 6.
work & after work headed to hg plaza for few rounds of pool den cabbed to rp tomeet my gfriends.
slack till 2+ daddy send us back :D

tmr my off day;
& you know what?!
im going out alone!
so what to do? im alone ;
too bad .

salon to reborn hair ;
maybie shop ard & aunty hus.
MAYBIE!


BUFDAY BUFDAY FASTER COME!
YEAH! I CANT WAIT U NOEEEEE :d:d:d:d:d:d


kk. nights.
tatats ;



alr been so long since we've last met ;
i do i do miss you so much .
i've lost confident, hope.
all i get is only disappointment ;
fcuk it.
byebye


WAITING FOR PEIYUN TO UPLOAD PICTURES! :D
BUT DUNNO WHEN IS SHE UPLOADING.
lol

Do We Look Like Strangers? :(

how i wish u wud say hello to me whenever i see you out dere ;
im not a idiot or someone u ask me to come & go.
im not gonna let pull&push anymore.
fcuk you! no matter how handsome you are your character scuks!
we knew each other for how long?
did u forget th memories we oncee enjoy lastyme?
did u forget school life?
did u forget whoes th one hu does everything for u?
wtfxzx! i had enuff ;
i noe is alr been veh long since we last contact ,
jus a smile or hi to ur old friend is wrong?
or u feel ashame?!
whatever ; i dunnid it naozx!


okaey ;
i wooke up at 1.30pm & work at 2pm at tamp,
damn shock! lucky got small bro cor me.
den quickly cabbed dwn , but still im late.
late shit .
whtever lah. till dec17 last day le.
care so much for wad fcuk !

after work cabbed home ( minyee machiam rich kip cabbed here&dere sommore all is over 10bucks one, cb)
LOL. den change& prepare
cabbed to hg plaza for pool till 2+ den lan tiill 4 den homed.
LOl.
tmr working at 4pmto11.30pm okaey! hell
MAYBE going club, not sure yet ;

hope can make it cus working till so late le sibei sian siak!

something makes me keep laughing non stop jus now.
for those who havent see .
ppls go see , th face book picuture
album is th jess bbq one ; see wanchin eat chicken wings!
LOL. lp comment sibei funny.
LOLLOLLOL!!

hahah.
k lah
goodnight!
i wan present.
so long no present.
every year no present.
LOL. whatever.

bye

wanchin cheer up :D:D:D