Fuckyou _I_

rot at home till 7pm plus den went out.
meet bb at pasir ris with germaine for dinner.
till 11.50pm took last bus back to hougang meet my girls~
pool-ed till 3+ den went bustop slack till 5+

bb pei me go back,
i changed & go slack till nearly 8am den reach home!
yawnnnns! very sleepppyyy now can?!?!?!
eyes closin luh!

not meeting bb today!
cus bb busy doing housechores & friends chalet.
hope bb will love me wholeheartly & not anyhowanyhow!
lolllllllll...
very sad luhs! nvr meet bb till sunday 2pm :(
gonna misss you like hell shit! :(
i love you!

& i alr sign my contract!
22feb start classes ..
sighs. not prepared yet luh dey!
still in th enjoying mood!
llollll..

3 weeks of lessson :(
9am to 6pm leh -.-'
at tanjong pagar sommore! far can?!?!

okaey luhs.
going sleep le.
nights!


imissyou so much my dearest bb
loveloveyou manymany can!
lol..
yeayes, my bb is treating better & better each day!
more & more sayang me!
& lovelove me!
everyday make me smile! make me laugh like siao!
not making me cry anymore! harhar!
muacks!


*i do have my own privacy & life.
you have no rights to know about it.
if u want ppl to respect you!
pls respect others first!
this is really pissing me offfff!
as a friend, this is'nt what you shld do :S.*

Happydays

HELLO IDIOT SHIT BABY!
HAHAHAH.

why u so long nvr msg me?
so late still havent text me har!
i want go sleep le luhs!
leave me a msg okaye? if not i will worry de hor!

bb, you can trust me & pour all th 100% le luhs!
i said, i only want you! but no one else alright (:
can don bully me le mah? cann auto abit anot?
hahahahs.
IM DAMN HAPPY!
happy th way you sayang me today. th way you make me laugh!
th way we di siao each other!
esp th AHEM AHEM thing that u say u nvr kiam meng! LOL.
thats really funny can?!
you can really make me laugh till cry luh bb!
i hope many many more more days ahead we can be like this!
laugh like nobody business (:
trust me, i will nvr leave you! nvr abandon you!
i will stay with you as long as you need me!
so now can treat me goodgood le hor!
lol. aiyah, you treat me not good also can de luh.
i used to it le . you don sayang me nvrmind de, i sayang you can le.
you don auto hughug me also nvm de luh. i auto hughug u lor! haha.

okaey luhs.
too happy type nonsense!
very nervous now!
going to sign my contract!
ONCE SIGN, NO MORE BCKING OUT!
22FEB! GOODBYE CLUB , GOODBYE NIGHTLIFE, GOODBYE SLACKING!
STUDY STUDY WORKWORK!
mus guai guai!
i hope this desicion i made is right!
MINYEE JIAYOU! STUDY HARDHARD!
everyone mus learn!!!!
& im not a child anymore!
so i have to depend on myself & not my parents!
okaey. i really have to sleep. else dunnid wake up le.! hahas

goodnight.
baby text me! im waiting. & i love youu lottts.
muackmuack!
missing you like one idiot here!


*my small bro alarm start ringing now, how to sleep? thats fucking kp can?!?! when he don even wanna wake up & closed it. f.it manzx! *

not worth?

i think everyone is th same .
when you wanted to get someone you love to love you back,
you'll normally treat them very very nice in th beginning.
pampered them, dote them & showw tthem how much you love them..
& yes, th person falls in to th trap & loves you back..
you'll change, slowly change. you yourself will not notice th changes you've made.
only th person that loves you notice that!
slowly slowly , you become impatience, bad tempered, not so loving & slowly all your true coloura will be out . . .
all th person that loves you can do is tolarate, continue loving.
& try to pampered or dote you more.

untill one day, th person that loves you go insane.
perhaps you'll regret, perhaps you wont?

is it that EVERYONE is like this?
i hope you're not. & pls tell me you're not.
iloveyoubb.

cant even get to sleep.
whenever i close my eyes all th things tht happen flashback.
th hurtful words u told me . . . . . .
yes, its kiliing me inside.
minyee, pls get over it! you can do it.
pls stop thinking!
stop thinkiing all th negative things.
pls don doubt bb love for me.
pls dont!

VERY UPSET.
BUT STLL IM TRYING ,
TRYING TO SMILE BACK

Never thought . . .

a very bad day with bb :(
& i nvr thought this wud be happening .

yes, this hurt! & is really hurting me so much!
though now i seems to be fine,
but when i think of it , is still hurt. very very!

till today, i notice how much i cant afford to lose you!
how much i need you in my life.
how much i want to be with you!

i don mind if u're not in a good mood. or even bad tempered.
i can keep quiet & tolerate!
but what really hurts me is when you said, if i cannot take it den let go.
f. thats really killing me inside.
i want to scream out.
i want to cry out.
i want to run
i wan to torture myself!
but not infront of you!
& yes, i ran!

do you know at that point of time.
im like dead shit!
i cannot let go. i donno how to.
& i don even want to!
i know you said this bcos u're angry!
& once u said, words cannot be taken back.
i cant imagine how life will be without you.!
i donno how m i going to go on.
i cant think of anything.
all my mind is blank!
&& th same quest came to my mind!
what m i going to do? how m i going to let go when i love you this much?
& i wipe off my tears & find you back

i hope this wud be th last time you're treating me like this.
no matter how tough, how xinku i will nvr ever want to let go.
not even a second baby!
please think of me when u said something.
ur words truely hurts me fucking lot!
i hope i can get over it.
im trying to smile, trying to be happy.

i shld be taking care of you.
be dere for you when u're sick
but i din...
i overslept & nvr pei u when u need me most.
i made u pekchek when u're sick.
mayb im too useless.
perhaps im not worth to.
not worth to have someone to dote & love me wholeheartly.

sometimes, blaming myself wud feel better!
sorry i break my promised today.
i don meant to hurt myself.
but ur words .. that makes me cannot take it.

baby, this shall be th lastime thngs happen like this ok?
next time when u not happy i jus try to make u happy.
next time if u don like i play with th ice i won play le ok.
i will be guaiguai infront of you.
sorry baby & illoveyou.

i might be happy now.
but im not. seriously IM NOT!

i want to club tmr.
who wants to go wth me?
i neeeedddd to drinkk & dance plsss!

:(( trying to smile .
lovebbnomatterwhat!!

our one mthsary jus pass like this!

what a unique one?!

went to work & after work bb came ,

bused to hg go see doctor as i have some probssss . . .

den bb came my hus , dramaaaa & slack till 7 den went to hg mall dere to bring bb go see doctor!

both of us like celebrating out anni at clinic sia! -.-'' i know is not a good thing. but damn cute can..

after that went to eat pasta & ate our med & slack awhile & me & bb cab home!

:(( short time together.

but i have to go home early & rest early bcos im sick & my daddy start naggin at me!

& now, bb is in pain. this really hurts me!

i dunno what else i can do.. other den comforting you!

i want you to go hospital with me yet you donwan! do u noe im really afraid something bad might happen!

im scared, very scared! i donwan bb to be like this.

please i beg u get well soon! see-ing you suffer lke this really break my heart!

syanggggggg *

where are you now? suddenly offline. do you know im very worried!

worried something bad might happen!

why are you like this! what m i suppose to do now?

afraid of everything now!

bb, pls get some rest! u need some rest!

what m i going to do?!!!!

fuck! i hate this so much! i hate myself for being so useless, cant even help you!

sighs!

time flies, its alr been a month plus!

we've been thru alot before we got together.

we must cherish each other. cherish all th moment we have!

only you, only you can colours my day!

& i want us to be like this till th end!

we will be having many many more anni ahead!

i don care who is going to disapprove!

i jus wanna be with you! even th world ends, i still wanna stick with you!

i don care what others are going to think abt me!

bcos i jus wanna be with you!

i love you my lovelove bb (:

please get well soon! i hope tmr everything will be fine for you!

rmb to remind each other to eat our medicine ok? (:

muackmuack! hughug.

goodnight

holdin on

HELLO BB

HAPPY ONE MONTHSARY (:(:
i love you !

im glad that i have you in my life.
going to love you with all my heart baby (:
what i promised you i wont break it.
what i said to you is all true.
yes, you are my only! my only one baby .
we still have long way to go.
many more more months to go.
no matter what we must go thru all obtacles together.
holding on to you, stickin with you. no matter what!
mayb from feb 22 onwards i might be busy with studies & work.
no matter how busy, we will still meet. even a 5 mins. i also happy (:
jus to see my bb, really brightened up my days.
lastly, you meant everything to me.
& ii love you.
nights.

:D:D hughug.
working in 4 hrs time!
how to sleep? :((((
muacks

Happy to have you in my life

im homed..
woke up ard 3+ rot at home till 6pm,
prepare & went for dinner with my family & aunt
afterthat went to kallang indoor stadium to watch zhanghuimei concert.
after that 12+ meet bb at hg interchange.
llet bb waited for me almost 1hr!
ohhhh sooooo sorry lovelove...
not i want to late de hor! muacks!

after that went to hg plaza meet my girls.
they l4d , & we pool.
denn pool for few rounds went to eat..
& cabbed to my hus dere.
slck awhile till 6+ den go home!
Lol.

tmr off. but not meeting bb till night time.
going bugis or town area tmr (:

countingdown.
less den 24hrs to think what m i suppose to get for bb??!!??!!
agrh...

i promised, i will nvr leave you.
i said it agn, i will nvr!
you brightened up my days,
thou u always make me pekchek,
but after awhile u make me smile back!
yes i love you!
i nvr thought that u will afraid that i might leave you.
nvr thought that u're afraid of losing me!
this really makes me happy.
i wont i wont leave you.
sayanggg* don scared ok?
i hope what u said is true.
& yes, you are my only.
lovelove.

hughug. waiting for my bb rch home online.
gtg drama first.
misssyouuuunaoo!!
muacks