Disappointment

i wont be uploading much here ;
i have my own privacy & private place to blog
& no one will knw .

cus i alr noe where do i stand.
how important im in everyone eyes .
& cant b trusted ;

i'll try to get a life .
to be a better person .
to fall & learn more ;

cus i have to learn to become more & more independent .
cus everyone thinks that i can do it.
but they dunno that IM REALLY TIRED being strong .

how i wish i can cry infront of my parents my friends.
but i cant ;


im strong .
im a big girl now.
i wont cry.
im learning how to become a better person.
how to have new friends.
& how to go in to new enviroment ;

as ppl says ;
what are th friends tat u think is worth to keep u keep'
if u think is not worth , slowly throw them away .
so i'll try to do it this way.

friends are not for enjoying , shopping, playing. joking, drinking.
they are not true friends! they are jus friends to enjoy life.

true friends are, when u cry they comfort u, be there for u no matter how busy they are;
they will nvr neglect u, forget u.
& when u have difficulty they'll hlp u;
celebrate & treat u go out on ur big day ;
understand u well when u don have to speak.
they noe u're angry or not .
even if quarrel also after a night will be settled.
no matter hw many probs u have, they will be dere for u.
these are friends.!
this friends i'll keep .
th rest i'll slowly let go.

no matter how close i can be.
but forever we wont be like lastyme.

byebye

whatever

whatever shit it is.
im tired .

if wanna end den jus end this.
if u're right den u're right.
if im wrong den im wrong.

so i don giv any damn to this anymore.
so whatever ;

wanna tok jus tok.
donwanna tok den don tok.
i don mind alr .






once broken, nvr will it have a chance to mend it back.
dere wiill always be something blocking.

tired of explaining.
think of what u wanna think
out urself in to ppl shoes.



ANYWAY I DONT CARE ANYMORE.
& WHAT FOR TO CARE SO MUCH?

do whatever u like noone will stop u.


SINCE ppl are saying is not right to rant on my blog.
SO FROM NOW ON
I'LL STOP BLOGGING !

till my feelings settled down .
I SHALL LEAVE THIS BLOG DEAD

NO MORE DALY LIFES.
NO MOREEEE !

i will not let anyone understand me anymore ;
close up everything .

goodbye.

&imissyousomuch.

& what a unhappy birthday
& i hate 18 bufday.
it smell shits to me!

K BYE .
NOT HAPPY AT ALL.