you said give u a new chance again..
you know i know but we acted blur..
ur chance is granted
& somehow i hope u wud cherish me.
this time round i wanna try to make things work..
but if i cant den i really think is time to let go.
i hope i will b able to do it..
i log in to ur msn jus nw..
she sent ALRIGHT THEN .. time is yst 4.12am?
I THOUGH U WAS ASLEEP?
i dunno or doneven want to think or what!
conversation is over..
i hope is over between th both of u..
LAST MEANS LAST!
THIS TIME ROUND IM SAYING TH TRUTH!
don let me caught anymore.
I SICK OF IT.
SERIOUSLY..
th time u need i given..
u said 2 days i grant u..
but u are th one hu text me...
saying that u think through it...
u said is over.. u only bother abt me.
now, i donwan u mouth say only..
i wan u to do it!
fucking do it for me.
IF U TRUELY NEED ME IN LIFE YOU WILL.!
I HOPE I DON PUT SO MUCH IN.
else disappointment again.
I HATE~
baby, u shld noe how much u meant to me.
u urself clearlys noe that i love u more den u love me..
life wud really be meaningless..
without u.
IF one day, i really have no choice but to let go..
i will wait till th day u really move on..
if u keep clinging back to her.
u will nvr have a life. unless u really want her back..
SOMEHOW I FUCKING FEEL LIKE A THIRD PARTY.
& tears eventually rolls out on it owns.
b, i beg you ..
not to lie or hurt me anymore...
make me feel loved & cherish.
thats all i need.
HUGS.
ate my med. getting giddy.
going to bed soon.
tata
I HOPE FOR THOSE WHO NOE MY BLOG PLS DO NOT LINK ME!
TAG ARE WELCOME BUT NOT LINK~
i guess noone wil even read la (:
NIGHT
Saturday, May 01, 2010
Friday, April 30, 2010
wonder ....
i think my blog is rot. i don think anyone is reading it either.
sucks to th max.
i will still blog.. but i donwan anyone to see what im bloggin alright.
F!
please leave me alone for now..
you wont noe how hurt i'am...
you wont know th true feelings...
i have to hide myself inside...
is nt minyee anymore..
no longer th same.
really fuck my life!!!!!
as long as i noe,
i give it all.. i shld nt regret..
bcos i alr given u all my love..
trying my best to work it out.
but u will nvr hav enough..
you lie again & again..
i will jus take it as i donno a single thing.
i will continue lovin u.
i will try to...
im thinking ......
if being hurt too much, will feelings fade off?
will it lessen?
will it go missing?
if i were to given a chance..
i donwan love!
I DONWAN FUCKING GET HURT BY LOVE.
i wan to leave this place...
if only i can ... if only i can don llove you!
BUT SORRY. I CANT....
WHEN TH DAY U WALKED IN TO MY LIFE..
I NVR GOT TH CHANCE U MAKE U WALKED OUT...
I NVR SORT IIT OUT.
POINTLESS. MEANINGLESS.
no matter how hard i tried..
is useless alr.
all ii cn do is act as if im fine.
bcos u cannot take it if im my true self.
YOU CANT!
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH EFFORT I PUT IN?
DO YOU EVEN FUCKING KNOW IS NOT EASY HANGING ON?
F ALL THIS SO MUCH...
if i can cancel or delete love.
I SWEAR I WOULD!
if you were to leave mai world..
ALL I CAN SAY. MY LIFE IS SCREWED..
&
I DON BELIEVE IN LOVE ANYMORE..
i said it again..
THIS IS MY KARMA?
if only ii cud...
i wud wwan a timeout badly..
YOU SETTLE ALL UR EX STUFFS!
CLEAR A REAL CLEAR LINE...
FIND A FUCKING STABLE JOB..
DEN COME BACK TO ME..
IF YOU REALLY LOVE ME,, IF U REALLY WAN ME BACK.
IIF U REALLY NEED ME IN LIFE.
IF YOU REALLY
YOU WUD DO ALL THIS FOR ME!
( I RMB) you once said: i will be ur last.
BUT I SERIOUSLY DON THINK SO..
4MTHS.. U GIVEN ME SHIT. HOW ABT 4 YRS?
SEEING ME IN IMH?
FUCK IT..
i don even dare to think abt th next step! seriously.
YOU ARE JUS KILLING ME ALRIGHT.
MENTALLY TORTURING ME.
U SAID U WILL CHANGE. FOR A BETTER FOR THIS RS.
U SAID U WUD BE GOOD TO ME..
HEY LET ME TELL U THIS...
NO DIFFERENCE.?! OK!! NOT AT ALL..
TH ONLY DIFF IS ( FROM E START U ARE AVERAGE)
& WORST COME TO WORST!
if i were to let go?
can i ? i cant even do so..
if i cn... if im still th 16yrs old minyee. & i wud ask u to fuck off from mai life.
SERIOUSLY
JUS FREAK OUT!
but still i love you damn fuck loads.
but u nvr noe hw i feel!
LET ME RANT~
I DUNNID UR FUCKING EYE TO LOOK AT MY BLOG.
FUCK YOU VERY MUCH~
sucks to th max.
i will still blog.. but i donwan anyone to see what im bloggin alright.
F!
please leave me alone for now..
you wont noe how hurt i'am...
you wont know th true feelings...
i have to hide myself inside...
is nt minyee anymore..
no longer th same.
really fuck my life!!!!!
as long as i noe,
i give it all.. i shld nt regret..
bcos i alr given u all my love..
trying my best to work it out.
but u will nvr hav enough..
you lie again & again..
i will jus take it as i donno a single thing.
i will continue lovin u.
i will try to...
im thinking ......
if being hurt too much, will feelings fade off?
will it lessen?
will it go missing?
if i were to given a chance..
i donwan love!
I DONWAN FUCKING GET HURT BY LOVE.
i wan to leave this place...
if only i can ... if only i can don llove you!
BUT SORRY. I CANT....
WHEN TH DAY U WALKED IN TO MY LIFE..
I NVR GOT TH CHANCE U MAKE U WALKED OUT...
I NVR SORT IIT OUT.
POINTLESS. MEANINGLESS.
no matter how hard i tried..
is useless alr.
all ii cn do is act as if im fine.
bcos u cannot take it if im my true self.
YOU CANT!
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH EFFORT I PUT IN?
DO YOU EVEN FUCKING KNOW IS NOT EASY HANGING ON?
F ALL THIS SO MUCH...
if i can cancel or delete love.
I SWEAR I WOULD!
if you were to leave mai world..
ALL I CAN SAY. MY LIFE IS SCREWED..
&
I DON BELIEVE IN LOVE ANYMORE..
i said it again..
THIS IS MY KARMA?
if only ii cud...
i wud wwan a timeout badly..
YOU SETTLE ALL UR EX STUFFS!
CLEAR A REAL CLEAR LINE...
FIND A FUCKING STABLE JOB..
DEN COME BACK TO ME..
IF YOU REALLY LOVE ME,, IF U REALLY WAN ME BACK.
IIF U REALLY NEED ME IN LIFE.
IF YOU REALLY
YOU WUD DO ALL THIS FOR ME!
( I RMB) you once said: i will be ur last.
BUT I SERIOUSLY DON THINK SO..
4MTHS.. U GIVEN ME SHIT. HOW ABT 4 YRS?
SEEING ME IN IMH?
FUCK IT..
i don even dare to think abt th next step! seriously.
YOU ARE JUS KILLING ME ALRIGHT.
MENTALLY TORTURING ME.
U SAID U WILL CHANGE. FOR A BETTER FOR THIS RS.
U SAID U WUD BE GOOD TO ME..
HEY LET ME TELL U THIS...
NO DIFFERENCE.?! OK!! NOT AT ALL..
TH ONLY DIFF IS ( FROM E START U ARE AVERAGE)
& WORST COME TO WORST!
if i were to let go?
can i ? i cant even do so..
if i cn... if im still th 16yrs old minyee. & i wud ask u to fuck off from mai life.
SERIOUSLY
JUS FREAK OUT!
but still i love you damn fuck loads.
but u nvr noe hw i feel!
LET ME RANT~
I DUNNID UR FUCKING EYE TO LOOK AT MY BLOG.
FUCK YOU VERY MUCH~
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Melts `
back homed.
went to kbox today `
was'nt a nice day for me. & i don think nowadays is nice for me.
as you said, after all this happenings. everything is over.
we start anew, u wud treat me better. den before.
but seriously. nth changed at all.. isn't better at all.
eveerything is still th same..
i've said....
LAST chance, but i could'nt make it last!
bcos i cant...
no matter how hard, sour or bitter. i will continue walking on with u.
is still th same, hurting me without notice.
i donnid anything from u.
but jus you to love me truely. faithfully.
tats all..
ISIT HARD?
you shld noe whats right & wrong.
...
i dunno how long more am i able to take all this..
i dunno whye do i deserve all this.
i hope you are REALLY REALLY ABLE TO! change.
but im nt forcing you~
i rmb when i asked u th other day
: why did u treat me so good..
you answer : from now on im going to treat you good.
i said : for only today..
you said : no, from now on im gonna treat you like this.
yes, listen only..
ur words dosen counts at all..
YOU WONT KNOE HOW MUCH INSECURE I FEEL~
i dunno which of urs is true, & which of urs is lie.
trying to gain them bback.
but things u do, dosen proving me anything.
i really don wish to say anything abt it.
i know i hav been very senstitive this fews days!
BUT WHY?
CAN WE LIVE PEACEFULLY?
CAN I HAVE MY HONEYMOON PERIOD BACK?!
i said , we change for th better..
nt fr th sake of changing alright.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
WHATS GOING ON HERE~
no matter how unhappy im...
i still have to hold thm back..
& i cant give up th love...
i can only love you more..
i can only plus & NOT minus..
but i noe u can minus dem & plus them as & when u like..
TATS WHY IM FEAR... ALWAYS FEAR.
I somehow hope someone wud really understand how am i feeling deep inside.
i somehow hope someone can cry with me..
cry thier lungs out!
i somehow hope someone can bring me to th beach to scream~
I WAN HAPPINESS! PLEASE.... I DESERVE TO...
AM I?
went to kbox today `
was'nt a nice day for me. & i don think nowadays is nice for me.
as you said, after all this happenings. everything is over.
we start anew, u wud treat me better. den before.
but seriously. nth changed at all.. isn't better at all.
eveerything is still th same..
i've said....
LAST chance, but i could'nt make it last!
bcos i cant...
no matter how hard, sour or bitter. i will continue walking on with u.
is still th same, hurting me without notice.
i donnid anything from u.
but jus you to love me truely. faithfully.
tats all..
ISIT HARD?
you shld noe whats right & wrong.
...
i dunno how long more am i able to take all this..
i dunno whye do i deserve all this.
i hope you are REALLY REALLY ABLE TO! change.
but im nt forcing you~
i rmb when i asked u th other day
: why did u treat me so good..
you answer : from now on im going to treat you good.
i said : for only today..
you said : no, from now on im gonna treat you like this.
yes, listen only..
ur words dosen counts at all..
YOU WONT KNOE HOW MUCH INSECURE I FEEL~
i dunno which of urs is true, & which of urs is lie.
trying to gain them bback.
but things u do, dosen proving me anything.
i really don wish to say anything abt it.
i know i hav been very senstitive this fews days!
BUT WHY?
CAN WE LIVE PEACEFULLY?
CAN I HAVE MY HONEYMOON PERIOD BACK?!
i said , we change for th better..
nt fr th sake of changing alright.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
WHATS GOING ON HERE~
no matter how unhappy im...
i still have to hold thm back..
& i cant give up th love...
i can only love you more..
i can only plus & NOT minus..
but i noe u can minus dem & plus them as & when u like..
TATS WHY IM FEAR... ALWAYS FEAR.
I somehow hope someone wud really understand how am i feeling deep inside.
i somehow hope someone can cry with me..
cry thier lungs out!
i somehow hope someone can bring me to th beach to scream~
I WAN HAPPINESS! PLEASE.... I DESERVE TO...
AM I?
Monday, April 26, 2010
i used to . ..
hello everyone ...
finally im back to blog.
for now, i hope every is over..
everything is back to normal.
life was'nt good for me..
has been a real hard thing for me to accept th facts!
but still i have to face it ...
im still looking for a job..
& i hope everything wud be stable...
& not ups & down agns.
i nvr tot i wud have this day!
i nvr tot this wud happen to me.
i nvr tot someone will even treat me like this.
i nvr tot i wud be so stupid..
over, i hope is over.
& we start anew again..
this time round i hope u wud not be like lastyme anymore.
i don wan any secrets between us pls.
if u donn lie, & we wont be having misunderstood.
im not unreasonable . share with me ...
every lil things.
one time shot,
u told me everything ...
i cant even believe what im hearing..
& u jus make me burst in tears!
till today, i try to hold back my tears..
to forget th hurt u gave..
but still is too painfull..
is unbearable. do u feel guilty? do u feel sad?
at first i felt being cheated so much so much!
i felt being toyed... but i hope you din..
i hope u are true to me...
actually i dunnid much for u..
i donnid presents , i donnid suprise, i donnid u to pampered me all th time.
all i want for is, you to love me sincerely, faithfully& truely..
tats all...
i might not b as rich as her.
i might nt buy u a fone..
i might nt give u everything u wanted..
but i can ashure u, i can give u th priceless love & happiness.
i can sacrifice anything as long u u are happy..
from now on...
i will slowly try to gain back th trust..
& i hope this time round u are nt gonna break it..
bcos is becoming mor & more fragile alr.
i hope you will try to mend back th hurt you've done..
& i choosen to forgive you!
but i cannot forget...
cherish me, do not take me for granted.
i cannot say you are nt at fault at all!
bcos seriously u're part of it..
if only u don accept th gifts.
if only you don borrow her card
if only you don reply her.
if only u don contact her.
if only you draw a clear line.
if only u tell me th whole truth.
i jus don get it.
whats th point when u noe th truth will be out one day.
den why do u stil wanna lie?
baby i love you..
& i don wan such things to happen..
mayb to u, ima dumb...
but im not!
but u can take me as one..
finally im back to blog.
for now, i hope every is over..
everything is back to normal.
life was'nt good for me..
has been a real hard thing for me to accept th facts!
but still i have to face it ...
im still looking for a job..
& i hope everything wud be stable...
& not ups & down agns.
i nvr tot i wud have this day!
i nvr tot this wud happen to me.
i nvr tot someone will even treat me like this.
i nvr tot i wud be so stupid..
over, i hope is over.
& we start anew again..
this time round i hope u wud not be like lastyme anymore.
i don wan any secrets between us pls.
if u donn lie, & we wont be having misunderstood.
im not unreasonable . share with me ...
every lil things.
one time shot,
u told me everything ...
i cant even believe what im hearing..
& u jus make me burst in tears!
till today, i try to hold back my tears..
to forget th hurt u gave..
but still is too painfull..
is unbearable. do u feel guilty? do u feel sad?
at first i felt being cheated so much so much!
i felt being toyed... but i hope you din..
i hope u are true to me...
actually i dunnid much for u..
i donnid presents , i donnid suprise, i donnid u to pampered me all th time.
all i want for is, you to love me sincerely, faithfully& truely..
tats all...
i might not b as rich as her.
i might nt buy u a fone..
i might nt give u everything u wanted..
but i can ashure u, i can give u th priceless love & happiness.
i can sacrifice anything as long u u are happy..
from now on...
i will slowly try to gain back th trust..
& i hope this time round u are nt gonna break it..
bcos is becoming mor & more fragile alr.
i hope you will try to mend back th hurt you've done..
& i choosen to forgive you!
but i cannot forget...
cherish me, do not take me for granted.
i cannot say you are nt at fault at all!
bcos seriously u're part of it..
if only u don accept th gifts.
if only you don borrow her card
if only you don reply her.
if only u don contact her.
if only you draw a clear line.
if only u tell me th whole truth.
i jus don get it.
whats th point when u noe th truth will be out one day.
den why do u stil wanna lie?
baby i love you..
& i don wan such things to happen..
mayb to u, ima dumb...
but im not!
but u can take me as one..
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