l . O . V . E . ?????

haaah! U can say is abt th love we had?! So how much u love me yeaaa? And hw much i love you?? Cancelled off plannings wit charmaine jus bcos wanted to go out wit you. Ended up... Ohhhhhh, bcos minyee don see any existance in me. Wahaha. If only i can, i think i will b clubbin everyday with diff clubbing khaki. But you say i listen.. What u tell me i listen.. Den another way round, u don listen. Denn why shld i listen tu u'??? yawnyawn. Mayb is really better to act like I DON CARE! F it laaaaa. Whatever thing happen. I will jus act as if i don minddddd. But th lonliness inside jus cant stop cryinggg. Whats goin on minyee. Why are u always so weak. I hate being left out. Neglect and forgotten. Bcos this happen agn & agn ever since i was young. Fuck off seriously

noone else

sometimes ppl do feel left out easily.. mayb you wont. i will (:
silenceeeee .

i dun feel or wish to say anything naozx!
yes, recently very attitude.
bcos alot of things jus make me don feel good at all.
but bottled em up is better.

noone can listen...
seems busy...
so busyyy .


sensitive.

its been sometime since someone acompany me play dance.
i think neglect again.
when new one comes. old one throw.
STANDARD.


k, i donwish to blog much abt it.
i guess is tym to change to other links again.

I JUS WANT TO BLOG PEACEFULLY! :(

goodmorning. but goin sleep.!




* WHAT KIND OF LIFE IS THIS?!
* HOW LONG MOREEEEEEEE?
ALWAYS, i tell myself soon soon soon.
but i cant see any serious-ness.

BYE

I jus don

things that im upset with or unhappy with.
i jus donwant to share it with you.
bcos no point saying it.

i donwant to have any probs with you.
so my family thing i will keep it to myself.
as recently they are forcing me to do things i really donwant to.
i donwan & dunno how to say this.

my stress. i'll handle it.
my dad, tat bitch is driving me crazy!

i'll move out one day when i have my own stable income!
work harder to find my job!
& i hope once i have my stable income for myself, it wud b stable!
& not always still not enough.
i jus don get it...
is always not enough..

im a guest,
renting this BED! not room~ & a lousy lil coomputer.
with nobody toking to me.
like a transparent one.
DEN? WHATS TH POINT OF STAYING HERE?

when i have probs..
they don willing to help me out at all!
so whats th FUCK point?

all they do is force force force!
& i will push thm back! & keep pushin.
trying to be harder.

EVERYONE'S SAYING...
you changed...
SOO MUCH.

from 2010 onwards YOU CHANGED.
im thinkinggg....
changes as in?
* living like a dead zombie everyday
*SUPER many financial prob.
*breakdown'
*depress
*working with no attention at all
*late nights
*sleepless
*disappointment on families

know why?
bcos, my heart, my mind, my brain, my everything
only focus on one thing.

&^ $$$$$$$ signnnn i needddd all over!
when im down down down,
WHO ELSE CAN HELP ME? WHO ELSE?

if i have th money now, i don even wan to owe any debts on myself!
LIKE NOW, im carrying $500+ , $275, $51.00
Hotel $100 summore, Bus $200.
c'on.. all these not 2 digits. is 3!

whereeee am i going to settle all this?
workkkkkk ^& pay for it?
SIGHS.

i want to give my loves one happiness..
being with me w/out worries.
but how? when im alr at tis state.

regretting so much when i havent save when im richer lastyme!
RAHHHHHHHH~



moneymoney drop from e sky!
OR MAKE ME BCOME A MILLIONAIRE!

so tat i will leave home,
buy a house stays together with love.
go overseas.
shoppppingggg
pay my debts!
& EVERYTHING.....

BUT EVERYTHING WILL STILL B POINTLESS IF LOVE IS NT WITH ME :(



sometimes i jus donno how to say this out...
bcos, my fault my bad my fault my bad.
YAH WHATEVER. MY FAULT MY BAD.

BLAHBLAHBLAH `~

DU LAN!!

fuck damn pissed off naoxz!
AGRH! I JUS DON WISH TO SAY WHATS GOING ON!
I HATE STAYING AT THIS FUCKIN HOME!
ALLL PLS GO AND BANG WALL & DIE CAN?!

is my freedom to do what i wan to do.
i dunnid noone of u to even care for me.
pls fuckin fuck off now!
RAH `~

&& i shall do everything on my own.
i dunnid a fucking maid to do a fuckiing thing.
housework i do it myself. den u shall nt kp and fuck off u bitch!
stop complainin to my dad this *& tat...
I DON FUCKING SCARED OF HIM OR CARE.

im renting this fucking bed to sleep onlyyy!
i dunnid any money or anyone of u to hlp me.
esp u. i donnid ur favour. u can f off




IM FUCKINGGGG DU LAN NAOZX!
BUT I WILL ACT AS IF NTH. jus donwan bb to asked or worry ...
with my fucking familyyyy!


ALL GO DIE CAN ALRR!

FUCK OFF BIATCHHHHH~

bigbigbig sorry

i really donwant you to see my blog. i donwant to hurt u. But still u saw it. Im sorrryyy bigbig sorry. This time round im saying sorry bcos i really feel bad now. what do u mean by what goes ard come ard?? Im ny doing this to hurt u back. I don meant it. Baby, u shld noe how much i dote on u. How am i bear to hurt u right? Babylove. Im sorry. Reallyyy. I willing to accept all th punishment u give. Im jus angry and fed up thats why. I wont be repeating my mustake. Sorry and i love u alot my dear...