new year eve!

I thought love was just a mirage of the mind,
it's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find.
But the day I met you, I began to see,
that love is real, and exists in me.

hooohoo, today is th last day of 2010!!

lets countdown to 2011.

HOPING FOR A BETTER YEAR! and a new start for everybody!

2010sucks hell! andd a new year, a brand new start!

good luck!

& one yr anni with me and bb is coming!

looking forward.

so fast, alr one yr.. going thru all ups and downs together. and here we're still holding on.

thou sometimes we intend to have diff thinking and debating. but overall i do love you and try to go according to th way u wanted it to be.

HAPPY ONE YR ANNIVERSARY IN ADVANCE BABY!

I LOVE YOU NOW AND ALWAYS (:

steamboat tmr with my gfriends & bb <3

seriously no job cum no money.

gonna get a stable job and go for further studies maybe end of next yr.

or 2012?

have to save money first!

money is everything, first bb bday stuufff second start to save for BANGKOK~~~

den studyyyyyy private!

REALLYYYY WANT TO go childcare teach lil babies.

hahahah! patience patience~

new year new revolution!

JIAYOU BAH EVERYONE!

& for bb, better get ur ass up and jyjy too!

support youuuu <3>

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

when love.

We dwell on the past, while living the present
But I admit, the past was unpleasant
Full of ups and downs, less pleasure more pain
We wished for the sun, but only got rain
We both made mistakes, put pain in our hearts
But here we are again, promising to never part
Counting our blessings and letting go of the past
Starting all over and making it last
Feelings and memories flow deep in my mind
Of those days our love was genuine and kind
Holding you close, feeling your skin
You look into my eyes and make my head spin
Those feelings are back, but stronger than ever
I know you're the one I wanna hold on to forever
We both smile again, nothing's better than this
Kissing you again was like our second first kiss.

when we love

days passes so quicky, with jus an blink of eye is comin 2011 already~

christmas is coming too! xchanged gift session! LOVEIT.

seriously speaking 2010 sucks hell! not only family, financial problem and job all screw up only.

everything also not shun li.

hoping for a better year and a better future.

in life theres still many things to learn.

so we got to make this beautiful.

for people whom don really know me have no rights to comment abt me or my life.

or th way i treat people. bcos i dontknow u as well.

jus freaking fuck off frm this world will do!

1yr anni is reaching real soon too!

many things to rush naoz.

i need to work !!!!

january will be my new start!

so now fuck all th obtacles, i will not die with all these.

childish people can wake up and get a life nao.

i know i couldnt give u anything,

but only my heart and my love.

and people around me.

whats mine can be yours!

so, don expect anni present cos i couldnt afford.

but ur bday, i will never let u disappoint.

this shall be th best of all if i can.

like how u given me,

i would try to find all those money!

ahhh fuck~ need to work harder!

JANUARY NO MC, NO LEAVE, NTG!!!!

JYJY~

i love you .

will never stop loving you, till i ran out of breathe.

you're always my everything.

but i'll start making u my option. if that is what u want.

goodnight.

haters, _|_

NO LIFE~

i'll never be th same

i don exist in this world, im in th other. nobody bother to ask me about life.

so what is life?

so what if i can feel my heartbeat, i rather leave it dead.

nobody listens to me,

nobody wan to know how i feel inside..

am i right or wrong?

i try not to bother about u, but it always hurt me so.

that i cant leave my hands off you. but do you know .

i don think so.

i always tell myself its okay, everything would be fine..

but i feel sourish in my heart and cant control but teared again and again.

i rather don love you this much. i rather don need you. but i cant.

i wan to make myself numb, i donwan to feel anything.

u always go opposite of th way i wan it to be.

when i wan this, u wan that..

do u know, what i wan?

u said, we could say out how we feel inside, but when i say , can u even accept or take it?

isit fair for me ?

im jus a ordinary girl that wants to be loved like everyone else.

but it seems so hard..

being wanted is smth wonderful, but i don feel that im being wanted or needed.

why?

what did i get back with all my sacrifice?

im tired.

i donwan to describe how worst i feel.

nobody would know.. th truth of me, th truth of everything.

smiles and laughters are not real..

i don mind if ppl ard are hating me,

bcos they got no life!

i stay in my own world, that no one know i exist.

this is me..

perhaps acting stronger on th outside is what people wanna see.

i'll try. but deepdown, nobody knows.. untill i breakdown.

goodbye

when i step back pls don step forward anymore, im falling.

help me up..

i jus wan to be loved, but i dontknow how to make somebody love me

im useless.

call me bitch! i'll say ty~ cos u're slut

make me a christmas tree

christmas is coming, i wan a chrstmas tree diy by you. lol!

so fast time flies, i met you more den a year already!

and soon is going to be our one yr ann already. like donno how to describe this kinda feeling.

to me, u are important.. u are everything.

but i know to you its a different thing, mayb slowly used to how u treat me already.

can be good at tmes, can be cold to me at times.

but its okay.

thinking back, memories of th past one year seems like 10 years.

like so manyy many things happen ..

've got all sort of feelings.

sad, hurt, disappointed, fallng apart, given up. happy, excted, suprise, sweet.

whatever it is, u given me alot. i learnt alot' and grown up alot from you.

i love th way we re, i love th way you care (fiercely), i love th way ur unglam can be, i love th way u nao pian niu, like xiao hai zi, i love th way u disturb and suan me at night, love everyway of yyouu..

but not when u say, ur feeling had fade, im afraid of that.. so much, lke i really dontknow how to make a person love me back.

i hope i pray, pls don fade, pls don go.

i want us to be like this till th end. i don care who or what try to break us apart. i don care my parents or so.

i jus want to be with you.

is like 3 months staying tgt time like flies, i donwan u to go. i donwan u to go.. but still u got to go.

i know.,, u will go one day..my tough day is coming to me.. soon!

jus hope when u move back home thing gonna remain th same, and ur old mistake will not repeat..

and i dont wan to built trust for u and u crush it all urself.

u know, i cannot take it anymore.

for now, im learning to be stronger, to control feelings, to put u aside, to built my own life, to love less work more.

& i jus donwan to love, i want to be loved! can i? yea, i know is impossible.

i jus want you to rmb, i exist when im gone,

i want you to rmb me in ur head forever.

i love you most, nobody else can do.

i wan you to know, i can sacrifice everything for you.

i wan you to know, u are th key to my heart.

i wan you to know, without u im an empty shell.

i wan you to know, i alr tried my best to give what i can.

i already love u with no regrets..

i give u alll and everything.

true love? is this th one? i think this is.

if this rs ever to failed, i think i will nv love again...

i think i need to clmb up all over again. i have already plan my future with u.

i wan our future.

we don ned anybody..

true love only come once, for mine you're th one.

for you, im th one who is gonna help u forget ur past..

this is overall how i feel...

i would hold and conquer th world jus for you.

but, sometmes, i feel tat nobody thnk of how i feel when they do things.

bcos sometime when i become silent, u better stop th topic.

same goes to me!

yayaya screwed up life.

my face cui know?!

sighhhhhhh..

this is th most lousy new year ever.

i don think i can afford to buy new year clothes even.

like fuck... minyee stop shoppingggg.

im not a lady,women,girl anymore!

i have stop pampering myself.! whoohoo. is this awesome?

life should be amazing with love around, we got to make this life amazing with no regrets okay!

we have to learn to fly one day.... i will fly, to th skies and touch th stars.

i will dream of u everynight and lets go to our fantasy.

don wake me up still...

i love you, so much....

i guessed u shld noe how much it is rgiht.

even if th world ends,, as long as i have u, im not afraid!

goodnight ppl

MY DAY~

HAPPYYY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

apprecieate all those wishes from people & friends!

fuck all those unhappy stuffs and awaiting for a new year to come (:

goodluck!

got ntg to blog actually..

but many to rant, but jus don feel like ranting now~

oh ya, im gonna set my blog private soon yea~

i will only allow ppl tat understand me enter my life.

so th rest, is jus shits to me.

i'll be my real self. i cant be bother if ppl go ard gossip abt me.

bcos they are jus being a bitch!

im happy with my own life and friends ard me!

hoping to enjoy tmr.

but zi dong yi dian, donwan see things that will bu shuang one jiu can le.

fml? fyl!

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE

wanna fly away~

back to blog.

envy ppl that can go overseas as and when they like..

i wanted to go too.. but cashtight.

many things changed...

wants to go back to kidsss life.. so carefree.

&not like now. everything is attacking me.

birthday is reaching real soon.. wonder what will they be giving me.

maybe to you all my expectation is high..

but i want suprise! make me tears if u all can! haha

but to you, my wish is always so hard to reach..

u'll never rch, bcos u cant.

is so simple. my wish is so simple..

jus want you to ......................................

i noe no matter what i say is useless already.. my words are dead.

its ntg to you.

seems to talk less, is not that i wanted to talk less.

is i really have ntg to talk anymore. is like, whatever i speak out of my mouth we'll quarrel.

& u see, u dont see th point why im saying.

or can say, whenever i step back u step forward.

now, i don even wanna move forward or back.

i dont even know what to do.. den u'll be contented.

im seriously not happy even thou my bday is comin.

u know i want ntg from you..

i really seriously. even when im crying, u won get to see or know.

sometimes, i really want to be alone.

want to be cruel den do it all th way. make me dead.

& not pull me alive and kill me immediately.

i have feelings.. i donno how u feel what u thinkin. u don share.

i start to guess. & all my thots are killing me badly..

bcos u dont share.. tell me how?

so confused... u driving me so crazy..

i wanna let love die.

i wanna stop burning.

i wanna stop th heart beating ..

i wanna tear this apart.

....

i want to hold.

i want this to last.

i wan u to rmb me.

i want my heart to pump faster when ur lips get nearer~

i wan ur love. so badly so badly..

i want ur hugs. & u to stay by my side forever.

& you

push me away, telling me forever is ntg~

pull me out of my fantasy

wake me up from my dreams.

stab me & leave me wounded so badly..

reject me time & time .

lying to me over & over again.

even if now u are with me, ur heart dont belong here.

...??????

randomly.. u wud be nice to be.

& evertime when u hurt me, i wud tell myself its ok..

u wud be nice to me one day!

one day we wud be wonderful..

i waited .. waited.. for almost a year,

hhiiiiii, im still here!

perhaps u indeed became better.. but sorry,

u did it jus for awhile.

i dontknow isit bcos of th love isnt for me.

or this is ur best.

but i can tell you, i aint happy.

this year, is th first year i have cried so many times.

cried so terribly..

tired year.. sick year, problematic year. love sucks year. family cb year. money not enough year.

likke everything jus so cb ~

k im sick of it.\

take me to ur side and dote me or jus throw me aside.

simple and easy.

i dont wnna move anymore~

im not happy im not happy!

i donwan bday! i hate bday!

i wanna make friends first!

& u to be second~

bcos i know when i lose u. i have friends.

go fuck th world.!

minyee stand up. wake up! get a life~

don rely. don need . donn used to.

jus love. simple love.

don cry for ppl that isnt worth ur tears any more.

ong lay ping!!

first time go so far must take care okay!

hope u enjoyyyy! if can online, we can chat okay!

these few day going to be boring without u one!

^& for sure we will miss u okay~

& also must miss me hor. don saddd le la. is nt as if u won come back right.

jus go andd enjoy ur holiday trip! don think of unhappy stuff hor!

i envy uuu lor. i wan go also cant~

nextyme we save money we plan go farfar tgt lor! hahha~

takecare hor!

lovelove

bye~

nobody know i cry myself to sleep everynight!

nobody know i feel so cold inside my heart!

nobody know im an empty shell.

nobody know our love is broken

everything jus flashes back, like i can neveer go back to those beautiful period being with you.

for now, things aint th same anymore.

what we used to do. no longer th same.

does anyone know. everyday im not HAPPY. does anyone hear me out?

knowing whats wrong with me you family money myself?

fml. nobody does.

step on me, push me down.. or make me fall.

everything is doing this to me.

& im trying to be alright and go on..

wanted to sleep at home forever. & jus sleep forever.. not waking up forever.

jus leave me sleeping forever.

every morning when i woke up. i have to do blahblahblah. this & that

im sick of it. tired of it.

trying to give you. wad u want.

what abt you?

wanted to love you with all my heart.

but seems being push away.

does anyone know how i feel?

i really really need somebody here with me.

but who ?

i need a talk.. pls talk me out.

i cant say anything.

whatever i say are rubbish.

don have to listen to me.

i deserve it...

sleeping mode.

nobody can help me, only i can help myself

nobody can help you, only you can help yourself.

feel lost inside.

someone take me out.

i miss those times we once had, but i noe we can never return to where we used to be.

feels like leaving this world. and everything is gonna be fine.

this is th first time, u make me feeling ending this life of mine.

i donwant to go on.

bye

getaway

this lil day is coming! Like im looking forward from january? Cool! Finally 2more days and we are going to enjoyyy!!

Exactly 2more months and is also my bdayy!
Hoping for a better one this yr.

Shall take this trip to play enjoy and relax, not having any quarrels or seeing any attitude face .
Jus wana scream my ass off and play! Thou i know when i come back, i still have to face alot of problems coming. But at least i can forget this problems for 3days. Lol.

Sway, jus saw 4.44 roar!
Yes, we're not knowing about it. And we dosen wanna know abt it.
Without you, everything will be smoother ..
But .. Things would be diff without obtacles.

Ehhhh, jus take this trip as our fkin honey moon?? Ahhhh, No?
I richerr i bring u go other honeymoon hoh!


Needa get a new job i guess.
Come on minyee buck up!


14oct, start work!?? We are gonna work hard!?


Yawnnnnnn.
I hope someone understand me knowin what i wantt. And what kind of life i want.


Its dosen matter how long we are tgt..
But th love bond we have.. And th obtacles we went thru tgt.

I guess i used to be too haoming, and nw i have ku ming.
I believe one day i deserve beetter. I wisih i wish..

Stop making me cry myself to sleep please.
Some nights, you jus don let me feel loveee

Workin naozx. Byebye.. Bored ttm. Noone bothers. Fml

forgotten?

if only love can be like pencil and eraser.
Keep th wonderful ones and erased th hurtful ones.

when i was younger.. I din'nt know how to cherish.
I tell myself no matter whats th outcome in future, i shouldnt regret ..

this is life.. Im moving on, so do everybody.

Love th one who deserve your love..
Don hold on to smth that dont belong to you.
Don hold on to smth that dosen bring happiness.

Choose th life you want it to be.

superduperfuckhatethisfeeling

i myself don even know whats going on or what happen to me.
but feeling so down .. esp this few days, feel like hiding myself keeping quiet like randomly.
Sorry, for being fragile inside.. Lil things that you said or do sometimes break me apart and i intend to say you back rudely or either kept quiet.

I hate this part, when im alone.. Need you badly. But you're sleeping. No point huggin curly anymore.
v random.. Really very. Whats on my mind? Whats with me? I don even know myself. If only i cann.. I wont be like this.

Moodswing sucks so much.
Want come faster come. Keep moodswing v pekcek luh.

Goodnight.

its jus me and you

all i want is jus peace!
Shall hope nth goes wrong, lookin superb forward for genting trip. Lets enjoy. And throw all th shits and singapore and getaway for 3days. Woohoo.

give me shyte? And im gonna give you shyte too!

Jus me and you ..
In our small lil world.
Hope this is what u want.
Im gonna love you till th world stop turnning.
Hugs.

keep going ..

back to work after a 4days break. 7days straight is gonna be tired for me, 5more days to go babe, jyjy luh.
Genting payment everyone settle alrdy, now left with all of thier passport numb and monday here they goes to book th tickets. Omg, im sooo looking forward to it. I know th more i look forward th more disappointment i will have, but u see' i cant help it. Rawr. Fuckshit. Lets fly tmr. Haa. I jus wanna have true fun shit and enjoy, hope noOne spoils th entire mood of everybody or so, hopes everyone cooperare. Woohoo.
Am workinh naozx, beloved is sleeping. Hope she is not waking up like too late to come over to visit me. Hee.

Somehow we would jus wanna let love die, so we won feel all th negative shits. But said is still so much easier den done so ya. Its not possible i guess.

I know im not as perfect as her, or as wonderful. And i know i cant be. I tried but failed. i want nth but ur smile and laughter.
All i can do is to give u all Th love i can.. Giving u happiness for th rest of ur life , i wan u to rmb.. Me!

I need to work more to get nearer to what we wanted. Hope after genting u wud be willing to help me out and struve tgggt.

Or maybe time is what i need, find it slowly..

As long as im still standing, i will try my best.
Shall hope we both can move out real soon, so part of some stress will be over too.
I love you. Till th v last.
Hugs..
Missingyou monster. My lil baby monster.
Lets getaway. Mmuacks.




Till th world ends, we hugged tgt..

when its all gone

im feeling so unwell. i need you badly. but you wasnt here.

i don want to think what or who or whatever shit.
but i want to be with you.
mayb you,ve changed? mayb you're still th same.
mayb u have so much secrets mayb you have none.
i don bother.

i enjoy my last 2 weeks with you.
making me smile, trying to cheer me up when i get angry.
never walk away but come after me. this lil changes i've seen.
but thats not th main one i want u shld know.

ur good, i can see' as long as u have th time u try to be with me by my side.
sayang me when i need. hug me to sleep when u don like to do so.
i can see, i can feel.. try to stop debating with me, try not to quarrel when im being unreasonable.
im happy u are like that.
u have ways to make me smile. i love you.

sorry, i can see some changes in me too.
but i dontknow why isit like that.
perhaps, i given too much, and i donwant to continue doing th same thing.

mayb being with me really suffer much..
i cant give u a good life, a better life .. th life u want!
but im trying you see.
i try my ways jus to see ur smile.
everytime when we quarrel, i feel so soft hearted wanted to hug u or msg u. but i stopped myself.
i don even know why?

i walked home today from inter alone again.
bcos u wasnt here.
im sick u dont even know or even u know u never concern me.
:( till now im waitingg for ur text. but where are you. i dontknow..

i cant be able to sleep tonight as u are not by myside.
my hair are still awfully wet when noone helps to dry them.
noone to cuddle with me. tok to curly.
i missyou.. do you?

i need to see a doctor real soon..
and my gums are hurting me badly. fuck.

sighs...

its hurts me alot..
when you walk away...

goodnight.
missingyou.


sorry for being unreasonable!
i know i'am!!
FUCKMYLIFE.


BYE!!!


piang~ my throat killing me!
nbccb! sibeh fuckin moodswing. i feel like scoldin and ventin my anger at someone!
KNN~~~~~

can you open th door?

its hurts seeing you getting upset, moodswing when i couldnt even do anything. And couldnt help myself at times i jus add on to ur anger. I donno whats wrong with you, and u urself donno whats wrong too?? Or u don even wan to let me noe whats wrong.

Trying to cheer you up, but my patience isnt enough, i get so fed up but couldnt speak out. I kept quiet .. Bcos i got speechless.. I donno what else can i do any longer.

Perhaps u are jus too closed up, u keep urself in ur world.. U dont wan to share or speak up. What can i do for you. U donwan to share ur burnden with me. Whom u loveeeee, whom u need? I really so unshure?


After seeing ur blog, i really donno whats ur tjinking.. Sigh, i think i donno u ... And ur thinking..
I miss you, th cheerfull you.. Th happy you. Th insane crazy you. And not th quiet attitude imba you.


Who can even tolerate me when im having moodswing?? Can you? I doubt u cant.

But i have to tolerate all these.

Hmmm, do u noe i need to press all my imbalance inside.. Not letting them out. Who can i vent to??
Who can i shout and scream and attitude to??
No one i guess.
Nth i can do, but keep them inside..

Lovetou

important existences.

was filled with so much joy and love for th past weekend which has jus ended.
Though its like really chor weekend. But seems worth it luh. Been to underwater world whereby alrdy been more den 6yrs i last went. Haha, and dolphineeesss! Omg. ate thai express and aston also i nv eat before. awesome?! Though this weekend my leg damn tiring but i love th fun when i make so much noises it means that im happy, when i go so crazy means that i need more joy. Someone entertain pls. Make everyone laugh. Hahaha.

Perhaps this is me, th crazy and insane minyee.

With my dearest sis ard, always will be fun!
Lets get retarded tgt, somehow i jus wished i ccan forget all th sorrows and live it to th fullest like how i used to, how insane im..
So many yearsss.... We have all grown up. Things changes, i miss how we used to be.
Do you all rmb?
All th joy and laughters.. All th events and celebration. But now, everybody seems to be so busy ...


Talking about memories we hav so much beautiful and awful one. We can choose to erase th ugliest one and keep th wonderful..
Jus simply love th naive and freely me lastyme..


I enjoy my days with baby stayin at my hus from wed till sun night.

Awesome..

Still waiting for myself to see tth changesss. But ....
For nowm i don even dare to think abt future. I shall walk a step and see..
Gonna love myself more ..
Gonna cherish every moments so i won have regrets.

My feelings for you?
Let you think.. And guess. How isit like?

Has it fade or slowly move away? Will u be afraid? Have u ever thot of it?
One day without me?
How will life be for you?
am i really so impt? That makkes u wanna come back so badly?
Isit th right time?
Want things to move naturally...

I love for you has ..... ....



Working naoozx. And seems havIng moodswing. Unlike!




24 hrs is not enough for a day. Fuck it.
Bye

o1o11o

am i doing th right thing? will der be any differences? will you really change? is this ur love? are we gonna last? i don wish to care but me knwing i love you. And wan you with me. And need you in life. Sigh..
I shldnt be like this i guess.
Wish me luck den.


I havent recovered pls handle with care. And changes?? Wait and see.

whispering in to my ears..

i love you.
Im so unsure, shld i be grateful that u are still here or sad that you are here but cant be mine. I hate this kinda feeling, bcos i wanna make you mine but i cant..
Out of a sudden, i called u baby, i hold your hands i cant help but hug you tightly. Am i doing th right thing? I know i cnt be like this. And we cant help but misses each other badly you see.

Trying to hold on.. Hope i wont fall..
You know how much i need you, and im still waitinf for th day..
Its so hard for us not to meet. Bcos i miss you so do you.

I jus feel that what happen last night and these morning jus like when we first got to know each other.. Jus like u pampering me when im being ridiculous.

Imso unsure of everything, i wanna make you mine but for now i cant....
You see, u gotto get back up fast..
A wonderful night with you, chattin till 4am den we knock off. Waking up this morning looking at you smiling at me.. But these wasnt reality..

Hug me to sleep, telling me stories, telling me why u love me, saying stupid stuffs. Making me smile.. Bought my ffravourite food.. Make me eat.
Only you can do all these stuffs and understand what i want.
I will never forget what we said last night, and again' U are welcome.

Pls share with me all your sorrowss..
This dayy, is a v special one. Here im wishing u a happy 8 mth, thou i find us so confusing. So complicating.. But still. Till now my love for you never fade away..

Sorry this is gonna be th lousiest monthsary i guess, as im not here..
Hope u can put ddown all ur past and love me wholeheartly..
I will wait..

Whens th next time i can see you again??
Missingyou. And thanks for still willing to give me th strength to hold on.. Thanks for loving me..
Hugss.

missing you is smth i feel so terribly

i miss you.. so much so much. like i couldnt breathe anymore without you.

I miss you coming to my workplace everyday to see me, i miss you helping me in everyways whenever i need you, i miss you hugging me from behind when i donwan to talk to you. I miss you holding my hands and kiss. I miss you smiling at me, i miss you acompany me throw boxes. I miss you chasing me ard, i miss you plucking eye browns for me , dig my ear, massage my leg till i fall asleep, i missyou siosio my head till i sleep, i miss you talk to me till we both tired, i miss you hugging me crying tgt, i miss you saying sweet talks to me, ii miss you saying how nice im how sweet im how loving im to you, i miss you calling me wife, i miss you lending me ur shoulder and cry loudly, i miss you lookin in to my eyes and tell me everything gonna turn out fine, i miss you tickling me all over i roll and scream ard, i miss all our lil happiness, sweet moments, though its not so wonderful, but everything jus so simple ..

I miss every part of you, i dinnt know missing you was something so hard..
I miss you jumping ard playin dust with me. Hearing ur loud laughin voice. Smiling sweetly for me..

I donnt know i love you this much, i wud miss u this much untill when i lose you..
Even i wan you back, but things still gonna be th same. I rather let u go. And set me free..


So much pain nao.. Im suffocating.. Don leave... Or come back?


Confusion....

digusted with myself

2nd day without you.

After th clock hit 12am midnight will be another anniversary. Happy8month.
or Fucktat8month?

After lookin at what u post, tears are like water tap.. You know we cant hold on.. I wan ur true smile, and not smile to me when ur eyes ur emotion are betraying you. I know you wan to cry out. You are jus tryin to hide ur feelings.. Ur tears..
Its so much more hurtful seeing you this way. Though au are breakin apart inside, but still u wanted to let me smile.. But i cant stop crying breakin down in tears.. Telling you how much i need u in my life. Telling you how much i miss you, but we jus cant get back..

We gotta be stronger now. Without you, im falling, but i have to be brave.. Though i noe im not..

I can never find someone else who can give me th hapines u gave, i noe ur love for me isnt as strong as me..
I hope when u say u will change you will. I hope when u tell me, you don boyher anymore u do..

I hate to live in lies, esp in yours.. Seriously, if wanted me to have u in my life and continue lying. I rather not have you any longer. Bcos i need a truthful, faithful, relatoonship. And not me feeling so insecure here and dere..

Everynight when i reach home, th storm and thunder all came to me, reminds me of where u stand, where are ypu now..
Tearing me apart.
You trying to calm me down, asking me to be a brave girl, but u noe that im not... Without u im not.
I feel disgusted with myself. Im not perfect..
But do u even noe im trying to be th me u wanted me to be??

U noe u cant hold 2 strings..
U cant be selfish.. If u wan me den let go.. If u choosen others, i leave..
Though i nv want to..


I will always be right here. Waiting for you.


Crying so hard till i feel weak all over. Another day with teddy goldfish eyes. Fml fmlfmlfmlfml.

corner of my heart

its hurts me a million going on without you.
jus feel like ending my life like this.
tonight, i need yuu so badly. but i know i couldnt have you back.
no matter how hard itis. i have to control my emotion..
but am breaking down now. esp seeing u in tears & couldnt help to wipe away for yuu.

i need youu so much now.
what can i do.. control pls control..

confusion is driving me crazy so badly..
i jus wish my tears wud dried up one day..
i jus wish i wud be able to feel numb. i hate myself like this.

i feel so lousy, i feel so disgusted with myself. omg. im so disgusting.
u see, i lost all my self esteem. self confident.
i need to stand back up.
i cannot remain this way any further.
get back up ...


i can never forget every moment we hav.
everything keep flashing back.
i got no one here now.
every broken pieces , no one to mend them back.
if only i can, i will run to you and hug u tightly now.
i donwan to go. pls i don wan to go.. i donwan to leave..
but i have too....
u know im not strong.

im not a brave girl .. im not a brave girl at all./
without u im weak freaking weak! :(

i donno how i can do without you now..


can i sleep tonight?
teddy eyes :(

spinning around without you.

its okay, no point talkin abt it anymore. Since everything is over nao. No point debating.
We both have to get up. Be stronger to go on life.. We have muchs things to do still,
Don have to say sorry anymore. thou we both know we need each otther so much now, thou i really feel like running to ur place and hug u tightly, but we cant .. no matter how hard, we are gonna go thru these. Else all th suffer go inn vain. You know, i need ur smile. Don be sad. Don brood abt it anymore. Now, do ur best in everything..

When u think th time is right den come get me.. I won run away i swear im waiting here for you..
Stand up on ur feet. Stop rotting. U need a life..
And settle ur emotions.
If only u really love me i think u will.. Reallly change, for th sake of me.. For th sake of givin me a better life i think if u love me u will do it. If things are still th same den its really pointless..

Ur heart, u have to face it thou..
I have no rights to care anymore now.
I jus hope, u will live happily still without me in ur life.
Pls eat well, rest well, don keep morning den sleep. Not good. Oh ya, and plain water pls. No unhealthy drinks if possible. And rmb not feeling well don keep to yourseelf..

I will never foret every single moment we had..
Deep down inside i will remember... I love you so much..
Im gonna be fine, u trained me stronger.
Im alright. As long as u given me e promise we will get back.. I can wait...

Thou im feeling weak.. So weak.. But i try to be okay. Smiling still.. But crying inside.

Pls be good.. Don let me worry.

I miss you so much. So so much, but ii couldnt do anything.
All th best. Goodluck..

hard to leave, but i have to

everything i do.. remind me of you.
life seems so hard.. like a second with out is dying. is tearing me apartt.
you know how hard it is?

things i promised you, i will still do it.
everything between us.. i will still acomplish.
i will never make u a passerby to me. bcos u are always deep down th one i love most,
even now, everything is gone. im left alone like a empty shell.

still i wan ur return. mayb u will never comes back. mayb u will..
life gonna be real hard..

when im lying on th bed. who is gonna hug me to sleep. who is gonna acompany me talking to curly.
who is gonna chat with me till i knock off. who is gonna sayang me when im sick.
who is gonna takecare of me. what do i live for now?
who is gonna help me throw all th heavy boxes at work. who is gonna help me? who is gonna come & wait till i end work? who is gonna buy koi for me . who is gonna pei me eat dinner.
who is gonna tickle me till i scrream & roll ard. who is th one?

im breaking apart this moment. cant stop crying seriously i cant.

working tmr with tat fuckin poppin eyes.
life still goes on..
no matter how hard it is. still goes on..


for this last time im telling you.
B, I LOVE YOU.
if u found yours . i giv u my blessing.
takecare please. & lead ur life properly., anything pls look for me. .
cheerup. don cry anymore.
never wanna see u hurt...

i love you goodbye

forever. keep in my heart

Set me free

love or pride?

when you ain't feeling well i took care of you. i don care wheather how im feeling, i want you to be well. but have you ever apprecieate it? Or u think that this is wht i mus do? or i don deserve any better?
when i done smth wrong, i say sorry. when is nt my fault u angry i say sorry. isit wrong? if i never say sorry, do u think that you wud talk to me? if i never give in, will u still ignore?
I jus don understand, what more shld i do? Sorry also cant, keep quiet also cant, act blur also cant? Den what else??

Everytime whn i talk too much, u say tat im talkative or noisy blahblah.. But when i keep quiet u say i attitude??
U say i moodswong or dulan??
When i never,.. Sometimes i jus dunno what to tok anymore..

Yes, u think that im always wrong and u are right. So be it. I donwan to debate anymore or whatsoeever.
If u wanna continue this way is all up to you.

What u want, u urself is so unsure. From what i see. I dontknow.

Th way u talk hurt me sometimes, but who dosen get hurt this is what u reepply.
K fine, i kept quiet. Everybody does get hurt. Its jus ....

Sometimes i jus don understand.. K nevermind.
Is keeping ur ego and pride much more impt ???
When i treat u nicely, what i get back?
be nice cnnot. talk rude or harsh abit also cannot.

I noe im not perfect no one is..
Im noe im lousy. But i try alrdy..

I really dontknow... What do u want?




I never stop loving you. I always do..
But sometimes i jus donwan to show it anymore.
Goodnight.

hotcakes. breakapart. screamzx

heehee, my baby is so cuteee. Keep help me blog. Haha! I guess you all also blurblur who is bloggin. Laugh die..
Deres no forever promise? but for now you love me? Den what about tmr? Next mth, year? How am i suppose to believe u will continue loving me.. When u said deres no forever promise??

Mmmm. I hope we can stay tgt..

Now im gonna strive hard to move out of this place..
Every part of me feels so heavy , my brain, my heart.. So heavy..
Hoping someone wud understand. Someone wud carry a lil with me.. Mmm.

I wan hotcakes, i wan itouch, i wan chalet, i want zoo, i wan getaway ):

Someone save me out of this place..
Fml...


Clinic apointment wait untoll i die alrdy.. Haha.
Zzzzzzzz.

Ehhhhhhhhhh, bitter???
I love you, but.... At times i jus wan to stop showing it..
Bcos, i donwan to take th initiative anymore.
Lets work harder..

BLOW YOU AWAY ! *SHOOOO

her handsome cutie wawa is here to blog luh . :D

recently, she's getting so stress up with family problems .
same as me . but never mind, as long "I" strive harder,
nothing is a problem anymore . (:
moving out and stay together is what i wanted first .
but now, i guess she also have the urge to do so . hmm .

work was boring for her as i wasn't there to entertain her .
but small michelle went over and have her accompained till afternoon .
luckily she have those partners to talk to and gossip about . ~.~

today she is very very very careless . cause she forgotten to take
shop key and ended calling boss come down with a sleepy face . =x

REMINDER :
next time no matter quarrel or not, must put the key inside your wallet !

HOTCAKES HOTCAKES HOTCAKES !

I WANT MY HOTCAKESSS ~ ):

saying it for your sake . =x

Ps : there's no promise to a forever , all i know for now is ILOVEYOU !

a brave day (:

my baby is so random asking me to blog for her . But then its in my own typing . Hmm . Kinda weird thou . Cause i never tried this before .

Alright, shall help her post then . Today, i think my baby is having her most brave day . Early morning wake up, accompany her went to see doctor . Had a blood test whereby she's so afraid of NEEDLES like as if the world is ending soon . Just looking at her when she's having a blood test . End of the day, she was asked to go to nation skin centre for further check ups . Hmm . Kinda worry for her . At least this time she bomb everything out, better than one sickness after another .

after that went went back home and had a nap till night and head down to rp look for them . Slacked till 4 and went home . Right now helping my beloved baby to blogg . Wakkakakaka~

As time passes by at her house this few weeks, i realise by waking up and seeing your loved one beside you is such a happy and calm feeling . It just brighten up my days even thou i know sometimes i'm juss being attitude or showing you faces . After all, i still love her alot and promised hat i will never leave her till my breathing had stopped . (:

P.s : I LOVE YOU, baby !

We still have many many years ahead of us and we can create new memories for us too . Don't always be so negative in your thinking . Sometimes you're also a xiao qi gui alright .

Shall head back and shioshio you now while you're in pain . Oppps . What pain i won't say luhh . Muhahhahaha . ><

fuck my life & fuck your life.

hello goodbye.
a hard time for me..
Hardest ...

Continue down th road..
Cant control but they fell out.
What will th outcome be like?

Trust, love, patience, faith, courage.?

Can someone teach me how to long for a simple one?

Bcos i find me my world ur world this rs complicated.



Now, its th time that movingg.
But Everything stop.
Now, i need someone bside me..
Listen to my rants and wipe my tears away telling me, u are strong enough to go thru th days ahead.

Even if th choices is not you.
Stand up and walk all over again..
You can only keep loving. Nth else i can do.

Jus make me a happy person..

Lack of confident, secure, care, you.

why?

nobody tag me :(
alll so bo xim~
sadddd laaa :(

esp YOU!!
AGRH~

workworkwork!
everyday same!
now 7th month. don dare go out :(
faster over please!

going to sleep.
goodnight.

hardestgoodbye

somehow, no sense of security.
no sense of importance.. at times..
neglected.

at times, i feel so much like a stranger.
i dont even know whats on ur mind nor what do u want or what u are thinking thru tat min.
When i asked, all u said is nth..
but my mood have to swing according too yours. & i still have to pull them back.
mayb i cant say this is so hard.
Bcos some out dere going thru harder things.

I alrdy said i cn b dere for u when u need me.
I don mind suffer abit.
But another hand thinking, do you even need me?
At times feeling neglected.

Jus hope someone really understand me.
You know sometimes things u wrote for me out of a sudden made me feel sweet.
But when i see u in person, th feeling u giv is diff from th things u wrote.

I know, im not & i cant be th one..
I can never replaced.

You're really loving at times.
But out of a sudden u can jus change ur mood without telling me what had happen?
& i jus hav to swallow and go with it.

Th hardest goodbye is when you never even wanna leave, you have to make urself leave.

Things ain't even changing..
Its jus me in my hole, dosen want to come out.
Dosen mean im afraid of th world.
No! Im not' bcos i us wan to rrmain what i hav now..

Worth??? For now, i don know it either.
Even iif one day i might not be around in ur world.
I wan u to rmb, once dres someone, love yoyu so much before.

I'll hope tat i will always be missed by yoou.

Random post. Fml..

When i wake upp, i jus feel so insecure. And i donno whats th fuck is wrong.
You choose to hide, i choose to ride..

My sundays pass like a fast..

F, i jus feel like bursting out my brain now.

I hate this thinking. Cant i be positive more??

I need an answer,,

But nth is truth..
I rather not asked.

Bye.

woahlau i damn pissed off now. i blog for so longgggggg. Damn long den i press wrong button. Everything gone. Nbccb nbccb. I gan pua dulan now. Fuck.


Goin sleep la cb. Waste my time nia. F.



One year has pass. August...
Another national day. This yr everything is so diff.


Workingg. And so baby is
Tmr many ppl working. All cant enjoy. Shag die.

Everything is diff. Thanks to baby, i learn to be stronger and independent.
My previous post so sweet. But i press wrong nbpcb.



We hav to work hard to move out on our own. Save money for a getaway trip.

This is what u promised me.

I nv thot we are still tgt till now. After all th shits.

When u hold me, i will stay for u. As long as u need me in life,


Privided let me feel im cherished by you.

I hate usiing fone to blog. Bcos seriously is pissing me off.

Gooddnight. Everyone. Pls takecare.



Cant sleep without love by my side tonight. I miss you so much.
Time gonna be less for us.
Thinkin when is th next tyme i can see u again make me cry.
I hate to miss u, bcos i feel awful ):


jyjy for ur work. Ii will support u till e end.
I love you always baby.

Be good, and i will pampered u manymany okay.
Im so happy past few days.
Bcos baby cuddle and pat me to sleep.
Hug me from e back.
Treat me super good. Siosio me.
Make me laugh and giggle.

Do stupid stuffs to make me smile.
U are superly cuteee.
I love you so much laaa.

Hugs. U are gonna be my only one. Till my last breathe. I wan nobody else .

Anymore.

Night

getaway pls?

v sleepy & giddy now! heading to bed after i blog.

i need a getaway with babylove!
i wanna go bangkok, taiwan, korea & japan!
i need to save money for th future.
i cannot be a shopaholic anymore.
i quit.!
i don shop anymore.
i work for savings!


want to open a join acct with love when we stable down out finace!
my blog is rotting. i have no mmood to blog.
i dunno why..

i feeling uncomfortable.
i think i going sick soon..

i hate marina bay sand!
i swear im not going dere.!
RANDOM.
jus hate it so much!


baby papazao outside.
i miss her so much now!
bb gonna start work soon!
this coming monday!
our off days are clash.
time tgt will b so much lesser.
unless smtimes u stay my hus & i stay urs.
at least still can cuddle to sleep.
im gonna miss u so much my love.
i hope our love will still be strong.
i hope u wont change of heart
i hope u will always be mine!
i love u dearest..


somehow i want to hate u!
hate u so much.
i super bu shuang u!
& ur fucking life with tat fucking cb~
i jus want my things back! thats it fucker.
agrh~
sometimes, i jus wished i have never knew u bfore.
its a mistake in life to met a person like u!
u're not a man to me but a dog.
HATE U TTM!
fuck off from my life & i shall leave urs & ur memories!
everything shall be erased!
as long as i can, im not gonna think of th places we once go nor do.
get away from my life since u have urs & i have mine!
GUYS ARE SERIOUSLY BASTARD!


im contented with my life now.
even if im living in th lies, i don care too!
i have no time to bother so much.
i jus wan u with me
thats it.
if u love me, u won hurt me or cheat me anymore.
bcos i said, this is gonna be th last chance u had,
pls cherish it.
i love you baby! so much so much ..
i tried to give u th best i can.
but still i noe im useless, i don earn much at all!
but as long as i can. i give it all to you.
u're everything to me.
loves


goodnight

be with me .

at dearest house now!
camp here tonight & work tmr morning.
shag :(

i jus upgrade my medishield.
send to th insurance company see wheather is approve anot.
in case anything happen to me, at least my medical fees got coverage.

weekend faster come please!
i need money so badly.
im like so broke now!
cup noodles for lunch like straight 3 days!
how pathetic i can be?!
HAHA :(

i need pay day.
i want to do alot of things.
HEY PEOPLE! AUGUST NEED MONEY FOR TH GENTING TICKETS ALRDY!
pls put th money aside..

i needa buy some stuffs for love.
i needa do my hair & refill my make up!
I WANT TO CHANGE!
i have to gain back m own self confidence.
else im having very low self esteem now!
I NEED TO START EVERYTHING FROM NEXT MONTH ONWARDS!
not gonna look so cui at work everyday anymore!
wanna be like th lastyme make up der minyee liao!
canot lazyy alrdy.!

hair cui!
like F~
hate it so much luh~ HAISSSSSSS :(

i need some getaway outing tooo!
else im gonna stuffyyyys to death luh!

you know i jus want to be somewhere deres jus me & you!
th both of us, with no telephone. no interupt.
jus th both of us will do..
when can i? fullfill?

oh so random!
I WANT TO GO CAMPING WITH LOVE ON WEEKEND.
like staying in e tent for a night & cycle or blading in e day~
LIKE A FUN SEH~
hopeeee can ?! I HOPE LOVE WANTS LAAA :(

bb watchin teevee now.
i want to sleep alrdy~
WORK WORK WORK! SIBEH SIAN!


lil silly stuffs for my silly love. to see her silly smile!
hearts you alotssss baby!
muacks

REWINDDDDD-EDEDED~

HELLO~
i jus reach home!
gonna bathe after i blog. suddenly wan to blog leh
HAHA~!
listening to super old songs now that found in my comp. those songs are like in my mickey mp3 inside der!

TAN LIYUN MY MP3?
lollol!
RANDOM~


workingg was fine nowadaes.
perhaps i slowly used to it luh!
i loveee drmaa-ing!
HOHO!

kinda random nowww ~
anw i did a stupid thing today!
envelope wrapping agn & agn!
inside i put my hair &* i tell baby is spider!
laugh die me!
sometimes i do alot of silly things ,
but what for? JUS TO SEE UR SMILE (:

you & me , holding on..
go thru all obtacles.
with you, i always will stay by ur side.
never leave u no matter how you are, you look.
in my eyes, u are my perfection!
th cutest i ever met.
th only one i love like i had never loved before.
baby, u are gonna be mine for now till th end.
im not gonna let u go even if u wish to.
im tying u down now by my side.
HEHE!

no matter what is goinng on in future.
lets take step by step.
for now, i don wish to think or care anymore.
pls don do things to regret..
do it. & make it feel worth.
don make me leave you..
bcos u noe, i donwan to....
don regret after doing things.

iloveyou no matter how ..
i don careee any other now.
i know i myself is not pretty, not perfect, not good, not sweet enough, not rich.
not th type u wan ..
but i try to be what u wan me to be.
as long as u're happy.

start to save for my next mth pay.
IM GONNA STRIKE!
& work hard.
i hope nth goes wrong with my body..
i hope i don get sick, bcos i need to work.
i have to takecare of my love.
i wanna be a strong girl (:

alot of things i need to get for baby love.
almost every month of my pay, im gonna buy smth to pamper baby (:
smile. i need ur smile!
HEEHEE..




* i used to hate dating lastyme, bcos its seems so bored.!
i enjoying havingg double dates bcos at least dere my girl friends acompany me!
& we have so much to bitch about!
but NOW?

i love dating! i love times jus th 2 of us!
i loveee every single moment of you & me!
i felt like i have nv loved before.
like is my first rs!
like only u can drive me go crazy!
only u can make me so insane!
OH MY, BABY you make me know whats love!

i can do everything jus for you.
but i jus donwanna get back all th shits!
thats all.
i hope u noe how to cherish me, & be truthful.
don do things that make urself guilty or unhappy.
th realiity is, u're with me. u are mine!
SO COME BACK. don stay at somewhere else where u are not suppose to be.
oh i noe im so random.
jus cam to my mind luh!

i can tolerate all ur shits.
but please to give me those shits i donwant!
i donwant repeat over and over again.
its sickening.

my love for you, how much it is, how true it can be.
u urself noe it very clearly.
how much u meant to me.!

so, im not asking from alot from you.
u noe what i want.

baby, i live my life for you. not for anyone else.
without u, it will gonna be end of my life.!

HEEHEE!

BABY UH! I HAVENT BATHE BCOS IM BLOGGIN BAD ABOUT YOU!
HAHAHAHA!
okay la. go pompom le!
hugsss.

after bathe i shall wait for love to online den webcam with me!
i hopeeeee can laa (:
waiting for u my dear!
ILOVEYOUUUUU SOOOOOO !

muackkies!

goodnight.
im gonna aim for a better life!

what happens when im gone?

sorry to say.
random..


but i feel lack of care & concern from th person i need.
from th person i love, my families.

Its my body, i know.
I wasnt feeling well nowadays.
I donno wads wrong. But i feel weaker and weaker.
I put on a strong front. But im not.

Is dere any sickness or smth?
Having fever on and off for weeks alrdy.
Flu and cough,
bloated stomach.
And v painful

Now my waist feel so uncomfOrtable too.
Every part of my body is gett worst.
Mmmm, do i need to see a doctor??
But unless i admitted to th hospital lying on th bed, else they are not gonna care for me i guess.

Not asking how am i feeling today.
Or whatsoever,
I don wish to complaint how painful itis. Esp when im sleeping at night.

Sighs..

Im not afraid of getting sick, jus feeling lack of concern from th person i need?

They used to.. Care for me..
My parents used to.. My loves one used to..

Okay im not saying that they are not good or whatever. Its jus random. Thats what i think.
I feel tat no one cares abt me.

Even a text saying, are you okay? Also don have.

Mmmmm.
Finishing work soon. V xinku now. My temperature is going up. Agrhhhhh......!

Sighs

Byebye.


Anw, i miss u so much my dear.
I wan you to hug me to reduce th coldness like now?
I wan you to talk to me and make me smile.
But u seems so busy in everywhere.
Even on th phone is also hard

Its actually better not to hope for anything. At least end of th day u will get suprise. But sometymes, we jus wished some good things might happen, and we autoly look forward.
But end up nth comes ...

And so we got disappointed.


After what i have been thru, my mindset has change.

But i donwan to say what has change.. Slowly you will notice..

Its tired to think abt what is gonna happen next. Why not wait and see. Den deceided.

Don care weather im able to take it anot. Jus accept it.

im not deceiving myself.. Anymore.

I kept quiet dosen mean im lying to myself.
I accept th facts but don choose to voice them out.

Oh my, has been sleeping with baby from friday night untill now. ..
Wonder how to sleep without baby tonight. ):

Somehow u are jus so addicttive.

I love you so so much.
More den what i cud think of.

Jus felt tat u are my first love. And gonna be my last.

U gave me th power to strike. To hold th world jus for u,.

Baby, u are my everything.

can you believe?

好人做不了十天。

习惯就好。
开开心心过日子。
也许是我想太多。

do you believe in 6th sense?
mmm. Somehow i do Oh.

快乐的日子总是短暂。
要好好的珍惜。


希望有一天你会看到我的好，
懂得了解。

should i?

out of a sudden, suddenly jus prick thru my heart!
okay fuck!

act as if i don!

its not abt th trust or whatsoever shit.
i jus have no confident in myself thats it!

if wanna talk abt trust. th person have to know wheather does she worth my trust anot?
okay!

everything isnt easy at all!
u can only say im not alright!

even its killing me, i will kept quiet!
i really dontknow.
shld i? or shldn't ..

i don wanna wild guess anymore.
but sometimes truth jus float infront of me.
that i wan to runaway from all these.

i jus wan peace. thats it.
but always seems to hard to get what i wan!
why isit like this?

I DON WANT TO CARE!
FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML!!

iloveyoupig

im at baby house!
like from afternoon (:

bb fed me eat medicine!
i hate it luh! at night eat again.
make me sleepyyyyy.

im sooo angry with my parents & stayed over at bb house!
roar! if only i have th money i will leave home & rent a room outside!
you noe im so pissed off with my dad! ahhh~

i cough & have difficulty breathing! :(
wednesday start to work!
i have to recover before that!

gonna sleep soon (:
jus eaten baby lovelove maggie!
HAHAH




hearts, i love th way you hug me from behind out of a sudden.
i love th way you randomly whisper in my ears.
i love th way u suddenly appear bhind me looking at what im doin.
i love th way you kissed me out of a sudden.
i love th way u take care of me.
i love th way you get jealous.
i love th way u care!
i love th way you look at me!
i love th way you pat me to sleep.
i love th way we fold hearts & aeroplanes together.
i love th way you feed me.
i love th way we have fun tgt.
i love th way you give me that notty face.
i love th way you bully me
i love th way you love me
& i love everyway of you & me!
as long as we stick tgt as one .
i love you always ,
in everyway!


oh babybaby! i love you (;
please love me back too!

HAHA

byebye

HI FUCKER

HEY FUCKER PLS FUCK OFF!
OKAY IM KINDA RANDOM!



HELLO! NOTHING LAST FOREVER!
PLS WAKE UP & NOT STAY IN UR WORLD ANYMORE!
STOP SAYING U CANT FORGET, YOU LOVE OR WHATSOEVER TO ME!
BCOS I'VE MY OWN LIFE TO LEAD WITHOUT YOU.
& IM SO MUCH HAPPIER!
OKAY IM RANDOM LIKE NOW!
BCOS I HATE MY PAST SO MUCH!
SO FUCK IT.

PLEASE STOP ALL UR NONSENSE AS U ALRDY SAID YOU ARE ATTACHED & YOU LOVE HER!
STOP SAYING ANOTHER STORY INFRONT OF ME!
I SERIOUSLY HATE YOUR NONSENSE!
GET OFF MY ASS! & PLS FRKIN MOVE ON WITH UR LIFE LIKE NOW?!
FUCK OFF PLEASE!

im sactisfied with my life & what i have for now!
pls do not interfere anymor!
& i want all my things back seriously!
you shld noe what are they!

IF YOU ARE READING MY BLOG!
PLSSSSSSS MOVE ON!
stop saying u do love me still whereby th things u do are frkin stupid asshole!

LAST SENTANCE!
GET A LIFE!
UR TENT & STUFF IM GONNA RETURN IT TO YOU! REAL SOON!



PLS, I JUS WANNA ACT AS IF I NVR KNEW U BEFORE!
GO AWAY LIKE FOREVER!

SUA!


TH END!
GOODNIGHT

somehow

hello! Im at work now. Yawn. So bored today... Nahnahnah?! Im waitin for my dearest to wake up and come look for me! I miss you baby!

Somehow, i wan b to be happy, i wan to see her smile. And joke ard playing with me. Forget all th unhappiness but th happy moments.
I love you baby, i really do. I wanted to use my entire life to love you. I wanted to try my best to give u th best i can. Make you smile and laugh like nobody did. Cuddle with u and make u feel safe. Letting u noe tat when u need someone to cry on, scream on, bite on, lean on, im here always will be my dear.

You are part of me, i cant help myself any longer. And i donno whats wrong with me these days, i jus cud'nt control th love i had for u. Its alr so deep and yet now its going deeper. So much so much den bfore.

I love you more den myself more den anything nor anyone in this world. U are th one i wan for life, i wan in my life. For now for ever.

Baby, are u willing to love me for th rest of ur life? Are u willing to stay with me wholeheartly? Are u gonna love me only?

I don like to see my love being upset. Its hurts me too. Why? I donno. But i jus wan to protect th one i love. I won let anyone hurt my dear, yes baby, u are th one i need for life.

I know life has been hard for us., but when with me, im sure i will give u th best i cud. Jus to see ur smile. (:

I love you more den i cud imagine.
I need you more den i cud think of.
I miss u over th limits i can do.
You twist my life, and make me go crazy abt you.

You know it clearly how much u meant to me.
If you are gonna leave one day pls tell me ..
Bcos im gonna love u harder, stronger and much moree den before. So pls let me noe if u are nt gonna stay bfore i really throw everything in.
Bcos u worth my love , i said. U worth my love,

Everyone isnt perfect at all, but why in my eyes uu are th perfect one for me? Oh gosh,
Did u put some spell on me? Why am i so in to you baby?

Loveeeyou ttm!
Seeya soon.

i have th superly urge to put angkong luhhssssss baby okokokayyyyy?? Next payyyyyy?????? ):

I love u like i nv do ..

Oink. Eyes are closing.
I noe very mushy la this post. Only for baby uhssss'

truth is hurting. but i have to accept

sorry its a emo post.

i don wish to say much here.
but jus wanna post how i feel & not what happen.

very painful, hurtful.
i din't noe all this are so hard to acccept.
for 6 mths! i feel being cheated so much.

you stab me with a knife.
& leave me in to broken pieces.
i breakdown i cry.
how long more can i take it?

how much limits i have?
its alrdy over th things i can imagine,
th hurt is more den i cud take it.

i think u might as well kill me i wud feel so much better.
you noe, im so silly, silly silly!
i find myself like a idiot.
am i an idiot?
do i look like one?

chances again & again. u broke them in to pieces
for now, i cant take it.
mayb i can go depression.

but as long as u stay by my side.
i stil feel happy with u
whats going on with me.
i love you so much!
more den i mtyself cud imagine.

i nv want alot from you.
u noe it well.

v weak now.
v v v weak!

anytime i might go insane.
but i wan u with me so much.

no matter what u did.
how many lies u say
how many times u betray.
i love u still.
so much still.

i hope u wud be diff. this time round u are diff, things will really change.
i only belongs to you.
u only belong to me!

th memories we had, i really dunno isit true.
or a dream to me.
baby, pls don do it again.
i try to trust u back.
& nv leave me, no matter what im staying with u.
don let me suffer anymore. i might not be able to stand on my own anymore.

theres too much cruel things i have to accept it.
oh no! so cruel.

CAN MICHELLE PLEASE BRING ME TO TH BEACH LIKE NOW?
:(

tears eventually drop down.
i cant hold them back.


PLEASE DON HURT ME ANYMORE.
IM BEGGING YOU.
PLS LOVE ME ONLY.
PLS DON DO IT!
PLS I WAN PEACE!

I WAN A SIMPLE RELATIONSHIP WITH U ONLY

my entire

不关有多辛苦我还是会牵这你的手走到最后。

只想要你开心就好，其他的都不重要了。

一起玩，一起笑，一起闹，一起风，一起吵，一起走，一起哭，一起走过酸甜苦辣。
我永远不会忘记我们在一起的时光。

只有你，才可以让我感觉被爱。
不管你做了什么， 都没关系了。
你还爱我就好。

Though its jus 6 months. but i love u like 6million yearssss.
Hugssss

谎言

被骗第一次是无知。
被骗第二次是天真。
被骗第三次是笨蛋。
哪，第四，第五算什么？
白吃吗？

无话可说。
可能永远都不够。



假装多好。

我只是想要开心的过日子。。

真的不能只爱我一个吗的？？

我还能做什么
我真的相信你说的，
像个傻瓜）:

whats is this?

woah nvr very pain what! Neverrr la hoh??
Nvr buey tahan tears ownself drip mah? Never la hoh??
Woah nvr wan crazy liao what? Never mah hoh.

Must ren la hor. Minyee must ren!
Sibeh xin ku also mus ren.
I can ki siao anot.t pls tell me. I can anot?
Let me go crazy now plssss.
Pls allow me to do so.

I really gt so much to say.
But i have no chance to speak.
Bcos i hav no chance to meett.

Win liao. Sibehh jialat,
nv very sad mahhhh. Never la horrrr.

I can take it lahs. No problem manzzxx..

I wait only lor. I cant do anythin. Jus wait only. Wait till u appear. In my dreams.

No matter how hard i hav to ren. Understandng mahhhhh. Bo bian. I love you ma


Its ok its alrightt.

I think i have emotion disorder now. Seriouslyyy. Byeeeeee. Hahaha. Im like a clown.
Crrying at work. Zzzz.

Without me, will th world have more peace????

Minyee cannot spam fb wall! Mus ren. Cheerrrrrs.