ie think ie can ! so ie'll try (: im so boredd .

erms . todae was dam bored lurh . so sian . stay at home for e whole dae ! hahah . den woke up at 4+ watch tebee , make mye things . dhen was so bored the whole dae . ): about 6+ he cored =x ' den he told mmie he had graduated ! weeeee . congrats . hahaha ' ie noe ue wanna gibe ppl suprise so ue donwanna tell others (: hhaah . budd ie was shocked dhat ue told mie ue din graduate . den suddenly cai sae gort . erm . haish ' budd hab nth much tuu tok tuu him now ler ' lyke drifting apart liaos . when we tok we won joke around , listen tuu mye xinshi lyke b4 ! changeddd . no more liaos . budd alryte lurh , although ie still feel dha pain , feel hurt . bud now ie dun blame anyone ' cus ie CHOOSE tuu GIVEUP . mayb dhats the best wae for mie & you ! haish . so now , ie jus wanna see ue happy , see you smile . & nth else . ie dunwish tuu ask for more (: wish the both of dhem will be happie =) ' ie gibe dhem mye blessingg . aalthoug seeingg dhem together its really hurt for mmie . bud alryte . mayb ie'll get over it soon ! ie believe ie can! so ie'll try ! & ie'll b strongg . ie'll still b smilingg happily infront of ue ! being a clown . making jokes . budd actually ue won noe how ie feel ! & ie dun mind tuu (: ie hate tuu feel sad . ie wanna b cheerful as bfore . no more crying , no more ! at least gibbin a fake smile ish better dhen dripiin tears =x' 'ie understand . ie won make things difficult for ue anymmore . ie go on myeself . mmie w/out ue its still mie . so nth special ! its jus no one for mie tuu depend on =x ' bbud alryte , ie dunmind tuu ! ie believe one dae ie'll find mye own happyness . ie believe in myeself . ie won b dhat tuupid anymore . although sumtyme seeing ue will makes mmie feel dha pain , thinkin ob those memories we once hab ! was wonderful . budd its jus all memories , its over . no more . ie can think of those memories budd ie carn thinking of going bbk ! heh .
so now , nth gonna pull mie down . ie'll tell myeself , nort tuu love him , he's jus mye besttie , mye brother . dhats all ! no more doubts . no more ' nth !
no more being tuupid . its useless =)
being happy its better dhen being sad ryte ?
later grow white hair . haaa '
faster skool reopen lurh . men si ler ' so boreddddd !
iemissallmyeKLASSMATES & FWENS !
myeGANS tuu !
LOVE'EM !
UPDATE SOON .
GUDBYE MYE LOVE~

MINYEE ''
iechoosemyePATH .
ie guess tis shld b e right wae !

nomoreTURININGbbk !
findd mye happiness .
SEARCHIN for IT !

althoug its hurt seeing all this , bud ie told myeself tuu b strongg.
& act as if nth happen , its will b better .
guys ; ie gibe ue mye blessinggg alryte `

promise mmie , ue mush b happyyy (:
mrWHITE , GUDBYEEE
ie'll leaveee

thanks fer yoor cruel & hurtful answer

ie've made up mye mind . ie'll get over it . ie'll forget . ie won b dhat tuupid anymore . gibe mmie sumtyme . ie will let go of you . its useless being so upset aanymmore . we're jus impossible . kor & mei (: ielovesmyegans ' ! can ? so , ie'll try tuu let go . ie won cry cush of ue anymore . at most cut more , drink more & smk more ' dhats alls ! going out ' update when im bk !

MINYEE ''
ie'll get over it !
mrWHITE .
iehabenuff .
so im gonna let go .

KOR & MEI 184 (:
can ler mar ?
bbyeee .

ue stabb in tuu mye heart once again !
feel so hurt !

darrenNG .
kissesGUDBYE .
ieloveyounomore

ie feel hurt . th pain ish dere !

haish . tell mmie wad m ie suppose tuu do ? we're driftingg apart . ie've nort been hearingg his voice for the past 2 days , ie've been missingg him . all ie want ish jus tuu hear his voice , pei mmie tok xin shi . ie'm feeling so xin ku now (: ` im so tiredd . im real real tired . wad shld ie do ? shld ie act as nth had happen & continue tuu tok tuu him ? tell mme ? whye mush ue scold mie ? care bout mmie ? whye ? ie wanna suffer dhats mye prob . im tiredd of cryingg . wad dha point of being so sad ? he dun even care wad ! wads the point ? whye mush ie b so tuupid ? cos of him ie cry , cos of him ie cut myeself , ie drink , ie ate medicine , ie smoke , everything ish COS OF HIM ! whyeee ? can ie jus stop all thish nonsense ' ie told myeself . don cry , bud tears kip rolling down . whye ? ie hab so many quest tuu ask him , bud how can ie saE ? he's makingg mie suffer . makingg mmie feel lyke dying . wadd tuu ddo ? ie'm really tiredd , tiredd of beingg so xin ku , missingg him so & so much , jus tuu hear his voice & its so hard . whye ? jus tell mmie how ue feel , whye mush ue act lyke ue dunno anythinng , budd actually ue noe . whye ? jus tell mie straight , dun hab tuu care how ie feel . ie feel so hurt . so & so hurt . beri hurt . ish lyke im going tuu die if ie go on lyke this . he jus don understandd . ie quess ie must stop thish , ie should
nt b so tupid ! lovingg him really make mmie suffer . 9 mths .& im jus wasting mye tyme . does he wants tuu continue wasting mye tyme ? haish ' ish lyke wad ever ie do also wrong . whye mush ue control mmie ? hu do ue love ? the pain ish there . ish really theerr . ie carn take it anymore . breakingg down soon . im nort an robot . im a human , ie hab feelings tuu ! haish ' suan ler '
ib one dae both of ue goes tuugether .
ie gibe ue mye blessingg (:
as long as ue;re happy .
i'am !

ie don mindd .
ielovesyou .
so much ' ie jus carn count how much ie love ue ;
ie'm missingg ue boi !
ie miss you so much '
ie wanna nth bud tuu hear ue toking .
its so hardd .
bbyee .

MINYEE ''

ITS SO HURT .
imcrying & yet hedunno '
sadness iin mmie .
ie think of you `

imdoingnth
bud ; thinkingofyou!

IE HATE TUU SEE THE WAE IM NOW ~ !
STOP RUNNING AWAE .
FACEEE IT ! TELL MMIE ' HOW UE FEEL !
UE'RE KILLING MIE .
STOP IT CAN YOU !

darrenNGzhensheng .
ieloveyou so muchh

ieloveshim ; ie do ie do ie do !

mm . ish she refering tuu mmie ? so wad ib ie really likes darren ? huh ? ' there's nth wrong wibe dhat alryte ! haish ' shld ie bk out ? . ie dunno wad tuu do ! if darren really goes wibe her ie won noe wad will ie do . mayb anyting ' mayb everything . or tuu continue kippin quiet . haish ' im fan ! so fan ' so ie continued acting stupid ? acting blur ? acting lyke ie dunno anythin ? shld ie ? ie noe ALL ! budd jus wanted tuu kip quiet ! ie dun wann him tu get fan ! haish ' ie really hates it when he gibe mmie those hope ' ish lyke he loves mmie . budd does he ? or he's jus sayingg ? wad shld ie doo ? ie habb reallyy gort lorts ob question tuu ask him ! budd ie jus dunno ! really dunno ' haishhh ' even ib ie ask him . will he ans ? huh ? he will shure kip quiet wan ! he shure will hab nth tuu tok bk ! haish ' ie think ie shl'nt core or tok tuu him . budd wad ib he core mmie ? wadd tuu do ? he jus don understandd mmie ' waddd ever ie doo also mye fault ! don gibbing mmie care & concern ! stopp tellling mmie wadd tuu do ! STOP IT CAN YOU ? its all mye prob , ie wanna cut myeself , smk more , drink more & its all mye prob . don ue caree ! haish '' im fan really fan , it been 9 mths ' haish ' tiredd . reall real tired . stop gibing mmie hope !
yar yarh ! ie love him . ie really love . ie loves dhat idiot can ! is loving him jus wrong ?
tell mmie wadd can ie do !?

MINYEE ''.
ieloveshim .
&yesh . ie loves .
mrBAICHI (:
dhat boneless man !

he's dhat bigg bullyy .
pinchh till ie blueblackk !
im gonna hit yoor headd =x '

ie dunno how tuu describe
how ie feel now !

fcukk off ib ue don lyke '
lovinggg a person ish nort wrongggg !
so ; boi . im sorry

boi ; tell mmie hu ue loves ?

erms . was fun ytdd & sports dae tuu (: . err , orn sports dae ie was playing wibe him all e while ! he thish badd boyy , box mye headd ' hahah . dhen bu xiao xin pinch tilll his hand gort blood . ie bad lurh . hahaa . erms . dhen playy till finish sports dae jiu went off ' was his b'dae orn dhat dae (: so at night carn get e chance tuu tok orn fone longg . at nite he core mmie go his b'dae threre . budd ie din . cush dunn dare . gort erlort ppl dere . haishh ' whye he ask mmie go instead ob his gf ? whyee ? & ytdd morningg meet queeny , jonathan & yijie went tuu escape, b4 dhat ' we meet at queeny hus dwnstairs , den saw him , went tuu mit his gf . mm , ie jiu don ddare go over' jus pass him his prezzie & go awaee . haish ' was fan at that moment . dunno hu & wad he wan ! haiss' dhen was fun lurh ' ie at escape playy all e games till no voice cann ! screammm & screamm ! hahah ' im scaredd lurhh ' dhen went tuu eat at compass ' was fun ytd lorhh ' mm . dhen when reach home was waiting fher his core . bud think he won core mmie ler ): dhen jiu msg him , he jiu core mmie ' dhen tok orn fone . when his fwen was aroundd ' dhen he sent his fwen home . after dhat he ask his fwen tuu core mmie & conferece . dhen ' tok & tok he jiu put dwn sae his bro wanna use e fone , dhen sae will core bbk ' bud in e end also neber core bbk wan ! haish ' ieve waitedd till 6+ ' & wawas darm tireddd . cush ob himm ! dhen one of his fwen put dwn e fone . left mmie & one fwen ' den ie sae eberithing out ' feel much better ' he ask his fwen : she wrote sho muchh in e paper ' budd hu ish she refering tuu ? ."" dhen his fwen sae : ish you luhh "" dhen he kept quiet , wad does this mean ? huhh ? hu does he loves . & ytd nite REHTSE when tuu findd him ' haish . they meet up ' haish . den SHE kip askin HIM tuu send HER homeee ' haishhhhh . whyeee ? HE told mmie HE don loves HER ' budd things don look lyke thishh . wadd ib they goes togther . ie noe im nrot dhat preetyy . nort dhat perfect ' dhats whye he won gonna chose mmie ' haish ' she only waited for onlie how longg , bud wad bout mmie ? 9 mths ! cush ob him . things changedd ' haishhhh ' its hurt . huer tuu see dhat ' she pass him his present ' shld ie bk out ? m ie lose ? haishhh ' telll mmioeeeee ` how can ie do w/out him ? how can ? ie feel so weak now ' he hasen been auto nowadaes . ie donno whye . izit cus of her ? she the6y goes tugether . ie carn do anything , jus tuu gibe him mye bllessingg & wait fher him . dhats all ie can do ! ie feel so hurt now ' so dam fcukingg hurt ' ish lyke im dyingg . he jus won understandd' lovingg ue jus makes mmie sufferrrr . ie hates & ie really hates .
think shall stop here ler '
ytdd nite , HEY GUY '
thanks fer letting mmie sae out all those things & let mmie feel better .
thanks lots . ie finally understanddd '
budd im jus afraiddddd .
BYEE .

MINYEE ''
ielovesWHITE .
boi ; ie donno wadd tuu do .
ue sae ue'll b mye listener
& a shoulder tuu lean on .
buddd was that jus SAYING ?
haishhhh '

GUDBBYEE .
ie shall go '
& ie mush .
its tiredd . really tiredd
tuu continuedddd .

ie hab no strengthhh !
holddd mmie titeee .
im weakkkk `

killmmie '
torturemmie .
makes mmie suffer..

sumtymes , ie rather act lyke ie dunno anything
rather dhen ie noes . cush its jus hurttt ! ): ie cries