Hope it'll last

im awake alrrr.
going to prepare soon.
meeting bb later on .

everyday so nuaaa .
go home late wake up late!
Lol. can die uhs.

tonight going plaza meeting my clique alrr (:
so sorry ytd cannot make it :D

alright. gtg. updates tonight kaes.

really very unhappy when ur ex call you or whatsoever.
but i jus donwan to say it out.
even if im sad i still will remain silence.
everything i do, i do for you.
babyiloveyou.

tatas

Happyhappyhappyyyyyy

hello bb.
LOL.

i jus rch home ard 6+am.
& im damnnnnnnn tiredd .
but still wanna pei bb talk on th fone till she rch homee (:
& wait for bb to online.
see im so good right?
LOL..

okaey luhs.
spend my day wit bb .
all th wayyyyy , like a MAGNET (:
laughs.

i jus love th way you look at me.
th way you sayang me when im tired.
th way you joke with me.
th way you bully me. -.-'
th way you make me shy
th way you kissed me
th way you hug me.
i jus love you in everyway.

HAHAHAHA.
is liike sort of embarrasinggg .**

i dunno like why m i so happyyyy .
& is jus like a dream!
hope what you told me jus now is'nt jus for th sake of saying.
jus hope is true alrrrright.

i told you i don like you to text whatsoever ppl that i don liike.
hope you don do so.
i belive what you told me.
you wont reply. & i hope you really wont.
if you do i also LL.

bb you really make me damn paiseh at times. wtf.
i jus dunno why..
but i like (:

okaeyy luh. jus hope what you say is true.

not sure meeting antt .
tmr meeting my clique (for sure)

everything so happening.
lol.

loveyoub.
goodmorning cum nights.

stick to you like a ssuper glue.
hahas.




at times im not happy but i jus don wan to say it out.
hope u can see from my impression & make me smile.
though at times i smile. but deep inside, still im sad.
cus i care .
cus i love .

prove to th world you're not fooling ard with me :D:D
hugs

how long will we hold together?

i dont expect much from you.
all i want is you to love me & stay with me as long as you can (:
i hope everything is not a dream, when i woke up everything is true.
yes is true.
bbloveme . :D

okaey luhs.
everything is true. & i hope it last.
i donwant what stupid honeymoon period ok bb.!

going prepare alr.
meeting bb later onnnn . (:

byebye.
i hope this is what i want.
i hope i will be happy this way!
i hope everything wiill go smoothly.
i hope you will nvr change of heart!
i hope we can hold on togetherrrrrrr .
i hope u wont leave me alone.

this all you promised me?
iloveyoubb.
hugs

010110

Happy new yearr peeps!

2009 is overrrrr & now is 2010!
thats really damn fast.
speedinggg .

im happy, but veryyy veryy moody when bb not with me.
fcuk it.

met bb at my hus here.
vivo with manyu,layping,sheri&me.
den wanchin came.
till 1 like that trained to 401.
den hg plaza for l4d & pool.
damn alot of people.

tmr i dunno where to go yet.
but im meeting bb. (for sure)

A new year a new start for me !
& yes, bbiloveyou

abit for moodswing tonight.
i noe i shld not moodswing tonight!
buttt . . . . .

very sad , that when i rch home bb fall asleep.
she's online but sleeping.
call also nvr piick up.
msg also nvr reply.
i knoe u very tired. i cant blame u for sleeping lah.
but i jus hope to tok on th fone with u.
its ok alrrrr .

when you're not ard, i always start to think nonsense that makes me moodswing.
i dunno whats going on .
but when you're ard, my mind is only you.
all i want is to be with you.
cus ily.

i hope you'll cherish every moment being with me.
being truthful,faithful or whatsoever.
jus don lie to me. & thats enuff .

hope you wont change after somtime of honeymoon period!
ok ?

sad to say ,
im not happy now ,
want to chat with bb.
but... nvm .
don tok abt it.

lastly ,
accept me for who i'am.
but still im trying to be th perfect one for you.

k luh .
iloveyoubb.
always rmb all th promises you gave . :D:D:D:D

2010 is cominggg

morningggg!
i jus wake up.
& im late for meeting bb alr.
but still i got th mood to blog. dunno why!
laughs.

okaey luhs.
after meet bb den meetmy clique .
mayb going vivo or whatsoever.
i also dunno!
wondering what should i wear lahhhhhh.
no more killer heels! im lazzy to wear heels anymore!
not like th past.

later go dig my wardrobe alrrr .
im so looking forward for 2010.
perhaps is jus a new year. but to me its not okaey!
is somthing special!
LOL.

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
wants to club tonight.
but comfirm pack one.
so see how situation luhsss!

i got a dream agnnnn !
also similar to bb leavingg me .
wtf.
i dunno why i keep haviing all these kind of dream can?!
so scuks!
i jus hope all my dreams are not coming true.
this dream bb&curly go missing somemore sia!
fcuk.

okaey luh.
preparing le. late liiaooooo !
LOVES

L-ove You

Hello people!
im back home!
is really tiringgggggggg.

A fcuking slacking day today!
& my money left with 6bucks!
how pathetic :(
damn poor nowwww!
have to fan abt my fone bill later on!
i donwan to get him into trouble so i paid my bills every month.
wth! alot of probs lah. i needdd moneyyyy!
alr stop shopping for very long like a week alr.
damn saddddd :(
now not like lasttime everyday online shopping.
once or twice a month. :(
controlllllllll :x

IM SLEEPY NOW! VERY SLEEPY.
bbiloveyou.
<3

later after 12am is 2010 alrrrr!
A NEW BEGINNING WILL STARTS TMRRR!
right b?
LOL.
shhh. secret !

010110 COOL UH!
counting down tmr with clique.
but afternoon if possible den meet b.
see how lo. i sibei tired plus lazy can!

k lah. tired le.
night.
so long don have happy post like today. else is those attitude post.

sorry bb, jus now attitude u agn.
LAUGHS.
BUT NOW OK LE.
don make me attitude u back.


ilovethwaywearenow.
hopehoneymoonperiodwillbelongerrrrrrr .
laughs.
thankyoubbforalwaysgivinginwhenialwaysventangeronyou!
thankyouforgiviingmethstrengthtoholdon.
&hopeeverythingreallyend.
&iloveyoubb

tata
im trying to bbe th perfect one u wanted me to be.

Fcuk Bad Dream

Wtffffzx.
total 3 days 11hrs sleep onlyyy.
today 4 hrs.
i dunno whats wrong lah. but i cant get to sleep.

bcos i got a bad dream !
wtfffzx!
was sleeping at 5am like that.
den woke up at 7am to call b.
after that sleep back & fcuk dreamt till scary manzx!
i dream you like both of my bestfriend.
is like so wth right?
sooo . . . . one lor.
& its so real.
hope what u promise u will do it.
hope u wont lie to me.
when i woke up is 9am plus.
i cant get to sleep. everytime when i close my eyes i see th images or u & them.
b, prove it to everyone. u're not lying.
okieeeeee ?

when i dreamt of all this i woke up & think of u.
all i want is you to tok to me.
to calm me down.
& yes, you did it.
thanks b.

loveyouuu .
im going to sortthings out.
but im scared.
i really dunno what to say anymore.
but jus hope everything will have a ending!

:D
tata. going prepare.
loves

Sssss-orry

yes, im having moodswing.
or can say almost everynight.
when i heard lil things i don like.
& i'll start to imagine nonsense!
is really like so WHAT THE FUCK!

when can i stop my swinging.

im sorry that you always have to tolerate my nonsense.
& thanks for not adding probs on my probs
<3

i donno what happen.
but when i heard things,
i jus don feel good.
or can say, im upset.

very easily atttude becos of someone.
i wonder why.
mayb i care too much alr.

fuck everything.
i donwanna care.
i jus wanna hold on with what i have now & never let go.
as long as i still have th courage & strength to do so.
im holding on...
hope u do so.

im damn tired nowwwww.~
my eyes is closing soon!
& yeah, my parents is backk !
loveeeitla.
im not alone alrrr .

my bro keep toking abt th trip. & is pissing me off.
my dad bought all th expensive stuff for him.
even a phone!
wtf. i donwanna show that im jealous but he kip hao lian to me.
fcuk lah.
i dunnid anything.


tata.
lovebb.
night

Rrrrrrrr-andom

im home today.
nvr go out. but mayb later on.
im very lazy to prepare now.
nua onn th bed. lol..
sorry girls. meet u all at night..

gettiing more & more sick
i think bcs i nvr takecare of myself.
i fucking does'nt have th mood to do so.
i dunno why
still can eat chips!
cough tll can pull my lungs out manzx.!

i dunno why having moodswing agan.
not feeling goood.
sorry, i attitude.
but i jus don like everything thats happening.
im scared, worried.
you'll leave.
i want to stick like a glue together & not me leaving , u leaving or blahblah!
alot of things suddenly came to my mind.
& i hate it so much.

sorry tht i attitude u.
thanks for noe-ing that when i moodswing u siam!
...
jus let me think alone.
thankyou.



loveyoub.
donworry

you know im so pissedddd offfff withhh somebodyyyy
i nvr even fyucking treat u lik a fool.
i once love u so much bfore.
i once given iin so much.
this lil favour & u say i treat u like a fool!
I THINK TH REAL FOOL IS ME!!?!!!!!!
FOR GIVING IN SO MUCH.
spending so much.
u can nvr return th rest or ur life ok!
i nvr ask u to out tattoo of my nme.
tat u urself wanna put.
i paid for ur tattoo & th money u also nvr return.
i also LL. ur bike all this also.
i diamdiam alr. den now what u say to me is this fucktard rubbish.
THANKS FOR MOVING ON!
I LIKE IT.

Sleepless Night!

alr been 2 days & i only slept 7hrs.

ii cant get to sleep..

everytime when i close my eyes things you said keep goiing thru my mind.

who is going to understand me when i tried to understand someone else?!

do you i alr tried my best to follow what u told me.

but sumthings jus rrreally to hard to me to do it.

every step i take i haave to think of you.

think of how u feel.

den whose going to think of how i feel.?!

please dont pull me down

IM TIRED TIRED OF EVERYTHING.

whats th next step i can walk?

to stop or to contnue?

or to even bang wall?

should i leave this place?

i alr tried my very best to do th best i can.

but things dosen seems to work.

perhaps im too useless!

everything jus don go right.

or this is what a bitch shld deserve?

den serve me right den.

fuck it.

at times i feel like giving up.

carrying everything alone.

tired of all this misunderstanding.

but how can i give up when i dun even noe how?

jus trying to be stronger will helps.

ii got this feeeling.

IM FAINTING SOON.

i dunno why.

but, iloveyou.

sorry for my serious attitude prob now!

or today.

but im having mood swing!

LOVES

loveyouloveyou

hello..
i nvr sleep from yst.
only like a few hours.
very tireddd , but i cant get to sleep.
i dunno whats going on.
everytime when i close my eyes i think of those thing you said.
its hurt, but i have to accept it.
cus you're my friend.

i've got no other choice.
but trying my best to follow what you want me to do.
but this is really killing me.
i know is part of my fault.
i have got no rights to comment.

once feeling is fade,
no matter how hard you want it to be back.
it wont be anymore.
if you love, let go.
if you love, blessing is th only thing you can do.
but not holding back somthing that can nvr return.

yes my fault for falling for th wrong person.
but things is beyond our control.
you cant control who u wanna like.
things jus happen too fast.
i don even have th time to think back.
whats going on with me.

i hate to lie.
i don wish to lie.
i dunno what to do.
& tell me whats our next step?

its really tiring continue this kinda thing.
but its even tiring for me to let go.

EVEN IF I LET GO , WILL YOU LET GO OF ME?
IF I DISAPPEAR WILL YOU IGNORE?

things ain'nt that simple as you think.
u're too naive alr.
dont put so much confident in everything.
cus disappointment will really be alott.

im not working for now.
holzzz for myself.

back to blog tonight.


loveyoub)):
yawnssssss.
take a nap uhs.
& see a doctor later on..




MISSED

Move On

text-ed me just now.
told me to return those things back to you.

outside your house.
now, thngs bcome diff.
used to be outside MINE house.
& now.
is not .

deres good & bad.
its good that becus this really shows that YOU PUT EVERYTHING DOWN.
you alr MOVE ON. .
hope u're happy with what u have now.
but i dunno why do i feel so fuck up.
i knoe i takes thing for granted.
but i jus don like this.

as if, i dump you.
but u live even happier dhen me.
MUCH MORE HAPPIER THEN ME.
why cant i be like you?

why cant i live even much more happiier den you?
i want to!

but i cant.
probs one after another.

PERHAPS I REALLY DIG OUT ALL YOUR THINGS.
& give you back.
NOW ALR NO POINT.
thinking about it.
2yrs so what?
EVERYONE IS MOVING ON.
no forever.

MEMORIES I WILL TRY TO ERASE IT ALL!
you gain everything. you lost nothing.

BUT ME?
I GIVEN EVERYTHING.
& NOW I LOST EVERYTHING.
you won.


lets draw a clearer line now.
from now on, i wont be worried abt are u fine, are u moving on. are u happy with ur life.
from now on, i don care. is your life.
takecare

lovessssss .

<3

Hello everyone.
im back from my overseas trip!
got miss me?
sure got right? lol


erm. went to shandong & shanghai.
was damn fcuking cold till im sick now!
my face are damn dry till my skin painpain.
was around -2-9 degree.
damn cold lah.

pictures will upload tonioght or when im free.
ok,
im ggoint out. update agn
going out now.



i dunno how to face everything now.
i jus feel like hiding & nvr come out.
its hard for me to face th truth.
i cant control what i want it to be.
i can only go with th flows.
im sorry very sorry.

i jus wanna runaway.


to somewhere farfar .



Loves.
bye