we live

i want a better future!

i dont understand why im so afraid to trust u back.
why do u have to crush me down again and again.

now i need to build all over again....
please dont pull me down again!
its not easy...


my heart is too small to fit.

i still cant overcome th fear in me. i dont know how to face u. or believe u.
i hate myself .... for loving u again n again..
how i wish my heart is dead.

please.... let me have peace ..

getting higher ;party like a rock star babe!

i went to sentosa for tanning today! k the sun was hot enough and luckily it din rain! happy max!!!
im like burnt now but like it`~

k bored, everyday work work work! end work go home eat sleep work work work!~
everyday same de! damn shag!

always $$$ not enough! damnmylife.
how i wish i can go back school life, no stress de.!
not like now, need pay tis and that! :(

i will try not to let my blog rot kay~ sometime damn lazy to update!!

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im going back sk liao, hungryhungry!

byebye






love ; is the key to my heart!
forever in ur heart.


dance dance dance *

when tears make someone stronger

Things had.changed so.much from e past till.now,been thru real different stuffs. And yet still back to squareone. What does all this mean??


Life hasnt been.good during September, and hope October is a new start.

Situation really make human grow up. And im really glad i became stronger each time i fall.



Life.is just so amazing that miracles and impossible stuff always happen. What we have to.do, face it accept.it. FUCK.it ((:

when you find ...

I think of you all the time,
Could something happen to me... We have been searching for love
Everyone deserve to have i guess.. Nor its a good or bad one we hav to accept it.

If someday, what would you do ..
God, i have many random thoughts and its like running wild..
I DONT want history to.happened again, so what else ...
Could love jus stay here and not run ..

有些话我永远都说不出口，对不起。。

你一直在我心里。我的灵魂以经走了，快把我找回来，我不想离开你。
都怪我，好笨好笨。
你要勇敢哦!!
有些东方一直留在我心里就够了。










我爱你。。。你呢?
我好想离开这里哦!!!

happy birthday to you.

happy 22nd xingyu! All th best in everything you do. (:



I know i cant give you what you want, i know i cant be compared to her, when she leaves you , you are much more worst den now when i leave ya. So how much i can see, im still not that impt. U still can live without me.

Sorry tat i given u this lousy bday.
And now i know. U have ntg to blog abt us this few days, u have ntg to talk abt me. U made me feel that im not th one anymore and that makes me confused. Perhaps.......

Who did put on effort who didnot i can see.

For people that dont think without saying. Just don need u to appear in my life to give me anymore trouble.

Just fuck everthing.

when you say love, do you really know what it is?

lets th picture do th talk ..

i feel that, im staying in my own world.. im living in one corner when no one is gonna see or find me anymore.

that weird feelings inside me, i dislike it. and its tearing me apart. jus wanted to cry them out.

i need somebody here tonight.

there's nobody ...

life has been changing slowly, i dont like th changes, but isit good or bad?

its about you or me?

whats wrong with this life? im so sick of it.

i got to achieve what i've promised.

dying inside...

when its time to... den do it.

i would sacrifice my time, my life for you.

meaningless ..

goodnight. :(

im feeling random. ima sorry.

treat me well and gently, for now im fragile.

handle with care.

goodbye

i need motivation !!!!

2010 YEAR!

2007 YEAR

SADDDDDD LAA! im gonna buck up!! i need my last time figure back! really!!!!!! JIAYOU HAU MIN YEEEEEEE!!!

SLIM DOWN PLEASE :(

If i know what love is, it was because of you..

A life lived in love will never be dull.

when we are still unclear which path are we walking towards to...

don't think, just go do whatever you want, just go ahead and be happy is what we're looking for.

because when there is love, there's no question.

When the world feels like it's on your shoulder, look at the person next to you and see what they are going through. Don't take life for granted. Love the one that loves you, because sometimes we don't get a second chance.

life hasn't been really good without a job nao. :(

when i say buck up, i don't see myself bucking up! awwww.

but now, seriously i gonna buck th fuck up yeah~

else how to save for bangkok you tell me?!

firstly, i needdddddd a job badly!!!

secondly, i wanna try and physco my dad see whether i can get money from him for new year clothes, else really wear newspaper liao! im already pathetic enough for not shopping for 1 yr plus already. pls understanding abit lemme buy luh!?

thirdly, i need money to prepare for somebody birthday party.

fourthly, i need money again for her bomb birthday present.

fifthly, start to save for bangkok!

i also don't know enough time anot. like wtf seriously!

shagggggggggg :(

till now, i still don't know whats new year clothes themes this year.

casual? lady like? insanity? or what? LOL.

aiya, mixedd bah, how i wish im tall enough for a maxi. :(

i seriously need to adjust my bodyclock, and now birds are chipping skies are blue, im still not asleep yet. gosh.

cmi cmi really cmi liaoz.

heading to my room soon.

gooooodmorning cum night!

In the end, it's still best to wait for the one we want rather than settle for what is available. It is still best to wait for the one you love rather than settle for the one who is around. It's still best to wait for the right person, because life is too short to waste on the wrong one.

Darkness isn't the absence of light... it's the absence of you.

define th word love.

It's a long road when you face the world alone, when no one reaches out a hand for you to hold. You can find love if you search within your soul, and the emptiness you felt will disappear.

A change is good for me, for I must learn now how to live. With you I've spent many nights, and can no longer survive without your touch. I need to learn now how to live for myself each day, and when I learn the biggest task, I can finally call myself independent.

i could not help myself anymore, let nature take it course and i'm tired, i just need sometime to be myself, to love myself more.

there's no other words to describe how i feel now. we're on different places. different world, different mind.

i tried to control these. but it couldn't work on it anymore.

define the word love for me. i want to know what's love to you.

How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?

i could remember every word you said, because it hurts me deeply inside and smiling outside.

and i will never forget all the times we once had.

th best thing that you've gave, is MEMORIES.

nothing good will happen to me, ever since...

i know i know, its alright! i'm going to be okay.

because, i deserve it.

i know one day, someone will see me.

one day, god will return all back to me.

is fair, everyone deserve happiness.

no matter good or bad, i will be happy.

i would not let anyone affect me anymore.

take it or leave it.

just don't hold to something that leads you to misery.

if you think i'am . ...

i can only say, i have never love somebody so hard before.

i have never do all these before.

i don't want to be friends..

i want to have a future.

please don't let me fall.. thankyou.

i love you

&& everything was wrong..

Never cry over somebody who would not cry over you

we cannot keep this on

let go of your past, go on to your future, this is life and what we are born to be like. no point still misses th person, so what if he or she still think or needs you? Whats past is past. Dont bother to brood abt it! Jus move on.
Its 2o11 and i still feel like 2o1o cos things still sucks like hell. I hope things would change eventually one day, till people actually notice me, or need me in thier life. As for now, i dont wan anything, but to earn money. And stay with my friends.
Time flies, its been one yr alr, but our rs still always unstable and im so tired of it, our attitude and character jus cant matched. Maybe someday , somehow people will change for me, for th sake of happiness within..

Love? Do we even understand love?
Being tgt we have to stand by each other, knwing thier weakness and tolerate with them, and built them up. Are we doing This? Do we understand love?
I seriously hate to miss somebody when th person don seems to wanna meet me. It sucks like hell seriously..
Th worst part is when im feelin so sourish and hurt inside, i mus act as if i don care kinda attitude, i don like it so much.
People actually dont understand me that well as it seems,
Thinking that im childish?
so wads th big fuck? Have u ever seen me talking things out in a mature way, i do. But v rare, bcos i wana be a happy girl and not somebody who always look so serious in everything. AiNt thier life so boringgggg?

Talj? If u are unhappy jus talk.. Don think jus talk.
This is me, i don like using my brain, so ima stupid person..
I think stupid sounds cute! Don you? Lol.
I don care about others but you. Do u noe? U dont..

Always thinking that when i say this, i really meant it. Cant you see whats th meaning behind all these anger? One day, one day when i don get angry or care, something will be wrong very wrong.
Want th day to come??

What a girls wan? Haha, good question..
I can answer it out, but not tday. Im ysing my fone to blog. And my hand is tired. Hahaha



Goodnight.
Not meeting for more den 48hrs i think.
Cool or wad?
Miss you like dog.
But nvm its okay, im going thru it.
This is life, accept it denn.

Byebyeee, hand suan suan le.
Tday like mo shui only...


I read books!