HAPPY DAY

work was tiring as is like morning 8.30am!
lol.. till 2+
leave work ard 3+ cus went lunch wit wc.
after work bussed to meet bbjie at hg plaza for k.
den pool with sheri, marilyn & bbjie. till 9+
cabbed home. & yihua came my hus too.
borrow frm me dress (:.
10.30 like that they left.

jus finish webcam with lp, py & sheri.
& jus now mich too.
webcam picture upload tmr ok. tired le.
tmr another woking day..

no money agn. wtfcukzzx!
trying to avoid my dad as much as i can.
he tried to tok tu me. but i try to walk away.

" im so happy at night. i dunno did i make it obvious or what,
but im damn fcuking shy. wtf. i cant believe this can happen to me okaey.!
okk, i cant gib myself any hope. minyee , its impossible. stop going in!!!
i cantt continue loving him as i noe this does'nt work!
how long m i able to be like this manzx. wth!
okaey lah.

night .(:(:
early sleep. goodgood. tata

Let It Be ;

Ima good girl today yeah,
rch home ard 11 like that. hahas.
after work cabbed down to hg plaza for 3-4 rounds of pool only.
den cabbed home. guai right? & th most guai thing is ima going to sleep alr (:
at 11.30pm. still pm & not am yet . broke record?!
CUS TMR IM WORK 8.30AM! U NOE IS AM ?!! omg.
dunno if i can make it ant. i hope i can (: hahahas .
everythhing was fine .
bill paiid. but balance $82bucks ii have to cleared. & total include nextmth will be $100++ again!
hahahas. once is delayed. forever it will delayed!
fcuk right? but i'll settle it slowly luh.
abt my stolen money, don wish to tok bt it.
ever since tat incident, i havent tok tu my dad yet.
fcuk right? attitude cb.
&& don think of mee toking to him when he's not asking that bastard to return my money.
fcuking bastard coming out agn. fcuk!

mayb from now on every weekend i stay aunt hus.
cb fcuker .

okaey lah.
wanna ssleep le.

days passes, & u kept silent.
shld i take th first move again?
:(
are u okay? are u fine? ii hope u are.
okaey. tata, bye

Told You So

work today.

& tmr.

after work went to slack till 2+ den homed.

tmr no more slacking. mus go home after work.

cus thurs i work 8.30am siaaaaa., omggg .

how to wake up??!!

ok lahs. going to sleep soon alr.

dl songs till tired le

hope thiings will be getting better day by day.

ii wish i can have a wonderful bufday.

& wants to go zoukout on th 12dec. hope can.

agrh. so many things im doing on dec. bufday, overseas, club, countdown.

lol. hoppe dere will still be event having on when i come back from overseas.

& really looking forward to see snoww! what the?!

hahahas.

k lah song done le. wanna orhorh liao. tata byebye

& thnks for everythings.

whats going on

EDITED ; 3.03AM
jus rch home ,
went to meet lp&wc to slack & have hearts to hearts tallk.
LOL. family things can chat till so late!
hahas. though im very sad.
but now alright le.
as long as im not alone, have ppl to pei me.
once cried , enough!
weent to eat kway chap. craving! hahas.
okaey lah. wanna sleep soon. also dunno tmr work what time.

thou this fews days was'nt my days.
many things happen breakingme apart;
but i belive i'll be fine .

: thankyou , as for yours i'll return u asap.
i don wanna own u anything. jus thanks alot .
for all your hlp thou i've let u down. thankyou





i dunno what is happening to me.
i think ii cant hold on anymore.
lil things make me feel weaker & weaker.
i think im dying .

i got no strength to hold on anymore.
im tired of everything that is happening to me.
though is lil things.
burt all lil things can make me fall..

im too weak for this.
when no one is supporting me, loving me, caring me.
th reason to make me weak.


i can tolerate stayin at home.
th worst i guess.
thinking so much when im so alone at home. wtf.
i hate everything right now.
so much.:(

going out mit lp soon.
cant take it any longer

Damn it :(

Why is all this happening to me?!
wtfffffzxx .
i jus recieved my fone bill & is $120 for 3 mths.
u noe wht im angry with?

EDITED ; THINGS THAT IM ANGRY WITH IS'NT IMPORTANT ;
SETTLED . BUT . . . nvm .

hais , how i wish i can go disappear now!!
plss let me get out of here.!
how i wish my parents are willing to hlp me but i noe they wont.
they will jus leave me dead dere.
:(
everything jus happen out of a sudden.
agrrhhhhhh !

TODAY IS ONLY TH9 NOV.
HOW TO SURVIVE WITH THAT FUCKIN $70BUCKS INSIDE MY BANK?
WHEN THAT CB TOOK MY MONEY!


ok whatever.
how i wish he's by my side now.
or jus cheerring me up.
but still ,
im waiting.
he's busy now i think.
hais. who can be dere.
im tired. of everything that is gonna happen...

hope after january, things will slowly buck up.
slowlyslowly.
im still trying very hard.
but really im tired.

after work homed straight.
i really need some rest.
cried at work also.
no mood to elaborate lle.
hais.
tata

You'll Get Yours Too! Fcuk Youu

Hais. Fcuking bad day i can say.!
seriously, not my day manzx:(
can say when i woke up cry till after work still can cry de lor!
what thheee :x

wake up ard 3+ ;
late for work. den wants to open my drawer see my money.
wah nvr lost mah! pcb. comfirm is him de lor.!
knnnbcb!
ownself gt money still steal steal! THEIF!
cb siah. not th first time i can swear!
more den 3 times alr.
every weekend ii lost money.
i kept quiet does'nt mean i don care.
when i got money u steal i kip quiet!
but what th fcuk! im fcuking saviing nw jus for my overseas trip
& u took my money at th fcuking wrong time.
this time u nvr took lil amt but alot.
fcuk cb !
wah damn pissed till cry i tell u!!!!
if u eever pass by my blog im saying u! yes it u!
stop taking my money okae! but don worry, whats mine im gonna get it back.
fcuking don care if u're beating me to death or fuck.! im gonna take evceryhtiing back!

th worst thing is when i tell my dad,
he even blame me for putting my money anyhow.
please lor. i put it inside my room, inside my drawer.
other den my maid no one else goes in to my room except for th bloody theif.
think ur gf shld be blind i gues! u failure
my dad even says he's busy ask me not to bother him with such things.
okaey. if my dad wiill to return me th money he took i lanlan.
comfirm i kip quiet one.
but wtf, he;s not!
den how m i going to survive this mth when he took allmy money!
wah say liao damn sad ok! PISSED LAH.
dads wants to tok tu me as he noe im crying.
but i return home too late he slping le.
cb sia. everytime he steal no one will scold him.
cus HE IS ALWAYS RIGHT!
wtf, if u nvr steal u so agitated for what fcuk!
fcuking got th cheek to scold me when u took mine.
& u're elder den me? don u feel shameful?
i feel shameful for u pls.!
pls don book out & stay in dere forever manzx.
bring shame to us u bastard!

wants to open UOB account. though i alr hav one account.
but another wants to do it for savings.!
damn pissed.

:'( i feel like everytime things happen,
everyone in th world is blaming me.
izit really my fault! why everyone blamingme?!
ii dunno what else can i do.
i jus donfeel any love from my parents & not like lastyme aymore!
izit bcos i grow up thats why?
hais.
they simply bcome more & more bias esp to my bro:(
can sumone tellme what m i to them?
do i belongs in th family.!? do i?
i want to runway.! go to somewhere they can nvr find me agn.
i wan to earn more money to live on my own.
i need no one! as they don love me anymore.
im still human. i need pamperation!
fcuk them la! no mood.
jus feel so left out u noe.
say le also wanna cry.....

from i stay working when i was 15 or 16 i stop taking money from home.
even when i was young my parents don buy thing for me.
only buy for both bros.
as they always say i've alr.
but what i hav i acheive it myself. even when i was young. i save it alone~
till i start workng worst. go sch also nvr take money le.
den till now. i earning on my own. even my own bills.!
& not like my bro.
he's still using dad money even when he's 18 & 19 too! fcuk right.
everyting seems so unfair! :( sorry lah. cery worrdy post.

all rants!

hais. donsay le.
better live on my own.

nights. this week chiong work.
no time for slacking. work work work!!!!!!


bye
sadddddd