darkness ?

fcuk all th negative agn.!
& my irritating attitude~

firstly, i shld'nt be so kaypo go see.
when i know is something that i don like .
yes, im jealous! why must you take th initiative to comment?
why must you use those words on someone when you uses it to me before?
fuck, thats sucks! but i donwanna talk about it..
i don wanna argue about it.
jus take it as nth happen.. enough is enough.
im not gonna argue bcos of this kind of thing.
once i blog, over! donhave to tok abt it anymore.
yes, very unhappy..
at least you know what im unhappy about!
if you think im unreasonable, so be it.
jus think agn, what if i do th same thing.
HOW wud u feel?

at times i really dunno who you going out with,
meeting with! u can tell me u're with this person.
but another hand, i heard that another person is coming.
you will nvr take th initiative to tell or let me know isit?
if i nvr go see, i don even noe a single thing.
mayb im so simple. easy to toyed or lie to.
i;ve said, tons & tons of time!
we must have NO SECRETS!
no matter who or what pls tell me.!
i donwanna be like a idiot!
mayb im jus beiing unreasonable.
den give me a better reason to be more reasonable please!

yes, all rants!
im unhappy, jealous, upset, &pekchek

m i really suppose to trust you?
shld i really believe you 100%?
WHO M I TO YOU?
& WHAT M I?
how long will you hold me on.

negative thiings keep coming thru my mind.
yes, im tirred now.
veryyy . . .

after this post, im fine.
i believe i can be fine!
love&missyou b.
hughug.

sleep early.
text me when u wake up or what.
loveeee

youstepintomylife

days with bb flies.
3more days to our 1mthsary.
spending days togetherrrr,
time flies too.
nvr ever we have enough of sticking together.
eerveryday like glue also not sian one!
hahas. i jus wanna spend everyday of mine sticking with you like this.
talking shit, bein reatarded & making you smile.
i love it so much when bb is smiling for th whole day.
hughug.

off today, small mich waited at my hus from 1+ till 3pm
bbjie came. haha, den all waited for me at my hus till late 5pm
den we went to eat.
hahahas. i really good at nua-ing ehh.
went hg plaza for few rounds of pool afterthat bbjie went back frst.
den me & small mich went to compass to wait for my bb.
&& bcos i wanna see something.
agrh ! but now no money yet. damn sad can?!
my savings & everything only 30bucks can?!
though daddy giving me money everyday like 10bucks only.
either cig or cab fare jiu finish le. where got enuff?
Lol.

tmr another working day.
shaggggg.
bb havent online.
:(
anyway going sleep alr.
need to work luh!!
goodnight.
byeee .



&bb, rmb th chalet thing?
we mus save to do it!
march harr. LOOKING SO FORWARD.
honeymooonnnnnn (:(:
loveyoutothmaxmybb.
muackmuack!!!
when u read this mayb im sleeeping.
WARNING* u better faster go sleep after u do ur fone thing.
tmr need to wake up go collect fone ok!
guaiguai..
goodnight bb.
happyhappytoday. (:

Thfirstandthlast

im home ard 3+ jus now..!
went to work at 9am todae. yes late for a hr!
&& very tired okaey..

after work 2+pm waited for bb to fetch me.
but nope, she nvr come.
i bus-ed home myself to wait for bb to come to my hus.
watch drama & slack at my hus.

ard 7+ we went to have our dinner.
den 8+ we went to hg mall & hg plaza for pool
anddd slack till 2+ & we walked home.
after bb send me home she cab-ed home.
& now waiting for bb to online. dunno why so longg.

hahas, i have been using bb fonr for 2 days.
i likeeee. cus its makes me think of u . teeheee.
wonder why so long havent online.
:((

i donwan us to argue or quarrel anymore.
i don have to say anything, & u know sumthing wrong with me.
i don have to say im jealous & yes, u know im!
i don have to say im angry, & you know im.
i jus don like to admit im. so don ask me to admit okaey ..
<3

i wan our honeymoon periiod to continue & nvr end.
i want u to love me like before.
i want us to be happy.
& not quarrelling everyday!
i wanna see u smiling happily.
i wanna see you hyper.
..

bb, if deres anything happen, i promised im not leaving you.
im always here for you.
be your listening ear. don keep everything to yourself.
u can let me knoe too. at least u said it out u will feel better is'nt it (:
cheer up bb.. rmb i always love you. so SMILE OK :D:D
& bb pls stop thinking negative things..
work harderrr, u will get a great job one day (:
u're not useless or what shit at all.! u are my baby!
th best of all ok? hughug.

i love you.
hughug
missyou
muack

Honeymoon period?

noone will understand how this feels.
mix&match.

messed up.
confused.
sad
jealous
afraid

alotalotalot of thinking.
mayb i really think too much.
but why so insecure?


is honeymoon period going to be over?
i hope not.
why m i always th one find faults?
why m i always th one giving those fucks.
can i stop alll my negative thinking.?
i hate it so much when im like this.
& i nvr ever felt like this beforee.
bcos i nvr want you to leave . . .
bcos i love you, i love you so much dhat im so afraid one day im losing all this.
i cant imagine how wud it be . . .

sorry, but i cant hlp myself from thinking alll th negative things.
im trying not too.
how i wish i don have any emotion , always let u see thru me.
how i wish i don have any feelings, so i won get hurt easily.

very very very sentitive . .
i din know i even have these days.

veryy moodswing recently agn.
fcuk!

working later on at 8am!
waking up at 6+
f. it. lack of sleep agn & agn.

goodnight.
:((

hope whenever im unhappy or moodswing.
u cn be dere to cheer me up..
making mme back to smile again.

iloveyou

Afraid

Shaggg .
nvr get enough sleep for these few days.
damn sleepy..

work morning & was late today..
tmr im working too.
only off on th thursdae.

...

probs here & dere.
changing my numb soon..

..

fcuk all my insecure thoughts!
i hate all this so much.!
all i can do now is trying my best to get used to it!

i nvr blame u okaey!
jus me, myself feeling veryyy insecure alright!

do you know i get jealous very easily!
but i jus donwanna show it out.
what u wanna do go ahead,
jus continue to be you!

i need to change! not you!
fcuk all my thinking.
& go concern ppl who needs you!

im afraid, one day you cannot take it.
cannot tolerate my attitude & stuff.

thinking alotalot.
yes i admit.
im jealous now! fcukit!
you can jus ignore me!

GOODNIGHT



im not going to care about anything anymore.
jus be yourself.
even if im unhappy, i will still be acting as if nothing happen.

iloveyou.

im jus afraid one day u get siick of all my nonsense & leave me.

hugs.