when its all gone

im feeling so unwell. i need you badly. but you wasnt here.

i don want to think what or who or whatever shit.
but i want to be with you.
mayb you,ve changed? mayb you're still th same.
mayb u have so much secrets mayb you have none.
i don bother.

i enjoy my last 2 weeks with you.
making me smile, trying to cheer me up when i get angry.
never walk away but come after me. this lil changes i've seen.
but thats not th main one i want u shld know.

ur good, i can see' as long as u have th time u try to be with me by my side.
sayang me when i need. hug me to sleep when u don like to do so.
i can see, i can feel.. try to stop debating with me, try not to quarrel when im being unreasonable.
im happy u are like that.
u have ways to make me smile. i love you.

sorry, i can see some changes in me too.
but i dontknow why isit like that.
perhaps, i given too much, and i donwant to continue doing th same thing.

mayb being with me really suffer much..
i cant give u a good life, a better life .. th life u want!
but im trying you see.
i try my ways jus to see ur smile.
everytime when we quarrel, i feel so soft hearted wanted to hug u or msg u. but i stopped myself.
i don even know why?

i walked home today from inter alone again.
bcos u wasnt here.
im sick u dont even know or even u know u never concern me.
:( till now im waitingg for ur text. but where are you. i dontknow..

i cant be able to sleep tonight as u are not by myside.
my hair are still awfully wet when noone helps to dry them.
noone to cuddle with me. tok to curly.
i missyou.. do you?

i need to see a doctor real soon..
and my gums are hurting me badly. fuck.

sighs...

its hurts me alot..
when you walk away...

goodnight.
missingyou.


sorry for being unreasonable!
i know i'am!!
FUCKMYLIFE.


BYE!!!


piang~ my throat killing me!
nbccb! sibeh fuckin moodswing. i feel like scoldin and ventin my anger at someone!
KNN~~~~~