BITTER BITTER INSIDE

fcuk th world.

im tiredd
so sickening.
i guess i'll work everyday.
i donwan any off day anymore.
cus off days seems to be wassting & sucky!
i hate everything so much & to th max.

judge for all u want.
i don mind.
to everyone .
im unreasonable.
irresposible
bitch
slut
liar
betrayer
fcuker
sucker
anti social
fierce
attitude
.

ok whatever .
if u think im den im
unless u really noe me.

I ALR DON CARE WHAT OTHERS ARE GOING TO SAY.
side her for all u guys want.
hahaha.

IM NOTHING.

fcuk bloody bufday.
I DON LOOK FORWARD AT ALL!
cus no one is true


everythngs seems so unfair.
its non of everyone business.
is mine prob .
so let me be .

if u think im huftful in words so be it.
BUT YOU'RE HURTFUL IN YOUR ACTIONS .
in everyway.

YES I HURT YOU.
sowhatthbigfcuk?
thatdoes'ntmeanthatudonhurtme.





IM NOT GOING OUT ANYMORE;
given sumone face, den im going out on someday.

sickenning!

go ahead & rants ;
go ahead & say about it.
go ahead , since everyone think is my fault.


SO WHAT FOR TO EXPLAIN SO MUCH?
DEN JUS LEAVE.

goodnight.
byebye.
lost trust.
hope
& everything.
nooneinthisworldistrue.






*I think i need a bf now;
im not suitaable being with friends*
omg. that fucking hurt .
you can might as well kill me now.
WTF. cries

Fcuk you

im staying at home for th whole day till now.
woke up at 3, rot on th bed.
watch drama. do my nails.
maybe im going out to have my dinner alone later on.
ima so hungry now,
i donwant to see people that really spoil my mood.
so i donwanna go out.
& w/out me everyone still th same.
dere won be chnges.
w/out me everyone still very happy.
so deres no need for me to go.

better staying at home.
resting.
or MIA-ing?
ok whatever.
jus hope on th 6dec i'll get drunk.
&7dec people will fall down.
& not to see that fcuk face.

you win th game.
you've got everything.
i gain nothing.
RIGHT?

in the end,
still no chnce to catch new moon.
stll noone to watch wit me.
& still people are all enjoying outdere.

EMPTY PROMISES.

if u think im making it worst so be it.
this is my blog.
i jus wanna write how i feel.
if you dont like i can set it private .
satisfied ?

you always have nothing to say.
nothing to tok tu me.
we are strangers .

want plan donwan plan up to you.
you've gain alot.
everybody comfirm side you.
cus ppl wll think youre always th innocent & weak one.
& im always th wicked one.
get it?!



once over forever over
oh yah.
& i thiink its time i shld get a new one.
so i wont be that lonely.
cus ppl dosen appreacieate me

You'll enjoy life w/out me ;

fcuk ;
damn pissed .
i wonder whats going on.
many things jus pop out in my mind.
i don feel good at all at all!
why do ppl always gives me all th fcuks!

i hate it i hate it i hate it so much!
she's not weak at all.
don have to protect her .
;
freak

i wasted so many days for not working.
WASTED.
thought wed was a day for new moon.
budden a wasted day ;
thought friday a day for new moon & medicure.
but i think another wasted day.
i hate to go town;
hate to go shopping & not for my things.
i donwant to spend money.
though is window, but i cant ;
i hate window shopping.!
i hate ion! i hate everything.
i havent even paid my debts.
my bills .
my overseas trip.
my medicure
my bday thing.
fcuk everything. & i freaking waste th money on shopping?
i hate shopping .
esp my fone bill.
been many months since i owe alr.
&& im going to study. not working.
where m i getting th fcuking money if i don get to save now?!

i jus feel like ending everything & runaway!
i feel like no one is dere for me.
nobody noes when im crying.
fcuk things up!

freaking moodswing.
IM NOT HAPPY .
SERIOUS IM NOT!

you gave shit to me ,
& still you can smile happily.
fcuklanbcb.
den i giv u back all yoor freak shit !
you know this sucks! sucks to th max.
so many wasted years!
so now i'll find my news ones & throw th fcuk old ones away!
i've got nothing to tok to say to text with you.
SINCE you dunno what to say to me ;
so whatever ;
& you still seems to be very happy or even more happier when in this state.
oh yah, i forgotten.
super glue .
sorry lor, IM NOT YOUR HAPPY PILLS.! CHANGE PPL LIAO!
freak fcuk shit .
tired of giving in.
its lost .
& over .

once broken considered dead ;

3more days to my bufday'
& nw its dead .
not looking forward for anything.
i jus wanna get drunk .
everything is killing me .
bit by bit ;

went to airport today send manyu ;
den peopye den hg plaza for pool.
den cabbed home.
BORED IS TH ONLY WORD TO DESCRIBE.
TOTALLY NO MOOD ;

hais.

tmr another fcuk day.
another WASTED day.
i need $$$$$ & not spending $$$
not going for th fcuking cb movie.
EVEN IF IM GOING.
I WILL GO WATCH ALONE.
HAPPPY? NOW IM NOT MAFAN.
WHAT I WANNA DO. I WILL DO IT ALONE WITHOUT ASKING ANYONE.
also going bugis for nails tmr.

FROM NOW ON,
AFTERWORK IF PPL NOT FREE OR WHAT I WILL GO HOME.
I WANT GO OUT ALL, PPL NOT FREE DEN I GO ALONE.
SHOPPING ALSO CAN GO ALONE.
I CAN DO EVERYTHING ALONE ;
BYMYSELF.


things still go back to th same square ;
without boyfriend
IM RREAALLLYY ALONE!
i knew it. this days wud come.

BYE .
don tok about it.
damn no mood....
wants to cry out loud.
wants to scream!
wants to get high.
wants to drink.
wants to die
wants to forget everything

IM TIREDD

random - -

viewing my lastime post agn ;X
when im being with V*****t
erm. loveshimbutyetsofast ;
now turn back & read . im really like a fool!
hahah. damn it. CHILDISH!

being random today ;
cried for nothing .
agrh , whatever freaking shit ;

im damn pissed off.
my bufday is coming in 4 days .
im not happy AT ALL! AT ALL YOU KNOW ;
noone is putting effort in everything ;.
esp you .
damn disappointing .
all you gave is emtpy promises.
empty shitty .
&& can simply forget me .
can simply neglect me ;
so i'll try to forget you too , do you want this?
u noe my character .
what goes ard comes ard .
i'll giv u whatever shit when u given me shit
i alr lost hope in yuu.
cus lies & disappointment is all aard.
lastime we used to share thoughts.
wad about now , you don even need me anymore;
even if u have any probs i wont be th first to noe.
cus im not important ;
im always th extra ones that ppl always neglect;
im not th main lead.
so fcuk it .
everyone can forget bout me.
but not u.
when new one comes u throw old ones away;
so one day, i'll let u noe this feeling if you want to ;

what are true friends?
i doubt is not you!




went to ion today.
moodswing .
bought one top from newlook.
wallet fromf21
& dress from m&m

k bye
tmr work. need to wake up early.
tataaa

Success (:

very sleepy day for me agn ;

woke up at 8am?! lol.
i actually woke up myself ok! hahaa.
den meet wc&shasha at 9.30 at bustop.
took bus to tanjong pagar for our interview.:D

& yepp .
everything was nicely planned.
& yeah , going for classes . for a mth & off to outlet to start my work!
yeayea; got cert summore '
& daddy is giving me money cus im studying!
LOL.
relax& i likee ;
LOL.

my class starts 4 jan 2010
& going on th 29dec to sign my contract!
oh my .
im so scared to step in to that world '
lol.. im so scared of mistake .
hope everything goes smoothly.
so before i get more &more hardworking next year!
I WILL ENJOY MYSELF TO TH MAX FOR THIS MONTH ALRIGHT?!
lets club. lets play. lets stay out late!
lets enjoy tis holiday!
lets countdown for 2010! yeah!

from next year onwards must guaiguai go classes.
no such thing as pon , mc, kei siao sick or whatever .
cus i wanna finish my classes, my 3 mths probation!
&& i got more more money!
LOL

ok stop this topic.

after interview, went to have lunch & trained to work!
ard 3pm. wc acompany me & stufffff ;
after work bussed home!
(whole day only took one time cabbed) COOL.
LOL
after rch home. dad bring us go chompchomp eat stingray!
i likeilike!
lol..
& i want chilli crabs!
TEEHEE ;

ok tmr my off day.
out to town.
tata




imissyouimissyouimissyou.
whywhywhywhy?
whereareyou?!
howhaveyoubeen?
doyoufeelthsamewayido?

freak ;

tired tired tired.

of
work
earning
loving
missing
argue-ing
learning
living!

everything .
goodnight.
work agn tmr

You'll Regret!

somtimes being together does'nt mean that you & your boyf must stick together day & night!
in his world deres only you, & in your worlds deres only him!
you've to make things clear as in.
you mus have th time for yours families & friends & him.
you have to arraged your time for all these , else everything will be too late ;
& sure, you;re gonna regret i tell you!

for eg now , u've hav a boyf.
you can totally neglect your friends;
or even if u with ur friends u bring your bf along.
wtf!
why mus th both of u stick so close to each other?
witout meeting a day will kill?
will it?

let me tell you this.
once he cheated on you .
once he leave you .
from that time onwards ,
you will notice , you've lost alottt .
friends & familes are slowly drifting apart from you .
you can try if you don't belive!
yes boyf is important ;
den what abt friends? that u;ve noe for years?
jus bcos of a bastard , u put aeroplane .
don blame me for saying this ok!
what comes ard goes ard.
when u're alone den u find me.
when ur boyf busy den find me.
let me tell you ;
when he leaves you ( as i don believe in forever )
don come to me & ask me acompany you,
don come to me & ask me go out.
i fcuking hack care you're alone or what!
jus freaking get off ;

& let you know,
whats alone!
fcuk you ;
if u think is u, & yes is you ;

i seriously think nowadays young girls bcome more & more b!tchy yea?



off day.
went to do my hair alone at bugis dere;
den cabbed to tamp find wc.
den plaza for dinner.
& i kiip craving today.
was so wtf okaey!

till 3+ den cabbed home.
took alot of unglam pic.
upload all my overdue pic soon.
im so lazyy.
seriouslyy!~!!!



tmr im working.
so okok.
good night!
one more week!
party party!
bye