i will try..

i'll still be holdin on, trying to hold u back. I believe i can, though now i can feel a thousands millions of needle is piercin thru my heart..in pain, very painful.. Can someone noe how im feeling now? I think this shall be th last emo post here, i might nt be able to blog anymore or so... I will jus leave this blog silent for sometime.. I noe i cant rush u to love me back like before, i can feel, isn't th same anymore. I really miss those times alort. But all i can do now is to save it back. I hope i can do it.. I really do need u so much in life.. And i hope we are able to go back to th past... And now, i can say.. Im breakin down. But trying to stand up on my own.. Loveyou allways... Somethings i could'nt type it here. I will keep quiet.. I'll try to be th way u wan me to.. I believe im changin for th better.. And wait for u to love me back...

im not!

stop saying tat u are nt important. stop sayin bcos i have gf i change. I nvr. Im still th same. If i nvr cherish u , no point i call and ask u where are you. Askin weather u can go out today anot. Meetin u all almost everyday right? And now u say i change? U donhav to change if u donwan to. No one is askin for u to change now. If u don like to tok more. Den don tok. i asked for nth, but jus not to be forgotten.. Thats all. But still, i alwaes feel forgotten by everyone. Im not like u, got many friends text u or what. I only hav u Ley. Okaey, o don wish to say so much. Mayb to you, i changed. But deep inside i noe im not. Whatever. I don wan to care. Not bcos im tired. Jus let time heal... Get it? Bye

I DONT WANT TO ~

going to bed in a few mins time!

don wish to say so much.
all i can say is im very upset today.
with or without me = no difference.

if you think im selfish,
go ahead.
i don care who's siding.

& this time round, i don care anymore.
i'll jus forget it .

& KEEP ALL MY UPSET INSIDE.

let bygones be bygones.
i'll try.




have been imba-ing bb whole day or can say like on & off attitude,
who is th causes?
zzz
thanks for th understandin.
instead of ignoring me, walking away you came & asked me what happen.
i really appreacieate it.
jus don wish to say at times.
i know im like unreasonable to you. but u still manage to make my smile back again!
jus hope im not forgotten. & I HATE BEING FORGOTTEN!
bcos everyone seems like doing it.
i love you bb .
i can see you are trying to change for a better.
den lets change together.

YOU KNOW THIS IS SO WONDERFUL,
I ACTUALLY HAV SOMEONE WHO LOVE ME WHOLEHEARTLY.
STAY WIT ME, SAYANG ME, BRIGHTENED UP MY DAYS & ACTUALLY
ALLOWED ME TO CLUB! WEEWEE.
im so happy tat bb nvr disapprove me to club.
but like once every 2 weeks or once a week luh..
but still, i know deep inside u don like!
LAUGHS.

okaey,
i took last bus home today & noe what,
inside bus got ti ko pek.
im th only girl in th bus.. no ppl except driver.
th uncle came and sat bside me.
stare at me like no tmr.
im so scared......
when i get down th bus he still continu lookin.
wtf. if he follow me down at th same bustop i think i cry & faint can!?

&& i seriously got soo turn off by some bastard!
can all th man don exist in th world alr!
LAUGHS.
so bad nah..

my daddy so noisy & zzz
when he rches home, he saw me playing comp.
i said: papa, today i 12+ jiu rch home le, give me money!
daddy: u more and more bu auto(chinese) le hor! you wan me yang u till how long
i said: i now no money lah, u also donwan pay my bill for me. u say i come bk early u will giv de. u lie lor
daddy: put $10 bside me, donwan giv u alot . u spend like nobody business. kay siao come back early take money.! give le another day morning den come back!
i said: no ley where got
daddy: donwan to say u luh hor. ur interview hhow?
i said: need to wait luh!
daddy: sighs'' u hor, everytime i see u i sad only. so useless. dunno how to think
i said: i noe lah.! ppl need time ok!


HAHAHA SO FUNNY LEY I THINK OF TH CONVERSATION!
laugh die me ( by bb)
lollol.


okaey luh,
im trying to forget my unhappy stuff.!
bcos disappointment sucks!
goodnight peeps.


im missing you so badly naozx!
sighs, only able to meet u on thursdae. mayb & mayb not also.
:( i hope can meet bb asap....
im dying without her with me luh.
love you ttm okae!!!!!!!!!

wants to cherish every sec with you my dear! `
th only one for me ...

like a whatever

alot of things to be done real badly.!

i want to have another shopping please! i got nothing to wear already luh!
i need shoes, heels, skirt, dress, bags! & everything! agrh~

i need to pay my fone bills so quicklyyy too!

i want outing with gfriendssss!

i want romantic outin with bb! and cable car session (* as i know u scared*)

i want overseas trip!

i need money to pay for end of yr trip!

i need to save up for 2011june bangkok trip!

i need alotalot of things so badly!

i need a full time job!

so tat i can acomplish all this!

agrh ~

cant get to sleep without baby by my side :(

missin bb so badly naozx!




hugggggggg