isthisthend?

once again, ended.
once again, you hurt me.
once again i believe alll th lies u said.
once again, i fall in to th trap.
thanks all my friends for pulling me up.

but still th wound is dere..
this time its really really over.
yes, u're really drawing a very clear line now.
deleting me in fb &whatsoever.
i nvr blame u at all.
jus blame me on my stupidness. idiotic.*sillyness
to beleieve u really loves me.

but now. everything was a lie.
your kisses does'nt count.
i dunnid empty promises.
& yes, i waken up.
ALL THH HAPPY MOMENTS U GAVE WAS A LIE!
its all a trap.
all th words u said does'nt count.
th promises u made. over.

i will take it as im too stupid for th past few days.
i will be clever from now on.



everything happened too fast.
i think things are like speeding so quickly till i have no time to think
whats true.

& now,
i notice. is all a dream

GOODBYE.
takegoodcare.
& u'll live on happily ever after.



thankyou for hurting once agn.
bye



flying off in a hour time.
nvr sleep.
& smk 20+ sticks in less den 3 hrs.
my hand even turn yellow & i dunno why.
drink &almost drunk.
but sstill alright now.
all i can do is to stay awake & numb myself.
when i come back, i wann myself to change
to be a better me.

all th memories stays **

learnt my lesson

i jus wake up.
sleep at 7 & wake up so early.
total woke up 5 times.
8.15, 9.30, 1.10, 2.20 & now.
i dunno why so many time.

everytime i woke up reply msg den go sleep.
&& everytime when i woke up.
th only thing that flash thru my mind is ....
what u did to me & how you did to her.
oh fuck, thats killing.

i really cant imagne. u actually did dis.
even if u're drunk so what?
what if you put urself in my place.
how would u feel.
im not that stupid to let u hurt me anymor.
i alr lost everything.
u made me sttarting to believe everything u said.
& this happen.
& th person is noot others is .......
so given up alr.
will crying heal?
been ccryin everytime i wake up.
but dat dosen heal at all.
?
oh fck im going overseas. but do u thiink in this state i can enjoy dere?

OK JUS BLAME IT ON MYSELF FOR BEING RETARDED.
A IDIOT.
A STUPID FOOL..




i have learnt.
im learnin to fall & to stannd up on my own.
tings wont repeat aggn.

minyee let go alright.
u caan do it.
this thing jus started ,
so let it go.
youuu cannnnn!!!!!!
GIVE UP.
GIVE BACK TO TH PERSON THAT BELLONGS.
CUS IN TH FIRST PLACE IS NOT MINE!
BELONGS TO SOMEONE ELSE.

BYE

fcukingmessedup

IM GOING OFF TMR MORNING.
CN U LET ME ENJOY?
can u not make me fan? can you not say all this kind of thing to make me feel softhearted.
i dontwant.

even if i forgive u, things wont be th same anymore,
i've said, once hurt, once cried. over ....
th most i cn be, is only ur frend.
i want nothing to come back.

MINYEE PLEASE HANG ON!
U'RE WALKING TH WRONG PATH.
PLEASE GO BACK TO TH PLACE YOU BELONG.
PLEASE GO BACK TO TH RIGHT PATH!!
this is not th right place i shld come.
THIS TIME IM WRONG.
IM WRONG.
FCUK ME,. IM FCUKIN WRONG

i shall only hope everything will be over.
& everything shall be fine when im back.
m freakng tired of all this.
IM TIRED, but i cant get to sleep.
tell me why bcus of this i cant sleep?
whats wrong with me?
i don even dare to think.
m i insane? m i mad?
what does not belongs to me i cant have it,
cus in th first place im not th right choice..
im not th first choice.

IM NOTHING. JUS A TOY.

im going to tell myself,
to be stronger.
to learn to control feelings.
& not to have this anymore.

LEARNT MY LESSON.

takecare.
& forget me.

LEAVE ME IF YOU LOVE ME.

im damn fcuking bad mood now!
fcuking angry, pissed, sad, fan!
SO DONT DISTURB ME!
DON IRRITATE ME!

work today. was very happy all th way till
something very bad happens.
till something i heard .

drink,drank,drunk.
SLACK till 3+ cabbd home.

tmr packing my things. i jus wanna leave this place badly.
HATE STAYING HERE.
I WANNA RUN AWAY FROM EVERYTHING OUT DERE~


.
back in 8 days, so friends, mus miss me ok. ((:
present for u all horrrrr .


ok im getting tired now.
thing happen too fast.
& totally disappointed.
i trust my feelings.
what i believe is true.
yes, im stupid.
you win th game, fool ard with me.
im hurt , & everything is over .
u can nvr gain back my trust ever agn..
once broken consider sold.
what i have to say, alr told u.
im not th right one.
so leave me alone.
( if u love me)
LEAVE ME ALONE.

i need some peace. i need some time to think abt what m i actually doing.
u;re not th one.
he is!
things that i heard i believe.
so yes, is damn fucking hurt.
yup, so once i cried.
ITS OVER .!


&& so .
goodluck & goodbye.
takaire.



NIGHTS PPPL.
LOVEYOUALL.
*those hu're really dere for me* lovelove


NO LONGER TRUST.

thanks for being dere at th right time whenever i need you.
thanks for having th time to text me.
to console me, to cheer me up.
you takaire inside k.
(:
willmissyou.
tata.

freakoout

jus came back from powerhouse with py.
actually went with bbjie&py. but bbjie nvr bring ic. den cabbed back lor.
sorry wor. nextyme i bring u go agn ok? (:(: cheers.

quee for th drinks till 2hr plus.
fcuk it manzx.
den by then alr 2+ le.
so jus dance awhile till close
den cabbed home.

damn tired.
tmr work.
sun to fri straight.
SIANNNNNN .


ok luhs. wanna orhorh le.
all my darlings, don worry abt me le.
im fine, but random .

& filled with damn lots of secrets & blahblah with me.
dhat i cant even dare to think or to tok abt it.
i dont even dare to admit .

im wrong.
im very wrong.

goodnight

fcukitallup.

i really dont know whats going on with me.
i think im going back to th past.
doing silly things.

randomly.
alot of things just flash thru my mind.
alotalot of things that i, myself cant believe .
been thinkng alot lately.
think my white hair is really coming all out.
fuck everything.

nowadays,
i kept so much so much secret in myself.
noone knows, nobody will get th chance to know.
i dunno how to explaint. how to solve it .
i hope time will heal it all.
freak. im sick of it.

why is dere so much prob this yer? from e beginning till e end.
when can all this end?
i know my post is fcuking emotional.
but i don like it too.
where else can i vent my anger & sadness to?
i got nowhere to go, nothing to do.

treating myself badly.
like a punchng bag, like a idiot.
sorry for those who cares, but i dunno whats wrong with me.
i dunno whats all this called.

i wanna go overseas asap.
i cant stay here anymore.
IT REALLY TIRED.
let me runaway for a while please.!

kaes.
im tired. wanna slp.
night .



powerhouse tmr.
whowannago?

I REALLY DONT KNOW WHATS THIS FEELING CALLED.
i dont even wanna noe.
i donwanna face myself.
face th fucking truth.

SO FUCK IT

Totally Screwed !

im back to blog people :D
loveyayayayayay (:

nowadays been workingg.
sun to fri.
summore been going bck home 5am plus.
is killing me & dragging me to work.
agrh , IM REALLY TIRED;
but sat flying off le. so friday will be busy i guess .

hais .
everything still th same.
work , slack, pool & whatever .
everything jus sucks to th max.
& u noe im not happy.
im guilty .
& vexed.

i wanna go powerhouse .
bfore i fly flyfly .
:(
who wants to follow?
i wanna drink till drunkdrunkdrunk.
hu wanna make me drunk .
LOl.

k luhs
very sleepy le wanna orhorh.
nght



:((
i hate to lie.
i hate myself for lie-ing.
fuck me im guilty.
but no matter what ,
i really dont want tthis to happen?
& why isit me? & why mus this happen to me?
im having fcuking lots of prob.
from top to toe from $$ to r/s
fuck everything.
IM TOTALLY FCUKING TIRED OF ALL THIS.
hate me for all u want.

*****
imissyouimissyou;
no reply .
nothing .
guess u're busy or im fan.
whatever shit.
i jus cant stop thinkiing.

fuck it .




you know . . . .
SOMEHOW , imissthpast - being with you.
SOMEHOW. imissthhappiness - spending with you
SOMEHOW , imisseverything - we've enjoy together .

but everything is over .
& i choose to let go.
soo minyee, please dont regret!
u fcuking dont have th rights to do so.

BYE