No One Knows How It Feels

ermm , din get tu post last night cus im was lazy :xactually posting der , then wan watch wei xiao pasta jiu forhget post :x hahah . er , ytd was a lazy + tired dae ' ie woke up at 5++ dhen went tu punggol park gibe esther cigg . err , was slackingg wibe michelle & dhem . den later on di came also ' hahah . ie kip asking him tu make michelle . LOL ' michelle stayed at mye hus lastnight & im at aunt hus . wonder how's mye room . shure messy wan . she anyhow throw things :x HAHAH . err ytdd do send mmie & michelle home , dhen he went off himself . so sianed . todae went ps . buy one top & nails der deco all dhat . & took erlort ob things . hooos . err , den went plaza tu buy thing , saw esther & co. dere (:(: err , after dhat ie went take bus tu aunt hus . todae was outside , till now haben eveb smk a single one . ie goingg smk soon . hohos . dunno later gort mit SUMONE nort . maybie meeting HIM , cus wants tu see th video , & im so tired . ytd ie slept at 6.00 ? wahliews ? tok on fone till forhget th tyme , he also nort tiredd .& im tired so ie asked him tu sleep . =X ' err , dhen ie think sum prob going on . nbm ' im his listener & his mine . LALALAS . budd only listener . & nth else . we both hab erlort same situation . & now both re single . he've no tyme tu look for one . & ie'm nort interested tu find onne . cus ie onlye wan him . (:(:rahhh , buddd SUMONE told me his pattern think ish impossible ler . cus SUMONE sae he won turn back one ! hais ' ie dunno luhs . he makes mye world overturn lor .wth ! hab been smking erlort tis fews dae ! & ie' hab no money liaos . wth ! mye parents quarreled wibe mmie lastnight ; rahh ie dunno wad dhey wan luhs . confiscate mye fone dhen now wan confiscate mye sim card , okay ' nbm . sat night meeting biao jie . im going her hus . wibe no fone , nth ! bud nbm ' ie can do wadever ie wan dere . ie don care luhs . err , okayes ' i busy now ' going back home soon (:(: takecares & buhbyes .
misses eeberione .

Just Smile To Me
& I'll Be Happy .

If You're Happy Choosing Her
I Wish You Gudluck .

Don Put Too Much Trust In Everyone
The More Trust You Put .
You'll Ended Up More Disappointed .

Do You Believe Im Happy ?

erms , went out jus now ' bout 4++ went meet di , go plaza buy cigg ' dhen go slack , chit chat & tok tok ' erms , both ob us re same same der . he's th girl donwant him , ie ish th guy don want mmie , hais . so sway luhs . finally now , ie understand , ie cant trust guys so much ' no matter how much ie love him ie also cant trust him much , th more ie trust in e end th more disappoint ie'll get ! th more disappoint ie get th hurter it'll bie . ie guess tis ish th first tyme & also shall bie th lastyme . ie won trust anyone anymore . budd forh him ish s special case :x hahah . err , lets continue , after dhat michelle came to look forh me & di ; dhen slack awhile more when di going find his fwen at compass ' dhen mmie & michelle took bus tu punggol park , actually ie'm getting down at th bustop dhats punggol park dere . instead ob getting down deree , ie get down outside his hus dere der bustop & walk tu punggol park , jus wanted tu try luck can ie see him . so longg din see him ler . miss till like madd , budd shhh ! ie cant let him noe dhat ie still love him . he's avoiding me now , & so ie dunno when will he stop all tis . so cruel he can bbie . can he put himself in mye shoes ? & think how will ie feel ? can he jus think ob mmie a little ? & nort so selfish ?hais , went punggol park slack , so qiao saw esther & her fwens (:(: so qiao lorh ! hahah . dhen went chatchat till 8++ dhen go home . reach home 9++ liaos . wibe her aroundd won bie so sianed , budd sumtyme she's quite irritating luhs . dunno whye . ie smk erlort ytd . && so todae to :x ie must cut down .! RAHH ! && SAT NICENICE. goingg cousin hus , im still thinkinh wadd kind ob SWEETS she'll gibe mmie play (:(: & lets drink till drunk:DD get tu th highest & forheget all th unhappy things . haha . goingg hab mye super , cus ie din eat anything since morning . ie'm super huungry . byeebye . update soon . (: takecares eberione .

ie' can let him noe ie still love him .
ie must act like im so so happy .

nothing im asking forh ,
budd jus remain fwens & him
to bie happy alwaes .

hope th girl will treat him well
& nort wadd ie used to bie x))

You've foundd yoors '
& im foundd mine , & its still YOU X'(

Act Like Im Nort Hurt AT ALL X(

ytd din get to post , cus was onlye playing outside . went bukit panjang , mye cousin work place to find her , dhen went jurong wibe her tu change , & to town . ate sum SWEETS on e cabb & we kept toking non stopp , tell myeself nort tu sleep , fight wibe th SWEETS & sae im nort sleepy . so it went out better dhen lastyme ,like ie can fly . LOLS ' budd tis tyme , th kit only last 1hr+ wth ! so fast finish ? RAHHH ! dhen went buy cigg , kkip smkingg , so much ' can sae ie finish 20 ytd :x dhen went heeren , cant BUY anything , so we went taka , bought make up ' & th person ask us tu pay at th counter . & we jus walk awae like dhis . LOL . mye cousin sot . budd so fun beingg wibe her . bout 8+ took cab back to her hus at jurong . dhen midnight went tu buy alcohol & beer . hahah . drink till like madd . ate tibits , smk smk in her room . when nobody will cares . b4 sleep ate th SWEETS again , & ie slept peacefully ! hohos . so nice . woke up todae , hab no where tu go ' so went home while mye cousin ish going tu work , now at aunt hus already . going out later on tu play . cus ie cant stand th pain im havingg now , he's so damn fcukingg cruel to mmie , & ie cant stand it anymore . tis sat will bie goingg biao jie hus again , tink tis tyme ie'll ask her forh more hiongg der SWEETS or other kindddd to play , to release , to hab fun . & ie wont think ob him , so gudd . err, jus open mye fwenster & ie saw his profile ? WOW so NICE ! so FAST ! SO GUDD ? rahhh , nbm ' ie've think through it , althought ie'll feel hurt . budd as long as he's going on happy & ie'll bie alryte wibe it . hope th girl wioll treat him well & NORT HOW IE DID ? haish , useless getting regret . ue won bie back anymore , ie understandd . hope they'll last , they will bie happy . ie hab nth ie can sae now bud jus GOODBYE , he've said ? nort anymore ! so wad else ie can do ? jus seeing him happy will do . being hurt myeself , getiing so upset myeself , doingg foolish & idiot things . & laughingg tu myself , thinking dhat im reall foolish . tis ish wad ie can do now . hais . those memories ie'll alwaes kept in mye mind . ie won forhget how we used to bie , ie won forhget how ue used tu promise me , ie won forhget th promised you've made . ie'll rmb ue in eberiwae . ue' said ue'll love me foreverr , budd tis ish wad ue mean ? so ie get it . useless regrettiing . useless saying much . nth much ie can do . jus wan him tu bie happy , & dhats enuff . gtg eberione . goingg out soon . bringging mye penknife out too (:(: !takecares .
missed eberione .
loves .

Saying GoodBye Is Wad I Can Only Do .
Seeing You Happy Is Wad I Want .

Loving You Is Forever x(

so HURT , so PAINZ

went tu see his fwenster profile ? hais , nort anymore ? her ? dhat girl ? yoor featured fwen ? tell me wad you want me tu do , ue're th one that makes me love you , & now you did so many cruel things tu me , wad else you wan ? can you pls tell me something ? can you pls tok tu me ? is she yoor gf ? haish . th pain ish gettiin hurter & hurter . ie cant go on anymore . izit waiting forh ue habs tu suffer so much ? tell me wadd ue want still ? ie've neber been hurt so much b4 , ie'll rmb , th fcuking scar dere . th broken heart cant fix back anymore . things won changed back anymore . ue don love me anymore ' shld ie still wait ? bud dae by dae , mye love forh ue goes deeper & deeper ? tell me wad you wan me tu do ? ue;ve hurt me so much , & ie hab enuff . pls stop tis will you ? can you pls tell me wadd you wann ? ie cant go on anymore . those pain & hurt can kill mme . x(( going out soon . takecares . take a deep deep breathe . nort coming back tonight . bbyes . x'( th pain , th hurt . ie'll rmb . gudbye .

Everything Changing Moment By Moment ?

err , im back (:(: so bored . din went out jus now , ie hab nom place tu go luhs . so bored . & oh yarh , ie rmb , ie core him jus now ; he's outside & so obvious dhat he don wanna tok tu mmie x( so forhget it , ie jus wants to findd sumone tu chat , & nth else . whye did ue do tis ? ue said it , we're fwens wad ? budd ue don seems tu bie treating me as yoor fwen x'( dhen wad else you wan ? ie ask forh yoor reason , ue ignore all mye mails . ie msg'es you tu chat , ue ignore all mye msg'es . ue're makingg mmie more & more hurt , can you pls tell mie th reason ? so dhat ie can move on . can you ? pls ? haish . ie dunno wad you wan . ie donno wad re you thinking . wads makes you changes go much ? hu's th one ? izit th girl ue likes ? tell me !! Every work you said , stab in to mye heart . everything things ie see , hurt mie most . & wad else more ie can do ? huh ? =( hais . ie miss you , & ie really do , how ie wish ie can see you when eber ie wan . wil you bie dere forh mmie once again ? can you ? hais , pls . go see wad ue promise mie , go see yoor comment . go see mye comment . you've wrote all tis yoorself ? ue promised me . & now ? all yoor empty promises ? haish . wonderingg did you read mye blog ? re you interested to noe bout mye daily life w/out ue ? ie guess ue don eben noe mye new link . hais . ue've made mmie mad, made mie die over you . made me cry over you . i think ob those wonderfull memories we once hab , ie really hope we can go back , do you still love me boy ? can you pls tell me something ? sayingg dhat im irritating ie don mind dhat too . at least ie noe ue're hating me . hais . ie cant move on . i cant when ie dunno th reason , ie cant when ie love you so much . ie cant when ie think ob you . can you pls tell me ? can you pls tok tu me , look at me ? hais . ieloveyou no matter wad . err , im so bored at home . goingg smk (:(:
tatas . :DD . ieLOVEhim '
im silly*s

have you ever lost sumbody
& love sumbody ? have you ?

Can Ie Stay With You
As Long As I Need You ?

Everything Changingg Moment By Moment << ?
wadd ddo you mean bby tis ?
yoor feelings forh mie fade ?
You love th girl in yoor heart more & more ?
Ue;ve Hurt mie Deeper & deeper ?

HURTED ; CRIES

th boredness kills .x(

ie'm all alone at home now x'( can sumone pls acompany mme ? th boredness kills . rahhh ! ie hate staying at homee , facingg th comp waiiting forh his reply ? x'( wtf ! so damn boring luhs . core so many ppl up , & nort eben one ob them ish free ? sum rre eating , sum re working , sum pei-ing stead , sum wibe fwens ? & mme ? alone staying at home , thinkin where can ie go ? wad can ie do ? & wad tu hab forh diinner ? so damn sianed . fcukin sianed .can sumone pls tell me wad tu do ?x'(v hhow ie wish he ish wibe mie now , pei-ing mmie as long as ie nidd him . hais . can ie go out alone tu punggol end , screaming like an insane women dere ? can ie go shopping by myeself ? m ie mad ? or th best waee ? go chatch a movie alone ? haish . reached home , & eberione went tu watch movie . && left mme alone here ? haish . wth ish tis . im getiing so sick , so sick & tired ob mye life . rahh , eberi since hs left , nth has ebeer goes right x'( tell me wad tu do luhs . x'( haish . he dosen eben wanna reply mye msgg , rahhh ' && ie wann tu go out luhs . HAISH . bud ie hate tu bie alone . hais , update later on . findingg sum other tings tu do . boreddd to death . miss him like maddd x"( && can ie pls stop crying jus bcos ob small matters ? can ie pls stop crying jus bcos ob him ? enuff ish enuff alryte . byebye eberioone . takecares .

ue thrown mmie alone here x'(
ie'm waiting forh yoor reuturn .

let mie understand you more
will you ? let mie care forh you ?
let me love you . x'(

have you ever ? you understand ?
you've hurt mmie , & dhats it . x((

dae bby dae w/out ue .

erms . nort staying at home tonight . stayingg over at cousin hus . :D so bored tu stay at th same placa eberidae :X . haha . ytd sleep at 6+ & woke up at 4.30 lols. was really late ! =)) err , dhen went tu bathe , wash up & went tu Rplaza to hab mye dinner wibe michelle :DD reaches dere bout 7.00 already & after we've finish eating ish bout 7++ going 8 :DD so went tu slack && saw daddyy :x hab such a small eyes & kept looking . LOL . hohos , dhen went slack smk non stop till 8++ going 9 pei michelle go take bus & went cousin hus . :D ' err , stayed here todae (: playing comp while no one will bie snatching wibbe mmie =)) hahah . & was toking on fone jus now ! so funny , tuesdae going forh shoppingg (: so longg ie din went shopping ler ' && now , todae ish 100607 x( 10JUNE07 ? monthsary ? USELESS ALREADY . cus he's nort wibe mie anymore . & ie really really really miss him lyke maddd . wish he'll come back tu mie , bud its impossible already . x(( er , && skool gonna reopen in 2 weeks tyme ? FASTER PLS ? ie wanna go skool & plaee , like maddddd . budd im afraid tu face th truth , to face th fact dhat he's not wibe me , nort seendin me tu skool like wad he alwaes did . not acompany me during recess , nort acompany mie tok when ie nid him . cant mit him after skool or wadver ler x( hais , ie' want yoor reason boy! x(( day by day going on w/out ue & still ie dun eben noe whye ? x( jus tell me sumthng will you ? haish .
im gonna findd sumthing tu munch , hungry :X
hahah .
takecares eberione .

IE'LL WAIT FORH UE NO MATTER WAD .

Every Little Things I Do ,
I Think Of You .

You're The Reason
Forh Me Tu Live On :(

等你回来
爱到无药可救

bie mye baby once again ?