th feelingg of lost x(

ie've neber been happy forh th past fews daes ! especially ytd x( tears kipp rolling down , ie've neber been havingg such pain forh a bberi long tyme . maybie ie trusted him too much . all break in to pieces & ie cant eben mend it back ! wadd to do ? wadd can ie do ? ie cant continue clinging on to him x( ie must stop myeself from senddingg him all those msg'es & smses . haish ' so meaninggless . eberithing jus end like tis & ie cant eben hab a single last chance ? =( ie understand he don love mie anymore , & ie think he've already found th person he love ! ie wish tu wait , budd its so hurt . he ish the only one decide eberithing . he decided tu bie wibe mie , he ish also th one hu decided tu leave mie ! hais , ie jus cant habe the wae ie wan ? ie want tu bie wibe ue ! ie want ue back ! ie understand its impossible ! ue once love mie budd nort now anymore right ? they re right , guys changed so fast ! one dae can sae he love you , another can sae he hate ue . h\im nort gonna trust anyone . eben HIM * & ie noe hu ish more important tu mie , hu ish th one ie need most , seeingg his msg'es in e past makes mmie feel so hurt . thinking ob him makes mmie feel more & more hurt , when can ie get out of tis life ? & im back tu th beginning again ? where no one cares , no one needs ? HAIS . th feeling ob lost , the feelingg ob lonely ? =( && ie've so much quest tu ask him . its jus dhat its useless askin so much , its obvious dhat he don love mie anymore budd wadd ish he confused at ? hais . ie'll rmb eberi single little things dhat happen between us x(( ie jus cant let go , ie cant use to this kind ob life w/out ue . & our monthsary ish soming & yet ue wants tu end ! haish , its useleess saeiing much . & im tired ob cryingg . can ie jus die ? & yeas , all the guys re th same ! hais ,

erms . todae will bie a rotting dae , ie don wish tu go out . feel so weak so tired . no one ish dere forh mmie anymore x( mye bro fight wibe mie last night . & mye hand bleeds . cries . & no one ish dere forh mie tu tok tu ! HAIS . & mye hand still bberi hurt now , budd mye heart hurt most !
gudbye .

CAN IE JUS DIE LIKE TIS ?
CAN IE JUS KILL MYSELF ?

torturetorture !
cutscuts x*(