i'll never be th same

i don exist in this world, im in th other. nobody bother to ask me about life.

so what is life?

so what if i can feel my heartbeat, i rather leave it dead.

nobody listens to me,

nobody wan to know how i feel inside..

am i right or wrong?

i try not to bother about u, but it always hurt me so.

that i cant leave my hands off you. but do you know .

i don think so.

i always tell myself its okay, everything would be fine..

but i feel sourish in my heart and cant control but teared again and again.

i rather don love you this much. i rather don need you. but i cant.

i wan to make myself numb, i donwan to feel anything.

u always go opposite of th way i wan it to be.

when i wan this, u wan that..

do u know, what i wan?

u said, we could say out how we feel inside, but when i say , can u even accept or take it?

isit fair for me ?

im jus a ordinary girl that wants to be loved like everyone else.

but it seems so hard..

being wanted is smth wonderful, but i don feel that im being wanted or needed.

why?

what did i get back with all my sacrifice?

im tired.

i donwan to describe how worst i feel.

nobody would know.. th truth of me, th truth of everything.

smiles and laughters are not real..

i don mind if ppl ard are hating me,

bcos they got no life!

i stay in my own world, that no one know i exist.

this is me..

perhaps acting stronger on th outside is what people wanna see.

i'll try. but deepdown, nobody knows.. untill i breakdown.

goodbye

when i step back pls don step forward anymore, im falling.

help me up..

i jus wan to be loved, but i dontknow how to make somebody love me

im useless.

call me bitch! i'll say ty~ cos u're slut