Honeymoon period?

noone will understand how this feels.
mix&match.

messed up.
confused.
sad
jealous
afraid

alotalotalot of thinking.
mayb i really think too much.
but why so insecure?


is honeymoon period going to be over?
i hope not.
why m i always th one find faults?
why m i always th one giving those fucks.
can i stop alll my negative thinking.?
i hate it so much when im like this.
& i nvr ever felt like this beforee.
bcos i nvr want you to leave . . .
bcos i love you, i love you so much dhat im so afraid one day im losing all this.
i cant imagine how wud it be . . .

sorry, but i cant hlp myself from thinking alll th negative things.
im trying not too.
how i wish i don have any emotion , always let u see thru me.
how i wish i don have any feelings, so i won get hurt easily.

very very very sentitive . .
i din know i even have these days.

veryy moodswing recently agn.
fcuk!

working later on at 8am!
waking up at 6+
f. it. lack of sleep agn & agn.

goodnight.
:((

hope whenever im unhappy or moodswing.
u cn be dere to cheer me up..
making mme back to smile again.

iloveyou