a special way (:

IM BACK ! hahah . finally after one week , can use comp ' budd a pity , dun get tu mmit jiajun daddy while at jurong . erms . ie went town last sun . haha ' alort ob free things . took heels , clothes , accesories . & manymany ; haha . ie smk quite less tis week . gudddd ! erms . mondae went novena . took quite erlort ob things also . dhen tuesdae staying at home . watching korean dramas . dhen wed went mit baichi at his workplace . lols ' laughs* thursdae stayed at home rott . fridae too . dhen mye father bring me back . cus was like so far from jurong tu hougang . lazy tu go back by myself . haha ' erms . hab lots ob fun dere . drink , smk , play . eat ; nice luhs . ie forget all th unhappiness . ie din think ob him . sleep at 7.00 & wakr up at 4.00pm eberidae . hohos ' erms . im going watch mye korean drama later . & im super bored now . th idiotic minyee is back . th baichi , funny ' maddy her ! a new me . a new way of livingg . new way of going on w.out him ' although ie still love him as much as b4 budd ie'll love him in another special way . seeing him happy will do . just wait forh him silently . =] if he's happy im ! & now he's so happy . so ie'm . hahah . i want nth . nth more . nth else . budd to bie fwens wibe him once again . ie should'nt bie " hais-ing " aroundd . ie must kick tis habit awae . eberidae also " hais " LOL ' now ish " hahah" lols . th pain is still dere . th scar / wound won go awaee . buddd ie' promise eberione . im cheeringg up . lalas . kkz . skool ish reopennin real real soon . tis monday . haha ' ie wan new bags luhs . erms . & der will bie lots ob fun in skool . ie miss mye madness . & all mye besties . hahah . bud im afraid tu face him in skool . ie must be real real happy when ie see him . hohos ' & baichi forh me tu joke wibe . hope mie & him will still bie klassmates like beforh . (: things won goes wrong again . & woohoos . mye fone took back . ghahaha . budd ib tis month bill burst , dhen gudbye tu me fone forh 2 months . OMG . god bless , hope won burst ' =] erms . think gtg ler . i wanna go out tmr . so longg din mit michelle , bb jie , boyfriend & friends ler . hahah ; im back , th mad minyee is back . goingg tu bite . haha . takecares eberione . stop here ler .
misses & loves

th promised you once made .
you love her till th end ?


deres no FOREVER (:

GUDBYE . LET GO

err , jus wake up . so early luhs . ie sleep at 6++ last night . & ie wake up at 11+ haha . sleepyy ' maybie im going sleep awhile ? budd im going town at 2 ' so must faster prepared . RAHHH ! mms . so tired ! mye ah ma bberi kp ' feel like scolding her . rahhhh . noisy ! errmm . ie din smk ytd . todae ie must ' lols . erms . going town later. & ie won come back liaos . till one week later . hooos . im going prepared . & ie kip thinking ob wei xiao pasta . ie so envious dhem ' how ie wish he's dere . rahhh ' wadeverr . gtg ler luhs . bbuhbye . takecares eberione .

you've made me love you
& now , You've hurt me .

I cant go one like tis anymore .
ie nid you with me .

do you think im really happy ?
do you think ie truely forhget ue ?
think twice . x'(

Smile Yoor Troubles Away (:(:

err , quite a bored dae , budd lucky ie hab mye comp acompany me , ie din went out todae , nort eeben out of th gate . woke up at 6.00 & play comp aroundd 7++ watch wei xiao pasta all th wae till now . im super tired ' & ie hab nth wake up tmr morning tu mit mye biao jie tu town . dhen to her hus . so think im nort gonna bie home forh one week ler . haha . will be habbing lots ob fun dere ie think =] er , din smk todae ; hahah . ren ren ren ! erms , after finish tis blog im going sleep liaos . finaly ie finished wei xiao pasta . so xian mu luhs . think ob th memories between mmie & him again . so nice , so wonderful ' how ie wish tis would repeat & ie'll truely cherish it ! budd ie don think ish sumthing possible ler . er , th show so romantic . so excited . rahhh ' sum parts eben can cry . hhoos . hmms . ib he's th one jiu hao' hahh . ie think too much ' impossible der luhs ' ie don think ie will bie th most happy & xin fu der girl in th world . & ie doubt ie won eben get mye happiness till he's back . rahhhh ! stop thinking . impossible okayy ! && stupid luhs . its already tyme forh me tu get back my fone from mye father ' budd wth ! still cant ? & he neber gibe me moneyy all dhat ; how tu survive ? staying at home eberidae ? wtf ! cant buy cigg all tis ' baichi luhs . aiyohs ' don think ler . im going tu bed . buhbye . nights . so tirred.

loves ; misses .
ie miss those tymes .
ie miss those memories
we once habb .
those promised ue've made .
& those words ue've said .

IELOVEYOU :(

No One Knows How It Feels

ermm , din get tu post last night cus im was lazy :xactually posting der , then wan watch wei xiao pasta jiu forhget post :x hahah . er , ytd was a lazy + tired dae ' ie woke up at 5++ dhen went tu punggol park gibe esther cigg . err , was slackingg wibe michelle & dhem . den later on di came also ' hahah . ie kip asking him tu make michelle . LOL ' michelle stayed at mye hus lastnight & im at aunt hus . wonder how's mye room . shure messy wan . she anyhow throw things :x HAHAH . err ytdd do send mmie & michelle home , dhen he went off himself . so sianed . todae went ps . buy one top & nails der deco all dhat . & took erlort ob things . hooos . err , den went plaza tu buy thing , saw esther & co. dere (:(: err , after dhat ie went take bus tu aunt hus . todae was outside , till now haben eveb smk a single one . ie goingg smk soon . hohos . dunno later gort mit SUMONE nort . maybie meeting HIM , cus wants tu see th video , & im so tired . ytd ie slept at 6.00 ? wahliews ? tok on fone till forhget th tyme , he also nort tiredd .& im tired so ie asked him tu sleep . =X ' err , dhen ie think sum prob going on . nbm ' im his listener & his mine . LALALAS . budd only listener . & nth else . we both hab erlort same situation . & now both re single . he've no tyme tu look for one . & ie'm nort interested tu find onne . cus ie onlye wan him . (:(:rahhh , buddd SUMONE told me his pattern think ish impossible ler . cus SUMONE sae he won turn back one ! hais ' ie dunno luhs . he makes mye world overturn lor .wth ! hab been smking erlort tis fews dae ! & ie' hab no money liaos . wth ! mye parents quarreled wibe mmie lastnight ; rahh ie dunno wad dhey wan luhs . confiscate mye fone dhen now wan confiscate mye sim card , okay ' nbm . sat night meeting biao jie . im going her hus . wibe no fone , nth ! bud nbm ' ie can do wadever ie wan dere . ie don care luhs . err , okayes ' i busy now ' going back home soon (:(: takecares & buhbyes .
misses eeberione .

Just Smile To Me
& I'll Be Happy .

If You're Happy Choosing Her
I Wish You Gudluck .

Don Put Too Much Trust In Everyone
The More Trust You Put .
You'll Ended Up More Disappointed .

Do You Believe Im Happy ?

erms , went out jus now ' bout 4++ went meet di , go plaza buy cigg ' dhen go slack , chit chat & tok tok ' erms , both ob us re same same der . he's th girl donwant him , ie ish th guy don want mmie , hais . so sway luhs . finally now , ie understand , ie cant trust guys so much ' no matter how much ie love him ie also cant trust him much , th more ie trust in e end th more disappoint ie'll get ! th more disappoint ie get th hurter it'll bie . ie guess tis ish th first tyme & also shall bie th lastyme . ie won trust anyone anymore . budd forh him ish s special case :x hahah . err , lets continue , after dhat michelle came to look forh me & di ; dhen slack awhile more when di going find his fwen at compass ' dhen mmie & michelle took bus tu punggol park , actually ie'm getting down at th bustop dhats punggol park dere . instead ob getting down deree , ie get down outside his hus dere der bustop & walk tu punggol park , jus wanted tu try luck can ie see him . so longg din see him ler . miss till like madd , budd shhh ! ie cant let him noe dhat ie still love him . he's avoiding me now , & so ie dunno when will he stop all tis . so cruel he can bbie . can he put himself in mye shoes ? & think how will ie feel ? can he jus think ob mmie a little ? & nort so selfish ?hais , went punggol park slack , so qiao saw esther & her fwens (:(: so qiao lorh ! hahah . dhen went chatchat till 8++ dhen go home . reach home 9++ liaos . wibe her aroundd won bie so sianed , budd sumtyme she's quite irritating luhs . dunno whye . ie smk erlort ytd . && so todae to :x ie must cut down .! RAHH ! && SAT NICENICE. goingg cousin hus , im still thinkinh wadd kind ob SWEETS she'll gibe mmie play (:(: & lets drink till drunk:DD get tu th highest & forheget all th unhappy things . haha . goingg hab mye super , cus ie din eat anything since morning . ie'm super huungry . byeebye . update soon . (: takecares eberione .

ie' can let him noe ie still love him .
ie must act like im so so happy .

nothing im asking forh ,
budd jus remain fwens & him
to bie happy alwaes .

hope th girl will treat him well
& nort wadd ie used to bie x))

You've foundd yoors '
& im foundd mine , & its still YOU X'(

Act Like Im Nort Hurt AT ALL X(

ytd din get to post , cus was onlye playing outside . went bukit panjang , mye cousin work place to find her , dhen went jurong wibe her tu change , & to town . ate sum SWEETS on e cabb & we kept toking non stopp , tell myeself nort tu sleep , fight wibe th SWEETS & sae im nort sleepy . so it went out better dhen lastyme ,like ie can fly . LOLS ' budd tis tyme , th kit only last 1hr+ wth ! so fast finish ? RAHHH ! dhen went buy cigg , kkip smkingg , so much ' can sae ie finish 20 ytd :x dhen went heeren , cant BUY anything , so we went taka , bought make up ' & th person ask us tu pay at th counter . & we jus walk awae like dhis . LOL . mye cousin sot . budd so fun beingg wibe her . bout 8+ took cab back to her hus at jurong . dhen midnight went tu buy alcohol & beer . hahah . drink till like madd . ate tibits , smk smk in her room . when nobody will cares . b4 sleep ate th SWEETS again , & ie slept peacefully ! hohos . so nice . woke up todae , hab no where tu go ' so went home while mye cousin ish going tu work , now at aunt hus already . going out later on tu play . cus ie cant stand th pain im havingg now , he's so damn fcukingg cruel to mmie , & ie cant stand it anymore . tis sat will bie goingg biao jie hus again , tink tis tyme ie'll ask her forh more hiongg der SWEETS or other kindddd to play , to release , to hab fun . & ie wont think ob him , so gudd . err, jus open mye fwenster & ie saw his profile ? WOW so NICE ! so FAST ! SO GUDD ? rahhh , nbm ' ie've think through it , althought ie'll feel hurt . budd as long as he's going on happy & ie'll bie alryte wibe it . hope th girl wioll treat him well & NORT HOW IE DID ? haish , useless getting regret . ue won bie back anymore , ie understandd . hope they'll last , they will bie happy . ie hab nth ie can sae now bud jus GOODBYE , he've said ? nort anymore ! so wad else ie can do ? jus seeing him happy will do . being hurt myeself , getiing so upset myeself , doingg foolish & idiot things . & laughingg tu myself , thinking dhat im reall foolish . tis ish wad ie can do now . hais . those memories ie'll alwaes kept in mye mind . ie won forhget how we used to bie , ie won forhget how ue used tu promise me , ie won forhget th promised you've made . ie'll rmb ue in eberiwae . ue' said ue'll love me foreverr , budd tis ish wad ue mean ? so ie get it . useless regrettiing . useless saying much . nth much ie can do . jus wan him tu bie happy , & dhats enuff . gtg eberione . goingg out soon . bringging mye penknife out too (:(: !takecares .
missed eberione .
loves .

Saying GoodBye Is Wad I Can Only Do .
Seeing You Happy Is Wad I Want .

Loving You Is Forever x(