broken-ed

can i say it breaks in to pieces?
can i say im healing?
can i say i love you?
can i say i miss you?
can i say i wanted ur hug badly?
can i say i miss ur kisses?
can i say i need you now?
can i say i want to break down & cry?
can i say i want to go to th beach with bbjie & scream?
can i say i want you in my life?
can i say im asking for too much?


its cold here, right now. very!
im like stayin in th icy world. deres no warmth.. i feel no warmth.
i thot i wud be calm & fine as i can be?
but after like so long? i cant..
& im not numb.. for now. i can feel.

i dontknow why isit like soursour kind ...
kinda sour .. kinda bitter..
its jus making wanna cry out th sour-ness out.

i donwant to care who is right , who is wrong.
i donwant problems to come & go.
& i know some part of me, you might not able to take it.
& yes some part of u, i cant too.
but when i love you, i naturally try to.

i know you cannt be what im trying to be.
i know its cant works. but i wan it works.
i will be th me that u wanted me to be.
as long as u still do stay by my side.
i will...

i donwant to hear you saying u are leaving. or u wan a break or what ever.!
this is not accepted by me in my dictionary.
once you step in to my heart, you'll nvr step out.
you're always th one i love for now... & for all.
till myyyyyyyy very last breath!
you will be th one i need.

i can feel th pain..
reallyyy.. i can feel it clearly now.
cry? no! hold them back.
esp when im infront of you. HOLD THEM BACK!

im so random nw!
deres a reason bhind everything.
thinkin of youu.

im waiting, till you appear.
again....
im missing you so badly.
i miss your hugs from bhind.
i miss ur kisses on my forehead.
i miss you touchin my hair.
i miss you calling me right on my face.
i miss ur pampers.
i miss ur everything.

nno matter how bad state im now.
i still hav to continue walking down th streets.
& work!
its a wednesday!

i need some weekends badly.

yes, your replied are cold.
its gonna froze me soon!
its painful.
what can i do?
im fine. shld be.

goodnight people!
iloveyou.
do you?