ie feel hurt . th pain ish dere !

haish . tell mmie wad m ie suppose tuu do ? we're driftingg apart . ie've nort been hearingg his voice for the past 2 days , ie've been missingg him . all ie want ish jus tuu hear his voice , pei mmie tok xin shi . ie'm feeling so xin ku now (: ` im so tiredd . im real real tired . wad shld ie do ? shld ie act as nth had happen & continue tuu tok tuu him ? tell mme ? whye mush ue scold mie ? care bout mmie ? whye ? ie wanna suffer dhats mye prob . im tiredd of cryingg . wad dha point of being so sad ? he dun even care wad ! wads the point ? whye mush ie b so tuupid ? cos of him ie cry , cos of him ie cut myeself , ie drink , ie ate medicine , ie smoke , everything ish COS OF HIM ! whyeee ? can ie jus stop all thish nonsense ' ie told myeself . don cry , bud tears kip rolling down . whye ? ie hab so many quest tuu ask him , bud how can ie saE ? he's makingg mie suffer . makingg mmie feel lyke dying . wadd tuu ddo ? ie'm really tiredd , tiredd of beingg so xin ku , missingg him so & so much , jus tuu hear his voice & its so hard . whye ? jus tell mmie how ue feel , whye mush ue act lyke ue dunno anythinng , budd actually ue noe . whye ? jus tell mie straight , dun hab tuu care how ie feel . ie feel so hurt . so & so hurt . beri hurt . ish lyke im going tuu die if ie go on lyke this . he jus don understandd . ie quess ie must stop thish , ie should
nt b so tupid ! lovingg him really make mmie suffer . 9 mths .& im jus wasting mye tyme . does he wants tuu continue wasting mye tyme ? haish ' ish lyke wad ever ie do also wrong . whye mush ue control mmie ? hu do ue love ? the pain ish there . ish really theerr . ie carn take it anymore . breakingg down soon . im nort an robot . im a human , ie hab feelings tuu ! haish ' suan ler '
ib one dae both of ue goes tuugether .
ie gibe ue mye blessingg (:
as long as ue;re happy .
i'am !

ie don mindd .
ielovesyou .
so much ' ie jus carn count how much ie love ue ;
ie'm missingg ue boi !
ie miss you so much '
ie wanna nth bud tuu hear ue toking .
its so hardd .
bbyee .

MINYEE ''

ITS SO HURT .
imcrying & yet hedunno '
sadness iin mmie .
ie think of you `

imdoingnth
bud ; thinkingofyou!

IE HATE TUU SEE THE WAE IM NOW ~ !
STOP RUNNING AWAE .
FACEEE IT ! TELL MMIE ' HOW UE FEEL !
UE'RE KILLING MIE .
STOP IT CAN YOU !

darrenNGzhensheng .
ieloveyou so muchh