forgotten?

if only love can be like pencil and eraser.
Keep th wonderful ones and erased th hurtful ones.

when i was younger.. I din'nt know how to cherish.
I tell myself no matter whats th outcome in future, i shouldnt regret ..

this is life.. Im moving on, so do everybody.

Love th one who deserve your love..
Don hold on to smth that dont belong to you.
Don hold on to smth that dosen bring happiness.

Choose th life you want it to be.

superduperfuckhatethisfeeling

i myself don even know whats going on or what happen to me.
but feeling so down .. esp this few days, feel like hiding myself keeping quiet like randomly.
Sorry, for being fragile inside.. Lil things that you said or do sometimes break me apart and i intend to say you back rudely or either kept quiet.

I hate this part, when im alone.. Need you badly. But you're sleeping. No point huggin curly anymore.
v random.. Really very. Whats on my mind? Whats with me? I don even know myself. If only i cann.. I wont be like this.

Moodswing sucks so much.
Want come faster come. Keep moodswing v pekcek luh.

Goodnight.

its jus me and you

all i want is jus peace!
Shall hope nth goes wrong, lookin superb forward for genting trip. Lets enjoy. And throw all th shits and singapore and getaway for 3days. Woohoo.

give me shyte? And im gonna give you shyte too!

Jus me and you ..
In our small lil world.
Hope this is what u want.
Im gonna love you till th world stop turnning.
Hugs.

keep going ..

back to work after a 4days break. 7days straight is gonna be tired for me, 5more days to go babe, jyjy luh.
Genting payment everyone settle alrdy, now left with all of thier passport numb and monday here they goes to book th tickets. Omg, im sooo looking forward to it. I know th more i look forward th more disappointment i will have, but u see' i cant help it. Rawr. Fuckshit. Lets fly tmr. Haa. I jus wanna have true fun shit and enjoy, hope noOne spoils th entire mood of everybody or so, hopes everyone cooperare. Woohoo.
Am workinh naozx, beloved is sleeping. Hope she is not waking up like too late to come over to visit me. Hee.

Somehow we would jus wanna let love die, so we won feel all th negative shits. But said is still so much easier den done so ya. Its not possible i guess.

I know im not as perfect as her, or as wonderful. And i know i cant be. I tried but failed. i want nth but ur smile and laughter.
All i can do is to give u all Th love i can.. Giving u happiness for th rest of ur life , i wan u to rmb.. Me!

I need to work more to get nearer to what we wanted. Hope after genting u wud be willing to help me out and struve tgggt.

Or maybe time is what i need, find it slowly..

As long as im still standing, i will try my best.
Shall hope we both can move out real soon, so part of some stress will be over too.
I love you. Till th v last.
Hugs..
Missingyou monster. My lil baby monster.
Lets getaway. Mmuacks.




Till th world ends, we hugged tgt..

when its all gone

im feeling so unwell. i need you badly. but you wasnt here.

i don want to think what or who or whatever shit.
but i want to be with you.
mayb you,ve changed? mayb you're still th same.
mayb u have so much secrets mayb you have none.
i don bother.

i enjoy my last 2 weeks with you.
making me smile, trying to cheer me up when i get angry.
never walk away but come after me. this lil changes i've seen.
but thats not th main one i want u shld know.

ur good, i can see' as long as u have th time u try to be with me by my side.
sayang me when i need. hug me to sleep when u don like to do so.
i can see, i can feel.. try to stop debating with me, try not to quarrel when im being unreasonable.
im happy u are like that.
u have ways to make me smile. i love you.

sorry, i can see some changes in me too.
but i dontknow why isit like that.
perhaps, i given too much, and i donwant to continue doing th same thing.

mayb being with me really suffer much..
i cant give u a good life, a better life .. th life u want!
but im trying you see.
i try my ways jus to see ur smile.
everytime when we quarrel, i feel so soft hearted wanted to hug u or msg u. but i stopped myself.
i don even know why?

i walked home today from inter alone again.
bcos u wasnt here.
im sick u dont even know or even u know u never concern me.
:( till now im waitingg for ur text. but where are you. i dontknow..

i cant be able to sleep tonight as u are not by myside.
my hair are still awfully wet when noone helps to dry them.
noone to cuddle with me. tok to curly.
i missyou.. do you?

i need to see a doctor real soon..
and my gums are hurting me badly. fuck.

sighs...

its hurts me alot..
when you walk away...

goodnight.
missingyou.


sorry for being unreasonable!
i know i'am!!
FUCKMYLIFE.


BYE!!!


piang~ my throat killing me!
nbccb! sibeh fuckin moodswing. i feel like scoldin and ventin my anger at someone!
KNN~~~~~

can you open th door?

its hurts seeing you getting upset, moodswing when i couldnt even do anything. And couldnt help myself at times i jus add on to ur anger. I donno whats wrong with you, and u urself donno whats wrong too?? Or u don even wan to let me noe whats wrong.

Trying to cheer you up, but my patience isnt enough, i get so fed up but couldnt speak out. I kept quiet .. Bcos i got speechless.. I donno what else can i do any longer.

Perhaps u are jus too closed up, u keep urself in ur world.. U dont wan to share or speak up. What can i do for you. U donwan to share ur burnden with me. Whom u loveeeee, whom u need? I really so unshure?


After seeing ur blog, i really donno whats ur tjinking.. Sigh, i think i donno u ... And ur thinking..
I miss you, th cheerfull you.. Th happy you. Th insane crazy you. And not th quiet attitude imba you.


Who can even tolerate me when im having moodswing?? Can you? I doubt u cant.

But i have to tolerate all these.

Hmmm, do u noe i need to press all my imbalance inside.. Not letting them out. Who can i vent to??
Who can i shout and scream and attitude to??
No one i guess.
Nth i can do, but keep them inside..

Lovetou