this is reality

im a joke' i think that im so retarded spammin at my own blog and fb. Bcos at this point of time i find nobody to talk to. Im not blamin bb at all. Bcos i noe u nvr say anythin. Is me that is thinking. And i understand th stated facts. Im sorry. But i know u need th time. U cannot be dere for me always. But nvm, i can stay alone. Im soo stupid. Jus like one idiot. Seriously. Hahahahahaha. I laugh like nobody businness. But actually i wanted to cry out so badly .... Im afraid, i wud start to torture myself agn.. Do u all ever think of what i really need and want in life''?? I think noone knoows...night