envy ppl that can go overseas as and when they like..
i wanted to go too.. but cashtight.
many things changed...
wants to go back to kidsss life.. so carefree.
¬ like now. everything is attacking me.
birthday is reaching real soon.. wonder what will they be giving me.
maybe to you all my expectation is high..
but i want suprise! make me tears if u all can! haha
but to you, my wish is always so hard to reach..
u'll never rch, bcos u cant.
is so simple. my wish is so simple..
jus want you to ......................................
i noe no matter what i say is useless already.. my words are dead.
its ntg to you.
seems to talk less, is not that i wanted to talk less.
is i really have ntg to talk anymore. is like, whatever i speak out of my mouth we'll quarrel.
& u see, u dont see th point why im saying.
or can say, whenever i step back u step forward.
now, i don even wanna move forward or back.
i dont even know what to do.. den u'll be contented.
im seriously not happy even thou my bday is comin.
u know i want ntg from you..
i really seriously. even when im crying, u won get to see or know.
sometimes, i really want to be alone.
want to be cruel den do it all th way. make me dead.
& not pull me alive and kill me immediately.
i have feelings.. i donno how u feel what u thinkin. u don share.
i start to guess. & all my thots are killing me badly..
bcos u dont share.. tell me how?
so confused... u driving me so crazy..
i wanna let love die.
i wanna stop burning.
i wanna stop th heart beating ..
i wanna tear this apart.
....
i want to hold.
i want this to last.
i wan u to rmb me.
i want my heart to pump faster when ur lips get nearer~
i wan ur love. so badly so badly..
i want ur hugs. & u to stay by my side forever.
& you
push me away, telling me forever is ntg~
pull me out of my fantasy
wake me up from my dreams.
stab me & leave me wounded so badly..
reject me time & time .
lying to me over & over again.
even if now u are with me, ur heart dont belong here.
...??????
randomly.. u wud be nice to be.
& evertime when u hurt me, i wud tell myself its ok..
u wud be nice to me one day!
one day we wud be wonderful..
i waited .. waited.. for almost a year,
hhiiiiii, im still here!
perhaps u indeed became better.. but sorry,
u did it jus for awhile.
i dontknow isit bcos of th love isnt for me.
or this is ur best.
but i can tell you, i aint happy.
this year, is th first year i have cried so many times.
cried so terribly..
tired year.. sick year, problematic year. love sucks year. family cb year. money not enough year.
likke everything jus so cb ~
k im sick of it.\
take me to ur side and dote me or jus throw me aside.
simple and easy.
i dont wnna move anymore~
im not happy im not happy!
i donwan bday! i hate bday!
i wanna make friends first!
& u to be second~
bcos i know when i lose u. i have friends.
go fuck th world.!
minyee stand up. wake up! get a life~
don rely. don need . donn used to.
jus love. simple love.
don cry for ppl that isnt worth ur tears any more.
ong lay ping!!
first time go so far must take care okay!
hope u enjoyyyy! if can online, we can chat okay!
these few day going to be boring without u one!
^& for sure we will miss u okay~
& also must miss me hor. don saddd le la. is nt as if u won come back right.
jus go andd enjoy ur holiday trip! don think of unhappy stuff hor!
i envy uuu lor. i wan go also cant~
nextyme we save money we plan go farfar tgt lor! hahha~
takecare hor!
lovelove
bye~
nobody know i cry myself to sleep everynight!
nobody know i feel so cold inside my heart!
nobody know im an empty shell.
nobody know our love is broken
