learning

i was wrong. Im at fault. Learning to change myself to a better person, else everyone will suffer. Im not good at all i knw, being pampered from young. 19yrs of living in this world, this is th first time i felt tat i have wasted my yrs and how fuckin lousy person im. Im not gonna be liddat anymore. Nt gonna make bb suffer. I wan her to be happy and nt act one happy when she's not, learning to speak with brains. And not my stupid brainless shit habit. That speak and hurts. Tryin my very best and i hope it worka. Not gonna meet for a day plus bcos i have things to attend to,work to do. i cannot expect us to stick together anymore. We must have our own free time for others.. Even thou its hurts, but i cant say anything, bcos my fault.. Ii shld be happy with what i gt nw. And not hope for so much. Not everyone is th same. Im going to bed nw. meeting kay and charmaine later on at 12plus.. Yawndss. Goodnight...