no more hesitate x(

haish . slp slp slp ! slpin , make mye tyme pass faster . ie hate tuu go tuu skool ! seeing him in skool & yet acting strangers . seeing him in klass , carnt tok tuu him , canrt even look dere ! its so hard . really so hard for mie x( ' haish . wadd shld ie do ! there're tuu many lies around . ie dunnwanna forget ue ! its so so so hard for mie . ie feel so hurt . how long can ie continue avoiding ? shld ie stop tis ? im really tired . how can ie forget him ? hais . ie dunno wad else can ie do ? waiting silently ? or continue tuu act as if ie dunno tis person ? ie wanna tok tu him as before . ie wana disturb him , hit him as bfore . can ie ? things changed . ie dun stand a single chance now . its tuu late . its all mye fault ! wad shld ie do ? haish . ie'm dha one hu spoiles mye eberithing . whye mus ie b so silly . ie noe ie won b happpy doin tis . bud jus bcos ie love him . & ie hab tuu do dhat ! haish . can ie jus stop all the sillyness , stop all the nonsense . stop lovingg him ! can ie ? shld ie sae sorry ? shld ie gibe in ? whye ? things happening sho sho sho fast ! ie jus carn bear tu lose ue ! its jus mye first tyme . first tyme for being so so so foolish , so tuupidd . so in love wibe ue ! haish . ie guess ish useless . izit real dhat ue really told dhem dhat ? izit real dhat ue once love mie ? or its all a lie again ? so fan . so & so fan ! can ie jus stop crying . can ie jus stop all this ? feel so meaninless . ie hate tuu act strong . act happy . act lyke im nuttin wrong . act lyke im a clown ! makes jokes . laugh LOUDLY . screamm lyke helll ! ie hate all tis . budd ie jus carn do anything except for actting . sorry . ie'm nort perfect . haish . x'((
end here .
takecares .
bye ..

MINYEE `

ielovehimFOREVER .
till the dae ie die !
ie'll still b lovingg him !

ie've neber regret loving ue .
budd ie regretted doing those tings !

ie hab nth else tuu sae .
budd SORRY !

ie jus cant tell ue all tis again !
iemissyou so MANYY .
budd canr eben look closely at ue again !
ILOVEYOUBOI !

<33333

yepp ; ie'm in love wibe HIM HIM HIM ! <3

haish . siann lurhh . carn slp . nowadaes tyme change . slp during afternoon dhen night wake up play comp till morning . SOT ! hahah . tmr ish wednesdae . weee . can slp longer =xXx ' heee . haish . lies re all around mmie . ie dunno hu shld ie trust , hu shld ie belive . whye no one else noes about tis ? im so blur . lies re tuu much . & ie dunnwan anyone else excapt for himm okayyy ! so plss dun anyhoww intro guys for mie lurh idiot ! & dhat oink oink ! PLS STOP CALLING MMIE COCONUT HEAD ALRYTE ! & im nort a pigggg. hheeh . erms . ie've been missing him . its been days ie've nort heard his voice . im so xin ku . im strugglingg wibe mye life . acting happy infront ob eberione . ie habb tuu stop cryingg . & pls , don ask mmie bout him or wadd happen in klas or public places . its so ashame , cus , ie will cryy alryte . & pls , when im cryin don concern mmie , ie will cry louder der x) ' hahah . anywae , ppl '' thanks fer lettin mie sae out wad ie wanna sae & b mye listening ear ! thanks . mm . ie'll b strongg . ie won hurt myeself cus ob him ! ie'll try ` budd , ie dunno shld ie let go or waiting silently ! haish .
stop here ler .
nth else tuu write liao x))

BYE.

MINYEE ``

ITS SO HARD
SAYING GUDBYE .

& yeshh , ie'm in love wibe him him him !
& yeash , ie love him many many !

ie wanana cheer myeself up !
ie wanna smile `

don judge mmie x)
iehatesGUDBYE .

stop all yoor lies .
whye !

iemisshim manymany `

haish . ib it ish , wad shld ie do ?

ie've regret those thing ie've done , ib tyme would turn bk , ie promise ie won do dhat again , budd its tuu late . im sorry for misunderstood ue . ieloveyou ' ieloveyou more dhen anything , more dhen myeself . its tuu late , whye cant ue let mie noe dhat tyme ? haish . wad shld ie do ? whye did ue lie ? hais . wad shld ie do ? waiting silently & yet dun let him noe ? or letting go of him & yet its hard for mie . wadd shld ie do ? feel so hurt . so pain . boi ; im jus sorry . can ue jus tell mmie those words again ? ie jus carn get ue outta mye mindd . ie've regtret . can ie still turn bbk ? or its really tuu late ? ib ie still hab dha chance , ie rather wait , ie dun mind how longg . 9 mths again , another 9 mths & 9mths x 3 x 4' ie'll wait . ie promise . budd pls , tell mmie it ish real ? no fake hope pls ! seeing ue in skool , nort tuu talk tuu ue , treating ue lyke stranger , really mmakes mmie feel so xin ku . ib ie continued lyke tis ie'm gonna go madd . sctingg happy in klass . actingg happy whenever ie see ue . acting strongg & go on ! he don eben noes . he don eben care . tell mmie wadd can ie do ! whye shld dhey tell mie tis & let mie feel lyke turning bbk ! WHYE ? whyeeeeee !!! HAISH . im jus afraid tuu lose ue . ue jus dun understand dhs reason ie send those things . ue guys jus dun understanddd . ib ie neber tell ue thoes things , dhen when will ue tell mie how ue feel ? & ue kip keeping quiet , how can ie stopingg habiin those thoughtss ? haish . ue jus dun understand . plss ' dun jus think ob yoorself . its selfishh ! stopp all tis . ie still love ue as bfore , mye loves for ue hab neber drop a single bit , its has NEBER ! ie'll love ue foreverrr , ie will ! haish . tell mie wadd can ie do ? ie feel so weak , ie feels so hurt . & yet no one understand mmie =( '

GUDBYE .
soHURT .
holddMMIEwhenIEnidYOU !
tell mmie you love mie =( '

MINYEE ''

do ue noe wad ish LOVE ?
all the while ie was jus beeing lieddd !

stop tellingg mmie lies .
yoor lies re all over .
hu shld ie believe .

IE JUS CARN GET UE OTTA MYE MIND .

imSORRY
for those things ie've done.
those msg'es ie've send.
imSORRY .
ib ie noes things would had happen tis wae .
ue would think this wae ,
ie woon b doing dhat !

ie'vebeenTHINKINGGG .
itsallOVER

ie hab enuuff , ie hates backstabber !

haish . todae was boredd . wake uup at 4+ den play comp till 6+ dehn go hougang mall for piercingggg , heeee . no ish 9 ear holesss` -.-' ` tuupidd . haaa . dhen slack dere all dhat till 8+ dhen walk go bk , ie jiu went tuu michele hus hlp her do things. bud im afraid of dogs lurh ! the dog so active todae . kip jumpingg tuu mye legg ! dhen ie kip screamingg . mm . den slack till 9+ jiu went home . she come mye hus also lurh ' after reach home jiu play comp lorh ` hais . lastyme everydae also will msg him , chao chao also gort send 1 msg der. bud todae nth ` ie promise , ie won contact wibe him anymore . ie hab enuff . hate mmie can jus tell mie der . dun hab tuu sae bhind mye bk ! ie feel so hurt . really beri hurt. HAIS ' ie feeling lyke kiillin myeself . feel so meaningless . feel lyke cutting , feel lyke drinkin many many feel lyke eating lot ob medecine ! ie jus feel lyke doing all sorts of tuupidd thingss . hais . how can ie face him in skool ? ie feeel so blah blah blah ! saddd . so pain ,, so hurt ' & noone noes . budd ie've tuu act happyy in front ob everyones . ie guess its enuff . its long enuff ! ie habee enuff tuu ! ie hate , & ie really hates . mayb leadingg on alone ish better . haish . feel so weak now . ie wanna stop thinkin . ie wanna stop cryingg . ie tell myeself im gonna cheer up ! ie wanna forget tis kinda person . ie hate tuu love him ! ie regret ` its enuff ! haisss ' ie won tok tuu him anymore . boi ; im sorry , ie won irritates ue ler . bye , ie'll leave . im gonna change myeself tuu another person . its nort worthy ! & lastly , ie miss eileenn ! haish . ib she's here jiu hao . she can pei mie tok all mye xinshi ` IEMISSHERR ! mm . ie guess ie'll stop here . no mood . byee .
update soon .
iemissEILEEN .
myeGANS & FAMILYS .
ielovesEM !
lovesEVERYONE
budNORThim !!

MINYEE

its so hardd saeingg GUDBYE .
im sorry . sorry for everything .

ie hate tuu see dha wae im now !
its so useless .

ie wan dhem tu b HAPPY `
ie gibe dhem mye BLESSING .

ie'll forget ,
ie'll get over it !
very very soon `

WHENLOVES SLOWLY BCUMSHATE ~

dieOVERyou .
imCRAZYY

ie think ie can ! so ie'll try (: im so boredd .

erms . todae was dam bored lurh . so sian . stay at home for e whole dae ! hahah . den woke up at 4+ watch tebee , make mye things . dhen was so bored the whole dae . ): about 6+ he cored =x ' den he told mmie he had graduated ! weeeee . congrats . hahaha ' ie noe ue wanna gibe ppl suprise so ue donwanna tell others (: hhaah . budd ie was shocked dhat ue told mie ue din graduate . den suddenly cai sae gort . erm . haish ' budd hab nth much tuu tok tuu him now ler ' lyke drifting apart liaos . when we tok we won joke around , listen tuu mye xinshi lyke b4 ! changeddd . no more liaos . budd alryte lurh , although ie still feel dha pain , feel hurt . bud now ie dun blame anyone ' cus ie CHOOSE tuu GIVEUP . mayb dhats the best wae for mie & you ! haish . so now , ie jus wanna see ue happy , see you smile . & nth else . ie dunwish tuu ask for more (: wish the both of dhem will be happie =) ' ie gibe dhem mye blessingg . aalthoug seeingg dhem together its really hurt for mmie . bud alryte . mayb ie'll get over it soon ! ie believe ie can! so ie'll try ! & ie'll b strongg . ie'll still b smilingg happily infront of ue ! being a clown . making jokes . budd actually ue won noe how ie feel ! & ie dun mind tuu (: ie hate tuu feel sad . ie wanna b cheerful as bfore . no more crying , no more ! at least gibbin a fake smile ish better dhen dripiin tears =x' 'ie understand . ie won make things difficult for ue anymmore . ie go on myeself . mmie w/out ue its still mie . so nth special ! its jus no one for mie tuu depend on =x ' bbud alryte , ie dunmind tuu ! ie believe one dae ie'll find mye own happyness . ie believe in myeself . ie won b dhat tuupid anymore . although sumtyme seeing ue will makes mmie feel dha pain , thinkin ob those memories we once hab ! was wonderful . budd its jus all memories , its over . no more . ie can think of those memories budd ie carn thinking of going bbk ! heh .
so now , nth gonna pull mie down . ie'll tell myeself , nort tuu love him , he's jus mye besttie , mye brother . dhats all ! no more doubts . no more ' nth !
no more being tuupid . its useless =)
being happy its better dhen being sad ryte ?
later grow white hair . haaa '
faster skool reopen lurh . men si ler ' so boreddddd !
iemissallmyeKLASSMATES & FWENS !
myeGANS tuu !
LOVE'EM !
UPDATE SOON .
GUDBYE MYE LOVE~

MINYEE ''
iechoosemyePATH .
ie guess tis shld b e right wae !

nomoreTURININGbbk !
findd mye happiness .
SEARCHIN for IT !

althoug its hurt seeing all this , bud ie told myeself tuu b strongg.
& act as if nth happen , its will b better .
guys ; ie gibe ue mye blessinggg alryte `

promise mmie , ue mush b happyyy (:
mrWHITE , GUDBYEEE
ie'll leaveee

thanks fer yoor cruel & hurtful answer

ie've made up mye mind . ie'll get over it . ie'll forget . ie won b dhat tuupid anymore . gibe mmie sumtyme . ie will let go of you . its useless being so upset aanymmore . we're jus impossible . kor & mei (: ielovesmyegans ' ! can ? so , ie'll try tuu let go . ie won cry cush of ue anymore . at most cut more , drink more & smk more ' dhats alls ! going out ' update when im bk !

MINYEE ''
ie'll get over it !
mrWHITE .
iehabenuff .
so im gonna let go .

KOR & MEI 184 (:
can ler mar ?
bbyeee .

ue stabb in tuu mye heart once again !
feel so hurt !

darrenNG .
kissesGUDBYE .
ieloveyounomore