wonder ....

i think my blog is rot. i don think anyone is reading it either.
sucks to th max.

i will still blog.. but i donwan anyone to see what im bloggin alright.

F!
please leave me alone for now..
you wont noe how hurt i'am...

you wont know th true feelings...
i have to hide myself inside...

is nt minyee anymore..
no longer th same.
really fuck my life!!!!!

as long as i noe,
i give it all.. i shld nt regret..
bcos i alr given u all my love..
trying my best to work it out.
but u will nvr hav enough..

you lie again & again..
i will jus take it as i donno a single thing.

i will continue lovin u.
i will try to...

im thinking ......
if being hurt too much, will feelings fade off?
will it lessen?
will it go missing?

if i were to given a chance..
i donwan love!
I DONWAN FUCKING GET HURT BY LOVE.
i wan to leave this place...
if only i can ... if only i can don llove you!
BUT SORRY. I CANT....

WHEN TH DAY U WALKED IN TO MY LIFE..
I NVR GOT TH CHANCE U MAKE U WALKED OUT...
I NVR SORT IIT OUT.
POINTLESS. MEANINGLESS.


no matter how hard i tried..
is useless alr.

all ii cn do is act as if im fine.
bcos u cannot take it if im my true self.
YOU CANT!


DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH EFFORT I PUT IN?
DO YOU EVEN FUCKING KNOW IS NOT EASY HANGING ON?

F ALL THIS SO MUCH...

if i can cancel or delete love.
I SWEAR I WOULD!


if you were to leave mai world..
ALL I CAN SAY. MY LIFE IS SCREWED..
&
I DON BELIEVE IN LOVE ANYMORE..



i said it again..
THIS IS MY KARMA?



if only ii cud...
i wud wwan a timeout badly..

YOU SETTLE ALL UR EX STUFFS!
CLEAR A REAL CLEAR LINE...
FIND A FUCKING STABLE JOB..
DEN COME BACK TO ME..

IF YOU REALLY LOVE ME,, IF U REALLY WAN ME BACK.
IIF U REALLY NEED ME IN LIFE.
IF YOU REALLY

YOU WUD DO ALL THIS FOR ME!

( I RMB) you once said: i will be ur last.
BUT I SERIOUSLY DON THINK SO..
4MTHS.. U GIVEN ME SHIT. HOW ABT 4 YRS?
SEEING ME IN IMH?

FUCK IT..
i don even dare to think abt th next step! seriously.
YOU ARE JUS KILLING ME ALRIGHT.

MENTALLY TORTURING ME.

U SAID U WILL CHANGE. FOR A BETTER FOR THIS RS.
U SAID U WUD BE GOOD TO ME..

HEY LET ME TELL U THIS...
NO DIFFERENCE.?! OK!! NOT AT ALL..

TH ONLY DIFF IS ( FROM E START U ARE AVERAGE)
& WORST COME TO WORST!


if i were to let go?
can i ? i cant even do so..
if i cn... if im still th 16yrs old minyee. & i wud ask u to fuck off from mai life.
SERIOUSLY

JUS FREAK OUT!



but still i love you damn fuck loads.
but u nvr noe hw i feel!



LET ME RANT~
I DUNNID UR FUCKING EYE TO LOOK AT MY BLOG.
FUCK YOU VERY MUCH~