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hello everyone ...

finally im back to blog.
for now, i hope every is over..
everything is back to normal.

life was'nt good for me..
has been a real hard thing for me to accept th facts!
but still i have to face it ...

im still looking for a job..
& i hope everything wud be stable...
& not ups & down agns.



i nvr tot i wud have this day!
i nvr tot this wud happen to me.
i nvr tot someone will even treat me like this.
i nvr tot i wud be so stupid..

over, i hope is over.
& we start anew again..
this time round i hope u wud not be like lastyme anymore.
i don wan any secrets between us pls.
if u donn lie, & we wont be having misunderstood.
im not unreasonable . share with me ...
every lil things.


one time shot,
u told me everything ...
i cant even believe what im hearing..
& u jus make me burst in tears!
till today, i try to hold back my tears..
to forget th hurt u gave..
but still is too painfull..
is unbearable. do u feel guilty? do u feel sad?
at first i felt being cheated so much so much!
i felt being toyed... but i hope you din..
i hope u are true to me...

actually i dunnid much for u..
i donnid presents , i donnid suprise, i donnid u to pampered me all th time.
all i want for is, you to love me sincerely, faithfully& truely..
tats all...

i might not b as rich as her.
i might nt buy u a fone..
i might nt give u everything u wanted..
but i can ashure u, i can give u th priceless love & happiness.
i can sacrifice anything as long u u are happy..

from now on...
i will slowly try to gain back th trust..
& i hope this time round u are nt gonna break it..
bcos is becoming mor & more fragile alr.
i hope you will try to mend back th hurt you've done..

& i choosen to forgive you!
but i cannot forget...
cherish me, do not take me for granted.

i cannot say you are nt at fault at all!
bcos seriously u're part of it..

if only u don accept th gifts.
if only you don borrow her card
if only you don reply her.
if only u don contact her.
if only you draw a clear line.
if only u tell me th whole truth.

i jus don get it.
whats th point when u noe th truth will be out one day.
den why do u stil wanna lie?



baby i love you..
& i don wan such things to happen..
mayb to u, ima dumb...
but im not!
but u can take me as one..