Melts `

back homed.
went to kbox today `

was'nt a nice day for me. & i don think nowadays is nice for me.
as you said, after all this happenings. everything is over.
we start anew, u wud treat me better. den before.
but seriously. nth changed at all.. isn't better at all.
eveerything is still th same..

i've said....
LAST chance, but i could'nt make it last!
bcos i cant...
no matter how hard, sour or bitter. i will continue walking on with u.
is still th same, hurting me without notice.
i donnid anything from u.
but jus you to love me truely. faithfully.
tats all..
ISIT HARD?

you shld noe whats right & wrong.
...

i dunno how long more am i able to take all this..
i dunno whye do i deserve all this.
i hope you are REALLY REALLY ABLE TO! change.
but im nt forcing you~

i rmb when i asked u th other day
: why did u treat me so good..
you answer : from now on im going to treat you good.
i said : for only today..
you said : no, from now on im gonna treat you like this.

yes, listen only..
ur words dosen counts at all..

YOU WONT KNOE HOW MUCH INSECURE I FEEL~
i dunno which of urs is true, & which of urs is lie.
trying to gain them bback.
but things u do, dosen proving me anything.


i really don wish to say anything abt it.
i know i hav been very senstitive this fews days!
BUT WHY?

CAN WE LIVE PEACEFULLY?
CAN I HAVE MY HONEYMOON PERIOD BACK?!

i said , we change for th better..
nt fr th sake of changing alright.



FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
WHATS GOING ON HERE~

no matter how unhappy im...
i still have to hold thm back..

& i cant give up th love...
i can only love you more..
i can only plus & NOT minus..

but i noe u can minus dem & plus them as & when u like..

TATS WHY IM FEAR... ALWAYS FEAR.


I somehow hope someone wud really understand how am i feeling deep inside.
i somehow hope someone can cry with me..
cry thier lungs out!

i somehow hope someone can bring me to th beach to scream~

I WAN HAPPINESS! PLEASE.... I DESERVE TO...
AM I?