this is hurting me alotalot. But i have to accept. Cus i believe you are right too..
Mayb is really not a good thing stickin together with each other everything..
Perhaps i shld spend more time with my girls and let u have th time u need,
When u need me im jus a call away..
I think i shld start to learn to be independent.
Not sticking with u all th time.. I try to accept all th facts. And i will keep myself occupy.. In th past, they says i have no time for them, and we broke up.. Den i changed. I started to spend more time with my partner.. But for you?? Why? I really dun understand.. But what i can do is to give u what u want.. I hope this is what u want.. Wiping off my tears and get bl to slp nw. Possible i will spend more time with my girls instead.. Let u have all th time u wan. When u are free den ,eet me alright. Don forget, i always love you. And i hope this won drift us apart.. Loveeees you always...
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
sicksick
im on mc for 2 days!
& my mc ends today!!!
so tmr i have to attend classes again!
but i have to catch up .
cus i lose 2 lesson le.
summore this is th last week & we are going to outlet liao!
sighs.
havent even prepared yet!
3 weeks can simply pass like this -.-''
SSHAG!
this 2 days was rotting at home
while bb came my hus in th morning to takecare of me.
den home at night.
today not only my bb came to takecare of me.
michelle, sheri, layping & clara came to my house at night to pei me too.
woohooo!
i loveeee squeeziiinnnnn thier black heads!
see liao so damn shiok!!!! ahahahs.
pain like f. i know!
hahahahhas
i din skip my medicine,
i ate it after food everyday!
but th more i rot at home, th more i wan to munch! sadddd
im going to bed real soon
yes, im worried.
veryvery worried.
if i were to ask you not to go will you listen?
yes, i know you wont.
whats th point.
all i can do is jus not to think too much.
hoping nth wud happen.
hoping you will still come back to me.
prove it to me. you wont.
i want you,
in my life, & only you that i all need!
when i really need u wud u be dere aanytime?
wud u give up on me bcos of sumone else?
IM AFRAID ! seriously, i cant imagine me without you now!
i dunno what will i become!
i wanted you so much in life.
nvr ever i had this feeling inside me!
baby, you're only one.
50yrs later ,
taking care of each other.
bringing each other go hospital check up.
holdin on still, loving you still.
drinking kopi at kopitiam.
( i think one cup of coffee cost $3 le. LOL)
& helping each other when ever we needs!
i want you th rest of my life.
im going to stick with u nomatter what!
i don care what others are going to think abt me,
abt me being with who & whatsoever!
but what i know, nothing gonna pull us apart!
& nothing goinna make me give up in this relationship ~
BABY I LOVE YOU.
MUACKS
& my mc ends today!!!
so tmr i have to attend classes again!
but i have to catch up .
cus i lose 2 lesson le.
summore this is th last week & we are going to outlet liao!
sighs.
havent even prepared yet!
3 weeks can simply pass like this -.-''
SSHAG!
this 2 days was rotting at home
while bb came my hus in th morning to takecare of me.
den home at night.
today not only my bb came to takecare of me.
michelle, sheri, layping & clara came to my house at night to pei me too.
woohooo!
i loveeee squeeziiinnnnn thier black heads!
see liao so damn shiok!!!! ahahahs.
pain like f. i know!
hahahahhas
i din skip my medicine,
i ate it after food everyday!
but th more i rot at home, th more i wan to munch! sadddd
im going to bed real soon
yes, im worried.
veryvery worried.
if i were to ask you not to go will you listen?
yes, i know you wont.
whats th point.
all i can do is jus not to think too much.
hoping nth wud happen.
hoping you will still come back to me.
prove it to me. you wont.
i want you,
in my life, & only you that i all need!
when i really need u wud u be dere aanytime?
wud u give up on me bcos of sumone else?
IM AFRAID ! seriously, i cant imagine me without you now!
i dunno what will i become!
i wanted you so much in life.
nvr ever i had this feeling inside me!
baby, you're only one.
50yrs later ,
taking care of each other.
bringing each other go hospital check up.
holdin on still, loving you still.
drinking kopi at kopitiam.
( i think one cup of coffee cost $3 le. LOL)
& helping each other when ever we needs!
i want you th rest of my life.
im going to stick with u nomatter what!
i don care what others are going to think abt me,
abt me being with who & whatsoever!
but what i know, nothing gonna pull us apart!
& nothing goinna make me give up in this relationship ~
BABY I LOVE YOU.
MUACKS
Monday, March 08, 2010
random agnnn
i donno why i jus feeling like crying out!
mayb i jus see things that makes me feel pricky?
or i dunno what i saw?
or i jus imagine too much things.
whatever it is. i will get over it.
f.
do u think i even have th fcuking free time u give u back ur things?
u want i put outside my hus u come take lah hor.
i have nothing to do with u also.
agrh!~ something affects me!
whatever. random!
one more week & im going outlet if deres no delay!!
\agrh! hate it so fucking much!
i don wan new enviroment please!!!!!
i want to end this stupid class & stupid job.
tmr will be at raffles.
& i hate it so much also.
though i cn coma down dere.
but is that fucking teacher again!
nag & nag!!! cannot late! else KILL.
agrh.....
im tired.
sleepyyyyy.
really not enuf sleep lately.
:(
teacher say i have dull skin.
& nowaays have some break out.
i hate it :(
toking on th fone with bb
being random makes bb angry.
agrh ,.im sorry.
but i enjoy my nonsense day with u.
u reeally light me up.
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR!!
muackmuack!!!!
mayb i jus see things that makes me feel pricky?
or i dunno what i saw?
or i jus imagine too much things.
whatever it is. i will get over it.
f.
do u think i even have th fcuking free time u give u back ur things?
u want i put outside my hus u come take lah hor.
i have nothing to do with u also.
agrh!~ something affects me!
whatever. random!
one more week & im going outlet if deres no delay!!
\agrh! hate it so fucking much!
i don wan new enviroment please!!!!!
i want to end this stupid class & stupid job.
tmr will be at raffles.
& i hate it so much also.
though i cn coma down dere.
but is that fucking teacher again!
nag & nag!!! cannot late! else KILL.
agrh.....
im tired.
sleepyyyyy.
really not enuf sleep lately.
:(
teacher say i have dull skin.
& nowaays have some break out.
i hate it :(
toking on th fone with bb
being random makes bb angry.
agrh ,.im sorry.
but i enjoy my nonsense day with u.
u reeally light me up.
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR!!
muackmuack!!!!
Sunday, March 07, 2010
i thought you wud b dere.
as i wasn't feeling well nowadays.
many things happened to me lately.
& im so fucking mad at my dad,
with alots of probs.
yes, im so tiredd.
as i alr said, everything is really pulling me down!
all i hope for is, i tot bb wud b dere cheering me up.
stay wit me as long as she can.
bcos i really need her badly, bcos she's my happy pie.
but at th end of th day, she leaves.
throwing me alone, running far away.
telling myself not to cry anymore.
telling myself to get over it.
tolerating everything alone.
facing probs alone .
when bb is not dere for me.
not lending me a shoulder to lean on.
esp i really need her at this point of time.
this is hurting.
& is veryyyy .
i donno do you care.
i donno will you feel sorry.
i donno are you still mad at me.
i admit, moodswings coming nowadays.
all i hope, is you to understand.
i thought you wud be th one wiping away my tears,
holdin on my hands, telling me not to cry.
treating me like your precious bibi.
but end of th day, i still rmb;
i kissed you on your cheek
& kissed goodbye you, i hug you.
saying byebye , but you?
NO REACTION, you' nvr want to kissed me back.
hug me & everything.
at that point of time, im dying inside.
but i can put on a smile bcos i donwan to get you worried.
i cant take it anylonger.
i ran away....
end of th day, i walked back home alone..
with th same fucking path, we've walked together bfore.
thinking back, why m i alone?
its alr been veryvery long since i walked home alone like this.
& i determind to walk back alone.
many things flask thru my mind.
i want you so badly in my life.
But why? din'nt u notice th way you treated me is really hurtful?
did u notice, you're not showering me with all your little love anymore?
& THAT IS TH TIME WHEN I NEED YOU MOST.
when everything i pulling me down, WHY DIN YOU PULL ME UP?
why did u pull me down again?
im not crying.
i donwant to cry,
i find it so pointless.
i want to cry out loud, like no tmr!
but you're not dere for me.
this is hurting me alot.
thankyou !
many things happened to me lately.
& im so fucking mad at my dad,
with alots of probs.
yes, im so tiredd.
as i alr said, everything is really pulling me down!
all i hope for is, i tot bb wud b dere cheering me up.
stay wit me as long as she can.
bcos i really need her badly, bcos she's my happy pie.
but at th end of th day, she leaves.
throwing me alone, running far away.
telling myself not to cry anymore.
telling myself to get over it.
tolerating everything alone.
facing probs alone .
when bb is not dere for me.
not lending me a shoulder to lean on.
esp i really need her at this point of time.
this is hurting.
& is veryyyy .
i donno do you care.
i donno will you feel sorry.
i donno are you still mad at me.
i admit, moodswings coming nowadays.
all i hope, is you to understand.
i thought you wud be th one wiping away my tears,
holdin on my hands, telling me not to cry.
treating me like your precious bibi.
but end of th day, i still rmb;
i kissed you on your cheek
& kissed goodbye you, i hug you.
saying byebye , but you?
NO REACTION, you' nvr want to kissed me back.
hug me & everything.
at that point of time, im dying inside.
but i can put on a smile bcos i donwan to get you worried.
i cant take it anylonger.
i ran away....
end of th day, i walked back home alone..
with th same fucking path, we've walked together bfore.
thinking back, why m i alone?
its alr been veryvery long since i walked home alone like this.
& i determind to walk back alone.
many things flask thru my mind.
i want you so badly in my life.
But why? din'nt u notice th way you treated me is really hurtful?
did u notice, you're not showering me with all your little love anymore?
& THAT IS TH TIME WHEN I NEED YOU MOST.
when everything i pulling me down, WHY DIN YOU PULL ME UP?
why did u pull me down again?
im not crying.
i donwant to cry,
i find it so pointless.
i want to cry out loud, like no tmr!
but you're not dere for me.
this is hurting me alot.
thankyou !
Saturday, March 06, 2010
what does FRIENDS stands for ?
after my big bursting cries, i feel so much better.
things happen so sudden.
i noe you've admit. but ask yourself. is dere any other things you've hide?
no point argue-ing or asking anymore!
YES IS POINTLESS.
bcos no matter how much we tried ,
th truth will nvr be out.
everyone is still twisting.
you really disappoint us alotalot.
nvr ever will i think you wud do this.
if you really cherish us as a friend,
you would'nt be like this.
please reflect.
th truth is still with you.
is up to you to decieded what to do..
if you think you're right, you're not lying anymore.
so be it .
too much of lies,
you yourself alr dont even know whats truth & whats lie.
please be clear of what you're doing.
stop being brainwash or what..
trust yourself, believe yourself.
if this is what you want,
at th end of th day don regret what you've choose.
all our say we alr told you.
if you still wish to stay in your lies,
continue.....
bcos this is your life.
you yourself choose your path.
we can only hlp you by teling you what we see.
what we know.
no longer we can be like lastyme. . . . .
feelings are so random latelyy.
i jus feel so xinku inside.
i dunno whye.
part of it bcos of this matter.
part of it bcos of character matter
part of it bcos of finacial matter
part of it bcos of family matter
part of it bcos of school matter
part of it bcos of bb matter ( we're not quarelling )
everything is trying to pull me down!
hanging on..
but i feel so tired.
i feel like givin up.. .. in life.
i need baby with me.
i need her hands to hold me on.
i need her shoulder for me to cry.
i need her so badly.
im strugglin so hard at work.
& everything so sucks to th maxx.
i dunno what happen to my stupid moodswing.
i feel so much better after th big cry,
seriouslyyy.
i have been tolerating for dayyys!
:(
I WANT A HOLIDAY SO MUCH NAOZZ!!
I WANT TO LET MY HAIR DOWN & REST!
I WANT MY FREEDOM! MY $$$$
MY ENDLESS CASH. MY HAPPY GO LUCKY DAYS!
WHEREEE ISIT?????
sick & tired of all this fucks!!!!!!
FUCK EVERYTHING TO TH MAX~
& NEEDD BB SO SO FUCKING BADLY THIS FEW DAYS!
PLS STAY WITH ME AS LONG AS YOU CAN!
i hate moodswing.
criescries-
night!
TMR START CLASS AGN!
& F, IS THEORY
things happen so sudden.
i noe you've admit. but ask yourself. is dere any other things you've hide?
no point argue-ing or asking anymore!
YES IS POINTLESS.
bcos no matter how much we tried ,
th truth will nvr be out.
everyone is still twisting.
you really disappoint us alotalot.
nvr ever will i think you wud do this.
if you really cherish us as a friend,
you would'nt be like this.
please reflect.
th truth is still with you.
is up to you to decieded what to do..
if you think you're right, you're not lying anymore.
so be it .
too much of lies,
you yourself alr dont even know whats truth & whats lie.
please be clear of what you're doing.
stop being brainwash or what..
trust yourself, believe yourself.
if this is what you want,
at th end of th day don regret what you've choose.
all our say we alr told you.
if you still wish to stay in your lies,
continue.....
bcos this is your life.
you yourself choose your path.
we can only hlp you by teling you what we see.
what we know.
no longer we can be like lastyme. . . . .
feelings are so random latelyy.
i jus feel so xinku inside.
i dunno whye.
part of it bcos of this matter.
part of it bcos of character matter
part of it bcos of finacial matter
part of it bcos of family matter
part of it bcos of school matter
part of it bcos of bb matter ( we're not quarelling )
everything is trying to pull me down!
hanging on..
but i feel so tired.
i feel like givin up.. .. in life.
i need baby with me.
i need her hands to hold me on.
i need her shoulder for me to cry.
i need her so badly.
im strugglin so hard at work.
& everything so sucks to th maxx.
i dunno what happen to my stupid moodswing.
i feel so much better after th big cry,
seriouslyyy.
i have been tolerating for dayyys!
:(
I WANT A HOLIDAY SO MUCH NAOZZ!!
I WANT TO LET MY HAIR DOWN & REST!
I WANT MY FREEDOM! MY $$$$
MY ENDLESS CASH. MY HAPPY GO LUCKY DAYS!
WHEREEE ISIT?????
sick & tired of all this fucks!!!!!!
FUCK EVERYTHING TO TH MAX~
& NEEDD BB SO SO FUCKING BADLY THIS FEW DAYS!
PLS STAY WITH ME AS LONG AS YOU CAN!
i hate moodswing.
criescries-
night!
TMR START CLASS AGN!
& F, IS THEORY
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
Happy 2nd mthsary!
another month pass..
010310
happy 2nd mthsary bb!
a lil late post! ytd busy with hw! thats why.
time really flies.
spendng my honeymoon period with my bb is really th most wonderful thing in life!
heees.
looking forward for end of year overseas trip!!
wth all my gfriends & bb!!
woohooooooooo (:
going to sleep.
update when free.
nights.
turn offfff *
Bb, im gonna hold on to you no matter what!
manymany more days, weeks, months & yrs to go!
till we lao kokkok! heeheeeeee
iloveyou bb & thanks for sayangggg me all along.
I LIKE IT! HAHAHAHA
MUACKKKKKKS.
im going crazy when im with you.
you light my day (;
LOVEEEE
010310
happy 2nd mthsary bb!
a lil late post! ytd busy with hw! thats why.
time really flies.
spendng my honeymoon period with my bb is really th most wonderful thing in life!
heees.
looking forward for end of year overseas trip!!
wth all my gfriends & bb!!
woohooooooooo (:
going to sleep.
update when free.
nights.
turn offfff *
Bb, im gonna hold on to you no matter what!
manymany more days, weeks, months & yrs to go!
till we lao kokkok! heeheeeeee
iloveyou bb & thanks for sayangggg me all along.
I LIKE IT! HAHAHAHA
MUACKKKKKKS.
im going crazy when im with you.
you light my day (;
LOVEEEE
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