at timess

at times i jus wonder alot of unsure thingss .
i know is better to left unsaid.

i know its not right for me to think so much.
im trying not to.
after tat day..
alot of thing keep comin thru my mind.
i know im nt th perfect one for you.
but im trying to be th best one for you.
i try.

sorrrry :(
i really think im so lousy..
sighs.

i hate mood swing at niight.
:(
i need you i need you.
& i noe u don like me thinkin so negative.
i will try not to.

i jus want to be th best of you.
i jus wan u to be with me.
heartttssss.

speechless now.
i neeedddd to be a better gf.
if only iii can, i wan to change mmyself so badly!!!

hugss.
baby, ii love youu.
goodnight.
:(

i hope you noe how impt u mean to me :(
loveees
misssssyou

mayb is breaking apart

out of th sudden i miss you, my old friend. missssyou so much.
still i think of you :( if you are still around i doubt life wud be better.
things will be diff.
you said you wud be dere, but u are not.
somehow i miss those time when we are still small lil tiny children playing ard.
so much fun. no stress & nothing.
how i wish i cn see you again.
or jus in my dream will be nice.
so long nvr dream of you alr :( i miss you i miss you ..

in my life, you're th best sister i ever met :(
so random i know. but i miss youuu.
how i wish u wud be back!

:(



stress & upset!
what happen to me?
why am i not happy these days?
im so tired tireds tired.
can someone help me?
working is tired..
im so not used to it.

minyeeee smile please!
bu yao saddd (;
sayangggg*

goodnight.
i hope thing wud get better.

IF ONLY.




\imisssyouuuu*

wo kuai le mah???

rrrrandom..
Jus alot of thing flash thru.

Im happy that i got you back.
I hope we wud be closer den before. I HOPE.
Perhaps no? Mmm . Dontknow.

Workin everyday, lesser time foor blog.
Tireddd alr. Somehow i hope i donhav to work. Andd nua at home. Shag.

I wished you wud nvr leave me again.
Bcos yuu are part of me.
Goodnight

Not enough sleeppppp for dayssss. Sighs.

Iloveyou
Nightsss.

Wo bu shuang, ):

always kept in my heart

going to sleep soon after i blog.
wakin up at 9am later on.
cannot be late or nua alr ;


everyone says , minyee is getting stronger den before.
lastyme, if i were in to this situation. all i do is breakdown & crycrycry.
telling my cliques & crycrycry.
but for now, i hold back my tears, no matter how hard it is for me.
im not cryingg. infront of anyone.
(:
bcos cryin dosen solve any thing at all.
& mayb my tears alr dried up.
yes, indeed v painful. but i hav to learn to stand onmy own.
i believe i can make it thru.

no matter how long itis.
how hard itis.
how cruel u can be.
how nice you can be.
i will always wait for you.
as long as i know you still love me, & i will nvr give up.

wait till u come back to me.
bcos u're all i ever wanted.

iloveyou.
&goodnnight.

depressed.but sttill i will bring out my smile (:
bcos i know you won wan to see me like this.
no worries, im stronger each time i fall ..

goodjob.
gonna be guaiguai from now onwards.
i will prove to you.
i can do it ..

hugs. misses

I have to be stronger this time

i can nvr imagine im actually stronger that what i think im~
yes, everything is pulling me down. i have to pull myself up again.
crying dosen helps at all. bcos no matter how much i cry, how much i drink or whatsoever.
things wont be changin at all.

who wants to go swimming with me?
i really want to swim so badly.

this is gonna be hard for me.
but i can make it thru.
bcos i believe i can.
gonna prove to you, this time round im changing.
& bcos i really find it not worthy..
so i think changing is th best way.

i know you are not gonna listen to what im going to say .
bcos no matter how much i explaint, is all an excuses to you.
& u are sick & tired of my nonsense.
& yes, you given up on me, on this relationship.

being thick skin i know, but always i will keep you mine.
nor will i let go or forget..
even im alone down here, waiting for ur return..
i'll make this waiting a happy one.
& not a suffering one.
yes, im th one who clings on to you.

even if u are gonna tell me you dont love me anymore.
im also gonna accept everything ..
but keeping silence.
for now...
i will.

ima biatch, who needs some reflection now.
busy schedule coming soon.
minyee have to stay stronger & not get affected by all this.
work is work. personal is personal.!
put all th stuffs aside.

i know for now, is useless begging u to return back to me.
but i wished one day you would.

however i wanted to shut down my fb so badly.
but i have some reasons.

i'll let time be th medicine for both of us.

im ROBOTIC! (:
donnidd to rest nor eat (:

BYEBYE!

thanks for those who called and concern.!
im v v v fine for now ..

i know u wont want to see me like a zombie.
like dying without you.
so i wont..
still im here v fine.. though need u so badly.
but i can stand on my own.

i have to love myself first ..
in order to love you. (:

hearts.


i really think , im so much stronger den th past.

iloveyouall.goodnight

Flash back *

going to sleep after bloggin :D

mondayyyyy & im gonna start work! awww` shag manzx..
gonna spent lesser time tgt with babylove & clique.
bcos i have to go home early only weekend im free~
& no moree ladies night for me~ AWWW !
hahahas. whatever it is.
is time to buck up & work harder now!

tryinggg my v best not to have MCs or whatsoeveer unless im really sick.
bcos i donwan to screw things up anymore!
work hardddd & i deserve better i guess (:

went to kbox ytd & today~ singgg untill no voice le!
HAHA. i like (Y)

so fast one weeek past liddat :( my one week off days are endingg real soon!
& im gonna get reaL tired!
AWWWW!
my sleeping time have to adjust it slowly.
now its like getting later!
HAHA.

some weird monster bite me! my whole hand sibeh itchy luh~ scratch like no tmr!
LOL.

alright ....

i'll hope baby is gonna work hard with me also.
& give me th motivation! & lets work hard tgt!!
we have to really really save up!
i jus got my $400+ not long & now i left with ahundred!
how to surviveee!! somtime i jus wish to buy 4d try luck~ scarlyy winn manymany!
LOL. greeedy. and i noe won win de luhs. :( sighs. suan leee.
try to save abit!
lesser outing please :D

i know happiness don last at all..
so im trying to give & take.
what u give i will jus take it.
nor good or bad, i have to except u in everyway.
but i know u cant except my true self (:
nvm den its alright.
i donnid anything much from you. but jus be true to me & love me wholeheartly & im contented alr.
im not asking for alot.

babyyyyy. whats wrong with me now?!
im feeling v emotional this time.....
need u so much by my side,
after u off th webcam, i miss you so much..
WHAT HAPPENED?

thanks for lighting up my days. making me smile!
being a idiot jokin & playing ard with me.
though i have to accept th facts that u are really a xiao qi gui!
LOL.
but no matter what i still love you..

you can break me apart a million times.
but jus something warm coming out from you,
every broken pieces mend it back easilyy...

only you, that can brightened up my days!
baby, you will always be th one.

ILOVEYOU.

timeee flies...
goin 6 mths soon :X
NO PRESENT FOR YOU.
WO MEI YOU CIAN LA!
KE SHI WO YAO NI GEI WO PRESENT!
BU YAO WASTE MONEY DE PRESENT!
hahahahahahahahaha

supermissyoudarling