I have to be stronger this time

i can nvr imagine im actually stronger that what i think im~
yes, everything is pulling me down. i have to pull myself up again.
crying dosen helps at all. bcos no matter how much i cry, how much i drink or whatsoever.
things wont be changin at all.

who wants to go swimming with me?
i really want to swim so badly.

this is gonna be hard for me.
but i can make it thru.
bcos i believe i can.
gonna prove to you, this time round im changing.
& bcos i really find it not worthy..
so i think changing is th best way.

i know you are not gonna listen to what im going to say .
bcos no matter how much i explaint, is all an excuses to you.
& u are sick & tired of my nonsense.
& yes, you given up on me, on this relationship.

being thick skin i know, but always i will keep you mine.
nor will i let go or forget..
even im alone down here, waiting for ur return..
i'll make this waiting a happy one.
& not a suffering one.
yes, im th one who clings on to you.

even if u are gonna tell me you dont love me anymore.
im also gonna accept everything ..
but keeping silence.
for now...
i will.

ima biatch, who needs some reflection now.
busy schedule coming soon.
minyee have to stay stronger & not get affected by all this.
work is work. personal is personal.!
put all th stuffs aside.

i know for now, is useless begging u to return back to me.
but i wished one day you would.

however i wanted to shut down my fb so badly.
but i have some reasons.

i'll let time be th medicine for both of us.

im ROBOTIC! (:
donnidd to rest nor eat (:

BYEBYE!

thanks for those who called and concern.!
im v v v fine for now ..

i know u wont want to see me like a zombie.
like dying without you.
so i wont..
still im here v fine.. though need u so badly.
but i can stand on my own.

i have to love myself first ..
in order to love you. (:

hearts.


i really think , im so much stronger den th past.

iloveyouall.goodnight