I jus don

things that im upset with or unhappy with.
i jus donwant to share it with you.
bcos no point saying it.

i donwant to have any probs with you.
so my family thing i will keep it to myself.
as recently they are forcing me to do things i really donwant to.
i donwan & dunno how to say this.

my stress. i'll handle it.
my dad, tat bitch is driving me crazy!

i'll move out one day when i have my own stable income!
work harder to find my job!
& i hope once i have my stable income for myself, it wud b stable!
& not always still not enough.
i jus don get it...
is always not enough..

im a guest,
renting this BED! not room~ & a lousy lil coomputer.
with nobody toking to me.
like a transparent one.
DEN? WHATS TH POINT OF STAYING HERE?

when i have probs..
they don willing to help me out at all!
so whats th FUCK point?

all they do is force force force!
& i will push thm back! & keep pushin.
trying to be harder.

EVERYONE'S SAYING...
you changed...
SOO MUCH.

from 2010 onwards YOU CHANGED.
im thinkinggg....
changes as in?
* living like a dead zombie everyday
*SUPER many financial prob.
*breakdown'
*depress
*working with no attention at all
*late nights
*sleepless
*disappointment on families

know why?
bcos, my heart, my mind, my brain, my everything
only focus on one thing.

&^ $$$$$$$ signnnn i needddd all over!
when im down down down,
WHO ELSE CAN HELP ME? WHO ELSE?

if i have th money now, i don even wan to owe any debts on myself!
LIKE NOW, im carrying $500+ , $275, $51.00
Hotel $100 summore, Bus $200.
c'on.. all these not 2 digits. is 3!

whereeee am i going to settle all this?
workkkkkk ^& pay for it?
SIGHS.

i want to give my loves one happiness..
being with me w/out worries.
but how? when im alr at tis state.

regretting so much when i havent save when im richer lastyme!
RAHHHHHHHH~



moneymoney drop from e sky!
OR MAKE ME BCOME A MILLIONAIRE!

so tat i will leave home,
buy a house stays together with love.
go overseas.
shoppppingggg
pay my debts!
& EVERYTHING.....

BUT EVERYTHING WILL STILL B POINTLESS IF LOVE IS NT WITH ME :(



sometimes i jus donno how to say this out...
bcos, my fault my bad my fault my bad.
YAH WHATEVER. MY FAULT MY BAD.

BLAHBLAHBLAH `~