define th word love.

It's a long road when you face the world alone, when no one reaches out a hand for you to hold. You can find love if you search within your soul, and the emptiness you felt will disappear.

A change is good for me, for I must learn now how to live. With you I've spent many nights, and can no longer survive without your touch. I need to learn now how to live for myself each day, and when I learn the biggest task, I can finally call myself independent.

i could not help myself anymore, let nature take it course and i'm tired, i just need sometime to be myself, to love myself more.

there's no other words to describe how i feel now. we're on different places. different world, different mind.

i tried to control these. but it couldn't work on it anymore.

define the word love for me. i want to know what's love to you.

How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?

i could remember every word you said, because it hurts me deeply inside and smiling outside.

and i will never forget all the times we once had.

th best thing that you've gave, is MEMORIES.

nothing good will happen to me, ever since...

i know i know, its alright! i'm going to be okay.

because, i deserve it.

i know one day, someone will see me.

one day, god will return all back to me.

is fair, everyone deserve happiness.

no matter good or bad, i will be happy.

i would not let anyone affect me anymore.

take it or leave it.

just don't hold to something that leads you to misery.

if you think i'am . ...

i can only say, i have never love somebody so hard before.

i have never do all these before.

i don't want to be friends..

i want to have a future.

please don't let me fall.. thankyou.

i love you

&& everything was wrong..

Never cry over somebody who would not cry over you

we cannot keep this on

let go of your past, go on to your future, this is life and what we are born to be like. no point still misses th person, so what if he or she still think or needs you? Whats past is past. Dont bother to brood abt it! Jus move on.
Its 2o11 and i still feel like 2o1o cos things still sucks like hell. I hope things would change eventually one day, till people actually notice me, or need me in thier life. As for now, i dont wan anything, but to earn money. And stay with my friends.
Time flies, its been one yr alr, but our rs still always unstable and im so tired of it, our attitude and character jus cant matched. Maybe someday , somehow people will change for me, for th sake of happiness within..

Love? Do we even understand love?
Being tgt we have to stand by each other, knwing thier weakness and tolerate with them, and built them up. Are we doing This? Do we understand love?
I seriously hate to miss somebody when th person don seems to wanna meet me. It sucks like hell seriously..
Th worst part is when im feelin so sourish and hurt inside, i mus act as if i don care kinda attitude, i don like it so much.
People actually dont understand me that well as it seems,
Thinking that im childish?
so wads th big fuck? Have u ever seen me talking things out in a mature way, i do. But v rare, bcos i wana be a happy girl and not somebody who always look so serious in everything. AiNt thier life so boringgggg?

Talj? If u are unhappy jus talk.. Don think jus talk.
This is me, i don like using my brain, so ima stupid person..
I think stupid sounds cute! Don you? Lol.
I don care about others but you. Do u noe? U dont..

Always thinking that when i say this, i really meant it. Cant you see whats th meaning behind all these anger? One day, one day when i don get angry or care, something will be wrong very wrong.
Want th day to come??

What a girls wan? Haha, good question..
I can answer it out, but not tday. Im ysing my fone to blog. And my hand is tired. Hahaha



Goodnight.
Not meeting for more den 48hrs i think.
Cool or wad?
Miss you like dog.
But nvm its okay, im going thru it.
This is life, accept it denn.

Byebyeee, hand suan suan le.
Tday like mo shui only...


I read books!

new year eve!

I thought love was just a mirage of the mind,
it's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find.
But the day I met you, I began to see,
that love is real, and exists in me.

hooohoo, today is th last day of 2010!!

lets countdown to 2011.

HOPING FOR A BETTER YEAR! and a new start for everybody!

2010sucks hell! andd a new year, a brand new start!

good luck!

& one yr anni with me and bb is coming!

looking forward.

so fast, alr one yr.. going thru all ups and downs together. and here we're still holding on.

thou sometimes we intend to have diff thinking and debating. but overall i do love you and try to go according to th way u wanted it to be.

HAPPY ONE YR ANNIVERSARY IN ADVANCE BABY!

I LOVE YOU NOW AND ALWAYS (:

steamboat tmr with my gfriends & bb <3

seriously no job cum no money.

gonna get a stable job and go for further studies maybe end of next yr.

or 2012?

have to save money first!

money is everything, first bb bday stuufff second start to save for BANGKOK~~~

den studyyyyyy private!

REALLYYYY WANT TO go childcare teach lil babies.

hahahah! patience patience~

new year new revolution!

JIAYOU BAH EVERYONE!

& for bb, better get ur ass up and jyjy too!

support youuuu <3>

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

when love.

We dwell on the past, while living the present
But I admit, the past was unpleasant
Full of ups and downs, less pleasure more pain
We wished for the sun, but only got rain
We both made mistakes, put pain in our hearts
But here we are again, promising to never part
Counting our blessings and letting go of the past
Starting all over and making it last
Feelings and memories flow deep in my mind
Of those days our love was genuine and kind
Holding you close, feeling your skin
You look into my eyes and make my head spin
Those feelings are back, but stronger than ever
I know you're the one I wanna hold on to forever
We both smile again, nothing's better than this
Kissing you again was like our second first kiss.

when we love

days passes so quicky, with jus an blink of eye is comin 2011 already~

christmas is coming too! xchanged gift session! LOVEIT.

seriously speaking 2010 sucks hell! not only family, financial problem and job all screw up only.

everything also not shun li.

hoping for a better year and a better future.

in life theres still many things to learn.

so we got to make this beautiful.

for people whom don really know me have no rights to comment abt me or my life.

or th way i treat people. bcos i dontknow u as well.

jus freaking fuck off frm this world will do!

1yr anni is reaching real soon too!

many things to rush naoz.

i need to work !!!!

january will be my new start!

so now fuck all th obtacles, i will not die with all these.

childish people can wake up and get a life nao.

i know i couldnt give u anything,

but only my heart and my love.

and people around me.

whats mine can be yours!

so, don expect anni present cos i couldnt afford.

but ur bday, i will never let u disappoint.

this shall be th best of all if i can.

like how u given me,

i would try to find all those money!

ahhh fuck~ need to work harder!

JANUARY NO MC, NO LEAVE, NTG!!!!

JYJY~

i love you .

will never stop loving you, till i ran out of breathe.

you're always my everything.

but i'll start making u my option. if that is what u want.

goodnight.

haters, _|_

NO LIFE~

i'll never be th same

i don exist in this world, im in th other. nobody bother to ask me about life.

so what is life?

so what if i can feel my heartbeat, i rather leave it dead.

nobody listens to me,

nobody wan to know how i feel inside..

am i right or wrong?

i try not to bother about u, but it always hurt me so.

that i cant leave my hands off you. but do you know .

i don think so.

i always tell myself its okay, everything would be fine..

but i feel sourish in my heart and cant control but teared again and again.

i rather don love you this much. i rather don need you. but i cant.

i wan to make myself numb, i donwan to feel anything.

u always go opposite of th way i wan it to be.

when i wan this, u wan that..

do u know, what i wan?

u said, we could say out how we feel inside, but when i say , can u even accept or take it?

isit fair for me ?

im jus a ordinary girl that wants to be loved like everyone else.

but it seems so hard..

being wanted is smth wonderful, but i don feel that im being wanted or needed.

why?

what did i get back with all my sacrifice?

im tired.

i donwan to describe how worst i feel.

nobody would know.. th truth of me, th truth of everything.

smiles and laughters are not real..

i don mind if ppl ard are hating me,

bcos they got no life!

i stay in my own world, that no one know i exist.

this is me..

perhaps acting stronger on th outside is what people wanna see.

i'll try. but deepdown, nobody knows.. untill i breakdown.

goodbye

when i step back pls don step forward anymore, im falling.

help me up..

i jus wan to be loved, but i dontknow how to make somebody love me

im useless.

call me bitch! i'll say ty~ cos u're slut