wanna fly away~

back to blog.

envy ppl that can go overseas as and when they like..

i wanted to go too.. but cashtight.

many things changed...

wants to go back to kidsss life.. so carefree.

&not like now. everything is attacking me.

birthday is reaching real soon.. wonder what will they be giving me.

maybe to you all my expectation is high..

but i want suprise! make me tears if u all can! haha

but to you, my wish is always so hard to reach..

u'll never rch, bcos u cant.

is so simple. my wish is so simple..

jus want you to ......................................

i noe no matter what i say is useless already.. my words are dead.

its ntg to you.

seems to talk less, is not that i wanted to talk less.

is i really have ntg to talk anymore. is like, whatever i speak out of my mouth we'll quarrel.

& u see, u dont see th point why im saying.

or can say, whenever i step back u step forward.

now, i don even wanna move forward or back.

i dont even know what to do.. den u'll be contented.

im seriously not happy even thou my bday is comin.

u know i want ntg from you..

i really seriously. even when im crying, u won get to see or know.

sometimes, i really want to be alone.

want to be cruel den do it all th way. make me dead.

& not pull me alive and kill me immediately.

i have feelings.. i donno how u feel what u thinkin. u don share.

i start to guess. & all my thots are killing me badly..

bcos u dont share.. tell me how?

so confused... u driving me so crazy..

i wanna let love die.

i wanna stop burning.

i wanna stop th heart beating ..

i wanna tear this apart.

....

i want to hold.

i want this to last.

i wan u to rmb me.

i want my heart to pump faster when ur lips get nearer~

i wan ur love. so badly so badly..

i want ur hugs. & u to stay by my side forever.

& you

push me away, telling me forever is ntg~

pull me out of my fantasy

wake me up from my dreams.

stab me & leave me wounded so badly..

reject me time & time .

lying to me over & over again.

even if now u are with me, ur heart dont belong here.

...??????

randomly.. u wud be nice to be.

& evertime when u hurt me, i wud tell myself its ok..

u wud be nice to me one day!

one day we wud be wonderful..

i waited .. waited.. for almost a year,

hhiiiiii, im still here!

perhaps u indeed became better.. but sorry,

u did it jus for awhile.

i dontknow isit bcos of th love isnt for me.

or this is ur best.

but i can tell you, i aint happy.

this year, is th first year i have cried so many times.

cried so terribly..

tired year.. sick year, problematic year. love sucks year. family cb year. money not enough year.

likke everything jus so cb ~

k im sick of it.\

take me to ur side and dote me or jus throw me aside.

simple and easy.

i dont wnna move anymore~

im not happy im not happy!

i donwan bday! i hate bday!

i wanna make friends first!

& u to be second~

bcos i know when i lose u. i have friends.

go fuck th world.!

minyee stand up. wake up! get a life~

don rely. don need . donn used to.

jus love. simple love.

don cry for ppl that isnt worth ur tears any more.

ong lay ping!!

first time go so far must take care okay!

hope u enjoyyyy! if can online, we can chat okay!

these few day going to be boring without u one!

^& for sure we will miss u okay~

& also must miss me hor. don saddd le la. is nt as if u won come back right.

jus go andd enjoy ur holiday trip! don think of unhappy stuff hor!

i envy uuu lor. i wan go also cant~

nextyme we save money we plan go farfar tgt lor! hahha~

takecare hor!

lovelove

bye~

nobody know i cry myself to sleep everynight!

nobody know i feel so cold inside my heart!

nobody know im an empty shell.

nobody know our love is broken

everything jus flashes back, like i can neveer go back to those beautiful period being with you.

for now, things aint th same anymore.

what we used to do. no longer th same.

does anyone know. everyday im not HAPPY. does anyone hear me out?

knowing whats wrong with me you family money myself?

fml. nobody does.

step on me, push me down.. or make me fall.

everything is doing this to me.

& im trying to be alright and go on..

wanted to sleep at home forever. & jus sleep forever.. not waking up forever.

jus leave me sleeping forever.

every morning when i woke up. i have to do blahblahblah. this & that

im sick of it. tired of it.

trying to give you. wad u want.

what abt you?

wanted to love you with all my heart.

but seems being push away.

does anyone know how i feel?

i really really need somebody here with me.

but who ?

i need a talk.. pls talk me out.

i cant say anything.

whatever i say are rubbish.

don have to listen to me.

i deserve it...

sleeping mode.

nobody can help me, only i can help myself

nobody can help you, only you can help yourself.

feel lost inside.

someone take me out.

i miss those times we once had, but i noe we can never return to where we used to be.

feels like leaving this world. and everything is gonna be fine.

this is th first time, u make me feeling ending this life of mine.

i donwant to go on.

bye

getaway

this lil day is coming! Like im looking forward from january? Cool! Finally 2more days and we are going to enjoyyy!!

Exactly 2more months and is also my bdayy!
Hoping for a better one this yr.

Shall take this trip to play enjoy and relax, not having any quarrels or seeing any attitude face .
Jus wana scream my ass off and play! Thou i know when i come back, i still have to face alot of problems coming. But at least i can forget this problems for 3days. Lol.

Sway, jus saw 4.44 roar!
Yes, we're not knowing about it. And we dosen wanna know abt it.
Without you, everything will be smoother ..
But .. Things would be diff without obtacles.

Ehhhh, jus take this trip as our fkin honey moon?? Ahhhh, No?
I richerr i bring u go other honeymoon hoh!


Needa get a new job i guess.
Come on minyee buck up!


14oct, start work!?? We are gonna work hard!?


Yawnnnnnn.
I hope someone understand me knowin what i wantt. And what kind of life i want.


Its dosen matter how long we are tgt..
But th love bond we have.. And th obtacles we went thru tgt.

I guess i used to be too haoming, and nw i have ku ming.
I believe one day i deserve beetter. I wisih i wish..

Stop making me cry myself to sleep please.
Some nights, you jus don let me feel loveee

Workin naozx. Byebye.. Bored ttm. Noone bothers. Fml

forgotten?

if only love can be like pencil and eraser.
Keep th wonderful ones and erased th hurtful ones.

when i was younger.. I din'nt know how to cherish.
I tell myself no matter whats th outcome in future, i shouldnt regret ..

this is life.. Im moving on, so do everybody.

Love th one who deserve your love..
Don hold on to smth that dont belong to you.
Don hold on to smth that dosen bring happiness.

Choose th life you want it to be.

superduperfuckhatethisfeeling

i myself don even know whats going on or what happen to me.
but feeling so down .. esp this few days, feel like hiding myself keeping quiet like randomly.
Sorry, for being fragile inside.. Lil things that you said or do sometimes break me apart and i intend to say you back rudely or either kept quiet.

I hate this part, when im alone.. Need you badly. But you're sleeping. No point huggin curly anymore.
v random.. Really very. Whats on my mind? Whats with me? I don even know myself. If only i cann.. I wont be like this.

Moodswing sucks so much.
Want come faster come. Keep moodswing v pekcek luh.

Goodnight.

its jus me and you

all i want is jus peace!
Shall hope nth goes wrong, lookin superb forward for genting trip. Lets enjoy. And throw all th shits and singapore and getaway for 3days. Woohoo.

give me shyte? And im gonna give you shyte too!

Jus me and you ..
In our small lil world.
Hope this is what u want.
Im gonna love you till th world stop turnning.
Hugs.