GETAWAY GETAWAY GETAWAY (:

we live

2011-11-09T20:31:00.002+08:00

i want a better future!

i dont understand why im so afraid to trust u back.
why do u have to crush me down again and again.

now i need to build all over again....
please dont pull me down again!
its not easy...

my heart is too small to fit.

i still cant overcome th fear in me. i dont know how to face u. or believe u.
i hate myself .... for loving u again n again..
how i wish my heart is dead.

please.... let me have peace ..

getting higher ;party like a rock star babe!

2011-10-08T19:59:00.003+08:00

i went to sentosa for tanning today! k the sun was hot enough and luckily it din rain! happy max!!!
im like burnt now but like it`~

k bored, everyday work work work! end work go home eat sleep work work work!~
everyday same de! damn shag!

always $$$ not enough! damnmylife.
how i wish i can go back school life, no stress de.!
not like now, need pay tis and that! :(

i will try not to let my blog rot kay~ sometime damn lazy to update!!

;;

im going back sk liao, hungryhungry!

byebye

love ; is the key to my heart!
forever in ur heart.

dance dance dance *

when tears make someone stronger

2011-10-04T21:59:00.003+08:00

Things had.changed so.much from e past till.now,been thru real different stuffs. And yet still back to squareone. What does all this mean??

Life hasnt been.good during September, and hope October is a new start.

Situation really make human grow up. And im really glad i became stronger each time i fall.

Life.is just so amazing that miracles and impossible stuff always happen. What we have to.do, face it accept.it. FUCK.it ((:

when you find ...

2011-07-21T13:14:00.002+08:00

I think of you all the time,
Could something happen to me... We have been searching for love
Everyone deserve to have i guess.. Nor its a good or bad one we hav to accept it.

If someday, what would you do ..
God, i have many random thoughts and its like running wild..
I DONT want history to.happened again, so what else ...
Could love jus stay here and not run ..

有些话我永远都说不出口，对不起。。

你一直在我心里。我的灵魂以经走了，快把我找回来，我不想离开你。
都怪我，好笨好笨。
你要勇敢哦!!
有些东方一直留在我心里就够了。

我爱你。。。你呢?
我好想离开这里哦!!!

happy birthday to you.

2011-02-14T03:09:00.000+08:00

happy 22nd xingyu! All th best in everything you do. (:

I know i cant give you what you want, i know i cant be compared to her, when she leaves you , you are much more worst den now when i leave ya. So how much i can see, im still not that impt. U still can live without me.

Sorry tat i given u this lousy bday.
And now i know. U have ntg to blog abt us this few days, u have ntg to talk abt me. U made me feel that im not th one anymore and that makes me confused. Perhaps.......

Who did put on effort who didnot i can see.

For people that dont think without saying. Just don need u to appear in my life to give me anymore trouble.

Just fuck everthing.

when you say love, do you really know what it is?

2011-01-20T00:22:00.002+08:00

lets th picture do th talk ..

i feel that, im staying in my own world.. im living in one corner when no one is gonna see or find me anymore.

that weird feelings inside me, i dislike it. and its tearing me apart. jus wanted to cry them out.

i need somebody here tonight.

there's nobody ...

life has been changing slowly, i dont like th changes, but isit good or bad?

its about you or me?

whats wrong with this life? im so sick of it.

i got to achieve what i've promised.

dying inside...

when its time to... den do it.

i would sacrifice my time, my life for you.

meaningless ..

goodnight. :(

im feeling random. ima sorry.

treat me well and gently, for now im fragile.

handle with care.

goodbye

i need motivation !!!!

2011-01-16T04:35:00.001+08:00

2010 YEAR!

2007 YEAR

SADDDDDD LAA! im gonna buck up!! i need my last time figure back! really!!!!!! JIAYOU HAU MIN YEEEEEEE!!!

SLIM DOWN PLEASE :(

If i know what love is, it was because of you..

2011-01-12T08:37:00.004+08:00

A life lived in love will never be dull.

when we are still unclear which path are we walking towards to...

don't think, just go do whatever you want, just go ahead and be happy is what we're looking for.

because when there is love, there's no question.

When the world feels like it's on your shoulder, look at the person next to you and see what they are going through. Don't take life for granted. Love the one that loves you, because sometimes we don't get a second chance.

life hasn't been really good without a job nao. :(

when i say buck up, i don't see myself bucking up! awwww.

but now, seriously i gonna buck th fuck up yeah~

else how to save for bangkok you tell me?!

firstly, i needdddddd a job badly!!!

secondly, i wanna try and physco my dad see whether i can get money from him for new year clothes, else really wear newspaper liao! im already pathetic enough for not shopping for 1 yr plus already. pls understanding abit lemme buy luh!?

thirdly, i need money to prepare for somebody birthday party.

fourthly, i need money again for her bomb birthday present.

fifthly, start to save for bangkok!

i also don't know enough time anot. like wtf seriously!

shagggggggggg :(

till now, i still don't know whats new year clothes themes this year.

casual? lady like? insanity? or what? LOL.

aiya, mixedd bah, how i wish im tall enough for a maxi. :(

i seriously need to adjust my bodyclock, and now birds are chipping skies are blue, im still not asleep yet. gosh.

cmi cmi really cmi liaoz.

heading to my room soon.

gooooodmorning cum night!

In the end, it's still best to wait for the one we want rather than settle for what is available. It is still best to wait for the one you love rather than settle for the one who is around. It's still best to wait for the right person, because life is too short to waste on the wrong one.

Darkness isn't the absence of light... it's the absence of you.

define th word love.

2011-01-04T03:02:00.003+08:00

It's a long road when you face the world alone, when no one reaches out a hand for you to hold. You can find love if you search within your soul, and the emptiness you felt will disappear.

A change is good for me, for I must learn now how to live. With you I've spent many nights, and can no longer survive without your touch. I need to learn now how to live for myself each day, and when I learn the biggest task, I can finally call myself independent.

i could not help myself anymore, let nature take it course and i'm tired, i just need sometime to be myself, to love myself more.

there's no other words to describe how i feel now. we're on different places. different world, different mind.

i tried to control these. but it couldn't work on it anymore.

define the word love for me. i want to know what's love to you.

How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?

i could remember every word you said, because it hurts me deeply inside and smiling outside.

and i will never forget all the times we once had.

th best thing that you've gave, is MEMORIES.

nothing good will happen to me, ever since...

i know i know, its alright! i'm going to be okay.

because, i deserve it.

i know one day, someone will see me.

one day, god will return all back to me.

is fair, everyone deserve happiness.

no matter good or bad, i will be happy.

i would not let anyone affect me anymore.

take it or leave it.

just don't hold to something that leads you to misery.

if you think i'am . ...

i can only say, i have never love somebody so hard before.

i have never do all these before.

i don't want to be friends..

i want to have a future.

please don't let me fall.. thankyou.

i love you

&& everything was wrong..

Never cry over somebody who would not cry over you

we cannot keep this on

2011-01-03T08:29:00.002+08:00

let go of your past, go on to your future, this is life and what we are born to be like. no point still misses th person, so what if he or she still think or needs you? Whats past is past. Dont bother to brood abt it! Jus move on.
Its 2o11 and i still feel like 2o1o cos things still sucks like hell. I hope things would change eventually one day, till people actually notice me, or need me in thier life. As for now, i dont wan anything, but to earn money. And stay with my friends.
Time flies, its been one yr alr, but our rs still always unstable and im so tired of it, our attitude and character jus cant matched. Maybe someday , somehow people will change for me, for th sake of happiness within..

Love? Do we even understand love?
Being tgt we have to stand by each other, knwing thier weakness and tolerate with them, and built them up. Are we doing This? Do we understand love?
I seriously hate to miss somebody when th person don seems to wanna meet me. It sucks like hell seriously..
Th worst part is when im feelin so sourish and hurt inside, i mus act as if i don care kinda attitude, i don like it so much.
People actually dont understand me that well as it seems,
Thinking that im childish?
so wads th big fuck? Have u ever seen me talking things out in a mature way, i do. But v rare, bcos i wana be a happy girl and not somebody who always look so serious in everything. AiNt thier life so boringgggg?

Talj? If u are unhappy jus talk.. Don think jus talk.
This is me, i don like using my brain, so ima stupid person..
I think stupid sounds cute! Don you? Lol.
I don care about others but you. Do u noe? U dont..

Always thinking that when i say this, i really meant it. Cant you see whats th meaning behind all these anger? One day, one day when i don get angry or care, something will be wrong very wrong.
Want th day to come??

What a girls wan? Haha, good question..
I can answer it out, but not tday. Im ysing my fone to blog. And my hand is tired. Hahaha

Goodnight.
Not meeting for more den 48hrs i think.
Cool or wad?
Miss you like dog.
But nvm its okay, im going thru it.
This is life, accept it denn.

Byebyeee, hand suan suan le.
Tday like mo shui only...

I read books!

new year eve!

2010-12-31T04:47:00.002+08:00

I thought love was just a mirage of the mind,
it's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find.
But the day I met you, I began to see,
that love is real, and exists in me.

hooohoo, today is th last day of 2010!!

lets countdown to 2011.

HOPING FOR A BETTER YEAR! and a new start for everybody!

2010sucks hell! andd a new year, a brand new start!

good luck!

& one yr anni with me and bb is coming!

looking forward.

so fast, alr one yr.. going thru all ups and downs together. and here we're still holding on.

thou sometimes we intend to have diff thinking and debating. but overall i do love you and try to go according to th way u wanted it to be.

HAPPY ONE YR ANNIVERSARY IN ADVANCE BABY!

I LOVE YOU NOW AND ALWAYS (:

steamboat tmr with my gfriends & bb <3

seriously no job cum no money.

gonna get a stable job and go for further studies maybe end of next yr.

or 2012?

have to save money first!

money is everything, first bb bday stuufff second start to save for BANGKOK~~~

den studyyyyyy private!

REALLYYYY WANT TO go childcare teach lil babies.

hahahah! patience patience~

new year new revolution!

JIAYOU BAH EVERYONE!

& for bb, better get ur ass up and jyjy too!

support youuuu <3>

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

when love.

2010-12-29T03:49:00.001+08:00

We dwell on the past, while living the present
But I admit, the past was unpleasant
Full of ups and downs, less pleasure more pain
We wished for the sun, but only got rain
We both made mistakes, put pain in our hearts
But here we are again, promising to never part
Counting our blessings and letting go of the past
Starting all over and making it last
Feelings and memories flow deep in my mind
Of those days our love was genuine and kind
Holding you close, feeling your skin
You look into my eyes and make my head spin
Those feelings are back, but stronger than ever
I know you're the one I wanna hold on to forever
We both smile again, nothing's better than this
Kissing you again was like our second first kiss.

when we love

2010-12-22T06:37:00.002+08:00

days passes so quicky, with jus an blink of eye is comin 2011 already~

christmas is coming too! xchanged gift session! LOVEIT.

seriously speaking 2010 sucks hell! not only family, financial problem and job all screw up only.

everything also not shun li.

hoping for a better year and a better future.

in life theres still many things to learn.

so we got to make this beautiful.

for people whom don really know me have no rights to comment abt me or my life.

or th way i treat people. bcos i dontknow u as well.

jus freaking fuck off frm this world will do!

1yr anni is reaching real soon too!

many things to rush naoz.

i need to work !!!!

january will be my new start!

so now fuck all th obtacles, i will not die with all these.

childish people can wake up and get a life nao.

i know i couldnt give u anything,

but only my heart and my love.

and people around me.

whats mine can be yours!

so, don expect anni present cos i couldnt afford.

but ur bday, i will never let u disappoint.

this shall be th best of all if i can.

like how u given me,

i would try to find all those money!

ahhh fuck~ need to work harder!

JANUARY NO MC, NO LEAVE, NTG!!!!

JYJY~

i love you .

will never stop loving you, till i ran out of breathe.

you're always my everything.

but i'll start making u my option. if that is what u want.

goodnight.

haters, _|_

NO LIFE~

i'll never be th same

2010-12-20T05:50:00.002+08:00

i don exist in this world, im in th other. nobody bother to ask me about life.

so what is life?

so what if i can feel my heartbeat, i rather leave it dead.

nobody listens to me,

nobody wan to know how i feel inside..

am i right or wrong?

i try not to bother about u, but it always hurt me so.

that i cant leave my hands off you. but do you know .

i don think so.

i always tell myself its okay, everything would be fine..

but i feel sourish in my heart and cant control but teared again and again.

i rather don love you this much. i rather don need you. but i cant.

i wan to make myself numb, i donwan to feel anything.

u always go opposite of th way i wan it to be.

when i wan this, u wan that..

do u know, what i wan?

u said, we could say out how we feel inside, but when i say , can u even accept or take it?

isit fair for me ?

im jus a ordinary girl that wants to be loved like everyone else.

but it seems so hard..

being wanted is smth wonderful, but i don feel that im being wanted or needed.

why?

what did i get back with all my sacrifice?

im tired.

i donwan to describe how worst i feel.

nobody would know.. th truth of me, th truth of everything.

smiles and laughters are not real..

i don mind if ppl ard are hating me,

bcos they got no life!

i stay in my own world, that no one know i exist.

this is me..

perhaps acting stronger on th outside is what people wanna see.

i'll try. but deepdown, nobody knows.. untill i breakdown.

goodbye

when i step back pls don step forward anymore, im falling.

help me up..

i jus wan to be loved, but i dontknow how to make somebody love me

im useless.

call me bitch! i'll say ty~ cos u're slut

make me a christmas tree

2010-12-15T03:40:00.002+08:00

christmas is coming, i wan a chrstmas tree diy by you. lol!

so fast time flies, i met you more den a year already!

and soon is going to be our one yr ann already. like donno how to describe this kinda feeling.

to me, u are important.. u are everything.

but i know to you its a different thing, mayb slowly used to how u treat me already.

can be good at tmes, can be cold to me at times.

but its okay.

thinking back, memories of th past one year seems like 10 years.

like so manyy many things happen ..

've got all sort of feelings.

sad, hurt, disappointed, fallng apart, given up. happy, excted, suprise, sweet.

whatever it is, u given me alot. i learnt alot' and grown up alot from you.

i love th way we re, i love th way you care (fiercely), i love th way ur unglam can be, i love th way u nao pian niu, like xiao hai zi, i love th way u disturb and suan me at night, love everyway of yyouu..

but not when u say, ur feeling had fade, im afraid of that.. so much, lke i really dontknow how to make a person love me back.

i hope i pray, pls don fade, pls don go.

i want us to be like this till th end. i don care who or what try to break us apart. i don care my parents or so.

i jus want to be with you.

is like 3 months staying tgt time like flies, i donwan u to go. i donwan u to go.. but still u got to go.

i know.,, u will go one day..my tough day is coming to me.. soon!

jus hope when u move back home thing gonna remain th same, and ur old mistake will not repeat..

and i dont wan to built trust for u and u crush it all urself.

u know, i cannot take it anymore.

for now, im learning to be stronger, to control feelings, to put u aside, to built my own life, to love less work more.

& i jus donwan to love, i want to be loved! can i? yea, i know is impossible.

i jus want you to rmb, i exist when im gone,

i want you to rmb me in ur head forever.

i love you most, nobody else can do.

i wan you to know, i can sacrifice everything for you.

i wan you to know, u are th key to my heart.

i wan you to know, without u im an empty shell.

i wan you to know, i alr tried my best to give what i can.

i already love u with no regrets..

i give u alll and everything.

true love? is this th one? i think this is.

if this rs ever to failed, i think i will nv love again...

i think i need to clmb up all over again. i have already plan my future with u.

i wan our future.

we don ned anybody..

true love only come once, for mine you're th one.

for you, im th one who is gonna help u forget ur past..

this is overall how i feel...

i would hold and conquer th world jus for you.

but, sometmes, i feel tat nobody thnk of how i feel when they do things.

bcos sometime when i become silent, u better stop th topic.

same goes to me!

yayaya screwed up life.

my face cui know?!

sighhhhhhh..

this is th most lousy new year ever.

i don think i can afford to buy new year clothes even.

like fuck... minyee stop shoppingggg.

im not a lady,women,girl anymore!

i have stop pampering myself.! whoohoo. is this awesome?

life should be amazing with love around, we got to make this life amazing with no regrets okay!

we have to learn to fly one day.... i will fly, to th skies and touch th stars.

i will dream of u everynight and lets go to our fantasy.

don wake me up still...

i love you, so much....

i guessed u shld noe how much it is rgiht.

even if th world ends,, as long as i have u, im not afraid!

goodnight ppl

MY DAY~

2010-12-07T03:41:00.002+08:00

HAPPYYY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

apprecieate all those wishes from people & friends!

fuck all those unhappy stuffs and awaiting for a new year to come (:

goodluck!

got ntg to blog actually..

but many to rant, but jus don feel like ranting now~

oh ya, im gonna set my blog private soon yea~

i will only allow ppl tat understand me enter my life.

so th rest, is jus shits to me.

i'll be my real self. i cant be bother if ppl go ard gossip abt me.

bcos they are jus being a bitch!

im happy with my own life and friends ard me!

hoping to enjoy tmr.

but zi dong yi dian, donwan see things that will bu shuang one jiu can le.

fml? fyl!

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE

wanna fly away~

2010-11-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

back to blog.

envy ppl that can go overseas as and when they like..

i wanted to go too.. but cashtight.

many things changed...

wants to go back to kidsss life.. so carefree.

&not like now. everything is attacking me.

birthday is reaching real soon.. wonder what will they be giving me.

maybe to you all my expectation is high..

but i want suprise! make me tears if u all can! haha

but to you, my wish is always so hard to reach..

u'll never rch, bcos u cant.

is so simple. my wish is so simple..

jus want you to ......................................

i noe no matter what i say is useless already.. my words are dead.

its ntg to you.

seems to talk less, is not that i wanted to talk less.

is i really have ntg to talk anymore. is like, whatever i speak out of my mouth we'll quarrel.

& u see, u dont see th point why im saying.

or can say, whenever i step back u step forward.

now, i don even wanna move forward or back.

i dont even know what to do.. den u'll be contented.

im seriously not happy even thou my bday is comin.

u know i want ntg from you..

i really seriously. even when im crying, u won get to see or know.

sometimes, i really want to be alone.

want to be cruel den do it all th way. make me dead.

& not pull me alive and kill me immediately.

i have feelings.. i donno how u feel what u thinkin. u don share.

i start to guess. & all my thots are killing me badly..

bcos u dont share.. tell me how?

so confused... u driving me so crazy..

i wanna let love die.

i wanna stop burning.

i wanna stop th heart beating ..

i wanna tear this apart.

....

i want to hold.

i want this to last.

i wan u to rmb me.

i want my heart to pump faster when ur lips get nearer~

i wan ur love. so badly so badly..

i want ur hugs. & u to stay by my side forever.

& you

push me away, telling me forever is ntg~

pull me out of my fantasy

wake me up from my dreams.

stab me & leave me wounded so badly..

reject me time & time .

lying to me over & over again.

even if now u are with me, ur heart dont belong here.

...??????

randomly.. u wud be nice to be.

& evertime when u hurt me, i wud tell myself its ok..

u wud be nice to me one day!

one day we wud be wonderful..

i waited .. waited.. for almost a year,

hhiiiiii, im still here!

perhaps u indeed became better.. but sorry,

u did it jus for awhile.

i dontknow isit bcos of th love isnt for me.

or this is ur best.

but i can tell you, i aint happy.

this year, is th first year i have cried so many times.

cried so terribly..

tired year.. sick year, problematic year. love sucks year. family cb year. money not enough year.

likke everything jus so cb ~

k im sick of it.\

take me to ur side and dote me or jus throw me aside.

simple and easy.

i dont wnna move anymore~

im not happy im not happy!

i donwan bday! i hate bday!

i wanna make friends first!

& u to be second~

bcos i know when i lose u. i have friends.

go fuck th world.!

minyee stand up. wake up! get a life~

don rely. don need . donn used to.

jus love. simple love.

don cry for ppl that isnt worth ur tears any more.

ong lay ping!!

first time go so far must take care okay!

hope u enjoyyyy! if can online, we can chat okay!

these few day going to be boring without u one!

^& for sure we will miss u okay~

& also must miss me hor. don saddd le la. is nt as if u won come back right.

jus go andd enjoy ur holiday trip! don think of unhappy stuff hor!

i envy uuu lor. i wan go also cant~

nextyme we save money we plan go farfar tgt lor! hahha~

takecare hor!

lovelove

bye~

nobody know i cry myself to sleep everynight!

nobody know i feel so cold inside my heart!

nobody know im an empty shell.

nobody know our love is broken

2010-10-30T16:11:00.002+08:00

everything jus flashes back, like i can neveer go back to those beautiful period being with you.

for now, things aint th same anymore.

what we used to do. no longer th same.

does anyone know. everyday im not HAPPY. does anyone hear me out?

knowing whats wrong with me you family money myself?

fml. nobody does.

step on me, push me down.. or make me fall.

everything is doing this to me.

& im trying to be alright and go on..

wanted to sleep at home forever. & jus sleep forever.. not waking up forever.

jus leave me sleeping forever.

every morning when i woke up. i have to do blahblahblah. this & that

im sick of it. tired of it.

trying to give you. wad u want.

what abt you?

wanted to love you with all my heart.

but seems being push away.

does anyone know how i feel?

i really really need somebody here with me.

but who ?

i need a talk.. pls talk me out.

i cant say anything.

whatever i say are rubbish.

don have to listen to me.

i deserve it...

sleeping mode.

nobody can help me, only i can help myself

nobody can help you, only you can help yourself.

feel lost inside.

someone take me out.

i miss those times we once had, but i noe we can never return to where we used to be.

feels like leaving this world. and everything is gonna be fine.

this is th first time, u make me feeling ending this life of mine.

i donwant to go on.

bye

getaway

2010-10-07T16:40:00.000+08:00

this lil day is coming! Like im looking forward from january? Cool! Finally 2more days and we are going to enjoyyy!!

Exactly 2more months and is also my bdayy!
Hoping for a better one this yr.

Shall take this trip to play enjoy and relax, not having any quarrels or seeing any attitude face .
Jus wana scream my ass off and play! Thou i know when i come back, i still have to face alot of problems coming. But at least i can forget this problems for 3days. Lol.

Sway, jus saw 4.44 roar!
Yes, we're not knowing about it. And we dosen wanna know abt it.
Without you, everything will be smoother ..
But .. Things would be diff without obtacles.

Ehhhh, jus take this trip as our fkin honey moon?? Ahhhh, No?
I richerr i bring u go other honeymoon hoh!

Needa get a new job i guess.
Come on minyee buck up!

14oct, start work!?? We are gonna work hard!?

Yawnnnnnn.
I hope someone understand me knowin what i wantt. And what kind of life i want.

Its dosen matter how long we are tgt..
But th love bond we have.. And th obtacles we went thru tgt.

I guess i used to be too haoming, and nw i have ku ming.
I believe one day i deserve beetter. I wisih i wish..

Stop making me cry myself to sleep please.
Some nights, you jus don let me feel loveee

Workin naozx. Byebye.. Bored ttm. Noone bothers. Fml

forgotten?

2010-09-27T20:39:00.000+08:00

if only love can be like pencil and eraser.
Keep th wonderful ones and erased th hurtful ones.

when i was younger.. I din'nt know how to cherish.
I tell myself no matter whats th outcome in future, i shouldnt regret ..

this is life.. Im moving on, so do everybody.

Love th one who deserve your love..
Don hold on to smth that dont belong to you.
Don hold on to smth that dosen bring happiness.

Choose th life you want it to be.

superduperfuckhatethisfeeling

2010-09-26T04:33:00.002+08:00

i myself don even know whats going on or what happen to me.
but feeling so down .. esp this few days, feel like hiding myself keeping quiet like randomly.
Sorry, for being fragile inside.. Lil things that you said or do sometimes break me apart and i intend to say you back rudely or either kept quiet.

I hate this part, when im alone.. Need you badly. But you're sleeping. No point huggin curly anymore.
v random.. Really very. Whats on my mind? Whats with me? I don even know myself. If only i cann.. I wont be like this.

Moodswing sucks so much.
Want come faster come. Keep moodswing v pekcek luh.

Goodnight.

its jus me and you

2010-09-22T02:32:00.002+08:00

all i want is jus peace!
Shall hope nth goes wrong, lookin superb forward for genting trip. Lets enjoy. And throw all th shits and singapore and getaway for 3days. Woohoo.

give me shyte? And im gonna give you shyte too!

Jus me and you ..
In our small lil world.
Hope this is what u want.
Im gonna love you till th world stop turnning.
Hugs.

keep going ..

2010-09-19T15:25:00.001+08:00

back to work after a 4days break. 7days straight is gonna be tired for me, 5more days to go babe, jyjy luh.
Genting payment everyone settle alrdy, now left with all of thier passport numb and monday here they goes to book th tickets. Omg, im sooo looking forward to it. I know th more i look forward th more disappointment i will have, but u see' i cant help it. Rawr. Fuckshit. Lets fly tmr. Haa. I jus wanna have true fun shit and enjoy, hope noOne spoils th entire mood of everybody or so, hopes everyone cooperare. Woohoo.
Am workinh naozx, beloved is sleeping. Hope she is not waking up like too late to come over to visit me. Hee.

Somehow we would jus wanna let love die, so we won feel all th negative shits. But said is still so much easier den done so ya. Its not possible i guess.

I know im not as perfect as her, or as wonderful. And i know i cant be. I tried but failed. i want nth but ur smile and laughter.
All i can do is to give u all Th love i can.. Giving u happiness for th rest of ur life , i wan u to rmb.. Me!

I need to work more to get nearer to what we wanted. Hope after genting u wud be willing to help me out and struve tgggt.

Or maybe time is what i need, find it slowly..

As long as im still standing, i will try my best.
Shall hope we both can move out real soon, so part of some stress will be over too.
I love you. Till th v last.
Hugs..
Missingyou monster. My lil baby monster.
Lets getaway. Mmuacks.

Till th world ends, we hugged tgt..

when its all gone

2010-09-14T00:47:00.002+08:00

im feeling so unwell. i need you badly. but you wasnt here.

i don want to think what or who or whatever shit.
but i want to be with you.
mayb you,ve changed? mayb you're still th same.
mayb u have so much secrets mayb you have none.
i don bother.

i enjoy my last 2 weeks with you.
making me smile, trying to cheer me up when i get angry.
never walk away but come after me. this lil changes i've seen.
but thats not th main one i want u shld know.

ur good, i can see' as long as u have th time u try to be with me by my side.
sayang me when i need. hug me to sleep when u don like to do so.
i can see, i can feel.. try to stop debating with me, try not to quarrel when im being unreasonable.
im happy u are like that.
u have ways to make me smile. i love you.

sorry, i can see some changes in me too.
but i dontknow why isit like that.
perhaps, i given too much, and i donwant to continue doing th same thing.

mayb being with me really suffer much..
i cant give u a good life, a better life .. th life u want!
but im trying you see.
i try my ways jus to see ur smile.
everytime when we quarrel, i feel so soft hearted wanted to hug u or msg u. but i stopped myself.
i don even know why?

i walked home today from inter alone again.
bcos u wasnt here.
im sick u dont even know or even u know u never concern me.
:( till now im waitingg for ur text. but where are you. i dontknow..

i cant be able to sleep tonight as u are not by myside.
my hair are still awfully wet when noone helps to dry them.
noone to cuddle with me. tok to curly.
i missyou.. do you?

i need to see a doctor real soon..
and my gums are hurting me badly. fuck.

sighs...

its hurts me alot..
when you walk away...

goodnight.
missingyou.

sorry for being unreasonable!
i know i'am!!
FUCKMYLIFE.

BYE!!!

piang~ my throat killing me!
nbccb! sibeh fuckin moodswing. i feel like scoldin and ventin my anger at someone!
KNN~~~~~

can you open th door?

2010-09-06T17:50:00.002+08:00

its hurts seeing you getting upset, moodswing when i couldnt even do anything. And couldnt help myself at times i jus add on to ur anger. I donno whats wrong with you, and u urself donno whats wrong too?? Or u don even wan to let me noe whats wrong.

Trying to cheer you up, but my patience isnt enough, i get so fed up but couldnt speak out. I kept quiet .. Bcos i got speechless.. I donno what else can i do any longer.

Perhaps u are jus too closed up, u keep urself in ur world.. U dont wan to share or speak up. What can i do for you. U donwan to share ur burnden with me. Whom u loveeeee, whom u need? I really so unshure?

After seeing ur blog, i really donno whats ur tjinking.. Sigh, i think i donno u ... And ur thinking..
I miss you, th cheerfull you.. Th happy you. Th insane crazy you. And not th quiet attitude imba you.

Who can even tolerate me when im having moodswing?? Can you? I doubt u cant.

But i have to tolerate all these.

Hmmm, do u noe i need to press all my imbalance inside.. Not letting them out. Who can i vent to??
Who can i shout and scream and attitude to??
No one i guess.
Nth i can do, but keep them inside..

Lovetou

important existences.

2010-09-06T15:37:00.003+08:00

was filled with so much joy and love for th past weekend which has jus ended.
Though its like really chor weekend. But seems worth it luh. Been to underwater world whereby alrdy been more den 6yrs i last went. Haha, and dolphineeesss! Omg. ate thai express and aston also i nv eat before. awesome?! Though this weekend my leg damn tiring but i love th fun when i make so much noises it means that im happy, when i go so crazy means that i need more joy. Someone entertain pls. Make everyone laugh. Hahaha.

Perhaps this is me, th crazy and insane minyee.

With my dearest sis ard, always will be fun!
Lets get retarded tgt, somehow i jus wished i ccan forget all th sorrows and live it to th fullest like how i used to, how insane im..
So many yearsss.... We have all grown up. Things changes, i miss how we used to be.
Do you all rmb?
All th joy and laughters.. All th events and celebration. But now, everybody seems to be so busy ...

Talking about memories we hav so much beautiful and awful one. We can choose to erase th ugliest one and keep th wonderful..
Jus simply love th naive and freely me lastyme..

I enjoy my days with baby stayin at my hus from wed till sun night.

Awesome..

Still waiting for myself to see tth changesss. But ....
For nowm i don even dare to think abt future. I shall walk a step and see..
Gonna love myself more ..
Gonna cherish every moments so i won have regrets.

My feelings for you?
Let you think.. And guess. How isit like?

Has it fade or slowly move away? Will u be afraid? Have u ever thot of it?
One day without me?
How will life be for you?
am i really so impt? That makkes u wanna come back so badly?
Isit th right time?
Want things to move naturally...

I love for you has ..... ....

Working naoozx. And seems havIng moodswing. Unlike!

24 hrs is not enough for a day. Fuck it.
Bye

o1o11o

2010-09-03T13:36:00.003+08:00

am i doing th right thing? will der be any differences? will you really change? is this ur love? are we gonna last? i don wish to care but me knwing i love you. And wan you with me. And need you in life. Sigh..
I shldnt be like this i guess.
Wish me luck den.

I havent recovered pls handle with care. And changes?? Wait and see.

whispering in to my ears..

2010-09-01T17:27:00.000+08:00

i love you.
Im so unsure, shld i be grateful that u are still here or sad that you are here but cant be mine. I hate this kinda feeling, bcos i wanna make you mine but i cant..
Out of a sudden, i called u baby, i hold your hands i cant help but hug you tightly. Am i doing th right thing? I know i cnt be like this. And we cant help but misses each other badly you see.

Trying to hold on.. Hope i wont fall..
You know how much i need you, and im still waitinf for th day..
Its so hard for us not to meet. Bcos i miss you so do you.

I jus feel that what happen last night and these morning jus like when we first got to know each other.. Jus like u pampering me when im being ridiculous.

Imso unsure of everything, i wanna make you mine but for now i cant....
You see, u gotto get back up fast..
A wonderful night with you, chattin till 4am den we knock off. Waking up this morning looking at you smiling at me.. But these wasnt reality..

Hug me to sleep, telling me stories, telling me why u love me, saying stupid stuffs. Making me smile.. Bought my ffravourite food.. Make me eat.
Only you can do all these stuffs and understand what i want.
I will never forget what we said last night, and again' U are welcome.

Pls share with me all your sorrowss..
This dayy, is a v special one. Here im wishing u a happy 8 mth, thou i find us so confusing. So complicating.. But still. Till now my love for you never fade away..

Sorry this is gonna be th lousiest monthsary i guess, as im not here..
Hope u can put ddown all ur past and love me wholeheartly..
I will wait..

Whens th next time i can see you again??
Missingyou. And thanks for still willing to give me th strength to hold on.. Thanks for loving me..
Hugss.

missing you is smth i feel so terribly

2010-08-31T16:20:00.000+08:00

i miss you.. so much so much. like i couldnt breathe anymore without you.

I miss you coming to my workplace everyday to see me, i miss you helping me in everyways whenever i need you, i miss you hugging me from behind when i donwan to talk to you. I miss you holding my hands and kiss. I miss you smiling at me, i miss you acompany me throw boxes. I miss you chasing me ard, i miss you plucking eye browns for me , dig my ear, massage my leg till i fall asleep, i missyou siosio my head till i sleep, i miss you talk to me till we both tired, i miss you hugging me crying tgt, i miss you saying sweet talks to me, ii miss you saying how nice im how sweet im how loving im to you, i miss you calling me wife, i miss you lending me ur shoulder and cry loudly, i miss you lookin in to my eyes and tell me everything gonna turn out fine, i miss you tickling me all over i roll and scream ard, i miss all our lil happiness, sweet moments, though its not so wonderful, but everything jus so simple ..

I miss every part of you, i dinnt know missing you was something so hard..
I miss you jumping ard playin dust with me. Hearing ur loud laughin voice. Smiling sweetly for me..

I donnt know i love you this much, i wud miss u this much untill when i lose you..
Even i wan you back, but things still gonna be th same. I rather let u go. And set me free..

So much pain nao.. Im suffocating.. Don leave... Or come back?

Confusion....

digusted with myself

2010-08-31T13:18:00.002+08:00

2nd day without you.

After th clock hit 12am midnight will be another anniversary. Happy8month.
or Fucktat8month?

After lookin at what u post, tears are like water tap.. You know we cant hold on.. I wan ur true smile, and not smile to me when ur eyes ur emotion are betraying you. I know you wan to cry out. You are jus tryin to hide ur feelings.. Ur tears..
Its so much more hurtful seeing you this way. Though au are breakin apart inside, but still u wanted to let me smile.. But i cant stop crying breakin down in tears.. Telling you how much i need u in my life. Telling you how much i miss you, but we jus cant get back..

We gotta be stronger now. Without you, im falling, but i have to be brave.. Though i noe im not..

I can never find someone else who can give me th hapines u gave, i noe ur love for me isnt as strong as me..
I hope when u say u will change you will. I hope when u tell me, you don boyher anymore u do..

I hate to live in lies, esp in yours.. Seriously, if wanted me to have u in my life and continue lying. I rather not have you any longer. Bcos i need a truthful, faithful, relatoonship. And not me feeling so insecure here and dere..

Everynight when i reach home, th storm and thunder all came to me, reminds me of where u stand, where are ypu now..
Tearing me apart.
You trying to calm me down, asking me to be a brave girl, but u noe that im not... Without u im not.
I feel disgusted with myself. Im not perfect..
But do u even noe im trying to be th me u wanted me to be??

U noe u cant hold 2 strings..
U cant be selfish.. If u wan me den let go.. If u choosen others, i leave..
Though i nv want to..

I will always be right here. Waiting for you.

Crying so hard till i feel weak all over. Another day with teddy goldfish eyes. Fml fmlfmlfmlfml.

corner of my heart

2010-08-31T02:40:00.002+08:00

its hurts me a million going on without you.
jus feel like ending my life like this.
tonight, i need yuu so badly. but i know i couldnt have you back.
no matter how hard itis. i have to control my emotion..
but am breaking down now. esp seeing u in tears & couldnt help to wipe away for yuu.

i need youu so much now.
what can i do.. control pls control..

confusion is driving me crazy so badly..
i jus wish my tears wud dried up one day..
i jus wish i wud be able to feel numb. i hate myself like this.

i feel so lousy, i feel so disgusted with myself. omg. im so disgusting.
u see, i lost all my self esteem. self confident.
i need to stand back up.
i cannot remain this way any further.
get back up ...

i can never forget every moment we hav.
everything keep flashing back.
i got no one here now.
every broken pieces , no one to mend them back.
if only i can, i will run to you and hug u tightly now.
i donwan to go. pls i don wan to go.. i donwan to leave..
but i have too....
u know im not strong.

im not a brave girl .. im not a brave girl at all./
without u im weak freaking weak! :(

i donno how i can do without you now..

can i sleep tonight?
teddy eyes :(

spinning around without you.

2010-08-30T20:02:00.002+08:00

its okay, no point talkin abt it anymore. Since everything is over nao. No point debating.
We both have to get up. Be stronger to go on life.. We have muchs things to do still,
Don have to say sorry anymore. thou we both know we need each otther so much now, thou i really feel like running to ur place and hug u tightly, but we cant .. no matter how hard, we are gonna go thru these. Else all th suffer go inn vain. You know, i need ur smile. Don be sad. Don brood abt it anymore. Now, do ur best in everything..

When u think th time is right den come get me.. I won run away i swear im waiting here for you..
Stand up on ur feet. Stop rotting. U need a life..
And settle ur emotions.
If only u really love me i think u will.. Reallly change, for th sake of me.. For th sake of givin me a better life i think if u love me u will do it. If things are still th same den its really pointless..

Ur heart, u have to face it thou..
I have no rights to care anymore now.
I jus hope, u will live happily still without me in ur life.
Pls eat well, rest well, don keep morning den sleep. Not good. Oh ya, and plain water pls. No unhealthy drinks if possible. And rmb not feeling well don keep to yourseelf..

I will never foret every single moment we had..
Deep down inside i will remember... I love you so much..
Im gonna be fine, u trained me stronger.
Im alright. As long as u given me e promise we will get back.. I can wait...

Thou im feeling weak.. So weak.. But i try to be okay. Smiling still.. But crying inside.

Pls be good.. Don let me worry.

I miss you so much. So so much, but ii couldnt do anything.
All th best. Goodluck..

hard to leave, but i have to

2010-08-30T03:15:00.002+08:00

everything i do.. remind me of you.
life seems so hard.. like a second with out is dying. is tearing me apartt.
you know how hard it is?

things i promised you, i will still do it.
everything between us.. i will still acomplish.
i will never make u a passerby to me. bcos u are always deep down th one i love most,
even now, everything is gone. im left alone like a empty shell.

still i wan ur return. mayb u will never comes back. mayb u will..
life gonna be real hard..

when im lying on th bed. who is gonna hug me to sleep. who is gonna acompany me talking to curly.
who is gonna chat with me till i knock off. who is gonna sayang me when im sick.
who is gonna takecare of me. what do i live for now?
who is gonna help me throw all th heavy boxes at work. who is gonna help me? who is gonna come & wait till i end work? who is gonna buy koi for me . who is gonna pei me eat dinner.
who is gonna tickle me till i scrream & roll ard. who is th one?

im breaking apart this moment. cant stop crying seriously i cant.

working tmr with tat fuckin poppin eyes.
life still goes on..
no matter how hard it is. still goes on..

for this last time im telling you.
B, I LOVE YOU.
if u found yours . i giv u my blessing.
takecare please. & lead ur life properly., anything pls look for me. .
cheerup. don cry anymore.
never wanna see u hurt...

i love you goodbye

2010-08-30T02:14:00.000+08:00

forever. keep in my heart

Set me free

2010-08-29T23:51:00.006+08:00

love or pride?

2010-08-27T02:29:00.002+08:00

when you ain't feeling well i took care of you. i don care wheather how im feeling, i want you to be well. but have you ever apprecieate it? Or u think that this is wht i mus do? or i don deserve any better?
when i done smth wrong, i say sorry. when is nt my fault u angry i say sorry. isit wrong? if i never say sorry, do u think that you wud talk to me? if i never give in, will u still ignore?
I jus don understand, what more shld i do? Sorry also cant, keep quiet also cant, act blur also cant? Den what else??

Everytime whn i talk too much, u say tat im talkative or noisy blahblah.. But when i keep quiet u say i attitude??
U say i moodswong or dulan??
When i never,.. Sometimes i jus dunno what to tok anymore..

Yes, u think that im always wrong and u are right. So be it. I donwan to debate anymore or whatsoeever.
If u wanna continue this way is all up to you.

What u want, u urself is so unsure. From what i see. I dontknow.

Th way u talk hurt me sometimes, but who dosen get hurt this is what u reepply.
K fine, i kept quiet. Everybody does get hurt. Its jus ....

Sometimes i jus don understand.. K nevermind.
Is keeping ur ego and pride much more impt ???
When i treat u nicely, what i get back?
be nice cnnot. talk rude or harsh abit also cannot.

I noe im not perfect no one is..
Im noe im lousy. But i try alrdy..

I really dontknow... What do u want?

I never stop loving you. I always do..
But sometimes i jus donwan to show it anymore.
Goodnight.

hotcakes. breakapart. screamzx

2010-08-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

heehee, my baby is so cuteee. Keep help me blog. Haha! I guess you all also blurblur who is bloggin. Laugh die..
Deres no forever promise? but for now you love me? Den what about tmr? Next mth, year? How am i suppose to believe u will continue loving me.. When u said deres no forever promise??

Mmmm. I hope we can stay tgt..

Now im gonna strive hard to move out of this place..
Every part of me feels so heavy , my brain, my heart.. So heavy..
Hoping someone wud understand. Someone wud carry a lil with me.. Mmm.

I wan hotcakes, i wan itouch, i wan chalet, i want zoo, i wan getaway ):

Someone save me out of this place..
Fml...

Clinic apointment wait untoll i die alrdy.. Haha.
Zzzzzzzz.

Ehhhhhhhhhh, bitter???
I love you, but.... At times i jus wan to stop showing it..
Bcos, i donwan to take th initiative anymore.
Lets work harder..

BLOW YOU AWAY ! *SHOOOO

2010-08-24T13:29:00.003+08:00

her handsome cutie wawa is here to blog luh . :D

recently, she's getting so stress up with family problems .
same as me . but never mind, as long "I" strive harder,
nothing is a problem anymore . (:
moving out and stay together is what i wanted first .
but now, i guess she also have the urge to do so . hmm .

work was boring for her as i wasn't there to entertain her .
but small michelle went over and have her accompained till afternoon .
luckily she have those partners to talk to and gossip about . ~.~

today she is very very very careless . cause she forgotten to take
shop key and ended calling boss come down with a sleepy face . =x

REMINDER :
next time no matter quarrel or not, must put the key inside your wallet !

HOTCAKES HOTCAKES HOTCAKES !

I WANT MY HOTCAKESSS ~ ):

saying it for your sake . =x

Ps : there's no promise to a forever , all i know for now is ILOVEYOU !

a brave day (:

2010-08-22T05:06:00.003+08:00

my baby is so random asking me to blog for her . But then its in my own typing . Hmm . Kinda weird thou . Cause i never tried this before .

Alright, shall help her post then . Today, i think my baby is having her most brave day . Early morning wake up, accompany her went to see doctor . Had a blood test whereby she's so afraid of NEEDLES like as if the world is ending soon . Just looking at her when she's having a blood test . End of the day, she was asked to go to nation skin centre for further check ups . Hmm . Kinda worry for her . At least this time she bomb everything out, better than one sickness after another .

after that went went back home and had a nap till night and head down to rp look for them . Slacked till 4 and went home . Right now helping my beloved baby to blogg . Wakkakakaka~

As time passes by at her house this few weeks, i realise by waking up and seeing your loved one beside you is such a happy and calm feeling . It just brighten up my days even thou i know sometimes i'm juss being attitude or showing you faces . After all, i still love her alot and promised hat i will never leave her till my breathing had stopped . (:

P.s : I LOVE YOU, baby !

We still have many many years ahead of us and we can create new memories for us too . Don't always be so negative in your thinking . Sometimes you're also a xiao qi gui alright .

Shall head back and shioshio you now while you're in pain . Oppps . What pain i won't say luhh . Muhahhahaha . ><

fuck my life & fuck your life.

2010-08-17T17:57:00.001+08:00

hello goodbye.
a hard time for me..
Hardest ...

Continue down th road..
Cant control but they fell out.
What will th outcome be like?

Trust, love, patience, faith, courage.?

Can someone teach me how to long for a simple one?

Bcos i find me my world ur world this rs complicated.

Now, its th time that movingg.
But Everything stop.
Now, i need someone bside me..
Listen to my rants and wipe my tears away telling me, u are strong enough to go thru th days ahead.

Even if th choices is not you.
Stand up and walk all over again..
You can only keep loving. Nth else i can do.

Jus make me a happy person..

Lack of confident, secure, care, you.

why?

2010-08-17T00:22:00.002+08:00

nobody tag me :(
alll so bo xim~
sadddd laaa :(

esp YOU!!
AGRH~

workworkwork!
everyday same!
now 7th month. don dare go out :(
faster over please!

going to sleep.
goodnight.

hardestgoodbye

2010-08-15T14:03:00.002+08:00

somehow, no sense of security.
no sense of importance.. at times..
neglected.

at times, i feel so much like a stranger.
i dont even know whats on ur mind nor what do u want or what u are thinking thru tat min.
When i asked, all u said is nth..
but my mood have to swing according too yours. & i still have to pull them back.
mayb i cant say this is so hard.
Bcos some out dere going thru harder things.

I alrdy said i cn b dere for u when u need me.
I don mind suffer abit.
But another hand thinking, do you even need me?
At times feeling neglected.

Jus hope someone really understand me.
You know sometimes things u wrote for me out of a sudden made me feel sweet.
But when i see u in person, th feeling u giv is diff from th things u wrote.

I know, im not & i cant be th one..
I can never replaced.

You're really loving at times.
But out of a sudden u can jus change ur mood without telling me what had happen?
& i jus hav to swallow and go with it.

Th hardest goodbye is when you never even wanna leave, you have to make urself leave.

Things ain't even changing..
Its jus me in my hole, dosen want to come out.
Dosen mean im afraid of th world.
No! Im not' bcos i us wan to rrmain what i hav now..

Worth??? For now, i don know it either.
Even iif one day i might not be around in ur world.
I wan u to rmb, once dres someone, love yoyu so much before.

I'll hope tat i will always be missed by yoou.

Random post. Fml..

When i wake upp, i jus feel so insecure. And i donno whats th fuck is wrong.
You choose to hide, i choose to ride..

My sundays pass like a fast..

F, i jus feel like bursting out my brain now.

I hate this thinking. Cant i be positive more??

I need an answer,,

But nth is truth..
I rather not asked.

Bye.

2010-08-09T02:39:00.003+08:00

woahlau i damn pissed off now. i blog for so longgggggg. Damn long den i press wrong button. Everything gone. Nbccb nbccb. I gan pua dulan now. Fuck.

Goin sleep la cb. Waste my time nia. F.

One year has pass. August...
Another national day. This yr everything is so diff.

Workingg. And so baby is
Tmr many ppl working. All cant enjoy. Shag die.

Everything is diff. Thanks to baby, i learn to be stronger and independent.
My previous post so sweet. But i press wrong nbpcb.

We hav to work hard to move out on our own. Save money for a getaway trip.

This is what u promised me.

I nv thot we are still tgt till now. After all th shits.

When u hold me, i will stay for u. As long as u need me in life,

Privided let me feel im cherished by you.

I hate usiing fone to blog. Bcos seriously is pissing me off.

Gooddnight. Everyone. Pls takecare.

Cant sleep without love by my side tonight. I miss you so much.
Time gonna be less for us.
Thinkin when is th next tyme i can see u again make me cry.
I hate to miss u, bcos i feel awful ):

jyjy for ur work. Ii will support u till e end.
I love you always baby.

Be good, and i will pampered u manymany okay.
Im so happy past few days.
Bcos baby cuddle and pat me to sleep.
Hug me from e back.
Treat me super good. Siosio me.
Make me laugh and giggle.

Do stupid stuffs to make me smile.
U are superly cuteee.
I love you so much laaa.

Hugs. U are gonna be my only one. Till my last breathe. I wan nobody else .

Anymore.

Night

getaway pls?

2010-08-05T02:12:00.002+08:00

v sleepy & giddy now! heading to bed after i blog.

i need a getaway with babylove!
i wanna go bangkok, taiwan, korea & japan!
i need to save money for th future.
i cannot be a shopaholic anymore.
i quit.!
i don shop anymore.
i work for savings!

want to open a join acct with love when we stable down out finace!
my blog is rotting. i have no mmood to blog.
i dunno why..

i feeling uncomfortable.
i think i going sick soon..

i hate marina bay sand!
i swear im not going dere.!
RANDOM.
jus hate it so much!

baby papazao outside.
i miss her so much now!
bb gonna start work soon!
this coming monday!
our off days are clash.
time tgt will b so much lesser.
unless smtimes u stay my hus & i stay urs.
at least still can cuddle to sleep.
im gonna miss u so much my love.
i hope our love will still be strong.
i hope u wont change of heart
i hope u will always be mine!
i love u dearest..

somehow i want to hate u!
hate u so much.
i super bu shuang u!
& ur fucking life with tat fucking cb~
i jus want my things back! thats it fucker.
agrh~
sometimes, i jus wished i have never knew u bfore.
its a mistake in life to met a person like u!
u're not a man to me but a dog.
HATE U TTM!
fuck off from my life & i shall leave urs & ur memories!
everything shall be erased!
as long as i can, im not gonna think of th places we once go nor do.
get away from my life since u have urs & i have mine!
GUYS ARE SERIOUSLY BASTARD!

im contented with my life now.
even if im living in th lies, i don care too!
i have no time to bother so much.
i jus wan u with me
thats it.
if u love me, u won hurt me or cheat me anymore.
bcos i said, this is gonna be th last chance u had,
pls cherish it.
i love you baby! so much so much ..
i tried to give u th best i can.
but still i noe im useless, i don earn much at all!
but as long as i can. i give it all to you.
u're everything to me.
loves

goodnight

be with me .

2010-07-29T02:41:00.002+08:00

at dearest house now!
camp here tonight & work tmr morning.
shag :(

i jus upgrade my medishield.
send to th insurance company see wheather is approve anot.
in case anything happen to me, at least my medical fees got coverage.

weekend faster come please!
i need money so badly.
im like so broke now!
cup noodles for lunch like straight 3 days!
how pathetic i can be?!
HAHA :(

i need pay day.
i want to do alot of things.
HEY PEOPLE! AUGUST NEED MONEY FOR TH GENTING TICKETS ALRDY!
pls put th money aside..

i needa buy some stuffs for love.
i needa do my hair & refill my make up!
I WANT TO CHANGE!
i have to gain back m own self confidence.
else im having very low self esteem now!
I NEED TO START EVERYTHING FROM NEXT MONTH ONWARDS!
not gonna look so cui at work everyday anymore!
wanna be like th lastyme make up der minyee liao!
canot lazyy alrdy.!

hair cui!
like F~
hate it so much luh~ HAISSSSSSS :(

i need some getaway outing tooo!
else im gonna stuffyyyys to death luh!

you know i jus want to be somewhere deres jus me & you!
th both of us, with no telephone. no interupt.
jus th both of us will do..
when can i? fullfill?

oh so random!
I WANT TO GO CAMPING WITH LOVE ON WEEKEND.
like staying in e tent for a night & cycle or blading in e day~
LIKE A FUN SEH~
hopeeee can ?! I HOPE LOVE WANTS LAAA :(

bb watchin teevee now.
i want to sleep alrdy~
WORK WORK WORK! SIBEH SIAN!

lil silly stuffs for my silly love. to see her silly smile!
hearts you alotssss baby!
muacks

REWINDDDDD-EDEDED~

2010-07-27T23:45:00.003+08:00

HELLO~
i jus reach home!
gonna bathe after i blog. suddenly wan to blog leh
HAHA~!
listening to super old songs now that found in my comp. those songs are like in my mickey mp3 inside der!

TAN LIYUN MY MP3?
lollol!
RANDOM~

workingg was fine nowadaes.
perhaps i slowly used to it luh!
i loveee drmaa-ing!
HOHO!

kinda random nowww ~
anw i did a stupid thing today!
envelope wrapping agn & agn!
inside i put my hair &* i tell baby is spider!
laugh die me!
sometimes i do alot of silly things ,
but what for? JUS TO SEE UR SMILE (:

you & me , holding on..
go thru all obtacles.
with you, i always will stay by ur side.
never leave u no matter how you are, you look.
in my eyes, u are my perfection!
th cutest i ever met.
th only one i love like i had never loved before.
baby, u are gonna be mine for now till th end.
im not gonna let u go even if u wish to.
im tying u down now by my side.
HEHE!

no matter what is goinng on in future.
lets take step by step.
for now, i don wish to think or care anymore.
pls don do things to regret..
do it. & make it feel worth.
don make me leave you..
bcos u noe, i donwan to....
don regret after doing things.

iloveyou no matter how ..
i don careee any other now.
i know i myself is not pretty, not perfect, not good, not sweet enough, not rich.
not th type u wan ..
but i try to be what u wan me to be.
as long as u're happy.

start to save for my next mth pay.
IM GONNA STRIKE!
& work hard.
i hope nth goes wrong with my body..
i hope i don get sick, bcos i need to work.
i have to takecare of my love.
i wanna be a strong girl (:

alot of things i need to get for baby love.
almost every month of my pay, im gonna buy smth to pamper baby (:
smile. i need ur smile!
HEEHEE..

* i used to hate dating lastyme, bcos its seems so bored.!
i enjoying havingg double dates bcos at least dere my girl friends acompany me!
& we have so much to bitch about!
but NOW?

i love dating! i love times jus th 2 of us!
i loveee every single moment of you & me!
i felt like i have nv loved before.
like is my first rs!
like only u can drive me go crazy!
only u can make me so insane!
OH MY, BABY you make me know whats love!

i can do everything jus for you.
but i jus donwanna get back all th shits!
thats all.
i hope u noe how to cherish me, & be truthful.
don do things that make urself guilty or unhappy.
th realiity is, u're with me. u are mine!
SO COME BACK. don stay at somewhere else where u are not suppose to be.
oh i noe im so random.
jus cam to my mind luh!

i can tolerate all ur shits.
but please to give me those shits i donwant!
i donwant repeat over and over again.
its sickening.

my love for you, how much it is, how true it can be.
u urself noe it very clearly.
how much u meant to me.!

so, im not asking from alot from you.
u noe what i want.

baby, i live my life for you. not for anyone else.
without u, it will gonna be end of my life.!

HEEHEE!

BABY UH! I HAVENT BATHE BCOS IM BLOGGIN BAD ABOUT YOU!
HAHAHAHA!
okay la. go pompom le!
hugsss.

after bathe i shall wait for love to online den webcam with me!
i hopeeeee can laa (:
waiting for u my dear!
ILOVEYOUUUUU SOOOOOO !

muackkies!

goodnight.
im gonna aim for a better life!

what happens when im gone?

2010-07-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

sorry to say.
random..

but i feel lack of care & concern from th person i need.
from th person i love, my families.

Its my body, i know.
I wasnt feeling well nowadays.
I donno wads wrong. But i feel weaker and weaker.
I put on a strong front. But im not.

Is dere any sickness or smth?
Having fever on and off for weeks alrdy.
Flu and cough,
bloated stomach.
And v painful

Now my waist feel so uncomfOrtable too.
Every part of my body is gett worst.
Mmmm, do i need to see a doctor??
But unless i admitted to th hospital lying on th bed, else they are not gonna care for me i guess.

Not asking how am i feeling today.
Or whatsoever,
I don wish to complaint how painful itis. Esp when im sleeping at night.

Sighs..

Im not afraid of getting sick, jus feeling lack of concern from th person i need?

They used to.. Care for me..
My parents used to.. My loves one used to..

Okay im not saying that they are not good or whatever. Its jus random. Thats what i think.
I feel tat no one cares abt me.

Even a text saying, are you okay? Also don have.

Mmmmm.
Finishing work soon. V xinku now. My temperature is going up. Agrhhhhh......!

Sighs

Byebye.

Anw, i miss u so much my dear.
I wan you to hug me to reduce th coldness like now?
I wan you to talk to me and make me smile.
But u seems so busy in everywhere.
Even on th phone is also hard

Its actually better not to hope for anything. At least end of th day u will get suprise. But sometymes, we jus wished some good things might happen, and we autoly look forward.
But end up nth comes ...

And so we got disappointed.

After what i have been thru, my mindset has change.

But i donwan to say what has change.. Slowly you will notice..

Its tired to think abt what is gonna happen next. Why not wait and see. Den deceided.

Don care weather im able to take it anot. Jus accept it.

im not deceiving myself.. Anymore.

I kept quiet dosen mean im lying to myself.
I accept th facts but don choose to voice them out.

Oh my, has been sleeping with baby from friday night untill now. ..
Wonder how to sleep without baby tonight. ):

Somehow u are jus so addicttive.

I love you so so much.
More den what i cud think of.

Jus felt tat u are my first love. And gonna be my last.

U gave me th power to strike. To hold th world jus for u,.

Baby, u are my everything.

can you believe?

2010-07-23T17:08:00.000+08:00

好人做不了十天。

习惯就好。
开开心心过日子。
也许是我想太多。

do you believe in 6th sense?
mmm. Somehow i do Oh.

快乐的日子总是短暂。
要好好的珍惜。

希望有一天你会看到我的好，
懂得了解。

should i?

2010-07-22T01:20:00.002+08:00

out of a sudden, suddenly jus prick thru my heart!
okay fuck!

act as if i don!

its not abt th trust or whatsoever shit.
i jus have no confident in myself thats it!

if wanna talk abt trust. th person have to know wheather does she worth my trust anot?
okay!

everything isnt easy at all!
u can only say im not alright!

even its killing me, i will kept quiet!
i really dontknow.
shld i? or shldn't ..

i don wanna wild guess anymore.
but sometimes truth jus float infront of me.
that i wan to runaway from all these.

i jus wan peace. thats it.
but always seems to hard to get what i wan!
why isit like this?

I DON WANT TO CARE!
FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML!!

iloveyoupig

2010-07-20T04:35:00.002+08:00

im at baby house!
like from afternoon (:

bb fed me eat medicine!
i hate it luh! at night eat again.
make me sleepyyyyy.

im sooo angry with my parents & stayed over at bb house!
roar! if only i have th money i will leave home & rent a room outside!
you noe im so pissed off with my dad! ahhh~

i cough & have difficulty breathing! :(
wednesday start to work!
i have to recover before that!

gonna sleep soon (:
jus eaten baby lovelove maggie!
HAHAH

hearts, i love th way you hug me from behind out of a sudden.
i love th way you randomly whisper in my ears.
i love th way u suddenly appear bhind me looking at what im doin.
i love th way you kissed me out of a sudden.
i love th way u take care of me.
i love th way you get jealous.
i love th way u care!
i love th way you look at me!
i love th way you pat me to sleep.
i love th way we fold hearts & aeroplanes together.
i love th way you feed me.
i love th way we have fun tgt.
i love th way you give me that notty face.
i love th way you bully me
i love th way you love me
& i love everyway of you & me!
as long as we stick tgt as one .
i love you always ,
in everyway!

oh babybaby! i love you (;
please love me back too!

HAHA

byebye

HI FUCKER

2010-07-18T06:10:00.003+08:00

HEY FUCKER PLS FUCK OFF!
OKAY IM KINDA RANDOM!

HELLO! NOTHING LAST FOREVER!
PLS WAKE UP & NOT STAY IN UR WORLD ANYMORE!
STOP SAYING U CANT FORGET, YOU LOVE OR WHATSOEVER TO ME!
BCOS I'VE MY OWN LIFE TO LEAD WITHOUT YOU.
& IM SO MUCH HAPPIER!
OKAY IM RANDOM LIKE NOW!
BCOS I HATE MY PAST SO MUCH!
SO FUCK IT.

PLEASE STOP ALL UR NONSENSE AS U ALRDY SAID YOU ARE ATTACHED & YOU LOVE HER!
STOP SAYING ANOTHER STORY INFRONT OF ME!
I SERIOUSLY HATE YOUR NONSENSE!
GET OFF MY ASS! & PLS FRKIN MOVE ON WITH UR LIFE LIKE NOW?!
FUCK OFF PLEASE!

im sactisfied with my life & what i have for now!
pls do not interfere anymor!
& i want all my things back seriously!
you shld noe what are they!

IF YOU ARE READING MY BLOG!
PLSSSSSSS MOVE ON!
stop saying u do love me still whereby th things u do are frkin stupid asshole!

LAST SENTANCE!
GET A LIFE!
UR TENT & STUFF IM GONNA RETURN IT TO YOU! REAL SOON!

PLS, I JUS WANNA ACT AS IF I NVR KNEW U BEFORE!
GO AWAY LIKE FOREVER!

SUA!

TH END!
GOODNIGHT

somehow

2010-07-14T12:02:00.001+08:00

hello! Im at work now. Yawn. So bored today... Nahnahnah?! Im waitin for my dearest to wake up and come look for me! I miss you baby!

Somehow, i wan b to be happy, i wan to see her smile. And joke ard playing with me. Forget all th unhappiness but th happy moments.
I love you baby, i really do. I wanted to use my entire life to love you. I wanted to try my best to give u th best i can. Make you smile and laugh like nobody did. Cuddle with u and make u feel safe. Letting u noe tat when u need someone to cry on, scream on, bite on, lean on, im here always will be my dear.

You are part of me, i cant help myself any longer. And i donno whats wrong with me these days, i jus cud'nt control th love i had for u. Its alr so deep and yet now its going deeper. So much so much den bfore.

I love you more den myself more den anything nor anyone in this world. U are th one i wan for life, i wan in my life. For now for ever.

Baby, are u willing to love me for th rest of ur life? Are u willing to stay with me wholeheartly? Are u gonna love me only?

I don like to see my love being upset. Its hurts me too. Why? I donno. But i jus wan to protect th one i love. I won let anyone hurt my dear, yes baby, u are th one i need for life.

I know life has been hard for us., but when with me, im sure i will give u th best i cud. Jus to see ur smile. (:

I love you more den i cud imagine.
I need you more den i cud think of.
I miss u over th limits i can do.
You twist my life, and make me go crazy abt you.

You know it clearly how much u meant to me.
If you are gonna leave one day pls tell me ..
Bcos im gonna love u harder, stronger and much moree den before. So pls let me noe if u are nt gonna stay bfore i really throw everything in.
Bcos u worth my love , i said. U worth my love,

Everyone isnt perfect at all, but why in my eyes uu are th perfect one for me? Oh gosh,
Did u put some spell on me? Why am i so in to you baby?

Loveeeyou ttm!
Seeya soon.

i have th superly urge to put angkong luhhssssss baby okokokayyyyy?? Next payyyyyy?????? ):

I love u like i nv do ..

Oink. Eyes are closing.
I noe very mushy la this post. Only for baby uhssss'

truth is hurting. but i have to accept

2010-07-12T01:27:00.002+08:00

sorry its a emo post.

i don wish to say much here.
but jus wanna post how i feel & not what happen.

very painful, hurtful.
i din't noe all this are so hard to acccept.
for 6 mths! i feel being cheated so much.

you stab me with a knife.
& leave me in to broken pieces.
i breakdown i cry.
how long more can i take it?

how much limits i have?
its alrdy over th things i can imagine,
th hurt is more den i cud take it.

i think u might as well kill me i wud feel so much better.
you noe, im so silly, silly silly!
i find myself like a idiot.
am i an idiot?
do i look like one?

chances again & again. u broke them in to pieces
for now, i cant take it.
mayb i can go depression.

but as long as u stay by my side.
i stil feel happy with u
whats going on with me.
i love you so much!
more den i mtyself cud imagine.

i nv want alot from you.
u noe it well.

v weak now.
v v v weak!

anytime i might go insane.
but i wan u with me so much.

no matter what u did.
how many lies u say
how many times u betray.
i love u still.
so much still.

i hope u wud be diff. this time round u are diff, things will really change.
i only belongs to you.
u only belong to me!

th memories we had, i really dunno isit true.
or a dream to me.
baby, pls don do it again.
i try to trust u back.
& nv leave me, no matter what im staying with u.
don let me suffer anymore. i might not be able to stand on my own anymore.

theres too much cruel things i have to accept it.
oh no! so cruel.

CAN MICHELLE PLEASE BRING ME TO TH BEACH LIKE NOW?
:(

tears eventually drop down.
i cant hold them back.

PLEASE DON HURT ME ANYMORE.
IM BEGGING YOU.
PLS LOVE ME ONLY.
PLS DON DO IT!
PLS I WAN PEACE!

I WAN A SIMPLE RELATIONSHIP WITH U ONLY

my entire

2010-07-11T13:05:00.002+08:00

不关有多辛苦我还是会牵这你的手走到最后。

只想要你开心就好，其他的都不重要了。

一起玩，一起笑，一起闹，一起风，一起吵，一起走，一起哭，一起走过酸甜苦辣。
我永远不会忘记我们在一起的时光。

只有你，才可以让我感觉被爱。
不管你做了什么，都没关系了。
你还爱我就好。

Though its jus 6 months. but i love u like 6million yearssss.
Hugssss

谎言

2010-07-10T12:52:00.003+08:00

被骗第一次是无知。
被骗第二次是天真。
被骗第三次是笨蛋。
哪，第四，第五算什么？
白吃吗？

无话可说。
可能永远都不够。

假装多好。

我只是想要开心的过日子。。

真的不能只爱我一个吗的？？

我还能做什么
我真的相信你说的，
像个傻瓜）:

whats is this?

2010-07-07T18:15:00.002+08:00

woah nvr very pain what! Neverrr la hoh??
Nvr buey tahan tears ownself drip mah? Never la hoh??
Woah nvr wan crazy liao what? Never mah hoh.

Must ren la hor. Minyee must ren!
Sibeh xin ku also mus ren.
I can ki siao anot.t pls tell me. I can anot?
Let me go crazy now plssss.
Pls allow me to do so.

I really gt so much to say.
But i have no chance to speak.
Bcos i hav no chance to meett.

Win liao. Sibehh jialat,
nv very sad mahhhh. Never la horrrr.

I can take it lahs. No problem manzzxx..

I wait only lor. I cant do anythin. Jus wait only. Wait till u appear. In my dreams.

No matter how hard i hav to ren. Understandng mahhhhh. Bo bian. I love you ma

Its ok its alrightt.

I think i have emotion disorder now. Seriouslyyy. Byeeeeee. Hahaha. Im like a clown.
Crrying at work. Zzzz.

Without me, will th world have more peace????

Minyee cannot spam fb wall! Mus ren. Cheerrrrrs.

broken-ed

2010-07-07T01:17:00.002+08:00

can i say it breaks in to pieces?
can i say im healing?
can i say i love you?
can i say i miss you?
can i say i wanted ur hug badly?
can i say i miss ur kisses?
can i say i need you now?
can i say i want to break down & cry?
can i say i want to go to th beach with bbjie & scream?
can i say i want you in my life?
can i say im asking for too much?

its cold here, right now. very!
im like stayin in th icy world. deres no warmth.. i feel no warmth.
i thot i wud be calm & fine as i can be?
but after like so long? i cant..
& im not numb.. for now. i can feel.

i dontknow why isit like soursour kind ...
kinda sour .. kinda bitter..
its jus making wanna cry out th sour-ness out.

i donwant to care who is right , who is wrong.
i donwant problems to come & go.
& i know some part of me, you might not able to take it.
& yes some part of u, i cant too.
but when i love you, i naturally try to.

i know you cannt be what im trying to be.
i know its cant works. but i wan it works.
i will be th me that u wanted me to be.
as long as u still do stay by my side.
i will...

i donwant to hear you saying u are leaving. or u wan a break or what ever.!
this is not accepted by me in my dictionary.
once you step in to my heart, you'll nvr step out.
you're always th one i love for now... & for all.
till myyyyyyyy very last breath!
you will be th one i need.

i can feel th pain..
reallyyy.. i can feel it clearly now.
cry? no! hold them back.
esp when im infront of you. HOLD THEM BACK!

im so random nw!
deres a reason bhind everything.
thinkin of youu.

im waiting, till you appear.
again....
im missing you so badly.
i miss your hugs from bhind.
i miss ur kisses on my forehead.
i miss you touchin my hair.
i miss you calling me right on my face.
i miss ur pampers.
i miss ur everything.

nno matter how bad state im now.
i still hav to continue walking down th streets.
& work!
its a wednesday!

i need some weekends badly.

yes, your replied are cold.
its gonna froze me soon!
its painful.
what can i do?
im fine. shld be.

goodnight people!
iloveyou.
do you?

boredomm killlingg mee

2010-07-06T15:03:00.000+08:00

hello people . Im at work now. And supee boreddd. I finished my dramas alrdy. And freakin siannn. Hope some kind soul ppl will drop by to visit me. And entertain me. Ahhh~ i think i can jus go crazy at work. Lol .. so bored luhs. I needdd drama and entertainment. ):

Today is tues. when i last saw bb was sunday night 11.4opm. Untill now. We havent met. ):
yes iindeed im missinggg bb badly... and wonderin when th next tyme she wud meet me. I miss u and ur everything..

Workin was boreddddddd. Superly bored. I neeed more weekdays pls..

Okayyy , i neeed to geet my hair done

Rebond den perm? Or perm? Bcos my curlyssss are so ugly. Agrhhhh. Byebye. Loveee em alllll! Hugs baby. Kisskiss. Heehee. Misssssyou.(:

BLUPPPPP~

2010-07-06T00:46:00.002+08:00

back to work!
moondayyy blueez!
but dontknow why time fast more faster today!
i think bcos i hav lots of thing to do today!
STOCK & DISPLAY!

siannnnnnnnn ttm!
&& wonder when will be th next time we are gonna meet :(
i miss youuuu!
hearts!

still got 4 more dayssss to go~
SO SHAGGGGG!

yawnnnnn~
goodnighttttt!!

HAPPY 6MONTHSARY BABYLOVE!

2010-07-01T02:02:00.002+08:00

FIRSTLY HAPPY 6 MONTHSARY!

so fast we hav gone thru half a year liao!
i love you is what i can say.
bcos words cant describe how much i love you.
how much i want you to be mine.
& how much i need u in life.
i can only say, u meant th world to me.

a lil gifts. hope u appreacieate it.

2 days nv meet liao. miss u so much love.
suprise for me & you tmr.! wee wee~
i hopee we cn stay like this till th end.!

muacks! huggies.

i hope everything goes smoothly.
everyone to be happy.
& now so many go in double!
LOL.
couple all ard! laugh die.

happy monthsary to those same as me der!
haha~
& congrats to those jus got tgt der!
HAHA. like so many news~
ZZZZZ.

working again. & im half dead!
goodnight.

imissyoulove.
^& promised to stay by ur side always.
muacks.

siosio you. patpat you. sayangsayang you!
heehee.

o1o110 - o1o710 still counting onnnnnn~
WOAH. LIKE A FAST LOR. a blink~
so fast luhs!

ENGAGE WITH MY BABY LE!
LOLLOL..
preparing out marriage
getting marriage in 2 more months!!
HAHAHAHAHA.
( i mean fb status ) l;augh die.

GOODNIGHT.

what happened to me?

2010-06-30T00:59:00.002+08:00

SHAGSHAGSHAG! SIANSIANSIAN! DULANDULANDULAN! MOODSWINGMOODSWING!
WO XIN QIN BU HAO! but i donno th reason?! nb luh :(

i feel like im transparent :(
i dontknow why... but i donno why also.
wo xin qi hen bu hao! wei she meee?
i myself also dunno why? can someone tell me why?
or i think too much of thing? plan too much of thing?
haiya! im jus tired!
i jus want to live happily withoutt thinking of money money money money money money!!!!
i have alot of thing undone. but cn someone pls help me?!
I JUS FEEL LIKE SCREAMIN & SHOUTING AT SOMEONE!
I JUS FEEL LIKE BITING SOMEBODY!
XIN QIN ZHEN DE BU HAO LAAAAA!

HAIS! BIGBIG HAIS!

RAHHHHH ~ ROARRRR ~ AGRHHHH ~

WHY WHY WHY?!!!!!

actually i dont need much..
i jus want a peaceful life
& stable income .. from myself & from you.
& im out of it.

I KEEP WAITING.. FOR TH DAY.
but th day nv come.

i want to go out....
without thinking of whats budget...
i want to complete th places i wan to go.
without thinking of do i needa eat grass th nnext week.

WO HAN FANFANFANFANFAN!

i wish for nothing..
but a stable life. peaceful life with you.
thats all..

loves. hearts
missyou till i wan crazy alrrr!!!!!!

BYEBYE

wants to b a happy girl

2010-06-29T02:27:00.002+08:00

work work work. weekdays are so fucked up. All i do is work, homed sleep. Work homed sleep. So shagshagshag. I hate this kind of life. And weekend are always so awesome. Heeheee. Wish that i really cn stay at home shake leg and sleepppp. ): im tired tired. Reallyyy!

Ever since new start for me and b.
She always lightened up my days. Making me smile and laughter everyday. She is my entire. And i love you so much dear.
I hope this will b nv ending. And i love you . Mmmm.
What else? Oh' have been v lucnky nowadays.
Anddd v contentedd with what i hav now.
Jus sick and tired of wrkin life..
Wants to b taitai. Hahahaha.

And still lookin forward for a getaway trip.

Anddd savin for genting trrip too.
Need loads of moneh luhs. Shag...
Hope baby will help me up with th saveings too. Reallyyyyy. Bcos its kinda hard for me to handdle myself ):

Sleeping soon. Goodnighy.
Iloveyou and ur everything. Hearts.

at timess

2010-06-26T05:10:00.002+08:00

at times i jus wonder alot of unsure thingss .
i know is better to left unsaid.

i know its not right for me to think so much.
im trying not to.
after tat day..
alot of thing keep comin thru my mind.
i know im nt th perfect one for you.
but im trying to be th best one for you.
i try.

sorrrry :(
i really think im so lousy..
sighs.

i hate mood swing at niight.
:(
i need you i need you.
& i noe u don like me thinkin so negative.
i will try not to.

i jus want to be th best of you.
i jus wan u to be with me.
heartttssss.

speechless now.
i neeedddd to be a better gf.
if only iii can, i wan to change mmyself so badly!!!

hugss.
baby, ii love youu.
goodnight.
:(

i hope you noe how impt u mean to me :(
loveees
misssssyou

mayb is breaking apart

2010-06-25T01:10:00.002+08:00

out of th sudden i miss you, my old friend. missssyou so much.
still i think of you :( if you are still around i doubt life wud be better.
things will be diff.
you said you wud be dere, but u are not.
somehow i miss those time when we are still small lil tiny children playing ard.
so much fun. no stress & nothing.
how i wish i cn see you again.
or jus in my dream will be nice.
so long nvr dream of you alr :( i miss you i miss you ..

in my life, you're th best sister i ever met :(
so random i know. but i miss youuu.
how i wish u wud be back!

:(

stress & upset!
what happen to me?
why am i not happy these days?
im so tired tireds tired.
can someone help me?
working is tired..
im so not used to it.

minyeeee smile please!
bu yao saddd (;
sayangggg*

goodnight.
i hope thing wud get better.

IF ONLY.

\imisssyouuuu*

wo kuai le mah???

2010-06-24T02:16:00.002+08:00

rrrrandom..
Jus alot of thing flash thru.

Im happy that i got you back.
I hope we wud be closer den before. I HOPE.
Perhaps no? Mmm . Dontknow.

Workin everyday, lesser time foor blog.
Tireddd alr. Somehow i hope i donhav to work. Andd nua at home. Shag.

I wished you wud nvr leave me again.
Bcos yuu are part of me.
Goodnight

Not enough sleeppppp for dayssss. Sighs.

Iloveyou
Nightsss.

Wo bu shuang, ):

always kept in my heart

2010-06-21T01:26:00.002+08:00

going to sleep soon after i blog.
wakin up at 9am later on.
cannot be late or nua alr ;

everyone says , minyee is getting stronger den before.
lastyme, if i were in to this situation. all i do is breakdown & crycrycry.
telling my cliques & crycrycry.
but for now, i hold back my tears, no matter how hard it is for me.
im not cryingg. infront of anyone.
(:
bcos cryin dosen solve any thing at all.
& mayb my tears alr dried up.
yes, indeed v painful. but i hav to learn to stand onmy own.
i believe i can make it thru.

no matter how long itis.
how hard itis.
how cruel u can be.
how nice you can be.
i will always wait for you.
as long as i know you still love me, & i will nvr give up.

wait till u come back to me.
bcos u're all i ever wanted.

iloveyou.
&goodnnight.

depressed.but sttill i will bring out my smile (:
bcos i know you won wan to see me like this.
no worries, im stronger each time i fall ..

goodjob.
gonna be guaiguai from now onwards.
i will prove to you.
i can do it ..

hugs. misses

I have to be stronger this time

2010-06-20T09:23:00.002+08:00

i can nvr imagine im actually stronger that what i think im~
yes, everything is pulling me down. i have to pull myself up again.
crying dosen helps at all. bcos no matter how much i cry, how much i drink or whatsoever.
things wont be changin at all.

who wants to go swimming with me?
i really want to swim so badly.

this is gonna be hard for me.
but i can make it thru.
bcos i believe i can.
gonna prove to you, this time round im changing.
& bcos i really find it not worthy..
so i think changing is th best way.

i know you are not gonna listen to what im going to say .
bcos no matter how much i explaint, is all an excuses to you.
& u are sick & tired of my nonsense.
& yes, you given up on me, on this relationship.

being thick skin i know, but always i will keep you mine.
nor will i let go or forget..
even im alone down here, waiting for ur return..
i'll make this waiting a happy one.
& not a suffering one.
yes, im th one who clings on to you.

even if u are gonna tell me you dont love me anymore.
im also gonna accept everything ..
but keeping silence.
for now...
i will.

ima biatch, who needs some reflection now.
busy schedule coming soon.
minyee have to stay stronger & not get affected by all this.
work is work. personal is personal.!
put all th stuffs aside.

i know for now, is useless begging u to return back to me.
but i wished one day you would.

however i wanted to shut down my fb so badly.
but i have some reasons.

i'll let time be th medicine for both of us.

im ROBOTIC! (:
donnidd to rest nor eat (:

BYEBYE!

thanks for those who called and concern.!
im v v v fine for now ..

i know u wont want to see me like a zombie.
like dying without you.
so i wont..
still im here v fine.. though need u so badly.
but i can stand on my own.

i have to love myself first ..
in order to love you. (:

hearts.

i really think , im so much stronger den th past.

iloveyouall.goodnight

Flash back *

2010-06-18T05:25:00.002+08:00

going to sleep after bloggin :D

mondayyyyy & im gonna start work! awww` shag manzx..
gonna spent lesser time tgt with babylove & clique.
bcos i have to go home early only weekend im free~
& no moree ladies night for me~ AWWW !
hahahas. whatever it is.
is time to buck up & work harder now!

tryinggg my v best not to have MCs or whatsoeveer unless im really sick.
bcos i donwan to screw things up anymore!
work hardddd & i deserve better i guess (:

went to kbox ytd & today~ singgg untill no voice le!
HAHA. i like (Y)

so fast one weeek past liddat :( my one week off days are endingg real soon!
& im gonna get reaL tired!
AWWWW!
my sleeping time have to adjust it slowly.
now its like getting later!
HAHA.

some weird monster bite me! my whole hand sibeh itchy luh~ scratch like no tmr!
LOL.

alright ....

i'll hope baby is gonna work hard with me also.
& give me th motivation! & lets work hard tgt!!
we have to really really save up!
i jus got my $400+ not long & now i left with ahundred!
how to surviveee!! somtime i jus wish to buy 4d try luck~ scarlyy winn manymany!
LOL. greeedy. and i noe won win de luhs. :( sighs. suan leee.
try to save abit!
lesser outing please :D

i know happiness don last at all..
so im trying to give & take.
what u give i will jus take it.
nor good or bad, i have to except u in everyway.
but i know u cant except my true self (:
nvm den its alright.
i donnid anything much from you. but jus be true to me & love me wholeheartly & im contented alr.
im not asking for alot.

babyyyyy. whats wrong with me now?!
im feeling v emotional this time.....
need u so much by my side,
after u off th webcam, i miss you so much..
WHAT HAPPENED?

thanks for lighting up my days. making me smile!
being a idiot jokin & playing ard with me.
though i have to accept th facts that u are really a xiao qi gui!
LOL.
but no matter what i still love you..

you can break me apart a million times.
but jus something warm coming out from you,
every broken pieces mend it back easilyy...

only you, that can brightened up my days!
baby, you will always be th one.

ILOVEYOU.

timeee flies...
goin 6 mths soon :X
NO PRESENT FOR YOU.
WO MEI YOU CIAN LA!
KE SHI WO YAO NI GEI WO PRESENT!
BU YAO WASTE MONEY DE PRESENT!
hahahahahahahahaha

supermissyoudarling

Smile your tears away

2010-06-16T03:04:00.002+08:00

tanning today was funfunfun! (Y)
morning till 6am~ we like charcoal now!~
& my face skin v pain. my lips v gao wei! but i like~
HAHA.

i wanttt to tannn more. LOL.
but ima starting work soon by monday i guess.
sobbbb~ one week past so fast luhs. hatehate*

tmr going to watch movie!
with bb, lp & bbjie.
hahah.! horrrrooorrrrrr (:

i really v happy today actually...
you are always full of suprise luhs baby~
&& really so on & off..
i love you so much. & i jus wished happy moments will last (:
HUGS.

superrr love it,
when youu hugg me from bhind without me notice ..
makingg me feel secure & im yours. loves.

so many unglam & funny pictures! esp my unglam.
b is gonna upload at fb luhs... stupiddddd fucker.

only want you to stay with me & love me only.
you urself shld noe how impt u are to me . loves.

kluhs im v tired alr.
gonna sleep soooon! keep having insomia. canot have a nice sleep!
like 2 days alr.
i hope i can sleeepppp peacefully today!
bcos im fkin tired i swear!
HAHA.

goodnight.
fucker baby! i super love you (:
&ihope you love me too la!

BYEBYE

i wan it simple

2010-06-13T06:46:00.002+08:00

i think i should start quitting off some of my bad habits. as i find it sucks so much!
&& stupidd..

i cannot do anything now but to suck thumb onlyyy.
alwayssss ...

im sorry, & i know is my fault for doing this.
i guess this blog shall be my daily rountine. & not those stupid things here.
BLAH ~

whatever it is. this is my opened bblog.
& i wan to do my nuffnang thinggg.
someone please help me lar!

anyway, first day of work is superly fine with me.
jus that i have to learn new things.
but wasnt that hard ..
everything was alright.
& jus stoning down dere. LOL.
i hope slowlyyy all th things wud turn out better!

MONDAY HERES MY MONEY COMES!
MONDAY FOREVER21 HERE I COMES!
TUESDAY SENTOSAAA TANNING!
MOVIESSS HERE I COME!
& saveeee th fuck damn money!
& for th rest of th day, i will do some healthy activities like
swimminggg & stuffs!
i wannn to turn darker so badly.
HAHAHAH!

though in a super moody now!
but i try not to moodswing or have emo post luh.~
quite stupid when i read back -.-'

bcos im happy!
I FOUND A NEW JOB.
(: LOVES.

& hope love will always support me.
your love for me i cn feel.
i hope u wud get better.
& tmr will be a better day ahead!

you can choose to forgive and forget or forgive but nvr forget.
ur choice, i respect (:

iloveyoubaby.
hugggiiess..

if onlyyy . u won be like this bcos of this kinda matter.
seriously making me feel so fucked up & pissed off.
silence dosen mean agree.
not th one .... f

believinggg .

2010-06-03T04:35:00.003+08:00

Cherish it now!
else one day when is missing.. don regret .
& don blame anyone bcos you yourself make it missing.
you have no one to blame.

your life.
your choice.
HOLD IT TIGHT. or LET IT FLY.

whats pain & hurt? i dontknow that either.
slowly im changing..
why am i changing?
THINK AGAIN. :D

i can walk on my own.. slowly i can fly..
now i can heal my wound alone without you. (:
you made me independent..
if this is what u are looking for. GOODLUCK (:

I will not beg anymore.
im standing & not kneeling down begging.
i have my pride.

i'll give you wad you are giving me.
love me more den i will love you back.

Minyee is time to wake up..
you are no longer a kid anymore!
dont be so irritating can anot!? you wont die by doing this la hor.
i can be happyyyy ...
is my life.. i donwan to be at th bottom line forever.

take it or leave it.

humanszx talking!
BLAHHHHHHHHHHHH (:
WHATEVERRRRR SHIT.
GOODNIGHT.

Love th one who deserve to be love.

ONE THING FOR SURE.
I LOVE YOU STILL (:

doubt.....

2010-06-02T04:54:00.005+08:00

my eyes are heavy & tired.

going to sleep soonnn. i think due to th lens..

rah!

days & time with bb passes so fast.

idiot love suprise me ytd at my house downstair.

reallyyy shocked! LOL.

but i love you..

& i know u missed me thats why! HAHA

went to expo with bb, to foodfairr!

munchhiiieeeees (:

& plaza to meet my girls..

& go jess hoouse downstair see lele.!

I SCARED SIOL!

lol.......

& homed!

thats all. (:

once broken..

nvr gonna mend it back.

i have to find myself back...

i need some time.. to get it back.

I NEED A GETAWAY TRIP! REALLY! SERIOUSLY.

this time round, i need a getaway trip onmy own.

i need to revive!

find back my energy & motivation in life.

i hate to rottt!

i have been spending time alone at home nowadays thinking of alot of things.

when its time to go. you hav to go.

when its time to ... you have to ..

shout, scream! AGRHHH RAHHH!

I WANT TO GO TO TH BEACH! PLS!

I WANT to swim, blade, shop, club, run, tanning. I WANT TO SWEAT IT OFF!

im sorry bb, if i nvr tell you whats going on with all these post.

jus my random thots.

im alright.

you don have to worry.

don asked me... when i want to say i will (:

iloveyou ; hearts!

GOODNIGHT.

trust? something that can be broken very very easily.

GOODBYE.. ''''

HELLO ''''''

BYE

I want to be happy. Don ruined it!

2010-06-01T04:52:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 5TH MONTHSARY LOVELOVE (:
I LOVE YOU...
THANKS FOR SHOWERING ME WITH YOUR LOVE!
you this oinkoink hippo!
alwaysssssmineee (: HUGS

going room pei bb le.
nightnight!

i want to smile & not cry everynight.
nobody is th cause of this.
is me myself & i!

i want to be happy,
i want to kick it aside.
don ruined it..

i have to learn how to keep my self emotion inside me!

i want to be a happy girl...

I DONWANT TO BE TH REASON FOR ALL THIS.

tryinggggg .

save me outta my agony..
bye

DONT ASK!!!!!! PLEASE (: THANKYOU

crushed

2010-05-31T16:25:00.002+08:00

fyi : please do not ask or comment abt this post. Only for reading purpose! I donwan to talk abt it.

For th past 3 days, i cry myself to sleep. I dont knw whats going on.. But i aren't gettin any stronger. Mayb im thinking too much.
Mayb im missing you.. Maybe things wasn't th same anymore.

When im in pain, who is dere? Where are you? I tried to be okay.. But everything dosen seems okay for me..

Okay shut it down.. I donwan to care to know abt anything now, all shit it down.

Maub to you is lil things, aiyah what so big fiss abt lil tthings?? But to me, is something that i ever wanted.. My dreams are always simpleee. But to somebody seems so hard to fullfill..

Alright. Mayb i shld learn..
Tmr is b first day of work. Goodluck.... I can only say.our 5mths anni... Like that zzzzz

When bb told me she is going to work tmr. Im shick.. Very.. But happy at th same time..
But i think she halfwy one. Jus don put too much lor. Lets thing go by it nature..

Okayyyyy..
Let me b alobe ..
Byeeeeee.

U if think i alr....
I havent....
Iam tryingggg

you are my strength. Truthhhhh

2010-05-30T06:10:00.002+08:00

i love you ...
I can sense tat you are loving me more. By th way you treat me.. Or mayb is jus like 3mins only.. I want to know.. jus wan to cherish what i have now, so i wont hav any regrets.
Wtf! My right side eye lid keep jumpingg. So irritatingggg. For th whole day alr! Somethin lucky gonna happen to mee?? I hope so. Haha.
My love is sick these few days. But still she is dere to sayang me. And she knows tat my stomach painpain will hlp me put oiloil.. When i gt no money to eat bb giveee me when i donwan it.. Thanks love for ur love. I can feel it now! Hahaa.
Thinking back, we yelledd at each other vulgar. I really find it funny manzx!

I love you and ur everything.
I donwan to get upset bcos of small matter anymore. Im learning nt to depend on u so much, have my own llife..

What else can i say..
Things that i cn try my best to do it.. I will..
Reallyyy getting real hard to mfind my full time job.. Hope asap lor..

Im still waiting for th day both of us start to work.. And you still dere for me when i need you..

I donwan to waste my time anymore. Have to buck up alr.. Same for bb too. Letss buck up okay

Im happyy, at last i found you....
At least u entered my world..
Anddd finally you made me fall for u..

Made me ffeel loved by you and cheat by ur nonsense.
At least i learnt my lessonn.. And i know what am i going to do nestyme.. & is youuu tat build me strongeerr..

Babyyyy, you're part of me...
Lets holdd on together .. And make it better.
I miss you.
Hugggies<3

In fact i'am!

2010-05-29T04:04:00.003+08:00

no matter how angry or upset i'am!
i wont do that :(

now, you off your relationship status.
i off mine too. when you wan to on it back den do it..

when i saw that, my name wasnt der anymore. tears eventually drop down..
make me soooo heartbroken..
& upset.. though is over now. everything is back to normal..
but still im very upset about it..
:( why mus u do this?
am i someone whom you can pull & push? ):

me & my assume? mayb... perhaps

okay, for now ..
i dont wan to tink so much alr.

i've pack my stuff today!
memories all erased!
look forward! & not keeping those stuff tat is not worth for me to keep anymore.
if only...

i went blading from my hus to punggol park den sk today!
&& i fell down..
have some bruises... but it seems nothing to me at tat point of time.
after i sweat it off... i decieded to text you. nt bcos i admit im at fault.
but i find myself being to harsh to you..
bcos im too pekcek explaining agn & agn yet u don blieve me..
& yes, ur words are hurting too...
i alr said, i will fight for my rights.
if i really make u feel damn f pissed off. den sorry..

all i hope for, ur feelings for me...
still dere...
& nt fadingg...

hope there wont be another time this kind of stupid matter happen!
but u really have to know..
ur attitude is'nt any better baby..
i know my attitude sucks as well~ but indeed i hold back all th time if i cn..
but i have limits too..

since everything is back to normal now i don want to say alr..
but im jus veryvery disappointed & upset..

since you are sick.
tmr i go takecare of you.
& rest well..
today im not dere for you..
im sorry okay..
bcos im really not in tat mood to even meet you too..
i told you nt to skip ur meals..
but still u wont listen..
my words are nth to you..
):

NO MATTER HOW AM I....
IM STILL TH SAME GIRL THAT LOVE YOU!
LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS I DO..
OK?!

&& fyi..
if in ur heart, u still think i dont care..
den forget it. i said my part.

i look for you, for th whole entire night..
i send you 3 msges only..
but i called you many times. but i jus cant get thru..
i go ard asking checking where were you!
go lan open comp jus to see weather u online anot.
reach home wait for u online.
sleep halfway & check my fone weather u text me..
woke up early to wait for ur text.
still disappointment..
ask u to rest more.. drink more water.. don skip ur meal yet all this to you. = i don care?
if i don bother.. i don have to do all this..
when you said tat i don bother or care... really waste my effort. break my heart!
mayb u will nvr know..

one day...
i'll get numb.

Goodnight.
iloveyou

tears slowlyyy dries up..
& how sad or pain i feel sooner or later.
i dont know how to cry anymore.

how i wish you are!

2010-05-28T05:45:00.004+08:00

if you think switching off your fone.. is th best way.. you can do whatever you want to. wherby no one is gonna irritate you.. go ahead! i cant stop you..

but have you ever think, someone out dere~ is worried about you.

someone out dere do care for you.

if you continue to do things without thinking of how i feel. i really got nth to say.

if you think that, im really th one at fault totally!? den im sorryyy for asking too much ( for jus a simple dinner wit you )

DEN IM SORRY.

if you think using harsh words or shout at me will make u feel better!

DO IT..

but im gonna treat u th way u are treating me..

not tat i wanna add up probs!

& nt only im th only one who need to reflect!

you too.

you yourself know whats right & wrong..

im not spamming on my fb wall or what..

i can only say..

i jus need a lil freedom on this!

mayb noone understand.

if you are sick den drink more water.

don skip ur meals! & rest more.

pls know how to take care of urself.

& when u feels that u need me still,

den get me back... bcos im always here waiting for u.

but i donn think u need me.. bcos if u do. u won b doing this.

i cn act as if im nt upset at all..

i don even give a fuck damn to this matter..

but for those who can see..

i do care. but i donwan to let u climb up on my head`

u wan to b fierce. den i shall b fierce with u.

nt only u can throw me dere & walk away!

I CAN WALK AWAY TOO.

im nt trying to make things worst..

if onlyyy u do understand ... IF ONLY..

you can do whatever you want to..

but whatever u do, pls think.. are u letting me down..

or isit right or wrong..

from th moment, you step in to my life.

i said, im gonna love you wholeheartly. ^& yes im!

dosen mean i treat u like this means i don love you!

no matter how, i love u always bbaby

if u are unhappy tat i blog abt it.

den don bother to see my blog already..

i donwan to blog & yet quarreled with you.

im going to sleep now!

all i hope for is, when im awake!

things will be back to normal!

my mood is swingging

& everything is stirling!

fuck~

i guess u will nvr understand.

HAVINGG CRAMPS NOW ! NABEY.

if nt i lai ang. comfirm tmr i go swim alone!

SIGHS!

let me cry to sleep tonight.

bye

I JUS MISS THOSE MOMENTS WE ONCE HAD

is th love that keep us together♥♥♥

2010-05-23T04:24:00.003+08:00

pictureees on ytd! more on fb!

Somehow i wished u wud be mine forever.

th love i had for u bcoming stronger each & everyday!

i hope in ur heart im th important one. & nt easily erased~

YOU'! th one i need in life. th one that brightened my days!

th one that lead me on, th one i pourrr all my love in.

i love you & your everything.

even ur imperfect bcomes my perfect.

you're th reason for my smileeee :D

you're also th reason for my tears~

babybabybaby..

always th one.

please don neglect or forget me okay!

bcos i've nvr forget u. nt even a second.

you'll always be on my mind!

going to slp nw!

workinggg later on...

si beiiii shaggg laaaaa

SIGHS!

i really don wan to work anymore!

i jus wan to stay at home & wait for money to come.

i rather stay at home & slp also i donwan to work.

very lazyyyyyyyy neh.

BABY! FASTER WORK & YANG ME~ hahahaha

jkjk..

GOODNIGHT.

my bloggggggg sooooo rot. :(

bb alr nvr tag me for very long time!

but when she sees this i think she will tag..

if she nvr tag i paiseh only!

HAHAHAHA.

later u gu yi don tag one la.

whateverrr ~ who cares.

LOL...

BYEBYE.

LOVEYOUUUALL

&&&& LASTLY!

HAPPYYYYY 19 BIRTHDAY TEO SEOK MUI!

WE LOVEEEE YOUUUU HOR~

LAO AUNTIEEEE LIAO

i need.

2010-05-22T04:39:00.002+08:00

i did enjoyed my day at www and bugis.
Hope michelle enjoyed too (:

Shortpost will do. Pictures will be up asap.

I need your smile, i need your laughter, all this are all i ever wanted. Bcos i fall in love, with your sweetest smile. Don frown bcos is not what i want to see on ur face! Bcos i love you and i wan you to stay happy being with me.
You will always b th one i care!

Mayb im your crazy gf. Whatever.
Hoping that when i wake up everything will b fine.
Goodnightt. And ily.
Hoping someone wud wake me up later on. F

NEW

2010-05-21T03:51:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOOO!
I HAVE CHANGE BACK MY LINKS!

CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN!
I KNOW CRAZYYY PURPLE!
SUPER LIKE (Y)

LOVEYOU

happy or sad?

2010-05-21T03:10:00.005+08:00

families are driftingggg . drift drift drift!

im like no families at all `

okaey, jus f it.

what u all wanna treat me as.

a slut, a bitch, a useless daughter!

go ahead!

im happyyyyy for th past few days~

even today!

she brightened up my days!

make my smile, & play with me.

i enjoy spending my day with love..

no matter what we are doing. i loveee spending all day long.

bcos i don get sick & tired of it.

i love you i love you a thousand million!

but being random at this moment.

negativeeeeeee comingg again!

moodlessss...

everything happened for a reason.

don asked me. bcos i donno how to say.

mayb i dunno how to express it out.

i jus don feel good.

mmm, nt tat im not happy.

mayb i jus feel abit abit of moodless.

whatever.

ignore & doncare!

i have nothing much to blog abt.

jus a short post!

friends are impt. i know.

but . .. .. .. ..

goodnight.

uneasy...

now & forever

2010-05-20T05:19:00.006+08:00

some overdue fotos! heehee!
loves!

VERYVERY HAPPY!
bb treated me well this 2 days!
IMA HAPPY GIRL! but i hope happiness last!
:(

bb bought dinner for me today while im working. SUPER LIKE!
& ytd bb sayaangg me too!
bb is inside my room naozx! & agreed to stay over tonight! IMA SO HAPPY OK.
bcos i miss orhorh-ing with her. cudddliingg!
super love you!

i loveee everything of u!
but reallyyyyyy veryy hope love will go wildwildwet :(
HOPE SO.
sighs.

i jus hope love wont b treating me on & off alr.
soon ima gonna change my blog link back to my rainbowsafterthrain alr!
HAHAH.

bcos slowlyslowly~ one by one. things has been done!
left with family & job! but really fml la!

walk one step see one step lor.
don wish to think so much naozx!

babylove, you're mine! for now forever!
i wont let u run away or leave me!
cherishinggg youuuuuu.
& i love you so much.
i hope u feel th way i do..

GOING room pei bb le.
wan cuddllleee & hugggiiieee from u .
& patpat me to slp ok!

SUPER LIKE & SUPERRR DUPER IN LOVEEE WITH YOUUUUU MY SWEETIEPIELOVE!
HEARTSSSSSS

getaway

2010-05-18T04:52:00.003+08:00

I need your love..
i need you to pampered.
i need your misses
i need your hugs.

im greedy,
i need everything of yours.
& forever is nvr enough.
i love you my dear.

but you don feel th way i do.
i know.

my bloggg rotrotrot!
changing my links. but what to change uhhhhh?
shld i put back rainbowsafterthrain?
mmmm. let me think..

im sooo looking forward for our genting trip!
im thinking almost everynight!
everyone gonna see my scared off me face!
& i guess, someone wont pei me play things tat i want to.
or ppl might find me a troublesome one to bring me out.
i scareddd i might be th extras!
sighs.

i neeed moneymoneymoney!
if by friday i finish my money den i not comfirm going to wildwildwet le.
see weather i have th cash first.
sighs.

sometimes, i seek for your attention.
thats all.
but i know alot of things i do, u jus don like it.
andd i do things to make u pissed,
u cn attitude me like no tmr.
& i hav to pampered u till i dunno what to say.
so i choose to ignore & don talk to you.
bcos i really got nth to say!
i say what also u angry.
so i diamdiam wait till u are not!
but sometimes lil thngs, u jus donhav to attitude me till liddat!
& now in ur mind u will be thinking ( YOU ARE LIKE TAT )
okay, i hav to accept.

i hope you would change..
for a better person.
thats all.

bcos i love you.
& i hope u truely loves me.
& im trying to be better too. but i cant be perfect!
love you for who u are , not what u are!

still waiting for th day, to have goodlife with u.
nights!

i want a smoothsmooth path!
THAT WILL BE TH BEST WISH.
GRANT ME!

loveyouuuuualways

l . O . V . E . ?????

2010-05-15T17:05:00.003+08:00

haaah! U can say is abt th love we had?! So how much u love me yeaaa? And hw much i love you?? Cancelled off plannings wit charmaine jus bcos wanted to go out wit you. Ended up... Ohhhhhh, bcos minyee don see any existance in me. Wahaha. If only i can, i think i will b clubbin everyday with diff clubbing khaki. But you say i listen.. What u tell me i listen.. Den another way round, u don listen. Denn why shld i listen tu u'??? yawnyawn. Mayb is really better to act like I DON CARE! F it laaaaa. Whatever thing happen. I will jus act as if i don minddddd. But th lonliness inside jus cant stop cryinggg. Whats goin on minyee. Why are u always so weak. I hate being left out. Neglect and forgotten. Bcos this happen agn & agn ever since i was young. Fuck off seriously

noone else

2010-05-15T07:18:00.002+08:00

sometimes ppl do feel left out easily.. mayb you wont. i will (:
silenceeeee .

i dun feel or wish to say anything naozx!
yes, recently very attitude.
bcos alot of things jus make me don feel good at all.
but bottled em up is better.

noone can listen...
seems busy...
so busyyy .

sensitive.

its been sometime since someone acompany me play dance.
i think neglect again.
when new one comes. old one throw.
STANDARD.

k, i donwish to blog much abt it.
i guess is tym to change to other links again.

I JUS WANT TO BLOG PEACEFULLY! :(

goodmorning. but goin sleep.!

* WHAT KIND OF LIFE IS THIS?!
* HOW LONG MOREEEEEEEE?
ALWAYS, i tell myself soon soon soon.
but i cant see any serious-ness.

BYE

I jus don

2010-05-14T02:23:00.002+08:00

things that im upset with or unhappy with.
i jus donwant to share it with you.
bcos no point saying it.

i donwant to have any probs with you.
so my family thing i will keep it to myself.
as recently they are forcing me to do things i really donwant to.
i donwan & dunno how to say this.

my stress. i'll handle it.
my dad, tat bitch is driving me crazy!

i'll move out one day when i have my own stable income!
work harder to find my job!
& i hope once i have my stable income for myself, it wud b stable!
& not always still not enough.
i jus don get it...
is always not enough..

im a guest,
renting this BED! not room~ & a lousy lil coomputer.
with nobody toking to me.
like a transparent one.
DEN? WHATS TH POINT OF STAYING HERE?

when i have probs..
they don willing to help me out at all!
so whats th FUCK point?

all they do is force force force!
& i will push thm back! & keep pushin.
trying to be harder.

EVERYONE'S SAYING...
you changed...
SOO MUCH.

from 2010 onwards YOU CHANGED.
im thinkinggg....
changes as in?
* living like a dead zombie everyday
*SUPER many financial prob.
*breakdown'
*depress
*working with no attention at all
*late nights
*sleepless
*disappointment on families

know why?
bcos, my heart, my mind, my brain, my everything
only focus on one thing.

&^ $$$$$$$ signnnn i needddd all over!
when im down down down,
WHO ELSE CAN HELP ME? WHO ELSE?

if i have th money now, i don even wan to owe any debts on myself!
LIKE NOW, im carrying $500+ , $275, $51.00
Hotel $100 summore, Bus $200.
c'on.. all these not 2 digits. is 3!

whereeee am i going to settle all this?
workkkkkk ^& pay for it?
SIGHS.

i want to give my loves one happiness..
being with me w/out worries.
but how? when im alr at tis state.

regretting so much when i havent save when im richer lastyme!
RAHHHHHHHH~

moneymoney drop from e sky!
OR MAKE ME BCOME A MILLIONAIRE!

so tat i will leave home,
buy a house stays together with love.
go overseas.
shoppppingggg
pay my debts!
& EVERYTHING.....

BUT EVERYTHING WILL STILL B POINTLESS IF LOVE IS NT WITH ME :(

sometimes i jus donno how to say this out...
bcos, my fault my bad my fault my bad.
YAH WHATEVER. MY FAULT MY BAD.

BLAHBLAHBLAH `~

DU LAN!!

2010-05-13T17:17:00.002+08:00

fuck damn pissed off naoxz!
AGRH! I JUS DON WISH TO SAY WHATS GOING ON!
I HATE STAYING AT THIS FUCKIN HOME!
ALLL PLS GO AND BANG WALL & DIE CAN?!

is my freedom to do what i wan to do.
i dunnid noone of u to even care for me.
pls fuckin fuck off now!
RAH `~

&& i shall do everything on my own.
i dunnid a fucking maid to do a fuckiing thing.
housework i do it myself. den u shall nt kp and fuck off u bitch!
stop complainin to my dad this *& tat...
I DON FUCKING SCARED OF HIM OR CARE.

im renting this fucking bed to sleep onlyyy!
i dunnid any money or anyone of u to hlp me.
esp u. i donnid ur favour. u can f off

IM FUCKINGGGG DU LAN NAOZX!
BUT I WILL ACT AS IF NTH. jus donwan bb to asked or worry ...
with my fucking familyyyy!

ALL GO DIE CAN ALRR!

FUCK OFF BIATCHHHHH~

bigbigbig sorry

2010-05-12T17:45:00.002+08:00

i really donwant you to see my blog. i donwant to hurt u. But still u saw it. Im sorrryyy bigbig sorry. This time round im saying sorry bcos i really feel bad now. what do u mean by what goes ard come ard?? Im ny doing this to hurt u back. I don meant it. Baby, u shld noe how much i dote on u. How am i bear to hurt u right? Babylove. Im sorry. Reallyyy. I willing to accept all th punishment u give. Im jus angry and fed up thats why. I wont be repeating my mustake. Sorry and i love u alot my dear...

a new start ???

2010-05-01T06:04:00.002+08:00

you said give u a new chance again..
you know i know but we acted blur..

ur chance is granted
& somehow i hope u wud cherish me.
this time round i wanna try to make things work..
but if i cant den i really think is time to let go.
i hope i will b able to do it..

i log in to ur msn jus nw..
she sent ALRIGHT THEN .. time is yst 4.12am?
I THOUGH U WAS ASLEEP?
i dunno or doneven want to think or what!
conversation is over..
i hope is over between th both of u..

LAST MEANS LAST!
THIS TIME ROUND IM SAYING TH TRUTH!

don let me caught anymore.
I SICK OF IT.
SERIOUSLY..

th time u need i given..
u said 2 days i grant u..
but u are th one hu text me...
saying that u think through it...
u said is over.. u only bother abt me.
now, i donwan u mouth say only..
i wan u to do it!
fucking do it for me.

IF U TRUELY NEED ME IN LIFE YOU WILL.!
I HOPE I DON PUT SO MUCH IN.
else disappointment again.
I HATE~

baby, u shld noe how much u meant to me.
u urself clearlys noe that i love u more den u love me..

life wud really be meaningless..
without u.

IF one day, i really have no choice but to let go..
i will wait till th day u really move on..
if u keep clinging back to her.
u will nvr have a life. unless u really want her back..

SOMEHOW I FUCKING FEEL LIKE A THIRD PARTY.
& tears eventually rolls out on it owns.

b, i beg you ..
not to lie or hurt me anymore...
make me feel loved & cherish.
thats all i need.

HUGS.

ate my med. getting giddy.
going to bed soon.
tata

I HOPE FOR THOSE WHO NOE MY BLOG PLS DO NOT LINK ME!
TAG ARE WELCOME BUT NOT LINK~

i guess noone wil even read la (:

NIGHT

wonder ....

2010-04-30T03:55:00.002+08:00

i think my blog is rot. i don think anyone is reading it either.
sucks to th max.

i will still blog.. but i donwan anyone to see what im bloggin alright.

F!
please leave me alone for now..
you wont noe how hurt i'am...

you wont know th true feelings...
i have to hide myself inside...

is nt minyee anymore..
no longer th same.
really fuck my life!!!!!

as long as i noe,
i give it all.. i shld nt regret..
bcos i alr given u all my love..
trying my best to work it out.
but u will nvr hav enough..

you lie again & again..
i will jus take it as i donno a single thing.

i will continue lovin u.
i will try to...

im thinking ......
if being hurt too much, will feelings fade off?
will it lessen?
will it go missing?

if i were to given a chance..
i donwan love!
I DONWAN FUCKING GET HURT BY LOVE.
i wan to leave this place...
if only i can ... if only i can don llove you!
BUT SORRY. I CANT....

WHEN TH DAY U WALKED IN TO MY LIFE..
I NVR GOT TH CHANCE U MAKE U WALKED OUT...
I NVR SORT IIT OUT.
POINTLESS. MEANINGLESS.

no matter how hard i tried..
is useless alr.

all ii cn do is act as if im fine.
bcos u cannot take it if im my true self.
YOU CANT!

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH EFFORT I PUT IN?
DO YOU EVEN FUCKING KNOW IS NOT EASY HANGING ON?

F ALL THIS SO MUCH...

if i can cancel or delete love.
I SWEAR I WOULD!

if you were to leave mai world..
ALL I CAN SAY. MY LIFE IS SCREWED..
&
I DON BELIEVE IN LOVE ANYMORE..

i said it again..
THIS IS MY KARMA?

if only ii cud...
i wud wwan a timeout badly..

YOU SETTLE ALL UR EX STUFFS!
CLEAR A REAL CLEAR LINE...
FIND A FUCKING STABLE JOB..
DEN COME BACK TO ME..

IF YOU REALLY LOVE ME,, IF U REALLY WAN ME BACK.
IIF U REALLY NEED ME IN LIFE.
IF YOU REALLY

YOU WUD DO ALL THIS FOR ME!

( I RMB) you once said: i will be ur last.
BUT I SERIOUSLY DON THINK SO..
4MTHS.. U GIVEN ME SHIT. HOW ABT 4 YRS?
SEEING ME IN IMH?

FUCK IT..
i don even dare to think abt th next step! seriously.
YOU ARE JUS KILLING ME ALRIGHT.

MENTALLY TORTURING ME.

U SAID U WILL CHANGE. FOR A BETTER FOR THIS RS.
U SAID U WUD BE GOOD TO ME..

HEY LET ME TELL U THIS...
NO DIFFERENCE.?! OK!! NOT AT ALL..

TH ONLY DIFF IS ( FROM E START U ARE AVERAGE)
& WORST COME TO WORST!

if i were to let go?
can i ? i cant even do so..
if i cn... if im still th 16yrs old minyee. & i wud ask u to fuck off from mai life.
SERIOUSLY

JUS FREAK OUT!

but still i love you damn fuck loads.
but u nvr noe hw i feel!

LET ME RANT~
I DUNNID UR FUCKING EYE TO LOOK AT MY BLOG.
FUCK YOU VERY MUCH~

Melts `

2010-04-28T02:31:00.002+08:00

back homed.
went to kbox today `

was'nt a nice day for me. & i don think nowadays is nice for me.
as you said, after all this happenings. everything is over.
we start anew, u wud treat me better. den before.
but seriously. nth changed at all.. isn't better at all.
eveerything is still th same..

i've said....
LAST chance, but i could'nt make it last!
bcos i cant...
no matter how hard, sour or bitter. i will continue walking on with u.
is still th same, hurting me without notice.
i donnid anything from u.
but jus you to love me truely. faithfully.
tats all..
ISIT HARD?

you shld noe whats right & wrong.
...

i dunno how long more am i able to take all this..
i dunno whye do i deserve all this.
i hope you are REALLY REALLY ABLE TO! change.
but im nt forcing you~

i rmb when i asked u th other day
: why did u treat me so good..
you answer : from now on im going to treat you good.
i said : for only today..
you said : no, from now on im gonna treat you like this.

yes, listen only..
ur words dosen counts at all..

YOU WONT KNOE HOW MUCH INSECURE I FEEL~
i dunno which of urs is true, & which of urs is lie.
trying to gain them bback.
but things u do, dosen proving me anything.

i really don wish to say anything abt it.
i know i hav been very senstitive this fews days!
BUT WHY?

CAN WE LIVE PEACEFULLY?
CAN I HAVE MY HONEYMOON PERIOD BACK?!

i said , we change for th better..
nt fr th sake of changing alright.

FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
WHATS GOING ON HERE~

no matter how unhappy im...
i still have to hold thm back..

& i cant give up th love...
i can only love you more..
i can only plus & NOT minus..

but i noe u can minus dem & plus them as & when u like..

TATS WHY IM FEAR... ALWAYS FEAR.

I somehow hope someone wud really understand how am i feeling deep inside.
i somehow hope someone can cry with me..
cry thier lungs out!

i somehow hope someone can bring me to th beach to scream~

I WAN HAPPINESS! PLEASE.... I DESERVE TO...
AM I?

i used to . ..

2010-04-26T02:54:00.002+08:00

hello everyone ...

finally im back to blog.
for now, i hope every is over..
everything is back to normal.

life was'nt good for me..
has been a real hard thing for me to accept th facts!
but still i have to face it ...

im still looking for a job..
& i hope everything wud be stable...
& not ups & down agns.

i nvr tot i wud have this day!
i nvr tot this wud happen to me.
i nvr tot someone will even treat me like this.
i nvr tot i wud be so stupid..

over, i hope is over.
& we start anew again..
this time round i hope u wud not be like lastyme anymore.
i don wan any secrets between us pls.
if u donn lie, & we wont be having misunderstood.
im not unreasonable . share with me ...
every lil things.

one time shot,
u told me everything ...
i cant even believe what im hearing..
& u jus make me burst in tears!
till today, i try to hold back my tears..
to forget th hurt u gave..
but still is too painfull..
is unbearable. do u feel guilty? do u feel sad?
at first i felt being cheated so much so much!
i felt being toyed... but i hope you din..
i hope u are true to me...

actually i dunnid much for u..
i donnid presents , i donnid suprise, i donnid u to pampered me all th time.
all i want for is, you to love me sincerely, faithfully& truely..
tats all...

i might not b as rich as her.
i might nt buy u a fone..
i might nt give u everything u wanted..
but i can ashure u, i can give u th priceless love & happiness.
i can sacrifice anything as long u u are happy..

from now on...
i will slowly try to gain back th trust..
& i hope this time round u are nt gonna break it..
bcos is becoming mor & more fragile alr.
i hope you will try to mend back th hurt you've done..

& i choosen to forgive you!
but i cannot forget...
cherish me, do not take me for granted.

i cannot say you are nt at fault at all!
bcos seriously u're part of it..

if only u don accept th gifts.
if only you don borrow her card
if only you don reply her.
if only u don contact her.
if only you draw a clear line.
if only u tell me th whole truth.

i jus don get it.
whats th point when u noe th truth will be out one day.
den why do u stil wanna lie?

baby i love you..
& i don wan such things to happen..
mayb to u, ima dumb...
but im not!
but u can take me as one..

Ups & down , & now im at down

2010-04-12T17:19:00.003+08:00

this may be my last blog post ...
i might not be blogging alr..
so for this post, i shall make it longglong one.

till all of my probs are settled, den i'll back to blog.
i love to blog alott..
i need to blog.
but i donwant myself to blog bcos of some reason.

my blog seems to be rotting.
bb alr stop tagging me, & like dust coming in..
only me myself came to my own blog like everyday..

i blog bcos i want to vent my unhappiness, or post my happiest thing in life.
as part of memories. but now, i donwan all this bad memories.

i donwan bad things to happen to me jus bcos i blog.
im tired of ppl saying bad things at me bcos i blog.
im sick of pin-ing pointing ppl at my blog.. & when th person sees, th person starts to blog abt it.
i donwan to blog, bcos i think tat i makes ppl ard me unhappy..
i donwan ppl to say that all i noe is blog & blog , things happen i dunno how to say it out!
so now...
I DON BLOG..
till im back to my ups (:

mentally torture is what i can say..
i may seems to be alright & fine..
but let me say this, IM NOT ALRIGHT..
once broken, i don think it will be tat easy to mend it back.
once torn, i don think is tat easy to fixed it back.
is not as easy as u guys think..
i noe is not.. bcos i have gone thru it before...
its jus soooner or later.

i can say that im silly,
th stupiest person in th world..
lying to myself.. that this iis not th truth..
i donwant to face it..
bcos im not strong enough to do so..
i want to hide my feelings iinside...
even when i wanna cry, i will hold it back..
bcos to everyone out dere.. im not weak (:
till one day, i really fall.. & u shall see how weak actually iam~

i tell myself ..
time will helps , tiime will solve.
but another part of me says,
minyee its useless.

i dunno whats wrong.
but i myself don feel right.

no matter what, i can beg you..
but not leave me ..
bcos i seriously need you in my life.
bcos i donwan empty promises.
bcos i rmb those things u said.
bcos i miss those days we spent.
bcos i wan back those memories.!

i want myself to belive tat, one day..
we can go back to those days..
another part of me saying NO..

stop crushing on my hopes & dreams..
bcos i really wan you to stay with me..

i can sense it, when is missing, when is back.
& now its still not back.
i doubt soo..

mayb im asking for too much..
mayb im selfish.

im sorry..

i can do anything everything jus for you..
to stay with me.

im jus putting on a strong front, as if i feel nothing..
but deep inside, those words u said hurt be real real fuckin badly.
seriously, is th first time.. i've nvr feel tat hurt before..
almost, im dying inside...
almost, i go crazy.

mayb to you, im not tat important in ur life.
mayb all ur says, are jus entertainin me..
don say donno to me, bcos i noe th answer is no!
bcos u hav to courage to hurt me, so u said dunno..

don pull me back & push me away as u like..
im gonna stick with u.
all i wan is you to be happy..

for now, i can only beg u , not to hurt me anymore.
bcos every piece of me is alr broken..
i hope u are able to mend it back piece by piece.. & not crushin them again..
else end of th day, i only get back bruises & cuts.

for now. i want nothing..
but you to love me only ..
even if' u're gonna bully me, asking me to do this & tat.
i do... but jus stay with me..

..
i lied to myself..
saying that nothing ever happend.
but deres alr a big hole in this relationship..
& i noe, u're also take it as nth happen..
& to me.. im with a broken heart..
hurting me alot... & i hold it back..

stop
ILOVEYOU NO MATTER WHAT!
im not letting go, not giving up, holding on to you...

*i don wish to say so much.
bcos is pointless.
step by step..
& i don think things can remain like th past..
yes, this is a fucking year~ i agree.

FRIENDS?

i seems to be nothing..

.
looking for my full time job currently. i hope like asap manzx!

uncle ask me to be incharge of every week schedule.
like wtf...
SO HARD TO PLAN LUH.
& not everyone will agree with me..
lets co-operate girls...

GOOOD DE BYE (:
I WANT TO BE HAPPY.
MAKE ME SMILE. MAKE ME LAUGH..
& NOT MAKE ME RUNNING TO TH TOILET JUS TO CRY~

i will try..

2010-04-09T05:25:00.002+08:00

i'll still be holdin on, trying to hold u back. I believe i can, though now i can feel a thousands millions of needle is piercin thru my heart..in pain, very painful.. Can someone noe how im feeling now? I think this shall be th last emo post here, i might nt be able to blog anymore or so... I will jus leave this blog silent for sometime.. I noe i cant rush u to love me back like before, i can feel, isn't th same anymore. I really miss those times alort. But all i can do now is to save it back. I hope i can do it.. I really do need u so much in life.. And i hope we are able to go back to th past... And now, i can say.. Im breakin down. But trying to stand up on my own.. Loveyou allways... Somethings i could'nt type it here. I will keep quiet.. I'll try to be th way u wan me to.. I believe im changin for th better.. And wait for u to love me back...

im not!

2010-04-07T16:50:00.002+08:00

stop saying tat u are nt important. stop sayin bcos i have gf i change. I nvr. Im still th same. If i nvr cherish u , no point i call and ask u where are you. Askin weather u can go out today anot. Meetin u all almost everyday right? And now u say i change? U donhav to change if u donwan to. No one is askin for u to change now. If u don like to tok more. Den don tok. i asked for nth, but jus not to be forgotten.. Thats all. But still, i alwaes feel forgotten by everyone. Im not like u, got many friends text u or what. I only hav u Ley. Okaey, o don wish to say so much. Mayb to you, i changed. But deep inside i noe im not. Whatever. I don wan to care. Not bcos im tired. Jus let time heal... Get it? Bye

I DONT WANT TO ~

2010-04-07T03:54:00.003+08:00

going to bed in a few mins time!

don wish to say so much.
all i can say is im very upset today.
with or without me = no difference.

if you think im selfish,
go ahead.
i don care who's siding.

& this time round, i don care anymore.
i'll jus forget it .

& KEEP ALL MY UPSET INSIDE.

let bygones be bygones.
i'll try.

have been imba-ing bb whole day or can say like on & off attitude,
who is th causes?
zzz
thanks for th understandin.
instead of ignoring me, walking away you came & asked me what happen.
i really appreacieate it.
jus don wish to say at times.
i know im like unreasonable to you. but u still manage to make my smile back again!
jus hope im not forgotten. & I HATE BEING FORGOTTEN!
bcos everyone seems like doing it.
i love you bb .
i can see you are trying to change for a better.
den lets change together.

YOU KNOW THIS IS SO WONDERFUL,
I ACTUALLY HAV SOMEONE WHO LOVE ME WHOLEHEARTLY.
STAY WIT ME, SAYANG ME, BRIGHTENED UP MY DAYS & ACTUALLY
ALLOWED ME TO CLUB! WEEWEE.
im so happy tat bb nvr disapprove me to club.
but like once every 2 weeks or once a week luh..
but still, i know deep inside u don like!
LAUGHS.

okaey,
i took last bus home today & noe what,
inside bus got ti ko pek.
im th only girl in th bus.. no ppl except driver.
th uncle came and sat bside me.
stare at me like no tmr.
im so scared......
when i get down th bus he still continu lookin.
wtf. if he follow me down at th same bustop i think i cry & faint can!?

&& i seriously got soo turn off by some bastard!
can all th man don exist in th world alr!
LAUGHS.
so bad nah..

my daddy so noisy & zzz
when he rches home, he saw me playing comp.
i said: papa, today i 12+ jiu rch home le, give me money!
daddy: u more and more bu auto(chinese) le hor! you wan me yang u till how long
i said: i now no money lah, u also donwan pay my bill for me. u say i come bk early u will giv de. u lie lor
daddy: put $10 bside me, donwan giv u alot . u spend like nobody business. kay siao come back early take money.! give le another day morning den come back!
i said: no ley where got
daddy: donwan to say u luh hor. ur interview hhow?
i said: need to wait luh!
daddy: sighs'' u hor, everytime i see u i sad only. so useless. dunno how to think
i said: i noe lah.! ppl need time ok!

HAHAHA SO FUNNY LEY I THINK OF TH CONVERSATION!
laugh die me ( by bb)
lollol.

okaey luh,
im trying to forget my unhappy stuff.!
bcos disappointment sucks!
goodnight peeps.

im missing you so badly naozx!
sighs, only able to meet u on thursdae. mayb & mayb not also.
:( i hope can meet bb asap....
im dying without her with me luh.
love you ttm okae!!!!!!!!!

wants to cherish every sec with you my dear! `
th only one for me ...

like a whatever

2010-04-06T03:08:00.002+08:00

alot of things to be done real badly.!

i want to have another shopping please! i got nothing to wear already luh!
i need shoes, heels, skirt, dress, bags! & everything! agrh~

i need to pay my fone bills so quicklyyy too!

i want outing with gfriendssss!

i want romantic outin with bb! and cable car session (* as i know u scared*)

i want overseas trip!

i need money to pay for end of yr trip!

i need to save up for 2011june bangkok trip!

i need alotalot of things so badly!

i need a full time job!

so tat i can acomplish all this!

agrh ~

cant get to sleep without baby by my side :(

missin bb so badly naozx!

hugggggggg

holding hannds

2010-04-02T19:32:00.003+08:00

am workin naoz. So siannnnnnzx.
I want us to be holdin on, i wan you to love me. I wan us to be like before. I wan u to cherish and dote me. I wan you to appreacieate me. I wan u to miss me. I wan u to need me in ur life, can i? You belong to me. I donwan to share with anyone elsee.
Where do i stand in ur heart? is being with me happy? is this all u wanted? I miss th days u look at me, kissin me and sayin that im cute. Those days u hug me out of th sudden . Whisper in my ears. Where are those. Sighs. I want us to stay together no matter what.. Bu i hav to find my missing baby back.... I need her with me every now and den. (: i hope thiings will get better. I promised i won be so sensitive. But i know my thinkin are always running wild. Love you bb. Huggggiieessss. Muacs

fuckyoubitch

2010-03-27T16:18:00.002+08:00

my blog seems so plain without pictures.

so i shall upload some latest one.

my sweetie pie bb so sweett nowadays.

i asked her to repair her on off button alr.

laughs,

bb say will not like this le.

teehee.

i love you bb.

we change not for th sake of changing.

for th better for this r/s

& i know u love me.

no matter how others are gonna screw things up.

i won be even listening.

bcos they are jus bitch (:

you're all that i need.

so im not gonna blieve anyone.

except you.

& you have to prove to me you can (:

lets hold on to each other no matter what alright bb.

this time round, im not runniing away.

no matter wad outcome will it be,

i will face it together with you.

loving you always.

i will tell you if i don like or unhappy with anything alrigh.

but u have to be truthful to me.

bcos u mean th world to me.

baby, you're my only

& im not gonna share with anyone else.

bcos u belongs to me.

im here listening ear & another part of u.

any probs u have,

share it with me

im sure i can make u much more happier den th past.

& you deserve to be happy.

u deserve to be loved.

i will cherish u & not like some other bitch treating you like shit. (:

always b dere ffor u.

baby, i love you.

muacks!

waiting for u to meet me.

if still early come my hus first.

IMA SO BORED NEHNEHNEH...

today im sleeping early tmr working whole day...

AGRH

SO SUCKY.

LOVEEEEE.

missyouuu

hg plaza kbox naoo. Heeehhe

2010-03-25T01:19:00.002+08:00

im at hg plaza nao. Yawnns, finishin k soon and going home to coma le. cannot take it.. Veryy sleepy le luh. Went to sentosa ard 9am today till evening den we went off. So burn can??!! My face and back pain like f.Lol. K luh singin session endin. Tmr kbox sessioon again. Loveees, goodnight